that the time it takes to get over your ex
is equal to the duration of your relationship
divided by two
I had you for only 2 months
But here I am
5 years later, 60 months later
still thinking of you
The math was wrong.
One plus one is infinity.
And two minus one is zero.
Like the blue hues of a summer sky
Stretched above the trees.
When the warmth of the evening
Rests heavy on the skin,
There are just some things that
Cut valleys through the heart in their absence.
Yes, only when the cold
Seeps in across a whitening October sky
And the red-winged blackbirds cease to fly
Do I sit with the spaces
Where they used to sing
And feel the emptiness that comes
With the absence of wings
Somewhere inside the pieces of me
That can only ascend
When you are here.
See, I can never let go
Because then the mountains disappear
From the horizon.
I need to feel them rising against the pale
Brightening of the morning.
Every time, it brings me hope and somewhere firm to
Lay my hands.
Hold me here.
In your presence, I can stand
And absence is silence and the aching of a
Winter sky without wings.
"Oh if I was the one
You chose to be your only one
Oh baby can't you hear me now, can't you hear me now?
Will I see you tonight
On a downtown train?
Every night it's just the same
You leave me lonely, now
I know your window and I know it's late
I know your stairs and your doorway
I walk down your street and past your gate
I stand by the light at the four-way
You watch them as the fall"
In the ***** streets
I saw your face,
In the rough sea
I felt your body,
In the bus stations
I smelled your perfume,
In my cereal
I tasted your tears,
In the loud radios
I heard your absence.
On my pillow
I shouted my goodbyes.
I don't see you anymore.
My cereal bowl is full of your lies.
Trying to get over lies and the loneliness you caused.
Written on September 20, 2019
She gave everything;
to the one who lives miles away.
She took everything;
from the one who lives near.
She is light;
to the one who likes the darkness.
She is dark;
to the one who likes her spark.
She played along;
with the one who always wins.
against the one who can't see her lose.
She fell in love;
with the one that never tried.
She fell in hate;
with the one that never lied.
Her heart is warm;
for the one who don't care.
Her heart is cold;
for the one who is always there.
which one needs explaining:
suffering or its absence
Retracing my way out where I belong,
Re road mapping the roads I walked,
Under the sun, beyond the clouds
Below the light, away from the dark
A piece of the soul,
An intensity of delight,
Stream of thoughts, forthcoming thoughts!
A puzzle solved. (Period)
Twisted, yet simple
A piece so small, an impact so big.
An umbrella covering the void,
Makes no sense, but can be felt
No completeness for the sake of the surrounding
Neither none or everything. ✨
They wondered why I didn’t mourn your absence
But I did
Each night I knew you
I dreaded the day I would no longer love you
I cried for the day you’d see another
Because I saw it coming
And I don’t procrastinate grief
Salty eyes when I look in the sky for your absence
The clouds are not in the mood to reply
I'm not in the mood to keep trying
It's raining outside
I take my clouds and leave the town
To the sad days that I'm getting used to
Written on August 27, 2019
Absence came and hid the cracks.
Wasn't she suppose to make the heart long?
she said fonder, bolder, tighter, closer...
She lied. She formed habits designed to hide.