We've been friends for ten years
and he's been loving me for nine.
I don't know what I'd call it
but I know his love is divine.

We've talked about the past and the present
to patch things up for the future
Still I wondered where we'd be
and what it is I would nurture

We've been through a lot of things,
tough times and whatever life brings
I know we're not in a hurry but there are things bothering me
If he'll leave again, where will I be?

He told me to trust him and to have faith
We still have time and he's not yet too late
Well then, I'll take the bait that we'll be just fine
After all, he's been loving me for nine.

Will you whisper to me those words?
Sweet words protected by Knights and conquered with swords?
Words prized by Queens from the revered lips of Kings?
Words soft and fragile as butterfly's wings?

Whisper to me those words while they are still true.
Whisper to me those words while they still hold the meaning of me and you.

Loving you is Happiness
A once-upon-a-time bliss
Granting a short-termed longing
Of my wishful soul

Loving you is Sadness
It's cruel, too afflictive  
Pounding my heart with pain
Blinding my eyes with tears

Loving you is Insanity
Stirring feelings that are not right
Keeping me up during the day
Giving me nightmares at night

Loving you is Paradox
Common sense can't explain it
Logic seems helpless
It's contradicting as it's true

Loving you is Death
The ruin of every song
The fall of my sanity
The undoing of it all

Love is gentle. Love is quite,
Like any distant star.
Love is beauty. Love is music,
Soothing as night winds are.

Love is patient and unselfish
Divine, true, neutral, fair
Love is ageless and immortal
Lost love is just somewhere.

And the heart that love abandoned
Nurses a tender scar
Softly stabbing, and yet still sweetly soothing
Just like the night winds are.

I've said it so many times. Do I have to say it more?

Are your ears that deaf not to hear my cries?
Are your eyes that blind not to see my tears?
Is your heart that hard not to feel my pain?
Are your hands that tired not to reach out?

Tell me.
Make me understand.
Don't leave me hanging in the limbo of questions.
Don't make me create things in my mind.
Don't make me shut everything down.

He was positive.
He brought out the best in me.
He made me realize things with wisdom and clarity.
He erased all insecurities.
He made me see the other side of the world with glee.

He was negative.
He brought out the worst in me.
He made me angry and mad with so much ingenuity.
He wounded my pride and distorted my complexity.
He burnt my patience until it was gone entirely.

He was neutral.
He never put blame on anyone or anything.
He stayed silent during the times my mind was on chaos.
He never took any sides though it was obvious I was at fault.
He remained to be a listener and gave judgment by default.

But in everything he was,
in everything he is,
he would still remain to be my "once twisted dream".

I know a girl for so long
whose affections can never go wrong
Love made her heart happy and weary
And this is her story

She was so innocent and pure
She fell in love and thought it was sure
She risked her heart with eyes blind  
And he entered her life with a cunning mind

She made an effort with the hope that she's wanted
When in reality, he just took her for granted
She reached out to him with gentle hands
While he buried her heart in the sands

She gave him roses. He caused her the thorns.
She's an angel with the bright halo who loved a man with horns
She cried in silence for her heart to mend
While he laughed and smiled with his friends

She decided to save herself and walk away
For he never gave her the reason to stay
She packed up after being broken
She left for he just made her one of his tokens

She almost gave up hope in love
But someone was sent for her from above
He sings joyfully with songs of praise
That sets her heart ablaze

She then started to genuinely smile
A smile that was not seen for a while
He makes her heart abnormally flutters
And she misses him as if it's all that matters

You can again see the twinkle in her eyes
When someone mentions his name where her happiness lies
She's been enjoying every moment
As he sings songs together with his instrument

I knew all these coz I was there
From the moment she fell until the time she was spared
She's been through a lot to end up in nothingness
That's why I've always been praying for her happiness

I took the seat across and breathe deeply
Trying to ignite the will to last the night to make it easy
Folios with galloping notes reflected my eyes
Ascribing them as you started rippling nice

Taking your place behind those keys
while I guard the front as it seems
You fiddled the catguts, and I learned their secrets
And as you edify, I got lost in the sequence

You exuded the decree to keep my valiance
I lodged around the shadows keeping my silence
Risking the chance that was left of me
As I chant the cadence with complexity

I ogled before you with such esteem
As my mind creeps alone towards glaucous dream
Wishing that in every thing written in the sky,
You will always be my Marshall and I am your Spy

Many times I've been alone just reminiscing
Of kisses and hugs and what could have been
Of looks and touches and many Ifs
Of strokes and curves and things we would miss.

Many times I've been caught off guard
When forgetting seems to be so hard
When someone mentions your name
When I'm doing things we've done the same.

Those were the times we had.
The times when we're still mad.
And that's how they will remain.
Our reminder to keep us sane.

As the rain pours and hides my tears,
I am thinking of all my fears.
My fear of losing you.
My fear of falling out of love with you.

As the rain pours and touches my skin,
I am thinking of us and what could have been.
What would happen if we took the risks?
What would happen if we knew what went amiss?

As the rain pours and drenches my heart,
I'm in pain thinking we're apart.
Hoping that as the rain goes away,
You'll come back and stay.

Will you be sad once I turn my back?
Will you shed a tear knowing we'll be apart?

Will your heart break with the thought we'll never see each other?
Will you miss the times when we're together?

Will you write me letters saying it's me you miss?
Will you buy gifts like I'm still in your Christmas list?

Of all these things I ask of you,
I know I will, I do
but, WILL YOU?

There you are again passing by me
You looked but you didn't see
You didn't notice that part of the view
Is just staring and thinking of you

Your name, I wish I could call
And tell you that you're the best among all
But such words, I couldn't speak
Kept in my heart and making me weak

My spirit's strength is my love for you
My heart's content is the sight of you
But you don't know, for I couldn't reveal
Even a clue of what I truly feel

But if you'll just take a moment to realize
That in the silence you hear, my love lies
And in that same silence, you have a friend
who loves you dearly with a love that has no end

You took the sunshine, and left me the rain
You took the gladness, and left me the pain
You took the laughter, and left me crying
You took reality and left me dreaming

But still, I love you
for I could never forget
The love we've shared from the moment we've met
Until the time you left.

You made me feel everything 'til it's gone
Now I'm left alone undone.

You had my heart captured and broken
Then it turned out I was just one of your many tokens.

I'm stuck.
In the memories you left behind,
In the love I thought was mine.

Let's pretend everything's fine
Let's pretend that you're still mine

That even if it hurts big time,
I still write poems for you with rhymes.

Let's pretend that we have no end.
That I love you still
and stay, you will.

All that we have,
all that we will be..
Let's pretend.

As clouds drift away,
so does my heart.

You keep
crawling back
under my skin,
within my thoughts,
and
inside my heart.

I want to have you back
but I'm afraid to take the risks

I love you still, it's a fact
but it's the painful part I don't miss

I learned my lesson the hard way
and it's not the kind of spot I wanted to stay

I'm in the verge of believing your words
as if my heart has it's own accords

But then the moment you change your mind again,
where will I be next?
For sure, I won't definitely put that to the test.

I'm sorry but I'm not brave enough to take things through
but then, ARE YOU?

The eulogy of you and me,
The ode for all the love and misery,
The ballad of the promises whispered carelessly,
Will all be written in this broken Poetry.

I've written the words for me and you
and every time I'm happy and blue.

I've written the words of how I feel
even though it's painful and real.

I've written the words my heart wants to say
and still wishing they will reach you someday.

To you, I may have been smitten,
Still, those words, I've only written.

Thank you..
For the pain you caused.
That way, I learned
that in this world,
no matter how much
love I give,
it will never be enough.

"I love you"
Words I used to know.
"I miss you"
Words I often show.

How ironic that Time took those words away,
while I'm trying to remember them through every song I play.

My tears flow
as my heart breaks.
I tried not to listen
but I can't deny the ache.

You've done it before,
you're doing it again.

I've had enough.
You know I'm not that tough.

Please take pity.
If not for me, then at least, for my heart.

I saw an empty chair
and I have an empty heart
Still not knowing why we are apart.

I know God has His own story
for you and me.
He is the only one who knows
if we’re meant to be.

I didn’t mean any lover,
not even any foe.
The only one I meant
is my only song for you.

Though I hold that music
and I know what’s true
I will forever remember, I promise.
I really do.

Just let me shed for you
a single tear
So that I will not anymore
feel any fear.

Let me hold that only
hope I have.
And let me live knowing
that life is still full of love.

You are just a thought
a projection of my imagination

My heart gave you life
My mind, your soul

You know my thoughts
my deepest desires
my dreams, my hopes
and where my world evolves

You become constant,
the one driving me crazy
Seeking your unreal presence
whenever I'm lonely

I started talking to you
as if you're really here
and then one day I realized
You already have my heart so dear

I fell hard
and I'm still falling..

With you, my imaginary friend.