I have dreams of him
His eyes are missing
All flesh, pristine
He's not looking but still seeing
He cannot show but he guides me
To the meadows I roam free
Clear skies torn apart by sun rays
Like it was always that way
Our bodies glisten as they sway.

He calls me in, a messenger
I breathe him and he is medicine
From the ghosts in my bedsheets
From mosaics of grief I've seen
And the shadows appear on the hilltops
Trickling towards me like rain.

Then stormy skies run like watercolour
He is gone and darkness creeps in
Bad dreams line the clouds of sleep
From summer in the meadows to rough seas
I see his face in my morning coffee
And I pour him down the sink
For I cannot swallow this feeling
Knowing the visions belong to me.

You haunt my dreams of places I will never visit
People I will never meet
In the background of each painting
You're the stains on every seat
You're the barbed wire round my heart
You're the rotting in the woods
You're the dark circles under my eyes
I can't sleep because of you.

I guess I should feel flattered
That I get it all the time
But it doesn't really matter
Cause I feel so dead inside
I'm waiting at the station
For a train that never comes
And I'm cutting up his t-shirts
Cause I'm bitter that he's gone

But I won't cry this time
Cause I'm lucky that they want me
They can **** me until everything's alright
And I just laugh because I'm rich
Oh I'm not rich from money
But I swear I'm rich from ******* that I know
But I'll never tell them no, no, no.

Another day, new invitation
They're inviting me to bed
But they can never satisfy me
Too much ******* in their heads
My best friend told me that he loves me
But I guess he's not the one
Cause I'm saving his kind heart
From my weak, destructive bones.

But I won't cry this time
Cause I'm lucky that they lust me
But it's not enough to fill the aching in my chest
So I'll just laugh
And I will continue dancing
I'll get high from all the happiness instead
Until they want my heart not what's between my legs.

I woke up this morning
To a whole different mind
With the same room, same skyline
I was leaving you behind
And I told you I loved you
But I didn't look you in the eyes
Because maybe I like you
But I'm sorry, I lied.

What am I to do now?
Cause I can see this on the news
"Man dies of broken heart"
But I've got nothing else to lose
So I'm flying the nest
Back to where I was raised
In search of something I lost
Among the rubble I left there.

Could you teach me to be?
Someone that I don't know
Cause you must know it hurts
To leave you and go
I was tenderly yours
But there's fire within
And I'm burning down this house
Cause it's no home to me.

I awoke to street lights and red skies
Warm heat of summer nights enveloped me
Smothering me in its embrace
As I cling to cold sheets with sweaty palms

Neon signs of buildings and corner shops
Welcome my childlike gaze
As I look upon the city and the shoreline in awe
And I spit out cherry stones and drink soda through straws

You sink your teeth into me like a ripe peach
And tell me my eyes are hazy and haunting
And we dance and we drink and soak up the last of our youth
Act as if we didn't have a clue

Bonfire smoke in my lungs
Rippling screams and laughter in the air
Last nights love still in my veins
Kaleidoscope views of how things change

I miss the smell of your cologne
And the way you say my name
I miss the beaches when it's winter
Because it's hard to breathe again

Tainted, by my own weakness
I have loved and lost again
I am stuck on conversations
I find no closure
For you left without a word
A ghost, you slipped away
Nothing left of you no more

I keep searching for you in strangers
But they only scratch the surface
And I never find your soul in them
I keep looking in their eyes
Trying to reclaim the light
For I've been domed to darkness since you left

It's this urge
It's this wound you left
I've been bruised since then
Cause no one does it just like you
It's this spark
I've been craving it
I'm searching for something
Cause you hit me like lightening

History, only keeps repeating
I'm stuck in this cycle
I'm trapped in my own bad habits
I find no one's here
For they always turn away
A ghost, you haunt my head
And I am left jaded again

I keep getting drunk with strangers
But they only make me nervous
Cause I know just what they want from me
I keep dodging their eyes
So they can't see that I'm lying
Cause unlike you, they'll never have a hold on me

It's this hurt
It's this emptiness you left
Trying to move on since then
So I can find someone better than you
It's this knowing
I'm so used to this
I'm searching for affection
Cause you make me lose direction.

I still have his t-shirt in my closet
I take it out when I am lonely
Remind myself I was once loved
Remind myself that nothing lasts
Forever, came so close and passed quick as a blink
I think I must have missed my station
With my thoughts running, over thinking thinking thinking

Funny how I pass his town
I miss it when I am around
On journeys and I reminisce
On memories of us together how nothing lasts
Forever, came so near then threw it away
I say I kid myself he loved me when
I know she was all he thought about that day, that summer day

Lovers came and passed since him
There's gaps in all my history
I lost the photos of us together
I lost the thoughts of my
Forever, cause it don't exist
I think I'll find someone better next time
Until then I'm fine, I'm fine fine fine.

We ****
And we **** each other up
We drink
And we drown our feelings by the cup
We love
And we love to destroy things we touch
We hate
And we breed hate onto our selves
We breathe
And we exhale all the toxins in our smoke
We live
And we survive until we choke

And of course
Every now and then it hits you
Like a car crash
Like a train-wreck
And you feel yourself choking on the unsaid words
And vomiting up the residue from drunken kisses
Howling at the night sky
While friends tell you "it gets better"
A truth you do not need to hear
Because right now you miss them like a limb
And you're dragging yourself around every day
Trying to make it to some kind of finish line
Some kind of end
Where the pain stops hurting
Where you stop remembering their name
And how you held them and danced with them
And spoke to them about how you wanted them
And now at 3 in the morning
You're lonely and longing
And they're with somebody new
Who probably kisses them the same as you did
And they no longer yearn the touch of your fingertips
No longer crave you like water on a summers day
Because they have them.
They have found someone to hold their aching bones
And you are alone.
But you are not a reflection of those you have lost
And you will be loved by people you have never met
And you are beautiful despite their passing
You are worthy, don't you forget.

I hate being alone
But I hate being in love more
I'm torn apart like an old t-shirt
You wore it out and left it on the floor
I only tell you how I feel when I am drunk
I need the liquid confidence
I need some gypsy luck
To tell you I don't care any more
To tell you you're not there any more
To tell you I don't need this any more
To tell you I am done

Sick of sleeping alone
But I hate sleeping with these thoughts
I'm haunted like a house you see
You died in my heart but you won't let me leave
Can only tell you how I feel at night
Cause in the day I never cross your mind
The dark protects me
It protects me from wanting to die
Why can't I tell you I don't care any more?
Why the **** are you not there any more?
I'm tired of you pulling out my chair to watch me fall
What can I do to make you love me once more?

Cold hands, grey eyes
Gives them butterflies
Dances all night.

Goes home, still drunk
Another boy, false love
Gives up, gets ******.

Messed up, trying hard
Plan fell through from the start
Can't get better with a broken heart.

Wants love, can't love herself
Puts her worth high on the shelf
Can't reach, kills herself.

Lonely, wants him
But he's dealing with the same thing
She wants more than a silly fling.

Must wait for him
Though the future looks grim
She'll hold on to it.

Don't try to tell me how to live
Don't say that love is hard to give
I don't need you to save me
I don't need to you pray for me
Don't try to test me with your mind
I'm tired of games I'm tired of lies
I've fought my way through too many times
I've fought my way through to survive

I'm not gonna fall into the dirt
You stamp on my heart I don't get hurt
You try to cut me with your words
I am a falcon rising above it all
I've been through hell, I've found the light
I am whole I don't need a guy
I don't need you to save me
So who's the weak one now baby?

Don't patronise me I know best
I know that life is just a test
I don't need you to show me
I just wanted you to want me
In all the darkness I found stars
You pull me back, I'm flying far
I've struggled underneath the waves
I've struggled just to find my place

I'm not gonna fall into the dirt
You stamp on my heart I don't get hurt
You try to cut me with your words
I am a falcon rising above it all
I've been through hell, I've found the light
I am whole I don't need a guy
I don't need you to save me
So who's the weak one now baby?

I'm a ******* heroine
I don't need you darling
Cause I'm a ******* warrior
And I will be victorious.
I'm a ******* champion
You can't ******* undone
Cause I'm a ******* demon
And I will fight till I find love.

There's a lump in my throat that won't leave
And try as I might I can't sleep
I know that finding love is a want not a need
But I feel like you were my missing piece
I still see you when I'm out with my friends
You say hi and then you leave again
When we hug I hold on, you squeeze then pull away
And I'm trying to move on from my mistakes.

Cause darling you don't love me
You don't want to settle down
But when you were in my bed
I felt you in my heart
And I'm drawn to you like magnets
Your a plus and I'm a con
You can let me down gently but I want you gone
From my mind, give me space, give me time.

There's and emptiness in my chest that won't leave
I fall in love so easily, its a flaw in me
Cause I swear I need someone to breath
And everyone tells me that boys are not my relief
I see my friends have someone who makes them happy
And I look at myself and I'm filled with worry
Cause I want someone who's scared to lose me
Someone who loves me so much they drown in it.

Cause darling you don't love me
You don't want to settle down
But when you were in my bed
I felt you in my heart
And I'm drawn to you like magnets
Your a plus and I'm a con
You can let me down gently but I want you gone
From my mind, give me space, give me time.

Give me love,
I'm elastic, push me hard
I'll bend backwards
For you dear
I'd move the earth
So you'd see
I put you first.
Give me space
I'm enigmatic, warm heart
Words are static
But I love
You like poison
Drink me in
I'll take over your heart.

Before you, my heart was a starless sky
An unspoken goodbye
A life without a reason why.
Before you, my heart was heavy and dull
A lonely night, an empty hole
A desperate humming in my skull.
Before you, my body was only for fun
An amusement park, rebellious and young
A love song that no one true has sung

God knows I tried to make it easy
Walk away, though my heart's freezing
Let you love her
Let you live here
Let myself go on in pieces.
I grew stronger, older, wiser
But my regrets make it harder
Just to move on to the next year
And forget you, forget your feel

Cause darling, I loved you
Like the moon dies for the sun
And darling, I failed you
But I'm human and I live like one
And darling, how you hurt me
Can't you see what you have lost?
But you have her this Christmas
And I have no one.

God knows I'm happy in my life
But I can't escape from love that's died
Find me someone
Find me safety
You can love her I don't mind.
I've grown stronger, purer, better
But I regret what I did
I know I lost you with my flaws
But next time I won't do the things I did.

Cause moonbeam, I loved you
Like the sun kisses my skin
And darling, we weren't perfect
But in my eyes, we were as one
And darling, if you could see
That I'm better now you're gone
You give me hope for Christmas
That one day I'll find someone.

I can feel you in my body
And I can't tell if it's just worry
But I, know that if I could hold your hands in mine
I'll love you for all time, I'd love you cause you're mine
I can feel you in my stomach
I'm sick to death cause of how much this hurts
And I, know that I have to give you up
But I'll keep you on my mind, I'd keep you in my mind
This may just be me being crazy
And trying to keep a piece of him
You may not even exist beyond my dreams
But I can feel you weighing underneath my skin
I hope to god when I'm older
I can spread a part of myself to the world
But it just isn't my time now
I hope you understand that there's just too much **** to hold.

We are nothing
We're not lovers
We're under covers
We are nothing

We are nothing
Nothing but an illusion
It's all in my head
What I'm feeling for you

We are nothing
We are just a drunken rampage
Just a moment of touching
Just the emptiness we create

We are nothing
We are nothing after tonight
So why am I hoping?
That you'll see me in a new light.

I tried to fall asleep
But I couldn't let you leave
My head is filled with memories
Unwinding...torturing me
I walked the room for answers
Searching underneath my skin
Punched a wall but it didn't hurt as much
As it did when you left me

I can't love any more
I can't love me like you did
Does it even make sense?
To say I want you out of my head
But I want you back in my chest
And when you reach me
Even if it's in another place, another time
I don't know what you'll say when you see me
I don't know if you'll remember my eyes

I let go of the drugs
But I couldn't forget about us
My armours up more than ever
Cause I have no one to protect me now
I moved away to the coast
Tried to find some calmness in the waves
I still sit in bed for hours
Wondering if your life's better without me

Chorus

You couldn't handle the pressure
Of walking in my shoes
And when it came down to it
I guess you had nothing to lose
(Except me. Except me.)
You're so stuck in your ways
Why the **** did I think you'd change?
I guess I need to grow some spine
To get you off my mind.

You were a storm
And I loved you for every breath you took
Cause when you exhaled I saw lightning
I heard thunder during every moody look

You were the calm
And I loved you while you were sleeping
Cause when you held me I felt safer
In the quiet my thoughts were creeping

You were the summer
And I loved you running through the grass
I saw sunbeams when you kissed me
When you left me I heard breaking glass

You're the winter
The lonely months without you
You're the frostbite on my fingers
You're the sky that's tainted blue.

I try to forget it
I try to act like you were never mine
But when I wake up it's the same day
I repeat you leaving me in my mind
I wash my skin like a ritual
To try and wash your lips off mine
You're haunting me I can't escape
Cause you surround everything

Hurricane, you took your pain and destroyed me
Hurricane, I took the blame and avoided it
Hurricane, you took my heart and you swallowed it
Hurricane, was it all for nothing darling was it all in vain?

I try to move on now
And pretend you were never in my bed
But I can still hear your voice
Whispering words that you never really meant
I try to find love in others
But I can't find my home with them
You aren't alone I know this
Cause you get everything you want

Hurricane, you took your sadness and ignored mine
Hurricane, I tried to change but it was too late
Hurricane, my house was solid before you came
Hurricane, what did you get out of hurting me that night?

I hate you
Because I can't hate you
Loving you is all I know how to do.
You're a *******
You're infuriating
I want to slap you with my heart
I want to **** until we're screaming
I miss you
Because I can't hold you
And holding you is all my hands know how to do
I love you
**** I have to stop loving you
Why does my heart open every time I hear your name spoken?
I'm broken. I'm broken.

What's mine is yours
But you can give it back
You've seen my soul
But you spot the cracks
You touched my heart
And complained when it turned black
Under the weight of it all
That's when we fell apart.

I gave it all
But I always kept my walls built high
So you can't get through
And see what is in my mind
You told me you loved me
Then complained when the glass smashed
Under the influence
That's when we knew it wouldn't last.

Turn off the light
But I was always so restless
You pulled me close
But I just wanted to give you space
Cause you don't need me
I just make this harder
Goodnight darling
Tonight we will put this to bed then.

What have I become?
I'm sick of your tough love
Cause it is just too much
Trying to live up to what you want
Look at me (pathetic)
Searching through my pockets for more apologies
Cause I swear that you always win
You told me I'm an idiot and you hate me
But I know you love me
So show me your heart
I know I let you down with the drugs in my mouth
I know I let you down with the anger I keep
I have to let my guard down show you the real me.

What have I become?
When I met you I was sweet like bubblegum
But you turn me into someone I don't know
Cause I love you more than you could ever know
Look at me
Clenching my fists begging on my knees
Look into your eyes to make you see
That I am still the girl you love you don't hate me
But you can leave
If you really want
I cut my heart strings burn this to the ground
If I had a gun I'd shoot myself
I know I let you down with my reckless heart
You said I am too much for you
But all my love is sincere, it's true
I'd do this all again if I have you
By my side.

- A.W.

I'll push you away
To save my wasted heart
It's too late for us
This will tear us apart
Save me from the darkness in my soul
For I will never love again
Until I have you in my arms
Even if we are just friends
I need you to breathe
You said you were scared that I would die
But if I do don't blame yourself
Just move on with your life
Cause distance tortures me
I know that you are so strong
So when you give your heart to another
At least I will be gone.

My heart is empty
A void, darkness lies in me
There is no light to raise me up
For you were light to me.

My head is empty
Of any truth or reason
All I hear are my own lies
For you were hope to me.

My soul is lonely
I need someone to breathe
All happiness is miles away
For you were my reason to live.

Wonder child
Use me up
Like money
Use me up
Like drugs
We'll run away from the world
Just you and me
A ******* crusade
Campaign for a life of luxury
Where love is fast
And dope is free
I'll leave you addicted to me

I swore I'd make you happy
But it's never enough
I could give you my life
But you only show me tough love
You are a joker, you're a menace
I thought I was too
But you take my fragile heart
And break it in two
And you laugh oh you laugh and tell me to go
And when I get up to leave you swear it's a joke
You don't know how to be serious when it comes to love
There's a conflict in my head
A friction between my lungs.

Loving you is exhausting
But exquisite and intricate and haunting
The kind of love that lingers like the smell of smoke
From the candles in my bedroom
The kind of love that touches the crevices in my body
That no one has reached out to touch before
And yet there you are
In my veins, in my heart, holding me
Loving you is all I can do darling
I knew from the moment we spoke
That I would want you forever
And that is my promise to you.
Loving you isn't easy
Because loving you makes me crazy and insecure and worried
But loving you is a new journey that I am taking
A sacrifice that I am making
Something I must get used to; loving you.

I saw a glimpse of myself
Hardly recognised the face
Staring back at me through the glass
A life going to waste.

The lonely sun beckoned me on
Up towards the sky
All that's left of the future
Remains blurred behind my eyes.

I'm a soldier to my wars
Fighting battles of the past
Closed eyes are my armour
I fight to make my moments last.

I would rather be cast aside
Than live my life forced to abide
By what you want from me
By what I'm expected to be
My body is not yours to take
It's mine to give
It's my choice to make
So don't **** me when I turn away
And say "not now" I mean never again.
My body is a gift to give
Receive it as such
And bless it with grace
A temple of truth
A body of trust
To use it against me is far too much.

Don't come too close
I smolder without flame
Until you place your lips on mine
Set my world on fire; set me ablaze.
I warn you I may burn you
Not out of spite
But out of fear
Protect myself from the coal in our hearts
Together we may burn down anything that's near.
In early morning I cool down
From inferno to dimly lit flame
A flickering ember in the fireplace
A glow of warmth in the arms of you.

I'm naked in your sight
You look at me as if you see through me
See through all my mistakes
Exposing everything I've left behind
Look in my eyes and read my mind
I'm uncovered in your gaze
You tear off my mask, destroy my cage
Trace all my steps and walk through them
Viewing me for what I am.

You crawled under my skin
And made a bed in my chest
The weight of you is heavy
But knowing you're there gives me rest
Tore a hole in my heart
I keep your promises there
Soon you grip onto my veins
I lose my balance, you pull my chair
I feel you inside my bones
You made your way through my body
I need a map through your thoughts
I sit here frozen with worry
You smoked up in my brain
Clouded my sensible vision
I know that love it makes you crazy
But I swear you're an addiction

Losing weight
Losing my mind
Losing love
Losing time
Losing hope
Losing friends
I've fallen down a hole
And I've lost myself again.

I guess it’s time to realise that this is goodbye
You’re too far gone to need me in your life
I've been sitting up at night
Wondering when you forgot the light
That you told me you saw in my eyes
Everything you said that you felt, was it a lie?

I guess it's time to realise we're both growing up
You've got your work and I'm moving on, but my heart is stuck
I keep your face stuck in my head
Think about you and feel half dead
You made me feel like I was the best
Now you're gone this pain is weighing on my chest
Never wanted you as much as I do tonight.

I need to learn to forget you
I've done it a million times before
But something about you really touched a nerve
You're the closest I have come to love
Leave me in the dark
Don't turn around, don't come back it hurts too much
If you're leaving then leave now
Don't raise my hopes to drop them down.

I encompassed myself in a cocoon
To envision a transformation
I embodied myself like you
To become something worth gratification
I tasted the wine and I ate the fruit
But it all was a trick
Now they're coming for you
The serpent sleeps well knowing
I fell for the view
Got kicked out the garden
I'm destined for doom

You're an apparition
A ghost
You keep on switching
Behind the curtains
In the dark
I hear you moan
I feel your spark

The shambled emotions on the side walk
Singing songs with our eyes cause we’re dirt poor
And talk is cheap but I guess yours is free
And you never leave when you’re next to me
And I can’t help but push you away from here
Tearing paper skin with crocodile tears
Try and leave a mark, leave a scar
But it’s wearing thin, I bruise hard
The casualties of history
Oh treat me like you don’t know me
And if I die do not mourn me
Yeah if I am dying don’t resuscitate me

I have so much love in my heart
But don't let anyone love me
I take and take and push away
I bruise, I break, I bleed.

I crush the souls of those I meet
To get my daily feed
A dose of poison in my veins
Is all the love I need;
Heart breakers and hell-raisers
Can never love for free.

Why do I fall so easily?
Why does nobody satisfy me?
These questions seem to fill my troubled head
I push away before I'm hurt
I too have felt pain of the worse
Because with love and lust comes fear and greed.

I just wanted you to know me
I just wanted you to love me
I just wanted you to feel me
I just wanted you to hug me
I just wanted you to touch me
I just wanted you to breathe me
I just wanted you to keep me
I just wanted you to believe me

I just wanted you to want me
I just wanted you to haunt me
I just wanted you to pray for me
I just wanted you to hunt me
I just wanted you to **** me
I just wanted you to kiss me
I just wanted you to see me
Now I wish you would just leave me

I find serenity
In the faith others hold
In a being larger than us
Who we cannot see at all.
I wish I were able to conjure up a life
To lead others to salvation
To give reason to hard times.
I find healing
In others wisdom that others hold
In the words of forgiveness
When I fear I'm growing old.
I find hope
In the growth I see around every soul
In the plants and the earth
It makes me feel whole.

I'm grieving for a year that I held dear to me
For a year that taught me
That people will leave
But others will follow.
For a year that taught me that pain
Should be taken with a pinch of salt
And a shot of tequila
I mourn for a year of lost lovers
For now they have truly gone
A clean slate lays before me
But I wish that I could still hold on.
A year of fighting and kicking
To make something of myself
Or completely erase the things I've done
Thing's I've said
A year I made it to the hospital bed.
I mourn for a year I found myself
Found real friends and lost people I love
And now we move onto the next year
It's up to me now to make this one count.

We do what we do for a reason
And you may not understand my life
I cannot understand mine either
But it makes so little sense to fight
With the people I owe my success to
I'm successful in only one way
But success always leads to a downfall
And that is always the part that I play
No damsel in distress but I'm waiting
Because deep down I need to be saved
Cause my greatest enemy is myself
And my actions cut deep like razor blades
And I know deep inside I have power
But to release it takes more than I have
Maybe one day I'll stand on my own feel
Maybe one day I can just please myself.

You told me you were "addicted to me"
Who need's drugs, when I had a stronger affect
Your lips are ecstasy
Your heart is LSD
And I crave you like morphine
You numb me
When your gone I have withdrawals
The effect is so strong
You're not perfect
But you feel too right to be wrong
You hit me so fast
And I'm high for the night
But the rush never lasts
I need you here tonight.

You should have listened
When I said I wanted out
When I told you about the things in my head
When I said I was better off dead
You should have listened
When I said I needed someone
But I'm not blaming you for this
Don't get me wrong
You should have listened
At 3am when I was sobbing in my room
And you were sleeping peacefully
You should have listened
When I said that I loved you
The humble crack in my voice
Like it's the last chance for me to be true
But will you listen?
When I'm lonely and it's cold
And I need someone to protect me
This life is growing old
And if you listen
And give me a reason to stay
Then I promise you you won't regret this
I'm here when you feel this way.

I’m Pluto.
I’m a forgotten planet
In my galaxy isolated
Although others radiate around me
Over the stratosphere but I can’t penetrate my light
I look to find the solace; I feel safe when it is night.

Night time on my mind
Graffitied to the walls on my train ride
To where you live
You give anything to feel real
To feel alive
So you get drunk, get ******
To drown out the pain
But after you're done you still feel the same.
I cried to him in a drunken state
And he told me not to hurt myself
I told him to slap me round the face
He did, but I still didn't feel a thing.
We slept together, skin on skin
I felt my heart opening which worried me
Then quickly closing down
Metal bars, can't let you see
What you do to me.
The next day you called me a taxi
Asked me why I looked sad
And kissed goodbye to me
Your love bites don't mean a thing
You won't know this but I'm sinking.

My body aches
I've climbed a mountain
I got to the top
And called to the world below me
"Notice me"
But no one looked up -
So I got to my knees and begged
To the Rain God's
"Make me a storm
So they will look up to the sky
And they will see"
The Rain God's laughed
And roared with glee
"You are a storm, are mighty thee
Have you not heard the story of Goliath?
He was defeated by someone so small
They all are in your hands so throw
Your pebbles to the world my dear"
I crumbled
I looked out at the crowd approaching
My tears slid down the mountain-range
To fall below and tumble
Like I obliterated my false destiny
To be seen, I must see me.

On a pathway to self-destruction
I taught myself to live
To indulge in every moment
To laugh, to love, to give
And when the roads are weary
And death, he calls my name
I beg you for forgiveness
I beg you to forgive my sins
And all that glitters is not gold
I know this to be true
I though I was in love
But I was only fooled by you
But still I enter every moment
With ignorance and an open heart
I no longer wait for your call
Carpe momento
Carpe diem
Carpe noctem
Seize it all.

I write you poems all the time
Every time you cross my mind
My mouth never utters a word of you
But my mind it never shuts up, its true.

I write you poems all the time
And tear them up and say I'm fine
That I don't need you in my life
But my mind says otherwise.

I wrote you poems when we met
They were so different back then
I spoke of love and innocence
My mind was stuck on you, my friend.

I wrote you poems in Autumn
When the leaves died I thought of them
I thought of what we were back then
But we know things have to change again.