Vo ek mahine phle se birthday ki excitement is saal thodi kam thi
Birthday ke din bhi birthday bali feeling thodi kam thi.
Ab mai shayad childish se thodi matured ** gayi thi.
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Har saal ki tarah is saal mom dad se kisi mehenge se gift ki zid nhi ki thi.
Unke dil se diye aashirwaad ki khushi hi bahut thi.
Ab mai shayad childish se thodi matured ** gayi thi.
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Bachpana jane mai vaqt thoda jyada lag gya.
Jimmedariya samjhne mai vaqt thoda jyada lag gya.
16 saal ki ** gayi thi, thodi badi ** gayi thi.
Ab mai childish se thodi matured ** gayi thi.
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Ghar ki problems samjhne lagi thi.
Ab thoda hi sahi magar sahi aur galat mai pehchan ne lagi thi.
Ab mai childish se thodi matured ** gayi thi.
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Jo phle papa ke paise dosto ke sath udaya karti thi.
Aaj papa ke sapne pura karna chahti hu.
Ab mai childish se thodi matured hoti ja rhi hu.
Ab mai childish se thodi matured hona chahti hu......

~your smiling queen :)

Every morning,
I wake up with a hope,
A hope of happiness.
A hope that all my pains will end.
But at the end I am left alone with my BROKEN SOUL..

I know this loneliness
Will forever be around.
Giving me pains,
And hurting my wounds.
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I know this loneliness
Will never leave me.
It will torture my soul
And will break me.

Roses are red.
Violets are blue.
Whatever the hell happens with me,
I won't ever stop lóvíng you.....

~your smiling queen :)

Kyu?

Jab karte ** itni mohabbat hamse,
To phir tum chipate hi kyu **?
Jab tum mere bin ek pal bhi na reh pate **,
To phir mujhse dur jate hi kyu **?
Jab tumhara dil mujhe pana chahta hai,
To tum use satate hi kyu **?
Jab najare churani hi hai tumhe mujhse,
To phir mere samne aate hi kyu **?
Tum kehte the na ki mai tumhari nahi ** sakti,
Jab mai tumhari ** hi nhi sakti,
To phir mujhe tum itna yad aate hi kyu **?


~your smiling queen :)

That girl, who hides her true self behind those lies.

That girl, who is criticized everytime she tries to rise.

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That girl, who calls herself smiling queen but never truly smiled.

That girl, who loves to enjoy but never enjoyed.

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That girl, whose feelings are still unspoken.

That girl, who is completely broken.

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That girl, who hurts herself when she gets frustrated.

That girl, who was betrayed by the one whom she trusted.

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That girl, who shares her happiness but never showed that she is in pain.

That girl, who is a little stupid and insane.

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That girl, who wants to shout but tries to control.

That girl, who is a 15 year old broken soul.

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That girl, who always shows that she is happy.

That girl, is none other than ME....

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These are the words that define "ME".

             ~your smiling queen :)

"I love you!" He uttered with his low voice holding my hand in his hand.

It was 28 May 2019.

He carries bits of stars in his veins
And they illuminate the night sky beside me.
I often tremble out of fear
But his eyes flicker in dark and guide me.

He paints a ray of sunshine through his smile
Although he endure agony but lied me.
He carries ointment of love in his heart
That heal the straches of my soul and delight me.

     ~your smiling queen :)

दिल तेरा दीवाना है,
इसमें मेरी क्या खता है ?
दिल दुखाते भी तुम हो,
और फिर मेरे जख्मों को सहलाते भी तुम हो ।

~your smiling queen :)

Before you arrived in my life,
I rarely used to talk.
But now, I talk a lot.
And I talk only about you.

Before you arrived in my life,
I rarely used to share.
But now I share everything.
And I share it only with you.

Before you arrived in my life,
I rarely used to smile.
But now, I smile every second
And I smile just coz of you. ❤

~your smiling queen :)

Yes your absence hurts me,
But your presence comforts me more.
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Yes your smile makes me happy,
But your tears tense me more.
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Yes your dreams excites me,
But having you in reality makes me blush more.
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Yes I know you love me,
But you don't know that I love you more.

I don't write poetry,
I just portray my love for you through these words.

One day, Smiles will replace these Tears.

One day, Self Confidence will replace these Fears.

One day, Praisings will be more than Complains.

One day, Happiness will be more than Pains.

One day, Dreams will become Reality.

And on that One Day, you'll surely Remember ME...

I gifted you my heart,
But you teared it apart.
I prayed for your happiness,
But you gifted me pain.
These broken pieces of my heart,
Will they ever join again?

Your lovely voice and cute smile attracted me,
Your face was the one I always desired to see.
You already know that my love for you was true,
And I know it was a little insane.
These broken pieces of my heart,
Will they ever join again?

The truth is I loved you and I still love you.
But you lied that you love me too.
I thought you'll come back.
But I was waiting for you in vain.
These broken pieces of my heart,
Will they ever join again?

~your smiling queen :)

It still feels like a dream,
When dreams come true.

Tears come out from my eyes,
But you don't let them fall down.
Every time I feel lonely or cry for help,
You are the one who's always around.
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I look at you, I wonder.
Your presence I adore.
You are my life now,
Without whom I can't live anymore.
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Your friendship is my treasure,
Your voice is my song to soothe.
I love you the most,
And that's the Truth.
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You are a precious gift to me.
You are my only secret keeper.
Thanks for everything you do.
Thanks for being mine forever.

~your smiling queen :)

From talking about studies,
To late night romantic chats.
From exchanging notebooks,
To passing the love letters.
From making eye contacts,
To those sweet kisses.
This is our journey from
Classmates to SOULMATES!!!

~your smiling queen :)

When I am sleeping, you are there in my dreams.

And when I am awake, I am lost in your thoughts.

My desires are taking a new shape.

You are my desire now.

Love turned into Hate.
And Trust into Fear.
Friendship turned into Rebel.
And Smiles into Tear.

Created a lot of memories
Another year passed
Yet a lot new to discover.

~your smiling queen :)

Both of us were silent,
But our eyes were still speaking.

You got your lovers and I got them too.
I said "No" to them coz I just love you.
But then too, you doubted my love and broked my heart.
You bought pains for my heart and you teared it apart.

~your smiling queen :)