I thought the test was done and over
I thought that there was no more need for a mask
Yet I only proved how much space is seeking for something like the usual knowledge that fills it
I thought the ****** has already peaked
That peace is always what comes after war
That I was finally allowed to break face and stretch my cheeks
I never once thought that there was space for more
That I haven't yet escaped the forced normalcy everyone is insisting to keep
That I've always played around in the palm of their hands with no chance to get away
The birds are chirping continuously in a rhythmic beat
Found in the chamber where I keep everything I hold dear
With each chirp loudly echoing in the nothingness it is encased in
I can feel it around me
The growing goose bumps on my skin
The ghostly presence I still consider tentative
The piercing silence that I am afraid to break
I am still looking for that four leaf clover
The one that can finally rearrange the stars according to my sign
One that can make a bench warmer like me worth something
Yet a doll that holds no importance whatsoever
Is only a useless way of using space
Where a shiny medal or a bright smile can be placed
How much even is the worth of a doll
That is burnt and chipped all over that the child who once held it dearly
Now looks at it in shame
Shoved far away and below everything else
Even below baby pics and year old mints
What use are they anyway in a world where everything must be convenient and valuable
What is the purpose of staying in this world that makes you feel no longer needed
It doesn't matter if you are unique
Cause if you are useless
You are worthless
for you being the only one i have to count on
you sure aren’t really there for me lately
maybe my everything isn’t enough for you
and that’s not your fault
but before you count all the things i couldn’t give you
don’t forget the times you took advantage of me too
i hope i’m enough for someone one day
How do you forgive yourself
For all the things
You never became?
It’s the way she talks, the way she walks
It’s how her hair flows in the wind
There are so many things I don’t know where to begin
Her smile, saying it’ll be worth while
Her eyes that glisten with mischief
Her body and curves
It’s how she acts that gets on my nerves
And of all the people of the world
You are the one I fear the most
I’m so afraid you will take everything
Then unconsciously you’ll boast
It riddles me with fear
You spark a harsh light in my heart
Pitting holes within my stomach
Tearing me apart
And all because I’m jealous
Jealous of only you in this world
And whenever I look at you I think
I’ll never be enough
Poem after poem I write
Trying to extinguish this fright
But my insecurities keep me company
You set me on fire with your “light”
I’ll never get over this complex
This deep rooted thing of you
Feeling Inferior and worthless
No matter how many say it’s not true
Because thinking of it always makes me feel blue
All on top with the fact that I’m losing you
What a pitiful mess
Just lay me to rest.
I’ll never measure up to her
No matter how hard I try
All I do is meaningless
When in a moment she can ****** it away
Salted, flimsy orange rinds,
bittered instead of sweetened:
these are all I eat nowadays.
Crystalline textures coat my insides,
my blood pressure’s at an all-time high,
and my tensions are shooting through the roof.
By god, I’m so naïve,
So untouched by anything other than this,
it seems unlikely
that I would taste such saccharine things,
I’d be much more inclined to shrivel up my insides,
dehydrate all my limbs and pack them
like raw meat in a harsh winter.
I feel useless again.
this poem might as well be the poem wilted's long lost cousin
slob for no job
going for a second degree, yet cant take a number 3
what will become of me, I wonder
Left pondering on my own since words I hear are mixed
So brilliant you are!
Try here and here
. . .
What good am I?
I wish i could do
The right ******* thing for once
But i guess i cant
I never know the right thing to say or do.
Look at me
I'm not wax. I'm still because I'm sad
And I want you to hold me.
Don't put a lighter by my legs
I'm not a candle that can melt
But I am stuck in place
'Cause I want you to hold me.
Look at me, those purple welts
Are there because I carved them
Into me, my flesh, not wax or dough.
My lips are lilac with infection.
All I want is for you to hold me.
Why do you think I'm wax?
Plastic doesn't melt as fast as me
Because I'm made of weakness
(Weakness and bad decisions)
And it's true I'm unresponsive
But your voice gives me goosebumps,
And goosebumps are real.
Surely? Surely you'd reply
If I told you I'd nearly died, wax can't die
Wax can't die or *****.
I'm waiting for a response because
Its 3:19 and I want you to hold me.
We love a hangover poem addressed to the guy who cares about me with around 45% of his available emotions
I'm sorry for loving you
I'm sorry for missing you
I'm sorry for needing you
I'm sorry for wanting you
I'm sorry for clinging onto you
I'm sorry for wishing you were mine
I guess all i can say is I'm sorry
Because all i ever was,
Was a nuisance to you.
I'm sorry for everything
For being alive
Weeks ago when I tried to leave
You refuse to let me
You told me you weren't ready to let me go
I guess this time when I left for good
It didnt bother you
Since I no longer have any worth or use in your life