I apologize to myself for holding myself back even though I know what I’m truly capable of I apologize to myself for making myself cry at night I apologize to myself for treating my body like a dumpsite for garbage instead of a temple highly regarded I apologize to myself for making myself smaller so that others can feel bigger I apologize to myself for choosing to see what’s lacking in me and not celebrating everything I have that makes me beautifully me I apologize to myself for speaking harsh words like: 𝘠𝘰𝘶’𝘳𝘦 𝘶𝘨𝘭𝘺 𝘠𝘰𝘶’𝘭𝘭 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘠𝘰𝘶’𝘳𝘦 𝘢 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘭𝘶𝘳𝘦 But choose to tell other people: 𝘠𝘰𝘶’𝘳𝘦 𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘭𝘺 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘪𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘠𝘰𝘶’𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘠𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘭𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘴 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘥𝘦𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 because you of all people know how it’s like to be the villain in your own story and don’t want others to feel the same. Oh, to wish well for others and not wish on my own stars first. . . I apologize to myself for giving love to others but not give that same love back to myself.
-- I will accept my apologies and forgive myself so that I may learn how to love myself properly
I just want to say I'm sorry... I'm sorry for the way I act at times. I'm sorry for the things that I say that I don't mean. I'm sorry that I act like I don't care even though deep down inside, I really do. I'm sorry for the ways I feel things too much. I'm sorry if you find me so difficult. I'm sorry that sometimes I struggle to say how I really feel. I'm sorry that I turned out the way I never wanted to. I'm sorry that I get so scared of being left behind. I'm sorry I push the ones I love the most, far away at times. I'm sorry that I get so vulnerable, that I can't control my feelings even if I wanted to. I'm sorry if I hurt you without meaning to. I'm sorry that I get so angry without knowing why. I'm sorry if sometimes I cry for no reason, I just don't know why. I'm sorry I feel things more strongly than others do. I'm sorry I still struggle inside my mind, I'm trying my best to be better I promise you. I'm sorry I'm still battling the same demons years down the line. I'm sorry I let them win and let them get to me sometimes. I'm sorry for all the hurt and the problems that I've caused. I'm sorry I didn't mean to be like this at all. I'm sorry if sometimes you want to get away from me. I'm sorry if I've ever made you feel like I didn't want you around. I'm sorry my mind is so messed up at times. I'm sorry if sometimes the things I say sound like a web of lies.
I never wanted to be like this I promise you. I never wanted to feel like a burden to people, I guess it's nothing new. I never wanted to push anyone away, but sometimes my fears get ahold of me and I can't stop myself from hiding away in the dark corners of my mind. These feelings I have are not normal I know. Sometimes the rage builds up so fast inside me, I feel like I would explode into a million pieces. The past keeps coming back to haunt me no matter where I go. That face of evil, grinning, smiling and laughing at me in the dark. Reminding me of the horrors I've tried to leave behind closed doors. I'm sorry I'm a walking, talking, disaster and mess. I just wanted to say I'm sorry I sometimes wished I never existed at all. I'm sorry for saying sorry so many times, I guess sometimes I just need to apologise at least 100 times, to make me realise just how much the ones I love really matter to me deep down inside.
I'm sorry for all this For the way I left Abandoning you At the worst time I left you... Without hesitance The way I left ... It just wasn't right
I left for a fresh start I hoped I could still see and hear you But my hopes came crashing down today And I'm left in my broken shell
So this is our "family" now... Broken and falling apart, All because I was selfish... I'd rather abandon you For my selfish desire Than suffer for you So you could still see the good in "family"
And for some reason, I can't help but wonder... What if I didn't do anything? And I kept my mouth shut? Would our "family" have gotten Better... Worse... Would there be more damage? Mental or physical or verbal?
I shouldn't have done this But here I sit Questioning my decisions Wondering if I changed anything? Did I made your lives a living nightmare? Drugs and abuse... Alcohol and arguments... Did I do it?
Dear little sister I'm sorry, I probably shattered your heart... You were so innocent and I broke that... You watched me leave you... Not looking back as you were ripped from my arms By "mother" as he looked on Still yelling with each other as we cry in each others arms I'm mumbling so many apologizes
Dear little brother I'm sorry, You have to be unhappy now... You have to take on my role as protector... I never wanted this for you... You weren't supposed to become me... Broken and afraid of what happens next... You may still be mentally together but you're afraid... Of what will happen to you and *****... You probably are wondering where I am? I wish I could tell you... It breaks me to think of you anything like me
Dear both of you, God I'm so **** sorry for this! I'm sorry for everything to come, Past, Present, and Future Both of you deserve better
Darling Brother and Innocent Sister, I'm Sorry For My Happiness As It Has Caused You Pain Stay innocent and don't ever leave each other behind. Don't do what I did... Even for happiness... Don't leave each other... I hope that one day, You Can Forgive Me
Sincerely, Your Big Sister Who Is Regretting Everyday Without You
I wrote this on my brother's birthday and I haven't seen them since March. This is breaking me
I **** at apologies. I mean, I'm the absolute worst person to get in an argument with because I won't ever win and if I do I'll apologize. You could stab me and I'd apologize to you. I always sound passive-aggressive, I don't mean to, I swear. Speaking of swears, I cuss. A LOT. Sorry. So when I apologize, it's not because I'm wrong, it's because you've hurt me too much for me to argue anymore. I'm taught that I have to apologize for everything, I have to be sorry for existing. I don't have a confrontational bone in my body.