I love
      the safeness
                        and the coldness
                                               of your smile

i'll never stop thinking about you
and probably i'll never stop wanting you
for most of the times
i will forgive myself
for wanting to be so close to you
but why is it a bad thing?
why can't I be with you?
the fact that I love you and I want to be with you
doesn't mean that I hate life
they've told us
they've told us
i know we would be together
sooner if they've let me
but its a fact
i'll be dead

*and probably happier than now

try* to spend some time with others
try to act natural
try not to do anything stupid
try to be normal
try to not to do that
try to be yourself
try to smile
try not to feel bad
try to be less depressed
try to laugh at someone's jokes
try not to hide secrets
try to stop writing cheap poems in napkins
**try to get over it

One for me
One for you
One for everytime I felt like a fool
Oh, there you go, three
Two for him
When he said
"Make it sixteen"
Three for every meal
Four for every song
That destroyed my soul
One for the "was" and the "wasn't"
Then two more
Just for fun






There you have it
Enough to **** the pain
*Enough to **** myself

everything seems the same
then repeat
I can't express my feelings right
then repeat
I can't even make them look like a poem
then repeat
that's the thing about repetition
then repeat
it seems like it sounds nice
then repeat
but it sounds so ****** and agh

the guitar is shaking
while it delivers a mellow sound
her voice is sweeter than the night before
"how'd ya make it so vulnerable?"
he asks timidly
"it's just the feeling"
maybe it's the guitar, I thought to myself

after she stopped singing
I bought her a drink
gave her a kiss
and call it a day for her
we went to sleep like the first time
we just stared at each other's eyes
listening to the night
sometimes I wish we could go back

I want to **** myself
I want to know how it feels to be truly empty
I want to end with this with my hand

when I was a little child
I used to dream of days of happiness
days of being all colorful
now my days are just blue

"suicide is not the answer"
"this will be endless"

honestly
I don't care

polar lights
flashing before my eyes
sometimes I wonder what could it be
if we had to leave this town
we will never get to see those polar lights
again

but why would we leave
the place where we both grew up
where we lost ourselves in self-redemption
where we first started to love

oh, but when
did they gave us the right to choose
between staying or leaving?

I will miss everything

In my mind
You never left
In my mind
You're still here
In my mind
Everything's okay
In my mind
We're laying side by side
In my mind
We're not lying to ourselves
In my mind
*I'm not dead

I used to feel divine
I used to feel reckless
I remember that moment when
I felt
I said to myself
I could basically take over anything I wanted
now I'm just trying to organize
a messed up mind
almost hopeless
but fearless
thanks rivotril
**I hope I don't get too attached to you

suddenly we were tripping
suddenly we were feeling
and everything went behind
everything was falling
like a w
              a
                  t
                     e
                        r
                           f
                             a
                                l
                                  l

want me
as much as want you
care for me
as much as I care for you
hug me
as much as I want to hug you
kiss me
as much as I want to kiss you
talk to me
as much as I want to talk to you
just ask me how I am
cause I always do it for **you

so close yet so far
so thin yet so fat
so dark yet so bright
so wrong yet so right
so hot yet so warm
*so yours yet so mine

Cuando no quiero
no comprendo
Cuando no entiendo
no espero
Cuando empiezo a entender
empiezo a querer

Solamente es temporal
solamente es una hoja
cayendo en el estado floral
rozando tus labios
y estoy celosa
porque yo quiero ser parte de esos labios
quiero tenerte cerca y hablarte
quiero estar cerca y besarte
quiero perdonar y entregar
cualquier sentimiento de vuelta
a su futuro dueño que convenga
y que no me maltrate, por favor

have you ever wonder why I want you?
it doesn't matter
that's why
you don't bother me with your hands
you're naturally interesting
you grab me and tell me that you want to know me
you already know me
but I feel like I don't know you
and I don't own you
we know we are free to leave each other
whenever
whatever happens
you will remain special
but what's in for me?
now I know
now I'm realizing how
"post-love" works
even though after years of "moving on"
you're gone
it's hard to say that those
are literally years
of wondering why
why aren't we together at all
why do we exist without the other
why, why, why?
I still love you, why?
because it doesn't matter

where to begin?
                       where does it lead to?
                                                         will I ever be found?


                              the gates are closing in front of me
I got so close
              but then again,
                                                          ­                    I'm certainly lost
              but then again,
                                                          ­                    I've never found myself

maybe after all,
                               it leads me to you
                   it leads to nowhere
                                                  *(nowh­ere with you)

and I'm not even mad
        I'm not even sad
                                              but the fact that you're so tender to me
          breaks my heart into a million
                                                         ­      *tiny
                                                          ­           pieces

I'm so fortunate
            I've never found myself
                                                    as devoted as I feel
                                                            ­                         to you,
                                                            ­                                    *my sweetest

y seguíamos con los ojos cerrados
sintiendo la fría brisa de diciembre
las luces a medianoche
recordándome que no estás aquí
que no estás acariciando mi cabello
y seguíamos faltándonos el respeto
por no estar juntos
por ser como somos y no permitirnos estar juntos

“es cuestión de ocasión”
dondequiera y como sea
no te dejaré ni por un segundo
pensar que la noche muere
que la luna brilla
y nosotros no estamos juntos
mirando las mismas estrellas
preguntándonos de dónde vino esto

estarás siempre
serás parte de mi
incluso estando lejos
estarás cerca de mí

Let me be your weakness
Let me be your biggest mistake
Let me be your sensitive nerve
Let me be your weakest bone
Let me be the one who hits you against the floor
Let me be the only one who wants you to die
Let me destroy you
Let me love you
But you just have to accept
That you're me

As the stars falls
As we began to fall
The piano starts to play
I want to play you
All the beautiful songs you should know
I want to tell you
All the beautiful things you should know

I like the being cold
And if it's hard to find
I can see it in your eyes

*oh

close your eyes
tell me what is it
don't let those crazy eyes
don't let them cry
keep looking at me
I won't step aside
don't give up on me

I wrote you a song
about all the little things you like
I wanted to take it slow
but the rush between the both of us
couldn't make it any slow

I just wish I could have known you better than this

embriagada por lazos de espera
la leche dulce roza mis mejillas
el olor de tu llegada contempla
contempla nuestra huida
                   [ven a buscarme
tengo tres cosas que buscar en ti
tengo tres razones para huir
la noción del tiempo se pierde
entre lámparas y té caliente
                     en la cafetería del sur]
embriagada por no querer
formulando respuestas de preguntas
que decidí olvidar
soñando entre hortensias para no dejar
de cortar

he likes to know how to change everything
he likes to say how it's the ending
he likes to run fast and not to care
I honestly don't like the change
he makes me feel like I'm on my way
but, what way?
the way to please him
the way to need him
the way to make him
being as happy
as he can

like getting through the end of song you really enjoyed
like accidentally listening to someone's voice and thinking it's him
like a whistler on the subway
that takes you back to the moment
we first fell in love

you don't even try to see the light
you don't even try to look out
you don't want to

how does it feel
to burn your skin like this
to put your heart out
so easily
that anybody could just grab it
and take it away

maybe it doesn't feel like this
maybe I'll be there
as long as you keep your promises
and love me as my heart beats

feel my frightened skin
my voluptuous insecurities
feel my silence breaking
wave by wave
slowly turning into **this

I can barely sleep
I can barely eat
I can barely stand
in front of you
I can barely say or express
my feelings about this mess
I can barely tell
how much I will be dead
I don't feel it
I don't need it
I don't want go easy on it
I can barely see
how much would you mind
to be my valentine

new ways to feel sad
new ways to be disposable
new ways to be auto destructive
new ways to be the same riff
just playing on repeat
new ways to stop myself from going