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May 2019 · 362
Heaven
Axel May 2019
when you're beside me all I think is heaven
and when you're looking at me i'm wishing that it's 11:11.
our love was written all over heaven
May 2019 · 286
Nothing's Gonna Stop My Day
Axel May 2019
Nothing's gonna stop my day
Not even you and not even him
Nothing's gonna stop my day
I will let let you take my bae
'Cause nothing's gonna stop my day
Not even **** and not even hate
Nothing's gonna stop my day.
yup nothing.
May 2019 · 369
central park
Axel May 2019
big and wide the size of my heart is but you'd rather just to sit and hide between the trees rather than to come and search for me.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL I JUST WROTE HAHAHWHWHW AND IM GOING MF CRAZY N I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY AHAHAHHAH
May 2019 · 169
the one that got away
Axel May 2019
i wished that you would be mine forever but who would've thought that a person could create a stormy weather

it's time to face it that i'm no longer a part of a love chapter but just an extra walking in a blockbuster

superheroes where are you, i need you, i'm falling down from the roof, catch me and then i'll say 'thank you' and watch you walk away

hard to say but let me confess that i should be your first but i'm happy that you found the right, it's okay that i'm not with you and i'll be waiting for you in another life; i'll be your angel and will be treating you like a guardian that always guards his guy.
in another life, promise.
May 2019 · 441
Dear Dad
Axel May 2019
Dear dad,
I'm sorry that I admire mom than you
and I'm sorry that I only could reached the roof when you asked for a moon.

As you sip your favourite cup of coffee that taste so bitter, you always ask how am I doing even though the coffee was bitter as your day.

As I was walking with you last night,
the moonlight shines right through your face
and I could see your brave face light up the night
because for the first time his son was walking with him, chatting and doing casual ****.

I'm sorry I couldn't be the best son, I'm sorry I couldn't be your best son but I promise you that I'll be your creamer to your coffee even though you prefer sugar in it.
my Superman <3
May 2019 · 323
While I Was Away
Axel May 2019
While I was away,
Girls have been touching their hair with love
And girls were in love with their body like lust

While I was away,
Water have been so clear it made me teared
And ice met with eyes like a deer with a carrot

While I was away,
Diamonds are still in beauty like she's in love with a beast
And golds are like a moon shining bright when the night covers the earth

But when I am here,
The time is ticking backwards and words are read in reverse;
All I see are pain and misery people
And black rainbow isn't just a metaphor anymore.
indah khabar dari rupa.

Self-love is not selfish
Global warming is real
Woman should not be ashamed of their body
Guys should not be ashamed of their feminine
Speak out, your opinion matters!
Talk out, your feelings matter!
Reach out, love isn't endless.
May 2019 · 140
Promise
Axel May 2019
Close your eyes and there'll be a beautiful magnificent garden of roses
waiting to be explored by the right person
who will hold you tight in this whole new world
of true and trust me that late nights won't be so blue.

Wild and nasty words can be dangerous
but wild yet truthful love can be colourless
if your whole new world isn't shared with me.

Everytime you wake up, I promise you
that today and tomorrow will be
just fine if you let me be a part of you.
I PROMISE YOU
May 2019 · 268
Theater Feelings
Axel May 2019
pull up the curtain,
spotlights in front,
don't mess it up
put on your big boy face
and smile; just be brave
let them see what's the cover
never let them see what happens backstage
and smile brightly for your lover
though your neck is breaking
though blood is on the rise
right above your snowy white arms.
put on your fake smiles while you still can.
giving up now.
May 2019 · 299
truth hurts
Axel May 2019
crawl down the street just to see drains getting feed.
bow down to queen just to see a throne getting licks.
slow down the sound just to hear guns screaming out loud.
moved out from town just to see the moon from underground.
May 2019 · 387
i love you
Axel May 2019
let my lips be your air
and my eyes will let you stare.
it feels different when you're deeply in love.
May 2019 · 612
you
Axel May 2019
you
1+1 equals 2
but I only know you+you ≠ truth
this is totally not a poetry,hahaha sorry
May 2019 · 419
i'm no longer a muse
Axel May 2019
I've been searching the sun through the mountains till I forgot that clouds are built to be loved too.
I've been thinking too hard and forgot that I should do what I want to.
I've been tossing and turning, round and round, till I forget that nights aren't able to hold me long.
I've been crying and screaming till I forgot that stars are singing lullaby songs.
I've been looking and watching till I forgot that wings are built to fly high.
I've been in my room and staying in till I forgot that I'm no longer a dice.
Let me know if the coast is clear
And I'll let you know if I'm out of my fear.
Axel May 2019
Careful when you're walking at night
You think you're walking straight to the light
But you might be walking with a devil dressed up as a shining knight.

My sons, careful when you're walking at night
There might be something watching beside;
Don't forget to set your eyes straight
And I'll be waiting here at the gate.

My sons, pack your knives
Just in case there's a wolf pack
Waiting for the right time to come and attack
Though you're strong,
Never forget that the night is very long
Never forget that eyes are built to see
Never forget that her heart is free
And never forget that you might not be walking to me.

She is anxious
But never forget that she can be dangerous
She is precious
But never forget that she can be impatient
Never forget that she might be a nightmare
Never forget that she might be right there
In every steps you take
And every time you're late, you might want to run away
Cause she's gonna make you scream
She might poison you untill you dream.

So, my sons, did you brought your knives?
Cause now you have to fight for you life
And never back off from the fight,
Don't you ever stop it
Don't you ever let her be your prime
Don't you ever let her win this time.
May 2019 · 1.1k
8
Axel May 2019
8
I'd prefer 8 hours with myself
than 8 minutes with them,
I should be happy but I'm happy on my own
I should be laughing but I am joy when I'm alone
is this temporary
or permanent?
I'm scared, someone hold me,please,
tightly, untill I can't breathe

someone help me,please
tighten the grip
make me believe
make me trust in me
make me true
make me feel truly free.
I love being alone, so what?
Apr 2019 · 673
1:06 AM
Axel Apr 2019
Bring the guns
Sharp the knives
Only live once
But I'm wasting my time;
Bring the rose
Pick the daisy
Soft, so fragile
Cry like a baby.
Apr 2019 · 462
Perfect
Axel Apr 2019
poetry ain't perfect if you are not there;
dress and suits are for models
but I don't want to see you unhappy,
so we'll pause
but don't worry, we'll quickly forward it
just give me his name
and I promise he will end up in my flame.

It's hard, I understand
But believe me
Trust me
That you're beautiful
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
And you're so ******* beautiful
Even the mirror claps
Even the camera cheers
So be happy and always remember that I'm always here
Be happy and say '*******' to all those skinny *******.
this is dedicated to my friends and anyone who have been body shamed. sorry if this is really lame and boring but with all of my heart, i dedicate this to u guys. just know that your body doesn't symbolize u but your heart and what's inside does. love u.
Axel Apr 2019
a deadly bouquet of roses in a basket
with deadly leaves and petals
that are brown with a little bit of red
and a little bit of life that now is just a hope,
let me love you like I love me
let me protect you like I want to
cause I don't want to end up dead like the roses
I don't want to end up dead like the brown leaves,
But I'm more worth than just a number 2
and I'm more worth with me if I'm wearing a crown and on the throne with another person other than you.
thank u, next!
Mar 2019 · 644
she
Axel Mar 2019
she
my mom taught me how to read
my sister bought me a gift
my aunties made me feel loved
my girlfriend brought tears to my eyes
my nanny sew me a clothe of joy
all women unite as the time flies
all people stood up for you, so does the sky;
beautiful
strong
a star
brave
pretty
and you're the best part in the movie
you're the best star in the sky
you're the blanket that I need while I dream
thank you, love you,
WOMEN.
thank you women around the world. luv u always. <3
Mar 2019 · 425
Illegal Act
Axel Mar 2019
I can't see myself in a deep crowd
and I feel alone deeply when you're beside me
sitting alone on the table beside the moon
can't even hear the right tune
caught me red-handed in the room
searching for the drug I've been using
checkmate!
you got me,darling
you got me staring.
can't focus what's in front if I keep dreaming.
Mar 2019 · 524
A Fling
Axel Mar 2019
when the rainbow appears,
the birds fly above and the clouds disappear
the memory strikes in and the the feeling leans
the moon shines through the windows and leave me glowing in the dark

the stars are align and the light is making me blind,
the flowers bloom as the sun hits
my heart beats as your smile is in line
my eyes are closed when I feel your touch
and my roses are velvet when you're smiling too much

it took a year to get away
it took a decade to drive away
it took a while to step ahead
but it took only a second,
just a second to write this poetry
just a second to write a song
just a second to imagine
and just a second and you can see me beside you in tears that are already clear

an angel,a devil;
a Paradise with a little bit of Hell
a pair of eyes and I can hear a bell
a gleam of smile and I can already tell
a gold star that I see when I look up
a gold moon that I want after a break up

Aphrodite with a little bit of Zeus,
that's me
that's my personality
that's how I breathe
that's how I live
and that's how i live within the breeze

a glimpse of sunshine on Friday night
a storm of fire on 11:31 in the night
a forgettable memory
a short-term period
a pout on the lips that I crave
a white crystal skin that is brave
and 7 perfect things that I admire
and a blue heart that I always desire
but you're not the one that'll stay
you're not the one that's warm
because you're just a forgettable, a lovely-hate alarm.
Mar 2019 · 391
sugar in a jar of salt
Axel Mar 2019
As the thunder strikes,
the world shakes
my blood boils
and the moon falls.
As the lightning strikes,
my bed shakes
my heart stops
and my mind have lost.
As the thunder strikes,
my tears fall
my words are gone
my eyes are closed
and my love has been tossed.
As the lightning strikes,
I blame me
I blame you
and I blame the universe
can I reverse?
can I reverse?
back to when I was standing
back to when I was smiling
and back to when I was breathing.
As the thunder strikes,
my mouth is shut
my lips are sealed
and my fingers are filled with blood.
And at last, as the memory strikes,
everything changes
from black to red
from red to blue
and it's all because of you.
Mar 2019 · 768
One Step Ahead
Axel Mar 2019
one step ahead and they're finally done
one step ahead and they're finally gone
one step ahead and she is finally proud
one step ahead,one step ahead, one step ahead

one step ahead and the glass finally falls
one step ahead and the tears finally drop
one step ahead and the fingers finally touch
one step ahead and the shirt is finally black
one step ahead,one step ahead,one step ahead

with or without,skies or the clouds,
love or a fling,food or a drink;
they finally said and they finally did
they finally free in a count of three
they finally gone and this time it's gonna be so long
they finally clap and it feels like it's only one step
they finally grow as the wind blows
and they finally smile but they're gonna cry

one step ahead before the journey ends
one step ahead before the airplane lands
and one step ahead before the new level
and one step ahead before a boy turns into a man
and one step ahead before a girl turns into a woman
and one step ahead and they finally fly to the higher level of the sky.
goodbye seniors,even tho some of us may not miss y'all,there will be some that's gonna cry,and there will be some of us that's gonna miss your smiles.
thank you,for everything. May God will always bless u.
Axel Mar 2019
She's smoking a cigar that is barely able to burn,
She's tasting the bitter pain of the dark yet a glimpse of sweet in a short and dangerous cigar with a hope that the tables are gonna turn in a second.

She coughed a dark raspy voice with a scent of alcohol in her mouth that he kissed with love and lust,but the leaves fall and so do her,and so do him.

She thought the devil was an angel
dressed in a daydream with a fairytale wedding and a fairytale ending; while she was gone
and and while she was still strong,
a storm with a raging thunder and a raging anger in him started to grow like a tree at the park beneath his feet; a tree that no one expected,a tree that no one felt and a tree that no one can feel.

He then began to cry with his hands in the stars,
starting to realize that what he did all this long was so wrong.He's sorry for any words and times that he never said and never there; he's sorry for not facing the consequences,and he's very sorry for thinking that she and him will end in a happy ending, will end with a 'happy ever after' like all the stories did,like all the people did.

She was confused,she was in a loose,she was in her bed and very scared.She was holding a dead bouquet of flowers from last week; a bouquet that had 99 roses that meant the days of their relationship and the days before he really decided to jump into his illusion and breathed into the final second before he took the razor and jumped into conclusion.

Now she understood,now she realized and now she knows that if they never met,if they never loved,if they never danced and if they never took a glance, things would've been better and he'll write her letters but that would be a knife-point to him because all he wanted was a guy, all he wanted was to be with his lovely bright sunshine.

Now it has been a year,it has been the darkest hours to her and it has been the saddest while everyone is living in a great and a wonderful lovely world while the sorrow and the arrow from the bow keeps stabbing her and and she always wish that her lucky stars will always be there and will always stand there with open arms that will always take care.
please love someone that you really really love and someone that you really really want.
Feb 2019 · 344
Happy Birthday
Axel Feb 2019
I really want to make you happy
I really want to make you smile
But the universe isn't with me
But the tables are turning faster
And the sky is falling onto my shoulder

Be happy
Try to be happy at least
It's your special day
It's your memorable day
Even if the stars aren't there tonight
Even if the moon ain't shining bright
Be happy

I would love to sing it to you
I would love to sleep under the trees with you
I would love to wish you a happy birthday
But why would I?
I'm just a shadow in your life
I'm just a Tinkerbell who's in love with Peter
I'm just a person who lives in the bitter.
I shouldn't write this **** because I'm moving on,but I can't help to see u sad on your own bday. well happy bday from this no one.
love,azfar
Feb 2019 · 358
Poisonous Flower
Axel Feb 2019
Rare yet beautiful
Sharp but lovely
Strong yet weak
Dark yet sweet

If I were you I'd run
If I were you I'd hide
If I were you I'd jump
If I were you I'd climb to the atmosphere
Disappear within the dust
Sets with the sun

But this is who I am
Hidden in the jungle
Hidden under the sun
Very precious

Everyone is searching
Everyone is coming
Everyone is seeing
But never dare to touch me.
I was inspired by a sentence in a Wattpad story,so credit to the author of the story.
Feb 2019 · 825
February 5
Axel Feb 2019
when I'm sad and down
I'll remember today,
February 5.

the day you left
the day I loved
and the day I cried a river
it's today
February 5.

you lift me up
made me feel new
made me feel better
made me feel good
and made me feel love
for the first time.

a caterpillar once said
on February 5,
'when I grow up,I wanna fly free,
I wanna feel confident'
but an iguana said
'keep on dreaming young boy'.

tomorrow,is a new start
tomorrow is a restart level
but I'll remember today,
because you showed me love
and showed me life
and showed me how sad
and chaotic a feeling can feel.

I'll remember today
I'll write this date on the stars
and when I grow up,
I'll remember how today got me messed up
this right moment,
this right 3.00 pm
on February 5.
i don't even know why i keep hurting myself,keep having my hopes high,and then end up crying and crying and crying in my bed.
Jan 2019 · 1.5k
Aisle of Happiness
Axel Jan 2019
every sunday
every gloomy day
I'd go to your home
but you're always not there.

but a book
that you gave
just made my lotus
bloom in a different way.

so I keep
thinking that
you're running
I keep thinking
that you're flying,
but the truth is
you're lying
and you're laying
in your bed
with the flowers
that she gave
and the doorbell ring
is just a song
that you listen
and forget.

so I drove
down to town
to the supermarket
and asked
'where can I find the aisle for happiness'
they said
'I don't think we have that here,
or anywhere else',
that's right
it never existed
in my life
and in my melody.
"try to be positive",they said, but it's hard, because it's not in me.
Jan 2019 · 361
fake smile
Axel Jan 2019
black flowers and dress;
as i saw my reflection,
the water start to stir up.

as I saw my tears,
I know it's over
I know you're gone
but imagine if I can love you for so long;
imagine a world where we don't stuck in these thorns.
my friend's dad just passed away,and she's so strong, laughing, smiling, i don't know whether it's a real or a fake smile. i just wish i can be strong as her.
Jan 2019 · 459
a boy with a strawberry
Axel Jan 2019
a mountain with a full of stories,
a boy once lived with a full of laughter
he used to do that
but not anymore.

a strawberry once picked
from a beautiful young boy,
but the sun was too hot,
and the clouds faded,
so there he was sitting
with a strawberry on his hand
and he flew with tears
and went to another land.
a deep ocean with a deep meaning.
Jan 2019 · 186
afternoon thoughts
Axel Jan 2019
here I am, looking to the sun
trying to get into my afternoon thoughts;
trying to find the right words to my poetry;
trying to find the right tune to my music;
trying to find the right right one to my heart.
Jan 2019 · 545
beautiful lies in Paris
Axel Jan 2019
one,
swam with me
in the river
and the sea.

two,
broken glasses
and coming back
as a masterpiece.

three,
roses with sunflower
with a secret thorn garden
and I end up burnt
in my own desire.
a boy that was fed with a pretty little lies of love.
Jan 2019 · 666
The Sun and the Moon
Axel Jan 2019
the sun and the moon,
shines through a different time
always tried to chase each other
and never giving up.

the sun and the moon,
a sad love story,
one surrounded by white clouds,
one surrounded by shining stars.

the sun and the moon,
have always been in love,
but they know they couldn't meet
so they put their promise
and said "always remember me".
it's a love story about a black girl and a white guy, everyone couldn't accept their relationship,so they ended their love just because of people's voice.
Jan 2019 · 322
love
Axel Jan 2019
singing in the back
relaxing on the sofa
sleeping in each others arm
running from the world,
but I have to let you go
I have to be strong
but I'll be crying when you're gone.
just about me (will) losing my friends next year,again.
Jan 2019 · 768
the beginning of a goodbye.
Axel Jan 2019
stories have been told
they said "be strong"
I've tried
I did it
but it's so hard to keep it cool
it's so hard to let go
but how can I do that when it's going to be you?
i really wrote this while crying,**** some of my friends aren't gonna be beside me next year,so i let my feeling out in this poetry. i'm really sorry if this poetry is kinda bad. <3
Jan 2019 · 343
Piece of Art
Axel Jan 2019
Pointy brushes for a perfect "well done"
Flashes in my eyes,every night
Stand still and kiss her face
Just for a picture to put in a frame

Put us on the wall
Let everybody walk by
Let everybody see
Paint us pink and blue
Just for everyone to buy

Like Mona Lisa
And Van Gogh,
The same thing,just a painting on a wall
And everybody love it.
But my love ain't a piece of art
My love is just pure for a private heart.
it's about a love that one's doesn't like to share it to the whole world.
Jan 2019 · 167
Forbidden Love
Axel Jan 2019
You're my greatest sin
and forever will.
You keep making me
run and
keep making me crave it,
again and again and again.
Jan 2019 · 495
i'm tired
Axel Jan 2019
I'll count "1,2,3"
Then I'll see you standing
Don't show me love
Cause I know it isn't golden
Don't make me love
Cause I know I will end up broken
It's hard to move on,when I see your face every single mf day.
Dec 2018 · 216
Teenager in Love
Axel Dec 2018
a cold night
with hundreds of stars
there we were
trying to count the stars
trying to find what's inside
trying to understand
what is this feeling in our heart.

the acoustic guitar that you always play
the sound of the piano that lingers in my heart
the warmth of our hugs
the memories in our heart
we were clueless
we were dumb
but the love felt so real
felt so calm.

we were too young
too innocent
and too serious until everything messed up
the glass in our hand shattered
it dropped hard to the ground
it left us with scars in our hand
the story that we made didn't end with happiness
neither it ended with angriness
but it ended with laughter
because we were just a child
just a kid trying to find what is love.
Dec 2018 · 1.1k
Far Away
Axel Dec 2018
Love at first sight is real
Anyone or anybody can feel it
You know my lips can't say it
So I'll see you in my lovely dreams.

Missing you but I can't undo it,
I tried to save it but it's not my way
I love you but you're far away over there
And I know you're the one that keep promises tight in your hands,
You breathe like nobody else
You give me all the things you have
And that's why I'll keep you tight,
Tight in the little cage in my heart.

I want you to love me like nobody else
I want you to stay in my arms
I want you to slowly take my hands
Can you come take the chance?
Far Away is about me having a crush to a hot stranger hahaha I know,crazy right? I wrote Far Away as a song but I don't have a good voice so I converted it to a poetry. Hope u love it.
Dec 2018 · 1.8k
Never Have I Ever
Axel Dec 2018
Never have I ever thinking about you only
Never have I ever been real
But you still standing beside me
You still hug me with love that's real.

Your pure heart still beating for me
Your beautiful face still looking at me
But still I keep going to the wrong direction
I still keep playing you like a toy
And you still keep loving me with joy.

Never have I ever seen a brave girl
Never have I ever thinking I'm gonna change
But for you,
I'm going to walk into a forest with roses
And I'm going to walk into a forest with thorns
So I want you to stay still
'Cause I'm gonna leave my past
I'm gonna change
And I'm gonna dry your tears.
Dec 2018 · 1.3k
Lullaby
Axel Dec 2018
She laid me down
Caressed my cheek softly
Kissed my head with love
Brought the light into the darkness.

Don't need a poetry
Don't need a song
Just her by my side is enough.

Hugged me with warmness
Helped me with troubles
Her beautiful face is always inside,
Inside here deep in my little heart.

She's my one
She's my mom
She's my only lullaby in the cold and scary night.
Nov 2018 · 251
His Home
Axel Nov 2018
Bruises he hid
Punches he got
Every sunny day was black and grey
No arms that can hold him
So screaming under the water was all he did.

Love wasn't his
But quite,crying and falling was always in him
So fragile
So innocent
So sweet yet bitterness surrounded him.

"Help!" He shouted
But the slap,the fire and the redness
was way louder until nobody dare to listen.
He wished he could become a man
But he was just living in a can of beer
And he already surrounded by fear
So he took one last step
He jumped from above
With tears that were already clear.
Nov 2018 · 113
Once I Was 6
Axel Nov 2018
Can we go back?
Back when we laugh
Back when we play rough
Back when we all thought we're so tough.

Running under the blazing sun
Hugging each other with so much fun
Dancing under the rain untill we forgot what is pain
Telling stories like there's nobody around
Yeah,I miss playing with you on the ground.

No beeping sound because all I hear is laughter
All I hear is love,wild,loud flower.
There we were,crying together under the tree trying to be like a bee.

Now that it's new
I miss drawing with you
I miss playing with you.
Now that it's new
We forgot about playing at the parking lot
We lost in what we got.

Saying goodbye is the hardest
But like every other book,we grow old and forget each other.
Goodbye my love
Goodbye my wonderful world.

— The End —