Why do I say it’s nothing… When it’s killing me inside?
I turn my face away from the bright light Upon darkness To lie there unknown by all
If only they knew what thoughts flooded my mind I build dams to block them And bridges to walk across But dams can’t hold it back forever And the bridges seem to fail…
My hands are weary I can feel my soul grow old And my eyelids droop low I can’t keep doing this forever
I wish someone could hold me So when the waters rise It wouldn’t feel so cold And lonely I could tell them all Without judging myself But it all just fails again and again Leaving cuts on my thighs And bruises in my heart So why try this time Or the next time
I have a mind darkened by misery Nobody would dare to touch it They could just have someone better
I tell myself “Just hide away so you don’t lose more Do you really think they care? They’re going to hate you now Better forget yourself No one will ever love you” It’s slowly killing me Burning me from the inside out Can you see the flames? I won’t be here much longer And all that will remain Is an empty soul once filled with joy.
Not the kinda Lady who'd quickly step a guys way. I'm a smooth unrushed latte. cold drink sipped slowly give ya a brain freeze if you got in a hurry. I'm a colorful cool flurry.. Stir me quick the colors can get too blurry. Haha lolzz my temp fails. Train tracks can't be derailed. A slow story read, browsed gently..pages turned kindly. I'm not rhyming just to sound pleasantry. Time I understand.. But its not a reason to step away or get out of line with destiny's plan. Be about your quick sought errands seek your own plans. I'm a cool cup of coffee best sipped romantically in the right hands. By selinasharday rose S.A.M 2020 9/1/20
I just wish people could understand about my wellbeing without I had to tell it to them.
Because sometimes a little part of me wanted me to hurt myself so that the pain that hurting my mind and soul, could just go away and replace by the pain from the blood that was dripping all over my hand.
Its better that way. Rather to be in pain silently and slowly falling apart.
I was having a sudden mental breakdown. That moment I realize how stuck and lonely I am, that I’m always been ignore.