Laying with him
His skin on my skin
I pictured us older, living together
I can see it clearly
While laying with him
I envision our life
How we'll act
Who we'll be
The house sometimes change
We're always the same

Dancing and cleaning
Laughing and smiles
Lazy movie nights
Occasional dates and making love
I see it all while laying with him

I like to think of of living together
No boundaries to hold us apart
One of my biggest dreams
Is sleeping in his arms

I see us making plans
Compromising what we want
I see us together clearly
Forget the rest of the lot
I can see our future
while laying with him

Your touch makes me tremble
The feel of your skin on mine
Intimate moments
Known only by us two
No one can describe

Your hands on me
It all feels so right
I never want to leave your side
Come hold me close
Hold me tight
Kiss my lips
Tell the world you're mine

I'll always be by your side
Forever, until the end of time
My heart could never stop loving you
You're branded into my being
My soul longs for you and your love
No one else could ever be enough

Laying with you in the dark of night
Chattering quietly about whatever pops into our minds
Matching our breaths
Never have I felt so close to anyone before
You uncloth my soul
It unbears everything to you

My love is stronger  than the sea
It grows quickly like a ****
Forever I am bound to you
Always I will love you
There is nothing anyone could do to change that
This feeling is too strong

The intimacy I share with you
Forever I'll treasure
I relish being so closer to you

I love your touch, your feel, your kiss
None of it would I want to miss
I'll hold you close
Never let go
caress your soul

Your touch makes me tremble

The wind gently blows the trees
They sway gracefully
The sun smiles down on the world
you can hear the babble of an unseen brook
What a nice day
The bees buzz
The birds sing
The world is at peace

Relax
Breathe
Be at peace
Accept yourself and feel a weight lift
Let yourself be happy
It's all in your controll
Don't let the world dull your glow

The earth has a heartbeat
It's as alive as you and me
It's alive yet holds so much life
The earth is amazing
Wise from millions of years we can't imagine
It has beauty no human could attain
God's wonderful creation
It took six days to make
And is filled with so much wonder and amazement
Earth; the first mother
The earth has a heartbeat
It breathes as do we
Provides us a house
The ungrateful humans
The selfish race
The earth is sad
It sees us drifting farther and farther from the farther
It knows disaster is coming
It offers us what it can
I see a piece of my God
When I admire the beauty of the world
The earth is alive
AND again tonight she cries

As humans we all want to leave a mark
To be remembered
To have lived a worthy life
Change the world
Not me
I will quickly pass out of the earth's memory
My goal is only to inspire other souls
If I can only help one person on my life so be it
If I can make the world seem wonderful and grand
If I can make life worthwhile for one person
My job here is complete
I don't need my memory to go on
I'm just here to help
I'll live an ordinary life
Full of dreams I won't achieve
This world is too vast for me
No one will remember me
I won't leave a footprint
I'll be washed away with the sand
This doesn't make my existence worthless
I'm not even a ghost
The world won't miss me
The earth won't notice in gone
I'll be a gentle breeze
Quietly moving on
Keeping watch over the loved ones
Wishing them the best
The world won't know me
I'm only here to be my best
I won't be famous
Or taught about in school
But the life I change will live in to do great things
They will be great
But not me
I'll gladly fade away

Everything is going wrong
I'm not on it anymore
Nothing is working right
You won't understand my strife
We don't care about the same things
We won't understand each other's ways
Regardless if it causes pain

You're so naturally smart, talented at heart
I have to struggle and try
We're so different you and I
I try to tell you everything, I speak my mind
You hardly say a word about what's going on inside

I try so hard to quell my mind
You can't understand this strife
I hurt inside
Because your mind
Yours and mine
I wish it didn't have to be this way
I don't know how to make it change

Will you try to take my breath away?
Show me you love me everyday
Make my heart melt
Sweep me off my feet
Prove to me how you feel
I'm tired if having to assume
It hurts my heart to have to wonder
I don't know how to explain the feeling
Just pain
I can't make it go away
Only you
I know you just aren't as outward as I
You love me I know
It'd just be nice if you let it show
Will you try to take my breath away?
Show me you love me everyday
Actions speak louder than words
You're quiet both ways
Take my pain away
Will you try?
Try I ease the pain in my heart
Be more outward
Share your thoughts
I'm sorry to ask
Will you try for me?

How can you assume I know
You never say anything
How am I supposed to know
If you never hint otherwise
It hurt my heart
Seeing that look in your eyes
How was I supposed to know
You never told
Stop giving me those eyes
It's not like I'm feeding lies
I just didn't know

It's been too long
Too long since I've seen your face
Felt your touch
I need you here, now, forever
All I want is you
And it's been too long since I've held your hand
Too long since I've kissed your mouth
I miss having you around
It's been too long since I felt your arms around me
It's been too long since I've seen you last
I miss your warmth
Your touch
Your kiss
It's been too long since I held your face
Too long since I've been next to you
I want you here
I want your hands on my skin
It's been too long
It's been too long since I held you in my arms
I miss your smell
I miss you
It's been too long
Too long since I've seen your face

Is it vain
To strive for beauty?
Is it wrong to long for perfection?
Like it or not it's something we all do
Rather by your own standards or societies
We all in some form or another
Strive for perfection
Long for beauty
A curse to all people
For what is beauty?
What is perfection?
Long blonde hair, skinny waist
Good manners, emotionally happy
Brains, *****, ****
Skin, soft, kind
Everybody strives
Everybody kings
We must for the impossible to achieve
Pointless even
Cause once we succeed
Then who is good enough for you?
Is it vain
To strive for beauty?
Is it wrong
To long for perfection?
No
There is nothing wrong in trying just don't expect I succeed

All I want is you
No words can describe
How you make me feel inside
I'll love you till my heart will burst
Ending this wonderful curse
Never will I leave your side
Loyal till the end of time
Forever yours I'll remain
Even after the world turns grey
And when I'm feeling lonely late at night
I'll think of you and your eyes
Wishing you could hold me tight
There is nothing I could want more
Than to be yours forevermore

The stars don't shine as bright
When you aren't around
My mind thinks to much
When you aren't around
My heart aches more
When you aren't around
Worst of all
The stars don't shine as bright
When you aren't around

I wish I could be
Who I think you need
She just isn't me

I can leave
If you don't go with me
Everything hurts
When you aren't  around
Everything is worse
When you aren't around

The stars don't shine as bright
When you aren't around

I don't think you understand
My time is running up
I want to spread my wings and fly like a dove
I don't love this place
I want to get away
But I want to get away with you
I know this dream won't come true

I'll do anything to be with you
I'll even stay in this miserable place
But only out if love for you

I must say
I can't promise to like it here
But I'll always be happy with you

Don't tease me
About moving away
Farther away then I've dared to dream
I'll only want that reality

But the truth of the matter is
I think you wish to stay
Therefore I can't move away
I want you to know
This price I pay
For falling in love with you who wants to stay

I want to give you the world
I think this is supposed to be the other way around
Still, I don't care
I want to give you the world

All of it's glory yours to hold
Love, I want to give you the world
Everything shall be yours
Mi think I'll start by giving you my world
My light
Maybe even my life
It's all yours now

When I stop talking to
know it's because of you

Tears streaming from my eyes
I pray to God for relief
Clawing at my chest
Right over my heart
Repeating
"Dear God, it hurts"

My pillow is wet
You'll never know how many tears
How many tears I've cried for you
But regardless of the pain
I will always love you

Tonight I want to cave
It would come back worse than before
The sobs come so hard
If not you
What do I live for?

Everything I have become revolves around you
I gave you everything I have
When we disagree like this
I feel I'll lose my mind
I feel like less than nothing

I'm sorry I can't just be happy with you
But I only want to talk
That's all
I'm not asking you to change
Or leave someone behind
I'm not even being jealous

I only want to have meaningful words come out your mouth
I'm sorry

My inspiration is dust
It was ***** out of me
By an unknown force

Will I forever remain
A light in your eyes
An ornament
Stationary, at your side

One day will I see your irrational side?
The darkest, deepest part of your mind
Like you already know mine

You brought light
Where I thought there would be none
You showed me someone loved

I want to see every side of you
Every part of your mind
Lead me to your soul
My love, there is nothing I hide
I will love you for all of time

I love you with more than just my heart
I love you with my mind
I love you with my soul
I love you from my head to my toes
The very essence of me love you

Please, love, tell me
Will I forever remain
A light in your eyes?
An ornament
Stationary, by your side

Will you keep me forever
Set my love free

If one day the answer is no
Will you promise to remember me fondly?

I love you more than my heart can bare
So tell me again love

Will I forever remain
A light in your eyes?
An ornament
Stationary, by your side

Will you allow me to love you
For all of time?

While eveyone else
Waste their time
Making new year resolutions
I confess I don't have mine
But do you wan to know what?

I don't want mine
All I want
Is for this year to be full of you
That's all I need to make this year good
As long as I have you
All my years will hold happiness

I don't resolve to lose weight
To be happier than last year
All I want is you

Only God knows what this year had in store
I just pray he will never take you away
I thank him for you a lot

Of I resolve to do anything
I think I'd resolve to pray
And thank God for you everyday

Maybe new year resolutions
Aren't so stupid after all

I've opened up so easily
A blooming flower
Willingly, I tell you everything
I'm a field
Not a building in the way to end my reign
I'm not this for anyone else
It's just you love

You fill me with sweet emotions untouched
Awakened me to the deepest form of trust
All these feeling new
Or to new extremes

Around you I can feel free to bloom
Release the me I've been hiding
Hide me in your trees
Protect me in your forest
I don't want the world to see me and you
For fear
They'd fall inlove with you too

Cause with you there are no lies
I can take off my mask
And be who I am
Isn't that what the world dreams of?

I'm not ashamed
Don't get the wrong idea
I just want you for myself
You're mine now
And nothing can take that away

Before you I wouldn't have the courage
To speak these words
I can write freely
Speak freely
Thanks to you, love

I don't know what was wrong
I tried to hide my face
He pulled me close and asked what was wrong
I told him it was back
He pulled me into his arms
I turned and buried my face in his chest
As traitor tears fell down my face
Forever it seemed
We laid like that
Him holding me together
While I was bursting at the seams
Panic taking over me
It became hard to breathe
Still he just held me
Asked if he could help
Rubbed my back
Planted kisses on my head
I'm so lucky
To have his help
Without his love
I wouldn't still be built

The worst thing about being a poet
Is that you're drawn to pain
The pain and fear inspire
Great works and wonders
For those of us good with words

Some who are lucky
Can write well of all things happy
Those rare few

Most everyone I know
Write of pain
Pain and fear
Memories
Or we compare, criticize
This crap society of ours

Emotions fill us
We feel to the fullest
We might get scared
But it's not the pain we fear
We realize that pain leads us
Leads is to discover great rhymes
A nice flow of words
Words that help ease our minds

I'll never be the best for you
I can't love you how I want to
I'm to afraid

Afraid of what I'm not sure..
Maybe I'm scared you'll hurt me
Or maybe
Maybe it's just intimacy that terrifies me

I've never felt more vulnerable
Than when I'm in your arms

Maybe I'm scared
Scared that I'll do it wrong
Am I enough to please you?
What if I'm no good?

I want to be your first
Your last
The best you'll ever have

The new intimacy will grow on me
You've seen inside my soul
I'm more open with you than a doorframe missing it's door
I've never been like this before
If I can open up to you
Why can't I explore
Our bodies too?

What makes me afraid?
Tell me you'll always be here
Permanent and strong
Like a great oak in the green forest

Promise me I'm safe here
Under your leaves of protection
Hide me from the world

Maybe it's society that makes me so scared
The standards if the world so strict

Hide me in your forest green
Keep me safe
This intimacy is new
I'm afraid
But not of you

What if I'm no good?
Can I be enough to please you

Will you be my first?
My last
The best I'll ever have

Don't assume you know it all
You never will
Try to hear all sides
You may be surprised
By how much pain you caused

Even though you never knew
When you find out you'll blame everything on you
But you never meant to

Don't ever
Not even for a minute
Don't ever think you're alone in pain
Take time to see the other side

I'm sorry everyone I hurt
I really am a selfish, spoiled brat
I wish I could take it all back
But I can't

Please just take time
To learn from my
From my mistakes

Dear dad
I'm sorry you thought I never cared
Mom and you never should have felt compared
I loved you all

Dear dad
I'm sorry I mess it all up
And always have
I never meant to

Dear dad
I know we've never been close
Not like me and mom
But I've wanted to
If you want to know the truth
I was afraid of you

Dear dad
I'm sorry again
I never though about your side
Before turning you into the bad guy

Dear dad
I know you tried

Dear dad
I wish I could take it all back
I never meant to hurt you

Dear dad
I've always loved you

My Love
My Muse
I'm afraid I use you
You fill my mind with creative rhymes
But what do I give back to you other than my love and time?

I take the energy you fill me with
Write what's on my mind
You say I could be your muse too
If you were as creative as I

But my dear
Creativity is in us all
It's only a matter of finding it

We all have different gifts
And just because yours isn't words like mine
Doesn't mean you can't be creative too

Find what you like to do
What calls to your heart?
Take it
Make it yours

Don't be uptight
Let the energy flow
And love
You can be creative too

You see in my mind all the time
The work you unknowingly create with me
You see the products that you, my muse, induce

And you know what my love?
I'd love to see what you could do
Using me as your muse

When you're not here to keep me warm
I'm always cold
I can't get warm
Without your touch
The feel of your arms around me
It's impossible
Impossible for me to get warm without you

You bring all the warmth and goodness to my life

I need you here
I've gotten so cold
Fill me with your warmth
You're the only thing that works

I love to watch you play
Hear the sweet notes drift out of your saxophone
A lovely melody

You don't always see me
I listen all the same
Such lovely skill
escaping in the form of sound
coming out
of that wonderful saxophone

Maybe it's not the sound
That enchants me so
But the handsome player
Whom I get to call my own

My gorgeous love  
Smart and talented to the end
<3

Sometimes you make me happier than anyone else
Sometimes you hurt my soul
Sometimes, sometimes.....
No, all the time I love you so much more than time
Sometimes you make me feel so loved
Sometimes I feel like I'm not enough
Sometimes, sometimes
I wonder if you'll always be mine

Sometimes I think to much about you and I
Sometimes I have to wonder why
Why this feeling in my heart
Grows with the doubts in my mind
Like weeds that destroy the flower beds

Sometimes the weeds win
Overpowering the flowers
Sometimes the flowers prove stronger
Snuffing out the weeds
Will our love be stronger than my doubts like the beautiful flowers beating the weeds?

Sometimes I hate myself for loving you
I put so much of my time to you
Pour out my heart and soul to you
But do you care?
I don't think you do

Maybe I should stop trying so hard
It doesn't seem to be appreciated
But my heart just won't let me
It screams at me to try harder

But what do I get from you?
Tender moments sweetly shared
But will you always be there?

If one day I stop trying so much
Would you stay?
Sometimes I'm unsure if you would
But forever yours I'll remain

You walk me out
Into the cold moonlight
It's time for me to leave

I dont want to go home

What
Do
you
Do
When
Your
Cure
Turns
On
You

How come I never feel I am enough for you?
No matter what I do
How hard I try
I feel I always bother you
How come I'm not enough for you?
Why can't I be enough
When it's all that I want...

I feel as if I might explode
Filled to the brim
Overflowing with emotion

Love, wonder, hurt, sorrow,
A lightness in my chest
A feeling in my heart
It is something I can't explain

All these emotions filling me
I feel everything
There are no words to describe
What goes on in my mind

This feeling in my heart
It fills me with want
I don't comprehend
What do I do to the end?

Is this to be my fate
Never finding the right words to say
Is this what it means
To have a poets mind?

I'm not very good
Not like the greats
Classics that eveyone knows

Or maybe
I'm just to close
To see my own greatness
For to me
These poems don't fit
I can't use symbols
Or discreetly criticize

Everything straight foreward
But is this feeling in my chest
The potential I have in me?

My love, my love
You mean so much
Your affection strikes me at my core
Leaving me sore
Embedded in me
Buried deep into my soul
You helped create this beast
This monster that craves only you

No one else could ever be enough
For I love you too much
If it's not your touch
I don't want to feel it
If it's not your lips
I don't want a kiss

You're always on my mind
All the time

You're the one I want
No one else could suffice
No one can compare to you
No matter how hard they try

Those eyes...
That smile..
Your hands
Your lips
The sensation you bring

No one else could ever have what you have
Because they can't be you
You have my heart
That will never change
I'd do anything for the sake of you

I long for your touch
The feel of your lips

You're mine

Watch the world
Pay close attention
And when you feel small
You will always have me to come to
Because on my eyes
It is all for you
The stars that shine
Light up the night
They shine for you
Even the sun
In all it's glory
Sets and rises for you
The very earth rotated for you
I breathe for you
My heart, which is in your hands
Beats for you
You are not small
You are everything
So watch the earth
Watch it closely
Admire its work
And remember
When I watch it too
All I see is you

Your lips on mine
Your hands on me
No secrets here
Just you and me
You're all I want
You're all I need
And everything inbetween
My heart in yours
Your heart in mine
We'll never have anything to hide
All the beauty of the world doesn't compare
It doesn't come close to what we bare
This is a beauty all its own
Of its own creation
Nothing compares to the love we share
It's something special
Of its own kind
A kind of love that you would give up your life
Just to save it; keep it safe
This love is a wonderful thing

Heart pounding
Thanks to you
And not in the way you'd want it too
It hard
Insistent
Painful at most

You're the one who hurts me the most
Anything you say and do
Has a great effect upon my soul

You're the one who makes me the happiest
All I want is to bring you joy
I hate upsetting you
It hurts my heart
But these things need to be said
No matter how my heart aches

I love you more than I can take
My heart it hurts
When you're not happy
That's all I want
To make you happy

The feel of you next to me
Makes it hard to breathe
I long for more
More than I'm ready for
More than you want

The touch of your lips
kiss my neck
The feel of your hands
caress my skin

Make me moan
Tease me some more
I know we won't do anymore
This is our boundary

I want more
More than I'm ready for
More than you want

I'm not ready
But still I long
I long for you and I
To become one

You are the most precious thing
I will always be here till the end
One day we will both be ready
One day we will merge

All I want is you
Only you
Forever

Happiness is fleeting
grasp it while you can
Hold its hand
Ask it to stay
But eventually it will fade away
Only to return
Better than before
Try not to stay down
It will all turn around

Ashamed of me
You have no cause to be
Why should you care
What they say?
What they think?
Why do I care that you're ashamed?
I thought my decision was made

Whatever, I'm moving on
You don't have to worry about me
I'll be happy without you
Or maybe I'll still be me
Don't act like you care
I know you don't
You can just leave me alone
I give up

Trying not to cry
Butterflies
Upset stomach
Getting sick
Everyone *****
Smile
No one cares
Close your heart
Love
Does it exists?
Maybe sometimes
Sometimes not
Just close your eyes
Pretend you aren't here
They wont see your tears

Everything is going wrong
There is to much going on
Death is looming in the air
Filling me with despair
Sickness

I'll be okay just not tonight
I don't love you that way (I thought)
Can I be weak tonight?

It's hard being strong
I can only do this for so long
I'm trying to survive
Trying not to die

The world is against me why do I try?
There is nothing I can do
No where I can run
No place to hide

If I can survive the night
The light is easy
Daytime is fine
The dark is when the demons eat me

Don't move to fast
I cant keep up
Don't go to slow
They'll get to close

I'm trying to live
But the world is dying
I'll be okay
If you can save me

Your lips on mine
The touch of your hands
I want the feel of you skin

Our mouths moving in time
No space between us
Exploring

Wanting in your mind
Knowing you are mine

Your lips on my neck
Rough
Insistent
Making me want more

All I want is you
No one else
Nothing else
I want you to merge with me
I want us to become one

But alas I'm afraid
I sense you are too
One day will be the day
We wont turn away
We won't hide from our love

More than kissing
More than feeling
Actually taking what is mine
Knowing there is no one else

You have my heart and no one else
I could never love anyone else
The way I do you

You are my world
My light
Everything

Nothing compares to you
With your sometimes tan skin
Your gorgeous blue eyes

With all your quirks
You are amazing
No one is better than you

It's hard to find the right words
The right words to describe you

Amazing
Sweet
Loving

You're all I need
You're all I want
You and your mouth
Your touch
Your warmth
your love
All your quirks
All your love

My eyes are dead
My smile still shows
No one knows the pain inside my soul
You're the one who kills me the most
You're the one who makes my heart glow
You do both
But you do not know

The girl in the mirror today isn't me
The girl in the mirror is pale and pretty
I might be pale
but pretty is not a word that describes me

Who is this stranger
Staring back at me
I don't know her
but I don't know me

Maybe this is meant to be me
Am I supposed to become the girl I see?
how can I do that when I know that can't be
The girl in the mirror; she is not me

She's someone else
I can't steal her for me
It would put her in my pain
I can't do that
So here I'll stay

Maybe one day
When I look in the mirror
I'll see me

Having something to say
Don't want to be in the way
Scared to speak up
It's better this way
I'll keep to myself
Quietly, I keep my place
This is me
I can't be any other way
I'll be okay
Don't worry about me
I'm just tired
I need to sleep

My love for you is stronger than the time
Even if you only know because of a dusty rhyme
I can't get you off my mind

I'd do anything for you
You know it's true
Oh how I love you

Break my heart
Tear it apart
whatever your will may do
it's yours for the taking
Do as you wish
Nothing could make my love for you run amiss

I care to much
I'll only get hurt
but since it's for you love
I'll make it through
You can hurt me all you want

Use me for your own gain
Act like it's a game
It will all be okay
I'll always let you win

You have nothing to fear
I'll always be here
I'll never let you go