Lord, thank you.
You've shown me once again Your faithfulness and love for me.

I prayed a simple prayer in the morning air with desperate lips.
No more than a week later, you started answering it.

You've brought new joy, peace, and laughter in my life.
New men that have taught me that I'm valued and worthy of love and affection.

Thank you, Lord, for these new friends and your love for me.

I pray that You'd keep my heart pure.
Keep these friendships simple and sweet.
No alternative feelings or complications.

Let us be glad in the joy of friendship, and let that be enough for my wandering heart.

Keep my intentions true, Father, and protect us as we grow closer.
Cover us with wisdom and prudence as we move forward.

Thank you, Lord.

sometimes i'm done with life.
overwhelmed by the darkness,
a crushed soul still searching for the light,
but its hard to find at times.

i'm told not to give up,
but that's all i want to do.

i'm so young,
it's such a shame,
but i just wanna be done with this painful life.

My, how everything has changed.
Younger me wouldn't even recognize who I am now.
Is that good or bad?
I can't be sure.

Friends I thought I'd never lose,
I'm now watching slip away.

New friends take my hand and join me on this wild ride.
I'm the one to initiate conversations, who am I?

I have guy friends, and I love them so.
Some guys even have feelings for me, but never the right ones.
Still, little me would be in awe.

I thought I would've figured out this faith thing by now,
but sure enough, it's still a struggle.

I've overcome so much, yet peace rarely overcomes my soul.
I sure wish it would, though.

here it comes
the goodbyes drowning my eyes
word by word.
still 3 more weeks,
yet the pain has already been here for weeks.

i try to enjoy every moment,
but my nostalgic soul can't help but think about
the pain, loss, and memories.

it'll never be the same,
maybe that's okay,
but it's so so good,
and i don't want it to change.

i'm avoiding the pain inside
filling my days with plans and words
it worked for a while,
until the pain hit me like a ton of bricks
right in the face.
goodbye.
soon to come
but the sorrow has already begun