I hate to say this, but I miss you On days when I’m angry at you I recount every memory of you I miss you on the saddest days and even the most delightful ones
I hate to say this, but I love you I’ve loved your fairly flaws and even resented myself for loving you I loved you from the very beginning, I bet I’d do till the end I love you like molt to holes I guess, I love every curve of you
Permit me to say this, but I hate you I hate the way you make me smile How you get to my skin I hate how your voice brightens up my day I hate the ease I feel when talking to you in distress I hate how I feel when you call me nick names Gosh! I love them all! I guess, I called for a white lie
I miss you as my person I miss the fact that it was just the two of us I hate I have to share you… Not you, but the concept of you I guess I hate myself more for harboring these thoughts I do But in the end, all these conflicting emotions… I just miss you.
Whispers of your absence echo through my heart, painting the canvas of longing with hues of nostalgia. In the symphony of solitude, every note resonates 'I miss you.' 💔✨
My heart is so heavy over losing you I have not been able to make sense of this I just know that this is all wrong My existence craves you like no other, and to think I might have lost you Is grievous I am completely and utterly lost I am open bare as each day passes and with you I have lose myself whole I am filled with insurmountable grief Over you…over us I clutch to my very bed you stray so far away from I have woken up dismayed plagued by homesickness in my very home I am turning on myself over the loss of you My heart is no longer my own Appalled and vengeful over my soul Every beat of my heart belongs to you as if you were the very essence that gives life to my being My heart is with you In your name, blazing full of you And I too, my love
Sita smiles as i bring her a sandwich Two toasts with butter, ham, and cheese And yet sita smiles as if i've made her a 5 course meal Sita smiles as i make her a drink of my own recipe ‘Thank you pepe’ she says And brandishes a glass of mysterious content She hasn’t tasted it yet But still she smiles
Sita cheers for me as i run down the soccer field She’s waiting for me with a hug, even after games i don't play From the bench I can see her smile Sita is waiting in the car i've known my whole life ‘How was school’ she says Always with a smile
‘I'm coming home Sita’ It's been 2 years since i've seen her She doesn’t ask when She doesn't ask how She smiles
‘I can't come home Sita’ It's the day after the flight i couldn’t get on She doesn’t ask when i can She doesn’t ask but I tell her how I missed it I tell her i love her and will see her soon She smiles
It's been 3 years since i've seen her Sita tells me she has cancer I tell her she's the strongest person i know I love her She smiles
‘I promise i’ll fly out to new zealand to see you’ The last time we spoke She tells me she hates the food there I think about how i’ll make her a sandwich, like i used to I tell her it’ll be okay, she’ll be okay ‘I love you Sita, I promise I’ll see you soon’ She doesn’t ask when She doesn’t ask how Sita looks at me, the face I’ve known all my life And she smiles
Sita has sadly passed away, and I think she's taken a piece of me with her.
It's ok to miss people It's ok to miss them Let yourself feel it Feel it all Open wide don't push it down Don't push it away Allow the feeling I miss you What is this missing? Let go of needing to know Allow it when it comes Alow the love, the missing and the longing Allow the regret And the disappointment Allow it all Welcome this feeling Give it a home Give it expression Do not suppress or judge it People touched your life They touched your heart Allow it Don't make it wrong Don't try and wrap it up as if you understand Let go of needing to understand Allow the mystery Allow it to flow I love I miss I feel Nothing needs to be done Open up and allow it expression Allow it to bring you alive They mattered to me They deeply mattered to me And I miss them