a glass half full
my life left dull
the failure to grasp, the loss of your touch
as if to my demise
I sometimes long to choke a little longer than I breathe
forget I have a throat that allows me to speak
for every word wish spoken can only come from your lips
to speak no words and listen to those unspoken
maybe I should trust the hallucinations
call it a living nightmare
remembering only our fantasy
it's like the anguish of misplacement
recovery without finding the resolution to what you cant find
and what you never meant to lose
one out of two the number of wounded,
I shall speak to the sky
and hope you hear me
as holistic as the moon
I'm not satisfy neither am I happy
Saying goodbye to you wasn't really my intention
You caused me sleepless night of worries and tears
Unbearable pain and countless heartbreaks
Intially, we were the most talk about couple
Our moves and steps got people calling us sweet names
You stole my heart and ran
Broke it into pieces and threw it right on my face
You betrayed me with hurtful words
Saying that you and I ain't compatible
You used me and dump me without any regret
I trusted you
I loved you
I did everything for you
This is how you could repay me
I'm totally a stranger and absolutely nobody to you
I got to let you go
I have hold onto you for long
Seriously, that has killed me numerous times
I'm sick of dieing a death that is worthless
To those pleasurable moments
The calls, sms, visits & hanging out
To 'I love you'
I miss you'
'You are my joy'
'I can't live without you'
'We were meant to be together'
Most especially you
At times the expected turn to be the unexpected. Life is full of uncertainty!!
like stars shredding onto soil.
suddenly I’m sinking,
& the world weighs like a wound
wrapped in the white, wet wool of winter;
autumn appears in amber, already
pulling out my pieces—
again, it aches;
death dawns in darkness
& I dance, drenched of the desire
to dream—breathing and breaking
bonded before, now they birth
a boundless burden;
nests its nails into my neck;
& I’m bone-broken, body-bloodied,
sprawling scarlet across my skin;
eclipsing with you,
I lose my light, looking for love,
& all of my colors cease to conceive;
on the saffron spine of summer
but the melancholy doesn’t melt away,
my sorrow in spring—
garnished with green grounds, I grieve.
as autumn plants her feet,
cities burst into smoke, shades
and silence, until I can only sit
& grieve as a ruby-dream fades
into the mist; tell me this is earth
breaking feasts to mark the birth
of our bond, tell me this remains
the season where hearts rain
like leaves as they, as we, fall
in love beneath golden trees
& we'll only need to loosen our all
to cling tighter than we please;
tell me that when the perils flee,
you'll return, arms open-- tell me.
send me away
to a place where i can scream
until my face turns blue
to a place where i have permission
to a place where despair is a art
instead of a sin
send me away
for i cannot find that here
Forever they had me fooled,
the fake flowers on my nightstand
Kept watering them, kept them in the sun,
Pools forming in the light sand
You’re buried too,
Not as close, it’s a fifty-mile drive
I don’t mind it though, I do it for you,
I think every time I arrive
You’ve had me fooled as well,
these flowers you can’t receive
And although these are real,
they’re just there to help me grieve
I miss you with all my being
having you in my life was so freeing
I miss the looks we exchanged
I miss the love we held so close
I see lovers every where
parts of me suffocates
as I know I won’t feel that with you anymore
parts of me awaits
as I feel this might still be a bad dream
I miss you with all my being
not having you makes my life meaning
-/- less beyond anyone can imagine
“I miss you” is the only three words on my tongue these days
When I remember all the people I knew that passed away.
I keep wondering; Were their spirits standing next to their bodies watching all the wailing and weeping ?
Were they saying. "hey stop crying I can see you!. ..Can't you see me?. I'm here ...I've not left"
Were they tired of not being heard, couldn't stand the tears then started off a lonely walk into eternity?
or maybe they were escorted by a host of angels ?
These answers I do not know....
What I know for sure is.. no matter how frequent death visits, it sure hurts afresh like hell!
To the many candles of our loved ones that lit off on earth, I pray they keep shining forever in eternity!
baby I really need to feel your hue
at least in my dreams
I have been feeling heavy since your birthday
drained - weary - weak - weepy
.so alone that I can taste the void inside me.
thought friends of yours be a help but they injected a deeper void within my soul
a reminder they aren’t you
no one can ever be the way you were
wish you were here to hold me
wish you were here to adore me
wish you were here to love me
wish you were here to care for me
.visit me.please.come back to me.
living without you everyday is another stab right into my heart everyday
.the wound is getting wider and stronger.
I so need you by my side. This road is so lonely without you.
all that I knew and all that I lived for is nevermore yet it’s forever-more
Forevermore, you are in my heart.