Your eyes are as green as the forests that you love
And I know that you
Would spend every second of every day in them
If you could

The way you come alive in nature
I'm almost sure
That you're actually a nymph of the woods
Lost in the trees, flitting here and there
Friends with all of the forest

Examining the strangest fungi
Eyes lit up, voice excited
It makes me smile
Watching you where you love to be

A squirrel darts across the ground,
And your attention shifts
For just a second
Before you're back to the trees

This, right here
Is where you belong
And I'm lucky
To see it

I still haven't gotten used
To sleeping alone
With just your stuffed animal
Where you used to be

Every night I sleep alone
I think of you
And I die a little more

Breathe in
Breathe out
Monotone, dull, routine
Get up, dress, work

Flash a smile
Drop a laugh
Don't let anyone
Not one, see

Behind this mask I'm dead
Breathing isn't a sign of life
Not anymore
I move, I work, I talk

But it's robotic
Autopilot
Happiness, joy, fulfillment
Sadness, grief, pain

Gone
Replaced by
Grey

You're it
You have been for so long
If I believed in love at first sight
It would be you

No matter what I do
You're always the one
On my mind, in my head
All around me, no matter what

It's you
Only you
Always you
Forever

I am lopsided
I always have been
But I've never felt it so sharply
As I have since you left

Now I feel like I am tipping
Barely balanced on one foot
Waiting for a brisk wind
To ******* over

You aren't here
And I don't have anything
To keep my equilibrium
So I tip, tip, tip

Things falling off
As I desperately try
To keep them all balanced
And I tip, tip, tip

And wonder
What will finally knock me over
And I know
I won't get back up

I can't tell you
That every single day
I wake up and I think
"Maybe today"
"Maybe I'll do it today"

Maybe today I'll end it
Write my goodbyes
Make a phone call
And then **** myself

I can't tell you
That I feel like half a man
That without her, I am missing
All the best parts of me

You don't understand
That for years, these demons
Have been in my head
And she saved me from them

She saved my life
I was going to die
Young, and at war
But she gave me hope

I can't tell you
That I am an inch away
From just drinking and drinking and drinking
Until I can't remember her face
Or her laugh, or how it felt to hold her in my arms

Until I can't remember how happy I was
Until I forget how she made me feel
How we would just stay in bed
And talk

I am so close to giving up
But I can't tell you that

Every morning I wake up
To an empty bed and an empty phone
Every morning I remember
That you aren't here anymore

I'm left with an empty feeling
In the pit of my stomach
And an empty future
Where our plans used to be

They say it gets better
That one day there won't
Be this gaping hole inside
Where I had you

But I just don't think
That I believe them
I don't think I'll ever
Be whole
Again

You are my road less traveled
And I want to know every inch of you
Every imperfection and blemish
Your deepest secret, your highest joy

I want to be your road less traveled
Cut me open, lay me out
Eviscerate me, know me
All of me is here for you to see

I want to know you
Really know you
And I want you
To know me

Let me tell you my fears
Let me be vulnerable
Take my secrets
The ones no one else knows

And give me yours
Let me be your confidant
Let me be your diary
Etch your heart onto mine

I stand here
Willingly
Raw, open, vulnerable
Fragile

Happiness is hearing your voice
Happiness is seeing you smile at me
Happiness is your laugh when I say something funny
Happiness is your eyes lighting up when you see a dog
Happiness is you being happy about cute animals
Happiness is playing with your hair
Happiness is having your head on my chest
Happiness is you snuggling up to me
Happiness is hearing you talk about sloths
Happiness is you explaining environmental science to me
Happiness is kissing you on the nose
Happiness is you singing Disney songs
Happiness is holding you in my arms
Happiness is experiencing something new with you
Happiness is making stupid jokes at Barnes and Noble
Happiness is a long drive while holding your hand
Happiness is your lips on mine
Happiness is hearing "I love you" and saying it back
Happiness is coming home to you
Happiness is falling asleep and waking up next to you
Happiness is "just a few more minutes" in the morning
Happiness is loving you
Happiness is you

That night you left me,
Two weeks ago
You left with my heart
With my feelings, with my love

I almost died.

Now life seems hazy
Surreal, fake
Like I'm not quite living it

Or like I'm in a dream
So I pinch my arm
Please, wake up
But it's still
Real

The clouds are lifting though
Slowly, bit by bit
I'll live again
And I'll be here
When you're ready

When you left
I broke

After all this time you have to know
You have to know how much you mean to me
You have to know that my heart still skips a beat
When you say that I'm your favorite
You have to know that I'm telling the truth
When I say that I would move heaven and earth for you
My world is dull and faded without you
Colors bleached like a painting left too long in the sun
Everything that held life and happiness is drained
Replaced by weak, pallid substitutes

All this really is...
Well, it's just an attempt to explain
That you are my home, my heart, my love
And that without you my life has no meaning
The future that we planned dashed upon the rocks
And scattered to the winds

Please
I am begging you with everything that I have left
Please do not leave me here alone and dying
My heart ripped out, my life trickling away
My hope gone

Please
I just need you, and only you
And you once said you felt the same
So if you can
Find that again
For me.

There's a glint in your eye
A tease, as it were
A spark in the air
And it's starting to flare

Your sweet, lilting laugh
As you balance yourself
And I'd say it's love
If push came to shove

The warmth in your gaze
As you look back at me
And the curve of your lips
That I'd so like to kiss

These are all things
That I hold in my heart
That warm me at night
When I turn out the light

But it's all in my head
Just a bittersweet dream
That's why I sleep so much
It's the only way to feel your touch

Who can compare with your majesty, oh Lord?
Who can match your might and power?
For with your breath you gave life to the earth,
and as you spoke, the world came into being.

Truly, God, you are powerful beyond measure.
Your strength is beyond the comprehension of man.
Only you can say what is right and wrong;
from your mouth come the decrees of justice.

Hear my plea, oh God.
I have fallen in the darkness,
and I can not raise myself up.
The heights of Your glory are beyond my reach.

I am beset on all sides by trouble.
Doubt and fear are my constant companions.
My eyes are blinded,
and I cannot see your path.

You, Lord, who sees all,
know of my faith.
I have never renounced your name,
but always have I kept it in reverence.

Look upon me in my hour of need,
and see that I have done no wrong.
Through no fault of my own
I have lost my way.

Surely, oh God, you will deliver me.
For do you not guide the righteous along your paths
even as you condemn the wicked to damnation?
Surely, oh God, you will pull me from the depths.

Reach out your hand
and rescue me, Lord.
Restore unto me surety and boldness once again,
that I might walk in your light forever.

Nothing is impossible for you, God.
You are all powerful, all knowing,
with love that never ends.
I place my trust in you.

Your mercy and grace are boundless.
Though I often fail to keep your laws,
still you do not abandon me.
Your forgiveness is unfathomable.

The scars you've left upon my body
Will probably never fade
And they're engraved upon me
Part of what you made

I can't bring myself to let memories
Fade away to dust
They're all I have left of me and you
Of that once held trust

I'll drown myself in this blood
Filling my chest
And choking on my life
With these last breaths

My veins thrum with
The thrill of death and blood
My eyes alight with life
As I stride through the mud

Dead men all around
Most felled by my hand
They gave their all to die
And still alive I stand

I am invincible
Too angry to die
The battle rage fills me
As I roar at the sky

My thirst is never sated
I always yearn for more
More killing, more blood
More bodies for my sword

I am indomitable, untouchable
I am wrath embodied
The rage of the downtrodden made flesh
Nothing will stand in my way

Their corpses torn apart by my hands
Their blood soaked into the soil
I have wrought destruction upon them
And brought ruin to their hearth

They dared to provoke me
To spit upon me when I was weak
And what was sown
They have reaped

I am the berserker
Blood streams from my wounds
The horde overwhelms me
Yet I refuse to be defeated

I smash through their lines
A roar ripping from my throat
As I rend my enemies asunder
And cover myself in their gore

I see terror in their eyes
As they see the blood frenzy in mine
I lay waste to all who oppose me
And still it is not enough

My lust for battle can not be sated
It will not be satisfied
Until I have annihilated them
Until I have erased every trace of them

I sleep too much
But when I sleep
I dream
Oh, such dreams

I dream too much
But when I dream
I feel
Oh, how I feel

I feel as if everything
That I need, that I yearn for
That I so desperately crave
Is in my dreams

So I sleep
And I dream
And when I dream
I am happy

There's a tired feeling
That I sometimes get
When I'm not ready
For the day just yet

So I squeeze my eyes shut
Roll over in bed
Pull the blanket up
And over my head

I pretend that it's dark
And the sun isn't there
So I can get more sleep
Without a thought to spare

I can't sleep at the thought of you gone
And I don't know how I'll get along
Without your beautiful smile by my side
Or your bright, bright eyes that you try to hide
Behind that auburn hair
Hanging over your face
And your faded scars
That I love to trace
With my fingers when I'm holding you
There's nothing else I'd rather do
Just stay here with me
No need to go
Outside today
Just stay

I wish you were here
I'd hold you in my arms
And if you were near
I'd smile all the time

So lonely without you
The days are dragging on
I'm so glad that I have you
Without you life feels wrong

So please don't leave me
I don't think I'd survive
I wouldn't be happy
Without you in my life

I fight and die for my country
While the world sits idly by
It's not for fame or money
It's a fight to stay alive

I watch my comrades fall
Riddled with bullet holes
They're the ones who gave all
They paid their debt in full

We give our blood for freedom
Our lives and bodies too
We pray for help to come
And pray that we pull through

I'll fight until I pass
Until I'm finally dead
Until I breathe my last
With a bullet in my head

Am I depressed
Or just a little sad?
Am I insane
Or just a touch too mad?

I try to find rhythm
In the words on the page
But I long to be free
And escape from this cage

I try to find order
In a humdrum, safe life
But I need to get out
Find some conflict and strife

I'm going insane,
At least, that's what I think
And I know that my thoughts
Are beginning to sink

They're becoming so wild
So restless, untamed
And there's things in my head
That can not be named

They claw at my eyelids
They scream in my ears
They keep me awake
And they pour out my tears

I'm going insane
I just want it to end
I don't know what's coming
Around the next bend

The suspense is killing me
Will someone please help?!
I'm about to fall off
Of the highest high shelf

When I hit the ground
I'll shatter and break
And the pieces of me
Will be left for a day

Just to gather some dust
Just to sit there and rot
Because no one will give me
A first second thought

So the pieces of me
That are shattered and broken
Will remain like the words
That I've left unspoken

Alone

Innocence traded for
Fun, *****, and an easy lay
What more is there in life?
That's all I want by the end of day

I used to be so innocent
With good thoughts in my head
But now I'd rather **** than sleep
When I lie in my bed

Carefree laughter given away
For carnal pleasures in the night
Companions valued in my lust
Are tossed away at morning light

Intellectual ideas put aside
For desires of the flesh
And a new girl every night
Just to keep things fresh

I've buried myself far, far down
I don't know how I'll get free
And now I'm drowning in my lust
With no way out that I can see

A man with many faces
Is a man with the cleverest lies
He knows how to hide his secrets
And keep them from prying eyes

A man with many masks
Is a man with a practiced smile
He knows how to end his foes
And act their friend all the while

A man with many ears
Is a man who won't be surprised
He knows what his enemies plan
And he acts out the perfect reprise

A man with many faces
Is a man who will live long and well
But ask yourself this, my friend
Will he live in heaven or hell?

And you thought
That you could **** with me
Play with my heart, my feelings
And do what you wanted

Well I've seen past the ruse
And I care about you,
About as much as I care about the ******* form
Of this **** poem

You're just a substitute
Someone to hold in her place
'Cause if I close my eyes
I can still see her face

And I kinda like you
But this sure isn't love
'Cause when I fall asleep
It's her that I dream of

And it's her I want
When I'm alone at night
But you're in my bed
When I turn out the light

So I'll hold you close
But my mind isn't here
It's wandered away
Wishing she was near

You will never be her
I'll never be content
Because inside my heart
I know it's not meant
To be

Death, blood, violence, death
Everyone eventually
will stop drawing breath
And the sleep comes to all

Eternal and quiet
We lay in these halls
Waiting, still waiting
For our descendants to call

For when they most need us
We'll rise from this grave
And march forth to battle
Their young lives to save

We'll make our way out
With our axes and swords
Though long we have slept
Now we march forth to war

To cleave heads from necks
And to shed the foe's blood
This day shall be won
As we knew that it would

The enemy will cower
And flee to his home
He'll hide away there
And no more will he roam

Death, blood, violence, death
Our enemies fallen
They sleep without breath
As we were, now they are

Poets seem sad to me
Because we feel more
And we hold on tight
And when we hurt, we write

Our tears fall on paper
In the form of words
Thoughts in scribbled ink
As our hearts begin to sink

Other people's pain fades
And drifts away with time
But a poet's hurt will stay
There on the tear stained page

I live for the cut and ****** of battle
I dance to the rhythm of violent death
I listen for the gasping, moaning rattle
Of the fallen man's last, desperate breath

My veins run hot with warrior's blood
My sword sings out the song of war
The foe breaks over me like a flood
How could I ever ask for more?

For when I ****, I feel alive
The death I bring makes my heart beat
Taking a life is what makes me thrive
When covered in blood I feel complete

Quiet clouds drifting across the night sky
The world is quiet, as everyone sleeps
The moon above like a half eaten pie
Majestic and bright, her vigil she keeps

If I come home and find you gone
Then you can't say that I was wrong
I let you go, although it hurt
But you still treat me like I'm dirt

And I have pictures on the wall
Of all the things we used to do
And I'm still waiting for your call
Did those mean anything to you?

You left me
Standing there
Can't you see
I still care?

It's been a month, and I still can't sleep
I think I've fallen down too deep
Lying awake, staring at the floor
Waiting for you to walk through my door

And I had pictures on the wall
Of all the things we did before
Now I'm not waiting for your call
And they're all lying on the floor

Home is a nebulous concept
Fleeting, like a cloud on a windy day
Where you feel most at home
Is where I think you're likely to stay

Some people assign a place as their home
And they never stray too far from that spot
But I feel that it's far too static
And they merely don't give it enough thought

Some people will wander the world
Never settling down in any one place
But I don't think that's for me
I appreciate a familiar face

I can only speak for myself here,
But home is wherever I'm with you
With you by my side I'm content
I hope that you feel this way too

Regardless of where I rest my head
Any place is home to me, if you're there
I can laugh freely, live fully, and relax
Because when I'm with you, we've love to share

How does something so completely right feel completely wrong?
How does something make me feel at ease, yet make my dread so strong?
It's this complicated, complex problem tearing me apart
This paradoxical, puzzling thing that's ripping at my heart

It confuses me
So easily
Tap
Tap
Inside my brain
This is driving me
Insane

How does something I love so much make me feel this uneasy?
How does the thought put my head in a spin, and make me queasy?
It's this intricate, enigmatic problem I can not solve
This mysterious, mystifying thing around which I revolve

It perplexes me
So easily
Tap
Tap
Inside my head
Makes me wish that I
Was dead

These voices arguing inside me won't be quiet
No matter what I do or say
And they all belong to me
And I just wish that they would
SHUT.
UP.

I'm just a tiny thread
In this tapestry
A million other threads
All the same as me

I'm just a glowing star
In this galaxy
A million other stars
All the same as me

Then I stumbled into you
A glowing star, a tiny thread
The same as all the rest
But you got stuck inside my head

And when I'm here with you
You make me feel strange
Like I'm somehow different now
I've gone through some change

So maybe we're all the same
In this galaxy
A million tiny stars
But you're the one for me

The cigarette burns bright
Between your perfect fingers
And I think that this night
Could never be any better

There's strawberry wine by your bed
And your hair falling down your back
And these thoughts racing through my head
As our bodies draw so, so close

Acting intimately
I feel very, very small
All these things you've shown me
I'm left struck with this awe

Your hand on my thigh, I'm shaking
I gently caress your smooth neck
My heart is violently quaking
As I draw you in close, touch lips
And fall into your kiss

Every thought of you
Is like a piercing thorn
Ripping up my skin
Leaving it cut and torn

Every word you say
Is like a poisoned knife
Stabbing through my heart
Slowly ending my life

Everything you are
Is everything I need
So I cling to hope
Although it makes me bleed

You have the most beautiful smile
I haven't seen it in a while
But you know I miss you so bad
When you're not here I get so sad

It'd be nice if you'd come around
All the time I'm wearing this frown
It's so grey since you went away
And it gets worse everyday

Please come back
Bring color into my life again
Please tell me
It's not over, this is not the end
Please come back
I'll do anything to make you stay
Please tell me
They're all wrong and we won't end this way

You have the most kissable lips
You make my heart start doing flips
I can't be sad when you are near
You make me smile from ear to ear

It'd be nice if you'd come around
'Cause since you left I've been so down
The sun has set and gone away
And it gets darker everyday

Please come back
Bring color into my life again
Please tell me
It's not over, this is not the end
Please come back
I'll do anything to make you stay
Please tell me
They're all wrong and we won't end this way
They're all wrong and we won't end this way

Not today, please stay, don't go away
Please stay, don't let it end this way

I am your madness
I am the voice in your mind
I am your demon
That says do not be kind

I drive you to ****, and to steal, and to maim
I make you smile and laugh as they try to escape
I make you grin as you cut them all down
Their dead, lifeless bodies fall limp to the ground

I am your madness
And you can not run away
I am your demon
Just accept it's your fate

To find joy in the pain of the strong and the weak
And destroy all the solace of those who seek peace
I'm why you laugh as they grovel and cry
I make you love how they bleed as they die

I am your madness
I am your insanity
I am your demon
You will never be free

The is a ******* wasteland
Dead and dry as a bone
Just miles and miles of sand
And I wander here alone

I'm never gonna get out
The sun burns at my skin
I trip, fall to the ground
Is this how my life will end?

This desert will not **** me
I still refuse to die
Despite the burning heat
I stand and keep up the fight

Step by step I carry on
Toward my salvation
Feeling in my feet gone
Pain a fleeting sensation

I'll walk until I can't stand
Then I'll crawl on my knees
I won't die in this land
One day I'll be ******* free

You're like a lighthouse
Signalling to me
As I drown out here
In the deep blue sea

You're like the seat belt
Holding me in place
As the cars collide
And glass cuts my face

You're the oxygen
As I suffocate
Flooding through my lungs
Pushing death away

You're the only one
Who pulls me from the brink
You keep me afloat
When I begin to sink

Into these thoughts
Of me dying
You're the reason
That I'm trying
To survive

You're like a doctor
Jumping my stopped heart
As I start to fade
and I drift apart

You're like the siren
Shaking me from sleep
As the fire burns
Flames devouring deep

You're the helping hand
As I start to slip
Catching at my arms
When I lose my grip

You're the only one
Who pulls me from the brink
You keep me afloat
When I begin to sink

Into these thoughts
Of me dying
You're the reason
That I'm trying
To survive

Death who is pale and cold
He takes both young and old
His gaze sweeps 'cross the land
And all fall to his hand

He walks the fields of war
Where men fall to the sword
He haunts the scholars' hall
And spares no one at all

He rides a pale white steed
His every command it heeds
It bears him near or far
To where the dying are

Beware the Reaper's scythe
He comes to end your life
For always there is Death
When you take your last breath

A harsh wind howls over the mountains
But I stand tall, alone and unbowed
With my wild hair and pelts
I am the barbarian, fierce and proud

No weapon can fell me, no man can best me
For I vanquish all with my axe and my shield
Flee now before my might and wrath
To my power surrender, to my fury yield

Like the wild north wind I come
Laying low all in sight
So cower in fear, you soft ones
And flee fast into the night

Purple hair, green eyes
Lips that mesmerize
You're my only one
You're my shining sun

Soft kiss, whispered words
Love that only I've heard
You're my darling girl
You're my whole world

Your love, warm glow within
It's all I want, beginning to end
You're the one I need
You mean everything to me

I miss you a lot
So much it hurts
With every thought
That passes through

Not talking to you
Not seeing your face
Makes me take a few
Minutes to breath

This love inside
Comes so easy
Impossible to hide
But it can hurt

When you're not around
I mope and drag
And wait for the sound
Of your ringtone

Because my life's dull
And it's just not right
I don't feel whole
Without you in it

Under the shining lights
Horns and trumpets blare
Take in all of the sights
This city has come alive

People stroll down the street
Rain splashes on the sidewalk
Tap your foot to the beat
As the music fills the night

Get on the floor and dance
The sax man does his thing
This could be your chance
The swing band's letting loose

Late at night, when the sky's dark
Early in the morning, when the light's stark
I think about the things I've done
And they swell near to bursting

All the actions that I've taken
All the promises I'm breaking
Those are what sting me every time
They make me hate myself more

Every dumb **** that comes along
Sighing and moaning that I'm not wrong
I just want to throw them away
And dump myself out with the trash

'Cause that's what it is in the end
And I'm always measured by my every sin
So crush me, smash me, throw me away
And I'll sit here in silence, remorseful

You're the sun that lights my day
And even when it's bad
You make me smile anyway
With just a thought

You're the cutest girl I know
So I asked you out
And please, let's not take it slow
That's just a thought

'Cause you make me feel alive
Though I'm so tired
You're the reason I survive
It's just the thought

You're always stuck in my head
Even if I'm busy
You've got me hanging by a thread
Inside your thoughts