Ever seen a list like this?
Nothing in a name that's not in me.
According to you, I was so, so loose,
I would have come undone.
I'm floating now, aimless, as loose
as I ever was in youth.
Ever seen a list of names
so long, you thought, what's so bad they must
Hear me now, I'm amalgamation.
Reminder that you can change your mind
as much as you like and not have to hide
the rush of your wave from the water at large.
You're in charge.
And when the trolls come along, as they must,
just trust the pull of your lungs to take
a deep, deep breath all up inside.
"Yeah, it exists in others.
It must be all up in me, too.
Yeah, I **** them off, cause
it exists in me at all --
But I'm just as much
a piece of glass.
Does your reflection
off of me make you mad?
Not much I can say to that."