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733 · Aug 2019
Note 137:
Vic Aug 2019
On my way
On my way
On my waaaaayyyy
8 hours in a car and I'm tired
Good morning
A "poem" every day.
730 · Jun 2019
Note 82: Did you just?
Vic Jun 2019
Wait
Did you just
Made me happy?
Made me feel loved?
Made me feel special?

Isn't that what friends are for?
So glad to have you//
717 · Aug 2019
Note 147:
Vic Aug 2019
My girlfriend is comming over tomorrow.
We'll have a barbeque with my family and some friends. The day after we'll go to an amusement park with everyone. It's one of the most fun weekends of the year. <3
A "poem" every day.
714 · Jun 2019
Note 83: -
Vic Jun 2019
Sorry,
I need a little time to process
Soon,
I'll be back.
A poem every day.

(I'll keep posting every day but it'll be quick shitpost until I'm ready to write again)
711 · May 2019
Note 61: Fine
Vic May 2019
I'm fine
I'm fine
I'm fine
Repeat
A poem every day.
708 · Jul 2019
Note 122:
Vic Jul 2019
Ouch,
I got braces today.
Yay! :(
A "poem" every day
Vic Feb 2019
I didn't know
I've been doing this for so long
I met you online
We had only one chat
About an hour
But you changed my life
In a bad way
In a way I can't describe
At that exact moment
The lies started
And have never stopped since
705 · Sep 2019
Dear [Deadname], (1)
Vic Sep 2019
Hey. It's me, again. Probably not such a surprise, is it? I wrote you a whole lot of these letters. About all 9 of them ended up in the trash. Partly because they just 'weren't right,' but the biggest part was because I was too self-concious to give it to you. So, yeah, I'm in love with you. You may, or may not know. I really understand it if you chose to ignore that part. And, I like you, okay? Not only as in 'in-love,' but as a friend too. You were there when I needed someone, and I'm really glad that you were, cheesy as it sounds. It's kinda messed up to be honest. (I'm kinda messed up too) And, I feel like a creep again. What about this idea; You read this letter, You ignore it, I drown in sadness like I usually do (probably) and I never talk to you again. My feelings will hopefully dissapear and you can live a happy life with your friends and family without me. Sometimes I really wish I could do that. God knows I'm way to helpless for it. I'm sorry, this has really turned into one big mess. I tried to write it with my own mind, but that just keeps wandering off. I'm not sure what to say anymore. Sorry man.  Uh, there's a little "poem" on the back for you. I still have to write it, but, you can see.

Sincerely, Me
I already regret this, but it's fine, I'm fine. Sorry. I wrote you so many letters, this one is one of them. I tried so many times to write one that wasn't, idk. Not so 'bad' as this one. But, in the end, I found myself being able to write it down by heart, because I wrote the exact same thing over and over. So, here we are. I'm sorry you had to read that. And also, here's the poem:

~

Do you have certain songs,
That remind you of certain people?
You're the song stuck in my head,
And it's a **** sad song baby.
699 · Jan 2019
b.r.e.a.t.h.e.
Vic Jan 2019
Bite my tongue
One by one
Blood on the plain white walls
Your silence is my favorite sound
Dreaming nightmares
When I don't sleep
My boy, My man
My girl, My queen
I don't want to be me anymore
Don't be this
Fall apart once a day
I just wish I Could feel
What I say
Want to be the one
To speak her name
As mine
Never show, Never tell
Wish I knew you to well
Fell into your silver mind
And those golden eyes
Confusion.
697 · Jan 2020
Note 310:
Vic Jan 2020
**** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die **** **** **** **** **** **** me please **** **** i wanna die ****
A poem every day.
19-1-20
692 · May 2020
Note 435:
Vic May 2020
I see you drive your bike to the store
Sometimes I wish there was
A little something more between us
Or just everywhere around
I think I fell in love
With the cutest enby in town
A poem every day
23/5/20

so im writing a song
691 · Mar 2019
It's cold
Vic Mar 2019
I lay here on the ground
Feeling
Absolutely
Nothing

It's cold outside
Yet
I'm
Here

I write this poetry
In
My
Blood

The lights dimmed
Like
My
Feelings

I am here hating
That
I
Lie

Keep saying no one cares
But
You
Would

Wouldn't you?
684 · Aug 2019
Note 163:
Vic Aug 2019
Content?
Never heard of it.
I only know
Shitposting
A "poem" every day.
676 · Nov 2019
Note 247:
Vic Nov 2019
It might not be the right thing to do,
But it's the thing I wanna do.
And even though it would be better for me,
I can't live knowing I had this option too.
A poem every day.
17-11-19
675 · Apr 2019
Note 35: Xanax
Vic Apr 2019
"But you need a prescription to get Xanax."
The internet told me
Maybe ibuprofen,
Lying in the cabinets?
I don't need more drugs to get me high
Medicines are legal, right?
So I'm sitting here again
Looking for Legal drugs
Teens get high on
Because I regret
Throwing my drugs away
A poem evey day.
674 · Mar 2019
Note 14:
Vic Mar 2019
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I'm writing a small poem every day about how I feel, or the world around me. This is #14
665 · Jul 2019
Note 127:
Vic Jul 2019
You're amazing,
You're appreciated,
You're loved,
And you're valid.
A "poem" every day.
665 · May 2019
Note 75: Love u
Vic May 2019
To all the people reading this:
I love u
I hope you have a great day
: )
A poem every day.
662 · Jun 2019
Note 87: *
Vic Jun 2019
Yes I might be depressed,
But that doesn't stop me from loving you.
You're the sweetest
A poem every day.
645 · Aug 2019
Note 148:
Vic Aug 2019
Jesus was an emo
A "poem" every day
645 · May 2019
Note 64: Songs
Vic May 2019
Do you have certain songs,
That reming you of certain people?
Just a normal song,
And suddenly you cry.
You are the song stuck in my head,
And it's a **** sad song baby.
A poem every day.
644 · Sep 2019
Note 175:
Vic Sep 2019
"Well, if my parents aren't gonna let me wear a suit to the dance, I'll wear the most extra dress of the whole year."

"What if you wear a dress with the trans colours?"

"Y e s"
A "poem" every day.
643 · Dec 2018
It was just a bad dream.
Vic Dec 2018
She was standing there
Her skin silver
Just like the moon shining above her
In that dark night.

She was standing there
Her eyes twinkling
Just like the stars
In that dark night.

She was standing there
Her lips soft
Like the grass on a hill
In that dark night

She was standing there
Dainty like a deer
Like the ones in the woods
In that dark night

She was standing there
Now walking towards me
What does she want
In that dark night

Then i woke up
Now i understand
It was just
A bad dream
English isn't my first language, so sorry if there are any grammar mistakes or typo's :)
642 · Feb 2020
Note 337:
Vic Feb 2020
Valerie - Mark Ronson, Amy Winehouse

All right, it's rolling
I'm sorry, Charlie Murphy, I was having too much fun
Well, sometimes I go out by myself
And I look across the water
And I think of all the things, what you're doing
And in my head I paint a picture
'Cause since I've come on home
Well, my body's been a mess
And I've missed your ginger hair
And the way you like to dress
Won't you come on over
Stop making a fool out of me
Why don't you come on over, Valerie?
Valerie
Valerie
Valerie
Did you have to go to jail?
Put your house on up for sale
Did you get a good lawyer?
Hope you didn't catch a tan
Hope you'll find the right man who'll fix it for ya
And are you shopping anywhere?
Changed the color of your hair, are you busy?
And did you have to pay that fine
That you was dodging all the time
Are you still busy?
'Cause since I've come on home
Well, my body's been a mess
And I've missed your ginger hair
And the way you like to dress
Won't you come on over
Stop making a fool out of me
Why don't you come on over, Valerie?
Valerie
Valerie
Valerie
Well, sometimes I go out by myself
And I look across the water
And I think of all the things, what you're doing
And in my head I paint a picture
'Cause since I've come on home
Well, my body's been a mess
And I've missed your ginger hair
And the way you like to dress
Won't you come on over
Stop making a fool out of me
Why don't you come on over, Valerie?
Valerie
Valerie
Valerie
Valerie
Valerie
Valerie
Valerie
­Why don't come over, Valerie?
A poem every day.
15-2-20
642 · Apr 2019
Note 29: Did you?
Vic Apr 2019
Did you ever felt like jumping off a cliff,
Not because you wanted to die,
But because you can?
Because no one is going to stop you?
Because you want to see the aftermath?
Did you?
A poem every day.
633 · Jun 2019
Note 99:
Vic Jun 2019
Almost a 100 days
Of truly being free
One day more babe,
And it'll be just you and me
A "poem" every day.
620 · Dec 2020
Note 529:
Vic Dec 2020
body - Jordan Suaste

I'm more than
I'm more than
I'm more than
Body, let me see your body
Take off all your makeup and your clothes
Trust me, why don't you just trust me?
You're the only beauty, show me more
You're not a dime a dozen
Oh your skin is golden
Let me show the whole **** world
You're one in a billion
The only thing you're missin'
Is some tape over that mouth
Body, I'm more than my body
You can pack your things up, buh bye, just go
Body, I'm more than my body
Don't owe you a thing, no, not at all
I'm not a toy to play with
Not just a sight to see and
My mind is worth its weight in gold
I'm not a dime a dozen
I know I'm worth this, more than
You will ever know
Touch me, you just want to feel me
You just want to share me
You don't care at all
Trust you, why don't I just trust you?
You just want to use me
Now I know
Body, I'm more than my body
You will never get me, buh bye, just go
I'm more than
I'm more than
I'm more than
My body
I'm more than
I'm more than
I'm more than
My body
I'm more than
I'm more than
I'm more than
My body
I'm more than
I'm more than
I'm more than
My body
I'm more than
I'm more than
I'm more than
A poem every day
27/8/20
618 · Mar 2019
Heaven can wait.
Vic Mar 2019
"Heaven can wait a little longer."
I told myself as I swallowed another pill.
605 · Jan 2019
When the system crashed
Vic Jan 2019
Error
Abort mission
Message can't be sent
How do I undo
These lies
When my own system crashed
error
597 · Aug 2019
Comming out
Vic Aug 2019
I drew the word "pride"
But it's the Pan flag.
Underneath it it's the same
But it's a trans flag
I couldn't draw a demiromantic and/or a genderflux flag with chalk.
Now we wait for my parents to see
If they don't see it within two weeks I'll bake a cake that says
"pan, trans, demiromantic and also genderflux"
Maybe I'll need two cakes tbh.
595 · Feb 2019
The Day After 9PM
Vic Feb 2019
"I'll go to bed early, I have a busy day tomorrow."
When I lie in bed,
After 9PM,
The world changes.
Night is the worst time of the day.
When you overthink what you're overthinking.
My thoughts go to you.
No, I don't sleep well.
I dream nightmares,
When it's day.
Always on my mind,'
Never on my lips.
When will I surrender?
594 · Sep 2019
Boy
Vic Sep 2019
Boy
When I stare at my face,
And look deep in the mirror,

It's never the love that creeps in,
Always the 'horror'

I see a girl standing there.
An average looking girl.

She's not to tall,
But also not short.

She has brown hair up to her shoulders,
With blue and indigo streaks in it.

She's wearing pants that are a little bit too big,
Because her disorders make her lose weight.

She's wearing a red and black 'lumberjack blouse'
It's a little too big, it's from the men's departement.

She has a pretty small mouth,
But her lips are pink, and kind of plumped

She has bushy eyebrows,
But not in an ugly way?

She has beautiful grey, blue, green eyes.
It depends on the day and her mood.

She has a little bit of a crooked nose,
That a tiny bit too big for her face.

She has a chubby face, not so much
But she's a little chubby over all.

She has braces on her teeth,
But that's pretty common these days.

She has a pretty normal body,
Normal figure, a little on the "fat" side.

She has an arm full of scars,
But they have always been there, so it's fine.

And all of the above,
Every day that's what I see.
But what I see in the mirror,

She's a girl.

She   is   not   me.
Dysphoria Days.
577 · Feb 2019
Part 3, Bohemian Rhapsody.
Vic Feb 2019
If you're looking for a reason not to **** yourself tonight, this can be it.

Sometimes, we feel as if nothing matters.
We all do.
So i made a list of a few of my own reasons,
13 Reasons Why
I'm still alive.
And hopefully you'll change your mind.
Those moments you feel happy, and nothing but lucky.
And you wish nothing will ever change.
I will try my best.

Reason 3. Bohemian Rhapsody.
Again, A weird title. It's partly true though. You can see it in two ways, Music and a wave of different feelings and emotions. Music can change lives they say, but could it also destroy them? Take Bohemian Rhapsody. In a way it sounds like how our mind works. So many different parts, emotions, feelings, memories, and yet changing so fast. It's beautiful, Just like humans. So brittle and so fragile. Music can indeed change a person, but what if it happens in a bad way? In Bohemian Rhapsody they use the words we could never use to describe how we feel, like " I don't wanna die, but sometimes wish i'd never been born at all. " In any song really, but Bohemian Rhapsody does just something to me. Your song will probably be something else, something that describes how you feel so perfectly that you can drown in their words. Like a poem. Again hard to explain, but I hope you understand.
Ugh
574 · Jul 2019
Note 131:
Vic Jul 2019
Knock knock.
Who's there?
You know.
You know who?
Exactly,
AVADA KEDAVRA


And this, my people, is how James Potter died
A "poem" every day.
574 · Dec 2020
Note 537:
Vic Dec 2020
Your arm twists around me
Like a rope holding me down
Your hands take my wrists
And in your sheets I drown
Your lips are on my chest
Leaving me stained purple and red
Your body holds me close
I'm stuck in your prison bed
A poem every day
4/9/20
571 · Nov 2020
Note 472:
Vic Nov 2020
I love you
To the moon and back
To Venus and to Saturn
Or from Earth to Pluto
I'd fly through the entire galaxy
I'd take you to your favorite stars
I'd build a house on the moon for you
I love you from Earth to Mars
A poem every day
1/7/20

For Simon
565 · Feb 2019
Untitled
Vic Feb 2019
Can you name feelings,
A piece of someone's soul,
With a title?
563 · Aug 2019
Note 143:
Vic Aug 2019
I made a Queen/Freddie joke at dinner with my family today

They didn't understand

Peasants
A "poem" every day.
562 · Aug 2019
Note 134:
Vic Aug 2019
I just listened to;
6 broadway shows,
2× When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?
And I read a whole book (Harry Potter 6)
I'm not ok
A "poem" every day
556 · Jan 2019
Could not be happier, Yes
Vic Jan 2019
Finally
I found you again
Just a stupid joke
Is what made us stay
Thought you would
Never actually return
And if you did,
Yes,it would take a while
I broke us apart
But apparently I also
Made you stick around
If you wonder,
I learned my lesson
Never break again
In front of others
Because they will break too
Sorry
I'm just so glad you're back
And I'm so afraid you'll leave me again
Because I really love you
556 · Oct 2019
Note 228:
Vic Oct 2019
~   I
     Don't
     Wanna
                         F
                              E
                               ­     E
                                          L

Ever again.
A poem every day.
29-10-19
548 · Oct 2019
He's a poet now.
Vic Oct 2019
A poet's finest words,
Are the ones he left unsaid.
The words you can only see
By the tears on the paper.
That was all he ever had.
548 · Sep 2019
Deja-vu
Vic Sep 2019
I feel like I've been here before.
Not in this place,
But in this state of mind.
Who doesn't lie sometimes?
547 · Sep 2019
Note 190:
Vic Sep 2019
I'm
Breaking
Down
A "poem" every day.
537 · Jul 2019
Note 106:
Vic Jul 2019
Life is a sea of emotions,
But I can't swim.
A "poem" every day.
Vic Jan 2019
Sorry
I Can't repair you,
I'm broken too

Sorry
All i ever wanted
To be the one to speak her name as mine

Sorry
For hurting you over and over again
It hurts me too

Sorry
I keep saying it's good for you
but i doubt my honest feelings

Sorry
That you don't understand me when i say
I love you

Sorry
For not comming with a warning lable
"dangerous, do not speak with"

Sorry
For not telling you
And never going to

Sorry
You could've guessed
I'ts to late now

Sorry
I'm kinda stuck
But you can't help me out

Sorry
Do I want to stay or not
Well I don't really know

Sorry
For lying to you and never stopping
It's a big cycle

Sorry
I really am
but remember


It's just a game
This one's for you babe
533 · Sep 2019
Dear [Deadname], (2)
Vic Sep 2019
Hey. Guess you'll know it's me by now. I don't really know where to start. Again, I wrote you a ton of these kind of letters. They all ended up in the trash too.
You know, It kinda suprises me. You said that you read the line "I'm in love with you." from the last poem I sent you, thirty times. but, In the letter I wrote you, I said it too. I really thought you'd noticed. I really thought you already knew. Not that it matters a lot anymore now. In a good way though.
I really don't understand the stuff you do to me. remember the first day of school, when we hugged in the middle of the hallway? Lucky me, you walked away for a sec. I was shaking, it surprised me you didn't see. How? I don't know. Or when you told me; "I would date you." And my brain just, stopped. I literally couldn't think anymore. It really felt like a dream, and it still does. I dreamt about you last night, I vaguely remember. It was kind of a nightmare, but before it got scary I woke up. But seriously, when I think about you I just, I don't know man. ****'s confusing. But yeah, I really am head-over-heels in love with you. And, I don't know what's gonna happen next, but I know it'll be a good thing.
Sincerely, me.
Felt like writing something rlly stupid to you. Sorry.
532 · Jun 2019
Note 94:
Vic Jun 2019
You're the best
A "poem" every day.
526 · Aug 2019
sad boi hours :(
Vic Aug 2019
I am extremely in love with you,
And I don't want to be,
I'm not supposed to be,
But I am
frik
This one is for u hehehe
525 · Aug 2019
Note 149:
Vic Aug 2019
The world is such a dark place,
Even if you tried, you couldn't make it brighter.
So accept the fact that all that's left,
Is a pack of cigarettes and a yellow lighter.
A "poem" every day.
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