Why do I care
Why do , I still love Why don't you care Why is the ? ? How fast things change Why couldn't I see where this was going to end up It's not all cause of me there's a part of you that put us here Oh how , I wish .. So much pain felt burning inside my soul It's like this fire will burn outta control You will never feel my hurt I know this I know you Your in your comfort zone You got an ego it's way to high so why then do I feel so much hurt Why is the ?? Sadly never will I know the answer It's only the ??'s I end up with © Jennifer L DeLong 🦏 3/18/2021
our love wasn't some
basketball player and cheerleader story, it was written on pages of an old book. you were my Mr.Darcy, and I was your Elizabeth Bennet. I liked our love, it was old and meaningful. but you wanted new, so I flattened the pages of the book, and cleaned the cover. but still, you picked the girl whose novel shined the brightest in the stories.
you with the smile that no
longer makes me smile. you with the voice that no longer brightens my day. you with the laugh that no longer makes me laugh. you with your good morning texts that no longer make my morning the best. you with your smell of your moms drinking and your dog that no longer intoxicates me. you who changed, and is never coming back.
you have the
key to my heart, you opened it without any second thought. but you lied. you told me i had the key to yours. so i believed you, because why would you lie? i didn't realize you lied, until i tried unlocking it. then i saw how different our keys were. yours had perfect lines, while mine was more of an organic shape, impossible to fit into anyones.
she told you the truth
and you told her lies. she told you i love you, and so did you. but she believed you, because how could someone make lies, so beautiful?
I was laying down, lost in my thoughts.
"Hey.." appeared on my screen I woke up sadly
wished relationships with friends could last longer.
Sadly I am unable to say
That I never felt this way before Scared, alone, isolated But all of the feelings have become a part of me Like how roots are apart of the tree That gave birth to a thought process Bigger than anything we could have ever known Sadly for some of us, this thinking is hell But if I were given a choice To be able to think, to breath, To hear, and to see And never to ever think I would rather be blind Because then I could see the world Through unclouded eyes
What to do now
I have everything; I have “love” I have friends who “care”, I have “joy” I have money, But I don’t know what to do now. Even if you are out there, Do you even have the power to help me? Do I even have everything? At this point I’m lost beyond reason What do do next, Where to go next, What to do next? Should I end it now or enjoy it while I can? Even if I ended it now what would happen next? If I enjoyed it while I can, I could be, Truly hap-
Im not ok Right now it’s three am im tired im done