Tonight we dance like pagans
Take my wrist with your tongue
******* words like the perfect combination of salty and sweet
Lift me high so I may crumble in your arms
Beads of sweat as much of a story to tell
As the tears you and I have shed over habits and heartache
Floating like a swift mist as heavy as dew
It doesn't have to make any sense
It's the soul finally letting go in random spores of silk
Simply titled but definition entwined
Like the calmest you in my arms
The deity's declare us their favourites tonight
So take my eye with your hand
Let's pray we never have to be alone again

I wish you didn't have to hurt like you do

Burnt my lip on a cigarette while I was thinking of you
I hate to say it but I think I wanted it too
My gut hurts and twists and feels so ******* distraught
All because you loved me and left me without second thought.
I know you're not mine and I'm not yours either
I know she's better and without habit and a believer
But it still ***** to know you won't reply
Because I lost you and you got what you wanted, all in one night.

I watch myself in the mirror
Falling apart with every tear
I wish I could get high
Like my friends
Without crashing so **** hard
I wish I could take pills
Like my mom and step dad do
But they always make me throw up
Even after one or two
I wish I could lose myself in games
Or books
Or ****
But they all bore me or only make me
Uncomfortable
I don't have a fix so I relieve myself of thoughts
By taking the blade of some scissors
And driving them into my thigh with force
It helps only a little because there's only so much
One can do
I'm depressed and stuck because I'm so different
To all of you
Nothing works but I'm willing to try
Writing used to be it
So was dancing and singing
And playing piano
And talking to my friends
But I'm older now and not as gifted
As the child I used to be
And no one wants to listen to a nutty chook you see
So now I'm alone with my thoughts
And they're slowly killing me

As much as I love you
I'd rather a cigarette right now
Because even though it could **** me
It never grabbed my throat
And squeezed
Only filled my head with smog
And lungs with tar
And my mouth with a taste I could never forget
Unlike you
So yes
I'd rather a cigarette right now
As much as I love you

The flesh is so smooth and tender on your face
Right now I wanna watch you bleed
Oh how sweet your flesh would taste
Just take a bite of your cheek
Your dentist bill did you well
My teeth gnashing on your jawline
If there was a god I'd go straight to hell
Who's to say I would stop at one bite?
If I bound you down I'd go all night
I chose you for your eyes
Popping them out with nails
Burying my face in your thighs
I won't gag you, I like it when you wail
Just let me devour you whole
Like I did on our first date
I love you for your soul
Now get on my plate

Imagine if I hadn't of written this poem
Would the few before this have seen more likes?
Is it unfair of me to jot down my every thought on a whim
Without allowing the last to breathe?
Would this poem be treated any different
Or see the fate of my last
If not now then when?
Will it trend and ignite envy in my last 4 published?
Or will you do as the title states
And ignore this
And read the one before it?
Respect every poem to your greatest ability
And read every word as if it were
Your
Last

I know you aren't a poet
I know you don't write songs
I know you don't have a lot of money
I know you forget your wrongs
I know you aren't the girl of my dreams
I know you want to die
I know you forget I exist sometimes
I know you break down and cry
I know you don't tidy up much
I know you get low
I know you give up really easy
I know you don't let it show
But I know you try your best everyday
And that your heart is true
So for all the bad inside your head
Just know I'm here for you

You don't have to say it
Though I love it when you do
You don't have to buy me things
But I love that a lot too
You don't have to text it to me
Or yell it down the street
Because I know you truly love me
When you hold me in your sleep

I'm cold
But I still care
I'm distant
But I wish you were here
My head and my heart don't go hand in hand
Unless that hand is strangling the other in demand
I'm hurting too but don't pity me
I need this, I know it, you know it, someday we'll see
If I get better and you do too
Maybe there's peace in this life again for me and you

No drugs for me they **** with my head
No alcohol either
I say everything that shouldn't be said
Videogames are just no fun
Binge watching **** can ******* undone
Reading gets boring
So does Facebook, pinterest and Skype
Hanging out with some people PAH
I don't have a single one who's my type
I don't like the gym or watching movies all day
I don't like children I never learned how to play
I'm not fussed on cooking and sewing gets old
I've grown out of my friends
That's a fact I've been told
So what can a person do when they don't click with the rest
And being alone brings tears no less
It looks like I'll never fit in

I'll never make it out of here
In this world of the poems I smear
The life of woe and despair
In a manner of all that is beautiful and rare
I see no more, I just want to disappear
It's the rise of a cancer I can't bear
It's the fall of a depression I'm not allowed to share
All you can do is stop and stare
And all I can say is, even if I dare
I'll never make it out of here

I wish I could believe it when you say I'm an angel
I know you love me, you and everyone else
Looking to me like some kind of a guide to raise you from perdition
But I'm only in it for myself
Because I love every man, woman and creature the same
And you are just another heart to break in my midst
I am no Angel I'm just a person
Like you
Only different
I've found myself and people like you are drawn to that
My confidence my style my originality my abundant need to help
But I'm a curse not a blessing
I am no good

Come in, sit down you've been here before
That girl you hate
She's not me
All the poison ****** dry along with my temptations
A bruised heart
A patient soul
Too honest for her own good, believe me, it's me
Head's in hell but you can be free
I may not be able to set you free but you've given up before you've let go
Forgiveness rests all bitterness

I am not wise
I am far from old
But I am impulsive
I have flown
I have fallen
I have loved
I have lost
I have wanted
I have feared
I have had my doubts
I have had my beliefs
I have denied everything I loved
I have blindly suffered everything I hated
I have lived
I have died
I have come back to face the devil
I have found him in me
I have repented with a razor blade
I have smoked my lungs dry
I have loved the world with open eyes
I have had the world taste me with envy
I have been gold
I have been silver
I have been bronze
I have been everything and nothing all at once
I have done enough
I have had enough
I have held my breathe for too long
I have been cold for a while
I have a smile on my face
I have lived
I have been
I am finally free

We all fall in love
In love with faces and places
We all fall for something different but one thing the same
We can't help ourselves with words
Every tiny syllable like rain, we drown in a typhoon
No one can escape the rapids of language
Words are desperately sought after, and so overused
But we cling to what we fall for so deeply
And that is the words we whisper
Announce
Sing
Read
And utter to each other

Fragrant
Her very name a typically beautiful flower
But to me, Jasmine is my queen.
I love her to death
I'd burst out of my petals to tell her so!
But she's someone else's flower now.
And even though she picked me first,
I continue to wilt
Without her.

I am no saint but I'm not the only sinner

I watch you move between my palms
What a soul you are between your bones
Straddling skin like a sacrilegious nun basking in the glory of Satan
Just a taste on my tongue
Like bitten words of repression you ache for mercy
Funny how we are nothing but rot in the end
And still I love you, in the state you are in
A far cry from lively
But still
Just as lovely