Lavender and lapis
Cinnamon and coffee
Cigarettes and tantric ***
Acoustic guitar and piano keys
Puddles and missed buses and Mp3 playlists
My highschool years weren't so bad

Wind up that music box
Listen to it ****** away
Pass me a mink blanket
And all night I will stay
Play with my hair
What little I have of it
You don't need to do much
Just hold me, come, sit
Pass me a pen and paper
You know the deal
Listen to the music box
It teaches me to feel
Kiss my forehead soft
And stroke my arm slow
For these are the comforters
That help me when I'm **low

How much can one soul take?
When it is scorched by seething snarls and twisted words
With bitter kisses of one night stands
The closest things it has to love
Its mothers touch has long since curdled
And tears sting with crushed anger
How much can one soul take?
In a world so unruly and unjust
An abusive relationship between body and mind
A soul does not prevent the flesh from bleeding
Only the heart from beating
As sweet mercy of death finally draws this dance to an end
A soul is freed from its cage of flesh and material world
And set alight by a ray of everlasting hope
Until it lands in another
And continues its journey

*How much can your soul take?

Maybe we can go on together with suspicious minds
But only because feigning trust is considered fine
So we say ok and tell each other to have fun
When we assume the worst and then say none
We boil up and grow apart
With each slightly resentful remark
My period pains make you say
I'm ******* around every other day
You don't talk to me anymore
So I assume your new friend is your *****
We change plans on hanging out together
Instead of rekindling this love we've shared forever
So as much as we think **** is going on behind
I know our accusations aren't necessary
We can't go on with suspicious minds.

Replaceable
Just here for your entertainment
When I'm not functioning
Or ******* your ****
I'm the atm machine
Used up
No wonder I can't get in the mood
You want someone new
Exhausted
Detached
You aren't you on or off the meds
Sad girlfriend
Weeping at night
Your back to me
Sleeping tight
I don't want saving I want you
To feel your love again
To cuddle up to
I'm only typing to fight back the tears

She told me she's more than she looks
But to figure her out you don't have to hit the books
She'll twist you and say all the right things
Be what you need but in the night what she brings
Is not lust for you not passion or need
It's only her insatiable heart breaking greed
To call her a ***** would be too *****
She's calculated and pretty far too evolved for flirty
She's a carnivorous creature of the night
Hear her words but I pray with experienced might
That this girl won't cross your path at any point in time
For this siren, this mistress was a manipulative love of mine.

I watch you move between my palms
What a soul you are between your bones
Straddling skin like a sacrilegious nun basking in the glory of Satan
Just a taste on my tongue
Like bitten words of repression you ache for mercy
Funny how we are nothing but rot in the end
And still I love you, in the state you are in
A far cry from lively
But still
Just as lovely

Red is the taste of primitive kisses with sharp tongues
Red is the shade of lipstick buried in your collar
Red is the colour of the traffic light you sped through to get home
Red is the hand print you left on her face because she didn't prepare dinner
Red is the smell of blood from her torn septum ring
Red is the rash on your crotch the girl at work gave you
Red is the reason you wont cuddle
Red is the excuse you gave the police when your wife was reported missing
Red is the name they gave you in prison after you dropped the soap
Red is what lead you to suffocate yourself in court before the jury
Red is your story
Consider it over

It's fine
            I'm Ok
Don't worry
            I didn't die today

There was a boy named Tim
Who had some dodgy friends
Fantabulous by nature
With a few too many loose ends
One day Tim followed them out
He didn't even have to ask
As the two boys bent him over
And ****** him in the ***

Hope you find the happiness you've been pretending to have

Hitting the grindstone once again
Aching regretting pounding ringing

Words pages lines and letters
Chewing mashing crunching swallowing

I left you lonely in your bed
Sleeping easing dreaming wheezing

To come home to you later
Driving bussing going speeding

And make love to you
Writhing releasing hearts beating

Only to fall asleep
Slowly softly warmly with me

And rise again to repeat the cycle

Because you fell in love you're telling me to go
For no other reason no no no
You fell in love and now I'm in the wrong
Because I love someone else and not your song
Because you fell in love I lost my best friend
Someone kind and special who I'd fight for til the end
Sure I have someone to go home to and call my own
But because you fell in love, without him, I'm all alone

He liked the way her skin moved
Against the blade of a knife
He would often like to lose himself
In the blueness of her eyes
He would paint her body scarlet
With the blood of her life
He loved so much to watch her
The way she'd jolt and writhe
The blade so finely sharpened
Every incision was precise
He liked to think she giggled
Every time he took a slice
Her flesh was soft and thick
He ate it all, which was nice
And downed it with some cider
And a heaping bowl of rice

The more I think about it the more I realize
I never wanted to say you didn't do anything for me because you did
But you never treated me like you treat her
I'm glad, a little jealous but I hope you continue to treat her well
Because I'm doing what I want
I have control over everything
I don't cut anymore
I don't panic about small things
I don't feel not good enough
Sure I can't trust people like I used to but that taught me a lot
Because people are deceiving especially those you turn a blind eye to
I feel desired, I feel happy
I don't feel alone even though I am most of the time
You helped, you made me independent and love all the parts of me
I was too afraid to look at
I found what I do like and what I don't
I have to thank everyone I've ever given my heart to for tweaking it
Because I learnt how to love and how to love me

You are my favourite poet
You inspire me
It goes without saying that I love you
And even more so
When you breathe your words into me
And pierce my soul with your ink
Never stop writing your phrases on my heart
Always tell me in abstract
How my chameleon eyes remind you of calm streams
And brighter days served in a history of torment
We are two lost pieces to the puzzle
pushed under the couch
Vidi vici veni
I love it because you said it and I believed you
Because it is one thing
to say one thing is another
But it takes a poet to analyse it to it's full potential
So analyse me
Talk me into your amazing mind
And you can with ease
Because you are my favourite poet

He keeps me warm and sets me on fire
Everything I never expected yet desire
Condemned a cheater, a fool and a liar
Only to give me wings and take me higher
He loves me well, let me never tire
A lover, a poet and the highest of flyers

Don't fall for me
Because you will I promise
And when you do you will love it
You will love me because I am everything you need.
But when I run dry
And I'm of limited supply
You'll wish you never met me
Because loving me is the worst, most painful way to die.

Let's finally see what helps
One pill, Two pill, Three pill, Four
Many colours for every mood
An injection here or there
A puff of smoke for you too
Lets grab that razor blade
See to that pain
No? Still not working?
Lets cut into your head shall we
Take out your brain and shred it into a million red pieces
And stare at yourself in the mirror for hours
Until a smile appears
A taunted simper
A thoughtless tear
No? Still not working?
Lets grab ourselves some Janola
A bit o' bleach and methylated spirits,
Ought a do the trick!
Gulp it back and listen to it gurgle
With a tentative ear of suicidal tendency
No? Still not working?
Pop every pill, swig every spirit,
Cut every main artery and mutilate your lungs
See to that pain
Now tell me,
Is it working?

I brought it on myself
I let myself fall into a relationship where I knew I'd have to compete
With substances and others and ******* on the street
I brought this on myself
When I told them what I thought and finally opened my mouth
Only to be despised and insulted and thrown off the shelf
I brought this on myself
I got myself into a rut and complained about it
Until I finally did something, out of character, and burnt everyone else
There lies no sympathy in hell for someone no one cares to understand
Well I've given up
I'm done
Let the devil take my hand

It's almost like a symphony and I am the conductor with a blade

I wanted her in the most primitive way
If only she knew what I've wanted to say
I can't shake this feeling when she comes over it's like
I'm an addict, when she's gone I'm sober
My brother doesn't know what hes missing
When his girl and I are in the bathroom kissing it's only
Meant to be
When I hold her hips to mine
And make her laugh, you see
A girls infatuation with other girls is not rare
It happens when bare skin touches bare