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David Paddit Jan 30
I apologize to myself for holding myself
     back even though I know what Iโ€™m truly capable of
I apologize to myself for making
     myself cry at night
I apologize to myself for
     treating my body like a
     dumpsite for garbage instead
     of a temple highly regarded
I apologize to myself for making
     myself smaller so that others can feel bigger
I apologize to myself for choosing to see
     whatโ€™s lacking in me and not
     celebrating everything I have that makes  
     me beautifully me
I apologize to myself for speaking harsh words like:
     ๐˜ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถโ€™๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ถ๐˜จ๐˜ญ๐˜บ
     ๐˜ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถโ€™๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ข๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ช๐˜ต
     ๐˜ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถโ€™๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข ๐˜ง๐˜ข๐˜ช๐˜ญ๐˜ถ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ
But choose to tell other people:
     ๐˜ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถโ€™๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ช๐˜ฒ๐˜ถ๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜บ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ถ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ง๐˜ถ๐˜ญ
     ๐˜ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถโ€™๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ข๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ช๐˜ต
     ๐˜ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ณ ๐˜ง๐˜ข๐˜ช๐˜ญ๐˜ถ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ'๐˜ต ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฆ๐˜ง๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ
           because you of all people
           know how itโ€™s like to be the villain in
           your own story and donโ€™t want
           others to feel the same.
Oh, to wish well for
     others and not wish on
     my own stars first. . .
I apologize to myself for giving love to others
     but not give that same love back to myself.

                                      -- I will accept my apologies and forgive
                                          myself so that I may learn
                                          how to love myself properly
I just want to say I'm sorry...
I'm sorry for the way I act at times.
I'm sorry for the things that I say that I don't mean.
I'm sorry that I act like I don't care even though deep down inside, I really do.
I'm sorry for the ways I feel things too much.
I'm sorry if you find me so difficult.
I'm sorry that sometimes I struggle to say how I really feel.
I'm sorry that I turned out the way I never wanted to.
I'm sorry that I get so scared of being left behind.
I'm sorry I push the ones I love the most, far away at times.
I'm sorry that I get so vulnerable, that I can't control my feelings even if I wanted to.
I'm sorry if I hurt you without meaning to.
I'm sorry that I get so angry without knowing why.
I'm sorry if sometimes I cry for no reason, I just don't know why.
I'm sorry I feel things more strongly than others do.
I'm sorry I still struggle inside my mind, I'm trying my best to be better I promise you.
I'm sorry I'm still battling the same demons years down the line.
I'm sorry I let them win and let them get to me sometimes.
I'm sorry for all the hurt and the problems that I've caused.
I'm sorry I didn't mean to be like this at all.
I'm sorry if sometimes you want to get away from me.
I'm sorry if I've ever made you feel like I didn't want you around.
I'm sorry my mind is so messed up at times.
I'm sorry if sometimes the things I say sound like a web of lies.


I never wanted to be like this I promise you.
I never wanted to feel like a burden to people, I guess it's nothing new.
I never wanted to push anyone away, but sometimes my fears get ahold of me and I can't stop myself from hiding away in the dark corners of my mind.
These feelings I have are not normal I know.
Sometimes the rage builds up so fast inside me, I feel like I would explode into a million pieces.
The past keeps coming back to haunt me no matter where I go.
That face of evil, grinning, smiling and laughing at me in the dark. Reminding me of the horrors I've tried to leave behind closed doors.
I'm sorry I'm a walking, talking, disaster and mess.
I just wanted to say I'm sorry I sometimes wished I never existed at all.
I'm sorry for saying sorry so many times, I guess sometimes I just need to apologise at least 100 times, to make me realise just how much the ones I love really matter to me deep down inside.
The Burning Girl Dec 2020
I'm sorry for all this
For the way I left
Abandoning you
At the worst time
I left you...
Without hesitance
The way I left ...
It just wasn't right

I left for a fresh start
I hoped I could still see and hear you
But my hopes came crashing down today
And I'm left in my broken shell

So this is our "family" now...
Broken and falling apart,
All because I was selfish...
I'd rather abandon you
For my selfish desire
Than suffer for you
So you could still see the good in "family"

And for some reason,
I can't help but wonder...
What if I didn't do anything?
And I kept my mouth shut?
Would our "family" have gotten
Better...
Worse...
Would there be more damage?
Mental or physical or verbal?

I shouldn't have done this
But here I sit
Questioning my decisions
Wondering if I changed anything?
Did I made your lives a living nightmare?
Drugs and abuse...
Alcohol and arguments...
Did I do it?

Dear little sister I'm sorry,
I probably shattered your heart...
You were so innocent and I broke that...
You watched me leave you...
Not looking back as you were ripped from my arms
By "mother" as he looked on
Still yelling with each other as we cry in each others arms
I'm mumbling so many apologizes

Dear little brother I'm sorry,
You have to be unhappy now...
You have to take on my role as protector...
I never wanted this for you...
You weren't supposed to become me...
Broken and afraid of what happens next...
You may still be mentally together but you're afraid...
Of what will happen to you and *****...
You probably are wondering where I am?
I wish I could tell you...
It breaks me to think of you anything like me

Dear both of you,
God I'm so **** sorry for this!
I'm sorry for everything to come,
Past, Present, and Future
Both of you deserve better

Darling Brother and Innocent Sister,
I'm Sorry For My Happiness
As It Has Caused You Pain
Stay innocent and don't ever leave each other behind.
Don't do what I did...
Even for happiness...
Don't leave each other...
I hope that one day,
You Can Forgive Me

Sincerely,
Your Big Sister Who Is Regretting Everyday Without You
I wrote this on my brother's birthday and I haven't seen them since March. This is breaking me
I'm sorry that I made you feel like I didn't want you.. in truth I want you more than I've ever wanted anythingโ€ฆ it's just..  I can't allow myself to get hurt again.
Mitch Prax Nov 2020
Your apologies
are empty and I don't give
out second chances

4:32 PM
30/11/20
Kaliya Skye Nov 2020
And the dawn is bleak as you take your time,
flowers bleed heaven and your love is mine.
The Gods turn their backs, they're unappetized.
But my baby sparks fire, and sips from my wine.

Would you as well,
Take shape of their youthful mistakes?
The rolling of thunder,
As our crescent moon breaks?

Trace hill tops for a purpose
Scan histories for my name,
You stammer through apologizes,
Will I alone remain?
Hoshi Nov 2020
I **** at apologies. I mean, I'm the absolute worst person to get in an argument with because I won't ever win and if I do I'll apologize. You could stab me and I'd apologize to you. I always sound passive-aggressive, I don't mean to, I swear. Speaking of swears, I cuss. A LOT. Sorry. So when I apologize, it's not because I'm wrong, it's because you've hurt me too much for me to argue anymore. I'm taught that I have to apologize for everything, I have to be sorry for existing. I don't have a confrontational bone in my body.
a thousand apologies more will not
make spoken words unheard
Mitch Prax Oct 2020
I don't hate you,
I hate what you did.
I hate the person you turned into
because I know that's not you.
I can forgive the person-
always the person,
but the actions
I can't forget.
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