Don't ask me what the time is I wouldn't have a clue All I know right now is that I know you Know your body the way it curves and moves. I never know the date don't ask me that But I do know you love kisses on your neck And the parts you think are fat. I may not know much but one thing rings true I always have and probably always will Love the dumb things you do to make me love you
I give you flowers and tears You give me sarcasm I wish you would show a little more sympathy You'd rather I get a backbone I whisper unspoken love on your shoulder You say it with a mothering tone I have a panic attack whenever something doesn't fit You dismiss it all with an iron fist I dream of a place full of love and passion You're just thankful you even exist Money, ***, miscommunication and occasional road trips It's not necessarily a bad thing just Our own sort of a **Dysfunctional relationship
You will find me between the earth and sky For the earth is my mother A fertile lover A girl with the deepest brown eyes The sky is my father A long lost brother With a set of bright blue eyes I will kiss the earth lay with her each night But it is the sky who holds my heart I love the earth, with all of my might But the sky won't tear me apart
She has no face Your head is spinning, your pants are tight She is not gonna complain She's asking for it Get her on her knees and unzip She's not crying she's fine Slap her silly til she ***** Hold her there bury her cries in your lap Take her innocence Take it TAKE IT ***, ***, *** She's not crying now is she? She's not making a noise anymore is she? You can't even see her expression She has no face to you She's not your sister anymore She's damaged goods Discard her Discard her THROW HER AWAY And never tell mom and dad She's a broken doll
You make me feel like a fool You have me thinking I'm crazy You **** me with your eyes and act like its nothing at all You were never one to kiss and tell But you tell me no and kiss me senseless I don't know why I'm still here Burning up and cooling down every time you hold my ear Three times I love you Three times no Too many masqueraded intentions and submissions If only you'd open up and let me know Nothing matters more to me than the trust The tryst was fun but the mystery is enough Kiss and tell and hold my lips No more talking, no more lies, I plead Gift me this.
Inspiration throbbing in my brain None of that makes sense I'll try again. Words knock knock knock but I can't get them out; Cracking my skull in nose bleeds of doubt. How can I let them know what I mean? I just have to let it out but I'm too choked up to scream. The worst thing about being an artist is: Nothing can truly express the essence that is this
Be my words that my heart can't stand Take a breathe and hold my hand for the Last time I'll ever feel Will be the last time I know you are for real You guide me through the poorest daze Of my classroom detention haze with the Soft lull of your beating heart it's Getting harder to fall apart however When you're gone I don't want to be without Your arms holding me I wish That Heaven did exist but you know well if Heaven was real we'd go straight to Hell But this bond it is meant to be that You and I were made to see only Through the touch of your lips to mine so Drink me up like a cup of wine and make it Last until the end of time
He keeps me warm and sets me on fire Everything I never expected yet desire Condemned a cheater, a fool and a liar Only to give me wings and take me higher He loves me well, let me never tire A lover, a poet and the highest of flyers
Why are women so ******* beautiful? They lead men to their deaths like sirens They bring them back to life with a kiss They take on beautiful shapes and sizes They have the most softest skin And kindest eyes They can make someone and break someone With just a smile or a tear Women are powerful, spiritual, sensual creatures They create life, hell and heartbreak They build people up and tear them down They are wild beings that curl up in laps They go out of their way to love you Or avoid you completely Women are advanced humans spinning webs In every direction with such complexity I am a woman and I can't understand them But I want to love them All of them As much as any fool-hearty man Would absent mindedly do To love a woman is to love everything We don't understand... And then some
Shallow breathing and bad circulation Asthma and Bipolar disorder type 2 Clingy and dependent at the same time distant Anxiety and a whole lot of love for **you
I never thought about it that much But making conversation is really hard stuff Put me on stage without a script and I'll shine Put me in a group of girls and I'll cry Because I'm a one of a kind extroverted introvert Really ******* confident and out of it But incredibly ******* shy I never really thought about what I say that much I think the most honest form of communication is touch If I want you out of my space I'll mumble "go away" But my actions are a lot louder throwing a punch at your face I struggle over Facebook when you say "what up" Because I'll say "hey" and immediately log out Its like my personality wants to be known But my words are muffled and rarely shown I'm a one of a kind extroverted introvert I don't expect you to understand
Our song came on the radio today It made me sad at first Then I realized I wasn't in love with you I was in love with the music So I sang it loud For me
I kind of wish my scars didn't fade Like all my pain is destined to be invisible On the inside On the outside Everyone who sees my thighs will never know Because they don't look when they are visible On the outside On the inside Is there no one who will take the time? To see deeper than what isn't there? On the inside On the outside Because if all my troubles are for naught No one will ever know No one will ever give a thought
I wish my scars didn't fade
Everything fades over time. It's just a shame it takes that long for someone to notice that not everything is quite alright On the inside
In winter I bundle up tight in layers of warmth Like a love I've never felt Draping scarf over hoody over sweater over skivvy The wind bites my button nose and reminds me of a love A love I know too well Bitter cold brief sickening and harsh I catch my eye in an ice smitten mirror and I'm torn My eyes look like hell How could anyone love me like warmth and fall For this fat face of shame, tears and freckles Even if they do They'll never tell.
You've ****** the life out of me Everything that made me feel good about myself You now use against me I helped you I supported you I made sure you could stand Now it's like you don't want what's left of me When all you needed was my hand
It's like The sky came down and pinched the back of my neck And took me too high too fast So I shout And I laugh And I say inappropriate things Other times it's like The sky drops me and I know I'm falling So I panic And flail And fight the inevitable But it's no use there's nothing I can do to reduce the fall I crash I go real quiet and my head is tearing itself apart My friends my family my own lover has no idea What's going on What it's like Or how to help Or that I know what's happening and can't help it either So they get annoyed Even angry And so do I because I know it's affecting them Almost as much as it's hurting me So I cry And I cry And then I cut Or snap my wrist with a hair tie Because pain is the only thing that can wake me from the numbing terror The grip of manic depression has on me
I feel the need to explain myself, ALL THE TIME and I know it's mostly all in my head. But I'm so sorry friends, family and lover for "being emotional" all the ******* time. It annoys me as much as it bugs all of you.
I never thought someone could love me I'm moody and giggly and clinically depressed I have hair all over me and very lumpy ******* My ribs jutt out and my shoulders are too wide I have bony hips with chubby thunder thighs I panic too often I ******* **** at breathing I cry too much and I'm ridiculously needy But here you are my knight in fleshy armor Equally as flawed but my perfect little charmer You love me and kiss my feet I love you too and that's pretty neat x
Its a sign When the ex comes back Its a test When they all come back in the space of a week You thought they were gone Out your window In prison Off to South Africa Happily married But then they find you and catch you Off guard Just as you're moving on
I remember so much that I forget The same story I've told over and over again How we met That time I made a complete fool of myself My dream I had 5 years ago Everything Because I'm worried I might forget What made me happy and why So I'll tell you over and over Until the day I Can't anymore because not only am I scared That I'll forget But that you'll forget what we've done What we did before we became one Because sometimes I repeat myself But please don't be mad at me I'm only forgetting I told you So we never forget to remember That we were always meant to be
I do repeat myself and I'm sorry I tell the same stupid awkward weird sometimes boring **** 6 times a day But I want you to know I'll never forget how I feel about you And why I feel that way now
For the time being it will hurt like it did the first time For the next week it will shock you in front of a million For the time after that you will have but a scar For the rest of your life it will be but a memory You will cast upon only every now and then Chin up beautiful stranger It'll only hurt a little In time
I see them all the ghosts from my past Smiling taking selfies with the "squad" who kisses their **** They have everything handed to them Everything laid out for them Their futures paid for them Those narcissistic freaks that took me for granted. So maybe I am a creep as radiohead describes Maybe I'm a nerd and live a different kind of life But one thing is for certain until the day I die I'm better off without you ******* You're living a tedious lie.
You never cared for me anyway, no wonder I was bullied so much. My "friends" were behind it all.
It's ******* terrifying Like one half of your brain is tearing away from the other Nothing is in your control anymore Scream, cry, ******* kick a wall It's always the same Not knowing which way you're gonna fall When you can't make up your mind And its one or the other but you can't pick YOU WONT Because it's not something you can do The most BASIC decisions you will make in a day Are the hardest decisions you'll ever overthink Everything.... Is too much We're all psychos We are all beyond help Because we are an anxiety, depression trodden society And it all comes down to the unknown And that's ******* terrifying
I'll be at the ball in my tutu and fishnets While I idolize the girls with the long hair and dresses The money thrown at them by loving parents While my outfit is made up of spare change and short tresses But I'll wear my mohawk high because even though I look out of place and not as royal as you I am me and true to my name While you are just the same ******* dolled up
I like to watch you eat While I grab my crotch and beat To the thought of your feet Bound to the seat I lie awake at night And watch you get a fright When I slip my **** in dry It's the most satisfying sight You're lovely in the shower When I turn off all the power And ******* for an hour Like the toughest little flower You say you want to leave And be some kind of free That it's not okay for me To treat you like a sheep I slam close the door And treat you like a ***** It's time to even the score As you fall down on the floor Honey you know I said "You're the one for me, don't dread The life we would've spent, But you're safer if your dead" Her skin was cold and blue Like the things I felt for you That left me so unglued It's funny what love will do
Make me or break me You can know that once you're through with me I will make every straight girl question her sexuality And only taste one for the rest of my life Because I am a loyal ***** And you are a town ****
She had glitter in her eyes It wasn't the first time someone had put it there But this time was not because of a boy Or a miscarriage Or a cry for help left unread But because of a shower And somebody who loved her enough To kiss the glitter away
It burns I can't help but laugh at my own tears Anticipating you and what you keep in your jeans. It's silly...... CRAZY even! That I could sit rubbing myself against the edge of the bed While you are.... Where? Where are you? Clearly not here Not close enough Not hard enough I can't sleep I can't eat I can only watch you and weep I'm sorry, come back I wasn't going to bite... But I could if you wanted me to.... I'm hysterical my love, I can go all night
She adorns herself in leather and lace For a lover she is Such a beautiful face She flicks her liner at magnificent angles Admires her stretched lobes Her obsession, newfangled She writes her fears away with every stroke Of the brush Her elegance bespoke A timeless view on a world so violent Her fingers of grace Her hair of violet A goth, she is an open mind A poetic human being To a world unkind
Oh Hala'mir if only you knew When you look at me I see more than blue There's a past a present and future shining through And you have no idea how deep my love rings true. Oh Hala'mir if only you could see That when you look at me my eyes so green There's pain and lust and so much suffering I feel it every time I say go and you leave. Oh Hala'mir this is the end From here on we are only friends I'll watch from a distance as you and her make amends Forgive me Hala'mir, my heart will always be broken.
This is an old poem and the person is no longer relevant but I had put so much heart into this I couldn't let it be private anymore
The world looks so small from up here In the hanging tree Problems once extreme now obsolete In the hanging tree Tell me now your love has died In the hanging tree Its going to be Ok now, I feel so high In the hanging tree
I never imagined you'd be the first To take my beating heart and drink it with such thirst I'm face to face with a vampire Unsure of how cold to leave me See it was you who turned me a pale blue And left the bite mark on my chest Only to reside in the coldest depths Of a hardly heartfelt memory
I brought it on myself I let myself fall into a relationship where I knew I'd have to compete With substances and others and ******* on the street I brought this on myself When I told them what I thought and finally opened my mouth Only to be despised and insulted and thrown off the shelf I brought this on myself I got myself into a rut and complained about it Until I finally did something, out of character, and burnt everyone else There lies no sympathy in hell for someone no one cares to understand Well I've given up I'm done Let the devil take my hand
Sometimes I choke back tears Sometimes I hinder in doorways Sometimes I'm just numb But I'm always throwing up anti depressants Sometimes I feel like nothing at all Sometimes I use the scissors Sometimes I OD Then I'm throwing up anti depressants Sometimes I think it's all okay Sometimes I smile again Sometimes it's not worth it So I'm throwing up anti depressants Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever wake Sometimes I wonder if I want to Sometimes my dreams are everything I'm just throwing up anti depressants
Go ahead and try me Your crystallized fists won't shatter me A sociopath of your own invention Tears may fall They won't get my attention I'm a thousand miles above you Watch my tornado rain You no longer move my plateau Get that through your brain
He has a crooked smile And the brow of an old soul. He used to cut and smoke a lot In his grace it's taken it's toll. But he doesn't have to cry no more He's found his weight in gold, She knows his past and holds his heart Her love now makes him whole.