Over the past few months,
I've realized nobody is perfect.
Not even myself.
I've realized it's okay to fumble.
It's okay to fall.
It's okay let my emotions
Get the best of me.
It's okay to be angry.
It's okay to be sad.
And I've realized
It's okay to slip up
And fall off the tracks.
I know I'll get right back on the path,
And head towards the direction
The direction towards redemption
And the acceptance of self,
Instead of seeking approval from others.
I know I've made mistakes in the past.
And I've made mistakes in the present day.
For far too long,
I've lived my life,
With a cloud of regrets
Hanging over me.
I can't let the past or present,
Dictate how I live my life.
To move forward,
I have to learn to love myself,
Instead of seeking love from others.
I must learn to forgive myself,
So I can forgive others.
Life is filled with trial and error,
We're all trying to find ways
To find solutions to problems
Instead of trying to fix ourselves.
Today is the day
I work on fixing myself.
I can't live my life
Focusing on the past.
It's time to enjoy life.
It's time to move forward.
This poem is a direct response to my poem from yesterday. In the poem, "Dear Diary: I'm an Addict (Part II)," I write about my mental addictions and seeking help. This poem realizes that, even though I'm not perfect and make mistakes, there is hope. I will learn to love myself eventually. I will learn to forgive myself.
Today begins the day I admit my addictions and seek help.