17th - Hello Poetry

17th Dec 2019

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It's easier to grieve than to keep giving without getting anything back
It's easier to grieve than to keep giving without getting anything back

It's easier to grieve than to keep giving without getting anything back
It's easier to grieve than to keep giving without getting anything back
It's easier to grieve than to keep giving without getting anything back

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17th Dec 2019

the only one

I'd rather be whining about unrequited teenage love
than to suffer the complicated things about adult relationships
I miss worrying about my appearance the way I did
in a idealized way
secretly hoping it would all be a matter of time

I miss being alone in my room
not being alone in my apartment

I do realize I'm stronger
I do realize I'm wiser
I do realize I'm independent
I do realize I'll be through it
But I still cry and feel fearful
vulnerable
breakable

#rant #love #sad #depression #relationships #etc

17th Dec 2019

i'm the joker, baby!

cringe.
*******
*******
*******
*******
*******

you're immature
emotionally unstable
you're ******* rude
*******
*******

I love you
but you're an *******
I love you
but this will not work this way

I'm the biggest joke of all
because I believed you were different
I believed you were smarter
I believed you were wiser

go *******
go and forget about me
go and pretend to care about another one
go and pretend to love another one
go
just ******* go

#rant

17th Dec 2018

delicate (2016)

whenever I try to make myself comfortable
I make a mess out of the situation
whenever comes a time when you get up
I only watch you leave empty and clean

you're sweet
you're kind
I'm always a mess

your moans
they call me in the middle of the night
they sound like a small kitten
looking for warmth

I often picture myself
with my head between your tights
singing softly a lullaby

I often picture myself
holding your hand
making you happy and safe

17th Dec 2018

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estaría bueno sentirse
como la primera vez que te vi
eternamente preparada y nerviosa
ansiosa, ebria, bonita, casi invencible

estaría bueno sentirse
como la primera vez que te quise besar
insaciable
muy ebria

estaría bueno sentir
que no me falta el aire
que estoy segura
que quiero

estaría bueno estar

17th Dec 2018

lista de incomodidades

la fricción entre las uñas y la pared
el frío al sentarme en la silla
las noches cortas de verano
sonidos agudos
pérdida de conciencia
estornudos frustrados
ausencia

17th Dec 2018

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you're so distant
you make me feel alone