I paint these walls
in shades of grey
The color gives life
to such walls
I thought I'd try
to go bold
but the walls
had best to be
in shades of grey
Now my job is done
The paint is dry
the cupboards look
so good against the walls
The owner is happy
and pays me well
Job well done
© Jennifer L DeLong 🦏
4/2021

Dreaming
Awoke to a different reality
Strange feelings
flowing on my body
Strange sensations
got me shivering
Do , I stand up
no I will just sit here
maybe , I will awake
might still be asleep
Hope , I am just dreaming
This would be a
a messed up reality
Dripping walls
Colors twisted
Sensations crawling &
tapping
So , I am just gonna sit here
till , I awake back to
reality

© Jennifer L DeLong 🦏
4/11/2021

Heart beating
so fast
So excited
So nervous
It's been a few
months
since , I last
laid with you
I feel my body
shaking
A nervous wreck
I hope you don't notice
that I know you do
I keep repeating to myself
just breath
it's ok you will
feel more relaxed
after an hour or two
Oh hell then I begin
to think of the changes
gained a few pounds
colored my hair
then panic sets
in ....
where's the confidant
women , I used to know
Why do , I feel so nervous
Well we will see how
I feel
after
So here , I go
to see you .....
© Jennifer L DeLong 🦏 4/8/2021

As you hold me in your arms
Our fingers entwined together
A current of energy
Flowing from your body to mine
So strong and exhilarating
I melt into you
My heart racing
My breathing erratic
I feel like I could explode
From this overwhelming feeling
Your energy and soul
Connecting to mine
I have never felt you like this before
And I can’t wait to feel you like that again

©Jennifer L DeLong 10/02/17

Always remember
I lived life
with a certain determination
It was not always easy
It was often painful
I never gave in
Copped out
I preserved
I had my kids
I had my music
I wrote my
poetry
I shared my life
I helped others see
hope
The beaches , I enjoyed
I collected my rhinos 🦏 & my rocks 💎
I always loved hard
you were my reason
for believing in hope
I found love ❤️
and it was good
mmm yes it was magic💖
But it ended
So my witchy self 🧙
moved ahead with grace
It took my 3 times before
that was accomplished
Why not test out those mishaps
Just to make sure
Lol 😂
Oh well
Learned the hard way
Hard headed , Stubborn
Norwegian 🇳🇴
Lol
so ALWAYS remember
I LOVE YOU NOW
FOREVER TO MOON
AND BACK 💞🌙🌍💗💋🤟✌️🎵📝☯️
© Jennifer L DeLong 🦏
4/4/2021

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do you have moments where you can’t imagine a future?
you’re lying there staring at the
same walls
same ceilings
same words
with nothing but the same feelings-
empty and pale
like there’s no reason to go on
when you can’t even do enough to fail
the future is coming but you
can’t imagine yourself in it
where you just want to stop
everything
and just sit there for a while
maybe not forever
as that’s too permanent,
but something close to it
when you feel like there's a rope
around your neck
Is it just depression or is it the loneliness
when you don't know but you know
you can't continue to feel this way © Jennifer Delong 11/7/18

Feelings are always there to
remind us
of what we enjoyed
of what we shared
not always wanted
or desired
Its bound to happen
its a song or smell
its seeing a picture
or stopping somewhere
Let it take a minute or two
then take a deep breath
and let it go
not always easy
for I know thats true
So keep it short
take a deep breath
its all you can do
Just don't let consume
you
..© Jennifer L DeLong 4/2021

Immerse me in your music
Let your melody
dance upon my skin
Surround me
in the notes you play
seducing me from within
Let the music take over
My body starts to sway
Emotion flows from your guitar
It's rhythm taking me away
On a journey
to where there is nothing
but your music surrounding me
Encasing my body
in the beauty of its melody © Jennifer DeLong 3/11/19

Your eyes
Those soft blue **** heart melting
take my breath away blues
You just look at me
Im under your spell
They are so delicious
They tantalize oh yes
So pleasing so daring
Your **** soft blues
With a just a look
they cause a reaction
My temperature rises
You have me at your will
Your eyes
the fantasy , I long to read
Take my breath away blues
Look at me baby
Please keep staring
I quite enjoy
Seeing those soft blue
**** heart melting
deeply satisfying blues
© Jennifer L DeLong 2/19/20

•••••••••••••••
When I can find in this world a piece of truth and a knowing of trust then , I will be free of the burdens of my walls built so high I cannot see
When , I can find love with passion & truth then my walls will begin
to crumble
When this worlds comforts me & I can feel hope & a bit of peace
These walls will fall & my soul
will be set free
I hope I find this serenity
I desire this to be
So mote it be © Jennifer L Delong 8/15/18

Deeply I am lost
I feel my navigation
has spun outta control
I was content knowing
my destination
I felt secure sailing
through life
Knowing my gps
was in hand
I couldn't get lost
I had someone whom
I could call
so now
I'm lost at sea
I have lost my gps
How will I sail in life
now that
my call is no longer
a minute away
my navigation has
broken
Will , I just drift on land
Will , I sail again
I just don't know
© Jennifer L DeLong 🦏
3/25/2021

Tear at my flesh

you still can never

reach my soul

Daring and Willfull

trying to get in

despite the pain

Knuckles bruised

not once giving up

wanting to reach there

For you see

you can't hurt me

I'm blessed in this flesh

Reincarnation
built this fence
around me

Sadly you will lose
as , I stand here
looking into your hell
Seeing what once was a human
now all , I see is

the sad sad
weaker of you

I live in spite of you

and you will never

reach what's

mine

my soul is human

© Jennifer L Delong 🦏1/22/2018

Why do I care
Why do , I still love
Why don't you care
Why is the ? ?
How fast things change
Why couldn't I see
where this was going
to end up
It's not all cause of me
there's a part of you
that put us here
Oh how , I wish ..
So much pain felt burning
inside my soul
It's like this fire
will burn outta control
You will never feel
my hurt
I know this
I know you
Your in your comfort
zone
You got an ego
it's way to high
so why then do I
feel so much hurt
Why is the ??
Sadly
never will I know
the answer
It's only the ??'s
I end up with
© Jennifer L DeLong 🦏
3/18/2021

Daring to change
Wanting to feel alive
Wanting the happiness
I see it everywhere
Wonder why not I
Is it possible
for me to find
that joy that comfort
to build upon a love
thats just real
no issues no drama
I wanna release my passion
set it on fire
dance in its flame
Laugh till my eyes water
Find the adventure
I got you
So whats in the future
Just dont tell me
I will always be alone
© JENNIFER L DELONG
3/2021

THERE IT IS
THERES THE MONSTER
I ALWAYS FEARED WOULD
APPEAR
IT ONLY TOOK HER
THE TRIP TO FLORIDA
SAME WEEKEND
I RENTED A SUITE FOR 2
WAITING FOR YOU
IF I ONLY KNEW
HE WOULD APPEAR
**** I TRUSTED YOU
9 + YRS
WELL GUESS WHAT
KEEP THAT FAT ****
WHOS MARRIED
GO FIGURE
SO SAD
BROKEN BEFORE
ILL BE BROKEN AGAIN
BUT NOT BY YOU
SO PLAY WITH HER
AND ENJOY
OH AND F YOU !!
•••••••••••••••••••••••••••
© Jennifer L DeLong
3/12/2021

Since that nite , I first felt ur hand in mine
It was about to become all about you & it started w ur touch that made me forget every dark and protruding insecurity that paid rent in my heart
the way your eyes sparkled
every time you blessed this world with your forgiving smile
the way your laugh sounds like every one of my favourite songs rocking
on the radio
&
the way I finally understood what a gentleman is when you grabbed me by the shoulders & told me
I am beautiful & kissed me passionately
That nite , I went out my door to go on our
First date.
It changed my life my soul forever.
And no matter what , I'll always need u
Your like second nature your just like breathing.
I love you it true

© Jennifer L DeLong 💙
6/4/19

🔱
WITH THE WORDS SHE WROTE
PASSIONATELY WITH HER PEN
YOU CAN FEEL THE INK
CRAWL UPON YOUR SOUL

HER CREATIVE YET HARD LIFE
BLESSED US WITH HER POEMS
SHE IS WHAT SPIRIT CALLS LIFE

PAIN STRIFE LOVE ABUSED
SHE WILL NOT FALL DOWN
WITH THE STROKES OF THE INK
ITS WRITTEN HER PERSONALLY

LET MY WORDS CONSUME YOU
OPEN YOUR MIND BE NOT AFRAID
DARE TO BE THERE WITH ME

FIND THE PLEASURE
IN POEMS WRITTEN
NAUGHTY & SO DELICIOUS

READ THE STRUGGLES
TOUGH DAYS LONELY NIGHTS
LONGING TO BE LOVED
NEEDING TO BE HEARD

SURVIVING ON THE STROKES
OF MY HAND ONTO PAPER
IS THIS HOW IT ENDS
WRITING IN INK
THE RHYTHM OF MY LIFE
WORDS JUST WORDS WRITTEN

©🇯ENNIFER  🇩ELONG ♬✘↯

As , I am sitting here
I got the past
traveling through
its taking a train
showing me pictures
making me remember
Its quite a change
so much is new
I wonder how it knew
I needed to see and feel
to remember you
so long gone
it makes me think
it makes me feel
so many things
but , I run into you
that is again true
I think of you
when driving
When sitting on the beach
So many memories
come traveling through
and its something
I wish you knew
so the train has stopped
at the station
time to depart
I will be back
to think of you

© 𝑱𝒆𝒏𝒏𝒊𝒇𝒆𝒓 𝑳 𝑫𝒆𝑳𝒐𝒏𝒈 3/7/2021

Wild and Wispy
or so they say
Willful and Wise
that may be true
Witchy and Wonderful
Could it be
Or so it seems
They may be
Seeing me
from looking in
Or looking through
It could all be true
© Jennifer L DeLong 3/4/2021

You make me laugh
You can look at life
with such humor
It's quite refreshing
Let the weird be said
We are all here dealing
with it
So why not laugh
Look at it and accept
it's not worth the worry
and why stress over it all
Keep it real
Laugh it off
Look through life
with a different sight
When life is tearing you down
Be with it and laugh at it
You will feel it and just laugh
Laugh it off
© Jennifer L DeLong 3/2/2021

Its time to ******* rise
Rise above all the *******
Rise above this pain

Let yourself soar
Go after your desires
Make it happen now

We have had our wake up call
So make it happen
Fulfill your wants and needs
Say what you need to
Be unafraid

******* rise up
Be whole my spirit
Bless me with the good
Fullfill me
Release any fear

Rise up
Its now
Its time
Let us be whole
Time is now
Rise Rise Rise

© Jennifer L DeLong  🦏2/27/2021

It's funny how it always turns out it's always you it's always you
You're the one who captivates my soul makes me hope for more
Staying away has been hard but it's what I've had to do
To see if you really cared if you really wanted more
Now I just don't know I just don't know
Will we ever be more than we were before
I guess I honestly just don't know I just don't know
But here I am wanting you waiting for you
Time has been
passing by
So when will I hear from you I guess I just don't know I just don't know
© Jennifer L DeLong  🦏2/27/2021

I wanna feel your eyes
all over me
Studying my curves
feeling my skin
with your mind
That's ****
I wanna tease you
with my body
moving with mystery
Daring you to find
my rhythm
So your eyes can
dance all over me
So baby
keep staring

© Jennifer L DeLong 2/25/2021

Show me you are real
Show me you care
Show me with your heart
Be real or Be gone
Show me with your words
Show me with your heart
Do you really care
Be here now
OR
Be gone
AND
Stay gone
© Jennifer L DeLong 2/2021

Come sit by me
Listen to my story
You will then know
Why , I am the way , I am
Where my strength
Where my laughter
Reside in me
Why , I am so resilient
Why , I want more from life
Why , I am lonely
Why , I still have hope
That in me , I know
I have lived the pain
I learn and grow from it
If , I can still stand up
Then anyone can
With all the struggles
With all the ****
I have had to live with
from birth till now
If , I still breath
If , I still believe
then you can
I can show you
through my story
Can it be
...
© Jennifer L DeLong 2/2021

I hear his sticks beating on this and that
You can hear how good it makes him feel
It is a bond you can not break
                
🥁🥁🥁

This boy now a man
Has his sticks and plays on a kit
It's been his love from womb
                
🥁🥁🥁

The music of his soul
Is played for all
For when he plays
It's then you come to understand
the passion of this man
from pots and pans
to the drums he now beats on
              
🥁🥁🥁

His talent is heard from his hand
With his beating sticks on the drum
It's where he is home on his throne
              
🥁🥁🥁

So play on my drummer son
Your music makes me whole
God  I love your rock and roll
            
  🥁🥁🥁

© Jennifer L DeLong 2/18/2021

Laying here thoughts of you
Breathing into me like the
Nite air. Your eyes consume me
The way your hands feel on my skin
Do you even realize baby
How much I feel for you
I have so much I want to show you.
I wanna share nights of
of laughter and quiet nights
just relaxing in your arms.
Kissing you good morning
Days when rough you can
count on me to be here to listen
Or just care. I wanna walk with you
On a rainy day just holding hands
I count the time till I see u again
I miss you babe I really do
I am so happy we found us
I have needed someone in my life
To show me i won't be alone
And to share my life with you
Thats what I hope to do
Im not perfect I make mistakes
I'm human to but one thing
I can promise you I'm loyal
I won't cheat I won't lie and
I will show you the man I see
And the man you are and treat
you as a such with respect and honor
All I need is music coffee and you
Alot of you all of you .
I love being the women who takes cares
Of the home and her man
But I also love to be the one you speak of with pride. If , I loose you now I loose
my only chance I've been given of a
actual real true passionate love.cause what I feel with you I have never felt with anyone ever and truly deep in my heart
don't believe I could again
So I'm all in or I'm all out
And will love me as love you
© Jennifer L DeLong 8/30/2017

When this or that
When will or When can
No more whens
Just give me a now
not then or when
Just now like no time to waste
This second would be great

© Jennifer L DeLong 11/10/2020