There's an age old story. A tale as old as time.
A feeling I can't quite muster, a voice that's not quite mine.
I've grown a lot this year, felt a lot this year, slept a lot this year, ****** a lot this year. Needless to say....it's been one hell of a 365 days.
This poem is a stray from tradition, it lacks rhythm, flow, but ******* it it's written of my own volition.
I've earned that right, finally making my voice heard, learning how to fight. I've lost a battle or two, don't get me wrong.
But I still raise my head, every round for the gong. I get back up, throwing punches until I see stars.
Fighting with mad love and ambition, even if it kills my heart.
What's more important? A sane mind or a sense of place? What's scarier? Losing yourself or fighting demons you can't face?
There's a lack of attention that consumes my thoughts. There's feelings of self hatred, despite finally being on top.
That's the funny thing about thinking you've made it. The only person you have to best is yourself. The only person you have to let down, is every single person you've every helped.
That's the fear for me. Never finding happiness. Enough never really being enough.
Time being an illusion that slips away and before I know it, my legacy is just a disillusion.
I've had this dream on repeat. I'm lying in a casket, looking ghastly in defeat. Death and I have become one, finally giving that ever so cherished encore to a dance we've swung too many times before.
It's lonely here in the dark. Colder than I thought. Sweeter than I imagined.
-a wish to enjoy today.