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Jul 2016 · 1.2k
Untitled
Randi G Jul 2016
I think the saddest thing to happen to me
Was falling out of love with you.
Being in love with you-
Entranced, obsessed, consumed
-Was such a part of who I was at the time.
Everyone knew I loved you,
Some knew you still loved me too,
I had people asking me about our story
Because they loved us just as much as I did.
Noticing you weren't my storybook prince
Was like losing a piece of who I was.

I'm sorry that I hurt you.
You put on a front that nothing could phase you
But I'm sure it must have been painful.
I got what I wanted, I'm not sure if you did
I'm sorry our reunion was also our death.
Jul 2016 · 958
Untitled
Randi G Jul 2016
You were so afraid I wouldn't love you.
You'd never been with a straight girl
As a man before..  but you're all man to me.
You're strong and resilient,
Handsome and kind.
You can be a pain in the *** but in a good way
And I keep coming back for more.
You were so afraid I wouldn't love you
But I fell in love with you hard and fast.
Every inch of you is a new piece to love.
There are a lot of pieces you hate and
You still chose to share those with me.
Hesitantly, but I think you learned quickly
I love you anyway.
It's been a rocky road for us, you're going
Through a lot of changes and I've found myself
A bit stuck in the middle of it all
But if you can love me the way I love you then
Our rocky road is my yellow brick path.
Mar 2016 · 544
Untitled
Randi G Mar 2016
I thought I was helping
but I never did
I pushed you until
you couldn't take it anymore.
I wanted perfection and
thought you were it
so when you weren't
I couldn't take it either.
we both died a little,
you died a lot,
but I'm sorry I pushed so hard
I nearly pushed you off the edge.
Mar 2015 · 491
Scribbles
Randi G Mar 2015
I hate how words can drop your mood.
The plummet of my stomach with
A single text from you.
Words are only lines, you see
A scribble shouldn't make me scream.
Feb 2015 · 3.5k
Beautiful?
Randi G Feb 2015
What makes me feel beautiful is makeup and hair dye.
I love to paint my lips a bright pink, but I get upset
When that is all anyone sees.
I work on my physical appearance so much,
pasting my hair down perfectly, making sure my
eyeliner is symmetrical.
I get angry when no one sees what my personality can be
but truthfully, I don't work on that half as much as I work
on my outward appearance.
Maybe my insides aren't beautiful enough to compliment.
Maybe my hair is the best thing about me.
Maybe I'm not worth what I think I am.
Unless you count my "beauty."
Feb 2015 · 976
Bubbling
Randi G Feb 2015
Raising is a feeling
I've never felt before
Not one of love
But one of gore.

I can feel it bubbling
From deep inside my chest
An aching need to *****
To give myself a rest.

I know it wouldn't help much
Problems would still be there
But maybe if I focused
I'd stop focusing on despair.
Feb 2015 · 341
My Garden
Randi G Feb 2015
I knew he was the one when
He wanted to grow plants with me.
He didn't want to buy me a rose,
He wanted to grow me a garden.
The offspring of our joined love
And a living representation
Of our beauty.
Feb 2015 · 564
Warm Puddles
Randi G Feb 2015
Only sweet like honey
Because you've dipped your toes
Dabbled in black magic
In - the rest of you goes.
I watch you spiral downwards
In a pool of milky light
Will you be my downfall
Or my last delight?
Feb 2015 · 11.0k
Pieces of Pisces
Randi G Feb 2015
Little pieces of you flow through my veins among the plasma and blood cells. Bits of you bump into molecules of oxygen and they smile. My heart loves you. It pumps you through my ventricles and asks my body not to filter any of you out. My brain sends out constant oxytocin in your presence and my hippocampus keeps memories of your touch within easy reach. My body loves you just as much as I do.
Dec 2014 · 876
Easier
Randi G Dec 2014
You made it so easy not to love you
because you left and you became
someone i've never met
Dec 2014 · 488
Ghost On Your Hands
Randi G Dec 2014
You let me ******* die,
you *******.
Don’t you understand?
I told you I was dying
You saw it in my eyes before you left
You saw it in the bottle of pills I handed you.
You saw it in my face when you made me promise
not to do anything stupid.
I KNOW YOU SAW ME DYING.
But you left.
You ******* left and I called yound you got on twitter and talked to your friends
instead of driving the 15 minutes to save my life because
If I had died, it’d be a load off your back.
You knew that if I left
You wouldn't have to bear the things I said
the ways I hurt you that you told me never bothered you.
Did you want to deal with the guilt of my death on your hands?
I told you it wasn't your fault
but you know it is.
I am beautiful and this is your ******* fault.
You let me die and I will forever be
the ghost on your hands.
******.
Dec 2014 · 1.1k
You Let Me Die
Randi G Dec 2014
I hate the fact that you told me
I needed to go to the hospital
You told me if I didn’t go then
You would take me
I fell asleep figuring you’d show up
And make things right
But I slept until the morning
And I woke up even though
I shouldn’t have.

*(r.e.)
******.
Dec 2014 · 16.5k
Counting on Eternity
Randi G Dec 2014
You told me that you have
Over one million hair follicles
And I believe you.
I do.
But, if it’s okay, I’ve never counted
To one million before.
I heard it takes a really long time,
But after I count all of the spots
The hair grows out of you,
I want to count all your freckles
And connect them like constellations.
You’re just like the universe to me
And each freckle is a star.
There are lots of stars we can’t
See with the naked eye,
But I want to find those too.
If that’s okay.
Dec 2014 · 1.2k
Romanticizing Sadness
Randi G Dec 2014
Sad isn’t pretty.
Sorrow is beauty
And depression has its allure.
Grief is engaging.
I am not in love with the idea of sad
But I believe there is a morbid
Beauty that some moths
Emerge from their cocoons
With no mouth.
Like the girl you see,
“improving herself”
Digging herself a deeper hole.
Sad is boring,
Misery is enchanting.

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 1.1k
Seven Years New
Randi G Dec 2014
I wonder if it’s true
That in seven years,
My skin will be brand new.
Just like I’ve never been
Touched by you.
I’m not sure how I’ll cope
With the fact that my flesh
Agrees we were never really
Meant to be.

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 778
Unearth Myself
Randi G Dec 2014
I’ve been underground for much too long

Repressed, but I’ve not regressed.

I do my best to grow, I bud.

Though the sunlight fails to meet my skin

I’ll make it through the day again.

I work and grow, though i’m alone.

I improve and improve at improving my self

I am unearthed.

*(r.e.)
Someone asked me to write a poem about a potato and this is what came out of it
Dec 2014 · 1.5k
If I Was A Perfect Me
Randi G Dec 2014
If I could be the perfect me
I’d be a perfect poet.
My hair would be long and blue
And I wouldn’t need anyone. Not even you.
I’d be a little too skinny
With long, lanky legs.
And freckles. Oh, the freckles i’d have
If I was a perfect me.
My eyes would resemble spring
Clean cut grass.
Eye lashes like the stem of an Allium
And shoulders like a mountain;
cut and pale.
I wouldn’t have you in my veins
And nothing would mean anything.
I wouldn’t need your permission to breathe

Or to just be me.

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 1.7k
Different
Randi G Dec 2014
Before that, I was just normal.
Not that I’m not normal now,
But not normal like you would think.
I used to be like the girls
You see, laughing at the lunch
Room table, covered in smiles.
But now I realize how sad that really is.
I want to laugh and be happy,
But I want to breathe in the breath
Of the ones I love
Notice the importance of curves
Or the reason I can see each
Of the bones in her ankle.
I don’t want to stop and smell the roses
I want to memorize the wrinkles
In your lips when they press together

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 639
Love is
Randi G Dec 2014
Love is so sad.
Love is not a melody
That drifts all through
The wind. It’s a soft
Hum that intensifies
And becomes maddening.
Love is hard and rare
It gets worse as it goes on.
People live their lives for love
But really, it only helps
You forget the rest of
What is wrong.

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 297
He Who Started a Fire
Randi G Dec 2014
Why was I the one that got left behind?
Why didn’t you feel like I did?
You said you had a hard time letting the others go,
But why didn’t I burn that kind of hole in your brain?
How did you let me go with the wind,
And how did I let you do that?
I felt at home in your arms like the first time in forever.
I don’t know what drew me to you
Or why it was what I avoided in everyone else,
But when you held me my soul caught fire
and I’m not sure how to put it out

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 710
Fell In Love With Imperfect
Randi G Dec 2014
I love the shape of your soul.
We may not be together anymore,
But I keep a picture of you
Hidden away so I can stare.
When I feel down, I trace your
Curves and dips and bends.
I may not like you anymore
But I sure as hell love you
At least for the perfection
Of your complexion and the
Undying hope of love and the
Never ending goodness of your heart.
It may be over but I will
Harbor the memories close
And lock them up tight
Because I refuse to forget the
Perfection of each imperfection
Lying sleepily in your eyes.

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 2.5k
Entropy
Randi G Dec 2014
There is no cure for the
Gravity and the calamity
Of the situation at hand.
Entropy demands to be
Noticed, and chaos pines
To be felt.
“I will not be ignored.”

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 741
Broken Strings
Randi G Dec 2014
I miss the slip and slide
Along the strings
Across the neck
Amid the noise
Among the silence.
You loved me, and I should have too
But there isn’t much
More that I’ve got
Left to give.
So take your guitar
And your broken heart
And leave mine here
To mend

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 2.1k
We Romanticize Our Sadness
Randi G Dec 2014
We romanticize our sadness
To share it with the world
Let others know we understand
Or maybe get a little pity
Because what’s wrong with
A little fake love every now
And then?

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 398
My Human Home
Randi G Dec 2014
I’m not even sure what happened
But I felt so at home with you.
It’s been months but whenever
You speak, all I can think about
Is your bed
Being in your arms
That silly cat that kept
Clawing my legs.
You said I made you feel sane.
So why give up a feeling you’ve never had because you didn’t want love?
I guess you didn’t understand.
I never judged you.
I was just trying to help.
My future, your future.
I wanted what was best for our future.
Us. Together.
Maybe if I would have feel asleep in that bed -
My sleepy heart almost stopped that night -
Maybe then you would have understood that
I never wanted to change you,
I loved your imperfections
Because they made you
You.
I should have made you understand.
I shouldn’t have let the house burn down.
I should have saved us that day

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 2.4k
Dream Catcher
Randi G Dec 2014
Dream catcher, dream catcher
Take me away
Away to a place you and I can play
Just like we used to
Among the blades of grass
Away from the nightmares
With you they won’t last.
Be my sweet dream catcher
Whisk me away
Back to when I made you
Smile each day

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 2.1k
Succubus
Randi G Dec 2014
March right the hell away from me
Just leave me in your wake
I am sick and tired of
All my give
And all your ******* take.
You’ve ****** me dry,
You succubus.
I’m done with all the lies.
I know I said I’d be there,
Now I’ll be your demise

*(r.e.)
Randi G Dec 2014
"I love you"
My whisper shakes the ground
And my heart quakes the earth.
I’ve met a lot of boys in my life,
And very few men.
Many of them have made an impact
On my life now, and I bet not
One of them knows it.

There was #1 that was never the best
I’m sure even at that age, he only wanted a girls chest.
But he was cooler than me, with a scar above his eye.
We sat on the swings as he told me goodbye.
Him leaving me made me sigh.

#2 was a tool, but aren’t they all?
We were all used and abused,
But we volunteer for the fall.
I broke him once, his payback was fierce.
Him leaving me left me in tears.

#3 was a stranger
But hey, he was cute.
He turned around and told me,
“I think I like you”
I was enamored, of course,
I was young.
We ran around the playground
And told them all of our news
But it seems I’d forgotten,
I had to move.

#4 was naive, but so was I
Who would think to give it
A fifth try?

#5 was my best friend
Hilarious and cute
But I guess I didn’t understand
The meaning of abuse.
I was a little too rough,
And a little too mean.
But I never made an effort
Until I found him with ****.

#6 was a Mexican
I’d become attached
We met at a party, when I thought I met my match
Turns out it was him,
And certainly not his friend
Who I couldn’t seem to
Remember his name.
We lasted a long time,
He was my first love
But, you see, I’m a **** up.
I did him wrong.

#7 wasn’t long,
Nor did it last
But it didn’t stop him from
Keeping his hand in my pants.
I was too young to understand
I’m not sure he did either
But he started a chain
I should have taken a breather.
I wasn’t fun
And he didn’t like that
But I wasn’t ready
And that was that.

#8 was the domino
Tipped over by #7
Except that I thought this guy
Was my heaven.
Turns out, in the end,
I figured out much
I was quite stupid,
He wasn’t enough.

#9 was my angel,
My lover, my world.
When I thought about him
I tilted and whirled.
But I didn’t realize
Our life was a mess
And the love of my life
left me in a mess.
I broke, and I popped,
But that wasn’t enough to sway me
I created problems that couldn’t even
Be fixed by therapy.
It took me a year to get back to myself
But don’t think that stopped me
From finding someone else.

The third boy I loved
Taught me what love is.
To appreciate the world
And love it as it currently is.
I loved that hippie
With all of my heart,
But some people
Just can’t stay a part.

There was one more guy
Who told me he cared
And ****** me in
With all that he had.
He used those big eyes
And poked at my heart,
But little did I know
He too, would depart.
But it wasn’t him who left,
It was me.
Not even the songs he wrote
Could fix me.

*(r.e.)
1. Joseph 2. Ricky Winegar 3.Dakota Moats 4. Jace Gentry 5. Robert Bost 6. Pablo Gonzales 7. Jamar Hicks 8. Braiden Tovey 9. Dugan Mickelson 10. Gabriel Lytle 11. Kolten Symonds
Dec 2014 · 1.7k
Blueberry Bushes
Randi G Dec 2014
Blueberry bushes touch in the dark
And their branches sway in the slight
And ever so brisk breeze.
The color of 1 am paints the ground
And stars speckle the sky,
Unlit by the lights of the others.
A home is created on the hill
Where a couple lies contemplating
The steps of their new future
Built by calloused hands and dirtied nails.
The soil falls away, leaving a space
Where they float together
Alone with themselves,
No longer running from the clock.

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 1.8k
Never Stop Loving Me
Randi G Dec 2014
It takes all of my effort to not text you
And teach you how to love him.
You can probably already make him
Happier than I ever did,
But maybe you should know
To keep your thoughts to yourself
So he won’t spend hours ignoring you.
Don’t ask about his past
Because he’ll never tell.
Show that little boy all the love you can
Because he rarely ever shows it,
But he’s as insecure as they come.
I want to teach you how to make him happy
So it’s still really me.

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 467
Untitled
Randi G Dec 2014
I don’t know if I want you to go away
Or crawl right back to me but
You’ve taken me to the highest places
I’ve soared and the lowest places
I’ve drug my body across.
I scraped my knees to love you and my lungs popped to see you
But do I dare dive into the pool again
And risk exposing my bone?

*(r.e.)
You keep texting me to see how I'm doing and I wish you'd stop but also I don't because I love this image I've created of you.
Randi G Dec 2014
Tonight I’m lying in bed
Forcing the sad to come back
Listening to songs I can relate to
And reading poetry that burns
I’m trapped in a cold sweat
And there is nothing that
Could ever stop me from drowning
Because I ******* miss you
And I told you that I don’t
And you think you’re bothering me now
And I think you’re too busy for me
But the truth is:
Working on yourself is never going to work.
You’re not going anywhere
And without me that’s the truth
I’m stuck with your fate in my palms
And hiding in the folds of my brain
While you’re without a care in the world
You have no idea is yours
How are you going to go on
Without your sanity in hand?
Dec 2014 · 1.2k
Bedrock
Randi G Dec 2014
You saved me because you shared with me the deep depths of your soul and I knew I never wanted to swim so low as to reach you at rock bottom

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 617
Autopsy 2.0
Randi G Dec 2014
i want to unscrew my skull
and take my brain out
find the place everyone
keeps calling my heart
and pick it apart.
i want to take a scalpel and
scrape out your words

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 964
A Secret Plea
Randi G Dec 2014
i would walk across broken glass
to hold you in my arms.
i would throw away my future
just to live with you in a box in
seattle if we could only laugh at the rain.
i have loved you from the first day of my life
because i have never lived before i met you.
i love you with every speck
of oxygen floating around in my lungs.
with every tick tock of the
small hand of the clock
my love grows fonder.
i’m not sure how you feel now
but i’ve never loved you more
and i’ve never been more afraid
and i’ve never felt such euphoria
when around one boy.
one tall troubled soul some how
made me feel more at home than i felt in my room.
i have loved him from the first day of my life
because i had never once lived before i met him.

*(r.e.)
Forever my favorite poem.
Dec 2014 · 495
Why My Lover Let Me Go
Randi G Dec 2014
tonight i explained to a child
why my lover let me go.
he told me he never loved me
because if he had, he would have stayed.
i explained to him that love is
giving up your entire universe,
even exposing your soul to a black hole,
to make their lives better.
i had to turn away a sobbing angel
on my doorstep to remove him from
my toxicity.
i begged a god to come back down to earth for an hour
only to realize he would be happier among the stars
than among the sheep.
you give up love to improve the life of the one you love.
i still drive down the same paths the angel flew down
and i still play the harp the god left me
love is selfless and beautiful
but it is painful and
you must be strong.

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 797
letter to Gabriel.
Randi G Dec 2014
i heard you were doing acid this weekend
burning holes in your brain.
were you trying to burn away the pain?
do you hurt like i do?
it’s hard to let you go because
you’ve burned a hole in my brain, too.
i still smell you when i hear your name.
my nostrils burn like my eyes.

my parents asked me if i meant it
when i said goodbye this time.
i said i did. today, anyway.
i might change my mind if
you come back home because
your hand is where my hand belongs.
you’re everything i hate.

i wasn’t planning to fall this hard
but i guess you warned me.
i didn’t cry until i let my mind
remember why i cried last time.
i’m scared.

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 1.1k
Sanity
Randi G Dec 2014
i remember laying in your arms
that night and you asked if i was okay
because i was gasping for air.
when i told you he was the one boy
who could make me so upset
that i felt insane,
you told me i’d find someone who
could make me that happy
and i did

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 844
You're Home
Randi G Dec 2014
i still have dreams
about you coming home
and i wake up to a
nightmare because
my bed is empty.

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 537
Letting Go (I'm Not)
Randi G Dec 2014
how do i let go of
my first breath in the morning
my last breath at night
the reason my heart keeps beating
against all my might
the reason my soul is blackened
the reason i still fight
i don’t know how i **** this
should i even try?

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 587
Today
Randi G Dec 2014
today i ate way too much
and kissed a boy i loved
and chased some boys i don’t.
isn’t that just me?
you are the proton and
i am the neutron
i am swirling down quickly
to a new and unknown place
but i’ve been here before
somehow in another time
or space.
i know i’ll just convince myself
i’ve been lying this whole time
i pick petals off a daisy
“do i love him?”
“do i not?”
it feels like i’m lying
but i’m compelled to say these things
i’m not sure what i want
or how this will end
either way you were a
god send
says the atheist in bed
i’m terrified
i’m petrified
i’m laying on my back
writing a poem that makes no sense
i think we’re all just
going mad
Dec 2014 · 1.1k
Seedlings
Randi G Dec 2014
every poem is still about you
every dream
every breath
my heart beats simply because
you’d like it to do so
and while you plant seeds in your dreads,
little did you know you also plant seeds
on my heart, and every
***** ruptures because
i nurtured those seeds with my love
and they grew into trees
and you keep inspiring all these symphonies
you’re beautiful but no one will ever
mean it like i do
like my art shows it
like this art is yours
you’ll live on forever in my poetry
and so will my love

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 1.7k
We're Okay In Our Own Way
Randi G Dec 2014
we’re not lost,
we’re just a little
topsy turvy today
but who says the
ceiling has to be up
when we’re both so low?
Dec 2014 · 1.8k
(Im)perfect
Randi G Dec 2014
kiss my scars and
freckles in a way
that let’s me know
imperfections are okay.
Dec 2014 · 6.3k
I Used To Love The Forest
Randi G Dec 2014
i’d lay in the forest
all the time if
spiders didn’t find
their way into
my spine and
up from there
right to my brain
i swear, they’re
the ones driving
me insane.

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 482
Maybe
Randi G Dec 2014
i’m feeling sorry
for the things i am not
like maybe if i was
long-boarding when we met
you wouldn't have had to push me along.
maybe if i didn't hate drugs
my favorite night would be different.
we could have been smoking in your room
while your cat clawed my legs
instead of arguing about who’s
music to listen to next.
maybe if i wasn't so scared
to have a little fun
i could still be there with you
but i was terrified and you wanted
everything i was not.

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 1.9k
Breathtaking
Randi G Dec 2014
i’ve had so many thoughts
peeling through the day
and i was terrified for so long
that i could never stop the intrusion
but when i kissed you
the thoughts faded into black
and all that was left inside of me
was a fire burning hot.

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 582
my artwork angel
Randi G Dec 2014
everything i touch is art
and i want to turn your
back into canvas
my fingers are covered
in acrylic paint and
you’re becoming a masterpiece

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 654
Infinite Ocean
Randi G Dec 2014
i’m a wreck and it’s easy to see
will i ever stop pushing them
away from me?
i’m stuck under the waves,
and i push myself down
who’s fault would it really be
if i drown?

*(r.e.)
Dec 2014 · 2.7k
My Friend, Karma
Randi G Dec 2014
i’m cold so i’ll picture you here
whisper in my ear
tell me you love me
and that this is real
tell me i’m perfect
like you always do
tell me you need me
because i need you
i know i’m afraid
and that you’re scared too
but you make me feel
like this is all true.
karma was generous
when she gave me you.

*(r.e.)
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