She had that passive presence Like the ticking sound of a clock Sometimes you might notice her Most often at times you do not Like a wallflower, she is You notice her on the wall But then you get use to her And don't care if she's there at all As if she is just forgettable You can't help it if you forget She is use to it, it's understandable It still hurts her nonetheless
We were equally matched Until a plan was hatched You became the subtle aggressor By making appearances lesser Using your passion aggression To steer a passive direction
You perform a vanishing act By canvassing flak Balancing black Against a sky so blue Teaching me that which is true Is different from what I knew So my anxiety naturally grew
You launch a resistance By remaining silent On this plane of existence Where you're the pilot Not taking the right angle Into the Bermuda Triangle That is your social sphere Where you disappear From committal fear Of love being near
So I throw a search party But your presence is tardy Because you're departing On the journey you're starting Without me Slouching From my submission To your anti-admission Splitting our position Like nuclear fission
The air has become radioactive Through light that is refractive Through ways which are retractive Living this **** way to live Sharpening my shiv To escape this cell of decay Where flowers bloom and fray But can't see the light of day Not one ray
Stuck in the marked moor Of this dark war I use parkour To avoid aggressor attacks Never cutting me any slack Bringing pain back Until I *****
Lost in your blank expression I make a grave concession Enslaved to your impression Yet afraid of your aggression Caught between Taking heed And fulfilling needs Born from greed I'll only impede
You scream aggressively Like you're ******* me Just by addressing me After making a mess of me With deafening quiet You attack with a diet Of a steady riot And I won't buy it
You left when you were here But stayed once you weren't near You switched to a guillotine gear Based on how you wanted to appear Striking me from the equation By utilizing deflation For a sinister elation You removed our relation
I hope you'd have a million dollar smile, A crow's feet by your eyes, And someone who'd photograph those laugh lines. Put it in a special box. And may you stumble upon it at the right time when joy is elusive. May you be reminded Everything shall pass. So the tears that are falling right now will dry up and there will be unending joy coming soon.
Inspired by Rudy Francisco's poem. Also part 1 of the Passive-Aggressive poems.
I forgave you in my prayers, in my heart. To make room for the essentials. I kept faith. Gave up unnecessarry baggage. I kept love. Let go of unlabeled emotions. I kept forgiveness. Finally, I forgave you.