Tu me manques.
Or should I say I miss you.
Because I really do
But that is not what is on my mind right now.
I want to know if I am the one who is missing you
Or if you are the one affecting me.
Am I passive or active in our relationship?
Am I the only one who love
Or do you love me too?
Do you have some magical powers that I’m not aware of and that you are using on me?
Because I want to know, I want to know everything about you.
But even more, I want to understand this feeling, this attraction that we have for each other.
Why do I miss you?
And why am I the one who is suffering and the only one to be affected by it?
Why can’t it be like in French?
In French, you are the one that I miss, you are the one affecting me.
At least, I have a stronger bond with you in French,
Because you’re definitely doing something to me.
And I know you’re doing it on purpose.
I know you want to drive me crazy. And I have to say that it is a success.
I want you to hurt me, because at least you’re giving me something,
At least I am not alone in my bedroom, crying because you don’t want to see me.
I don’t want to be yours, I want us to be ours.
I don’t want to miss you, because I don’t know if you miss me too.
I’m pretty sure you’re playing right now, and that’s alright.
I’m over you.
But I still want you to help me. Because I still can’t understand our relationship.
If you can’t help me with my feelings, at least help me with my words.
I don’t want myself to miss you.
I want you to be the subject of my love, not the object.
I want you to make me miss you.
Because you have that kind of power on me, and if I have to be honest, I like it.
I like it because it’s something between the two of us.
And nobody else.
Don’t let me be the only one missing you.
Because I know you miss yourself too.
I wish your old you could come back.
I miss your old you.
Tu me manques.
a long and meaningful one. Thanks for reading :)