How dare you defy me?
You are, with your worthless loads of efforts that you put into this ****** phase we call LIFE
Oh sure you are, not giving in to what these Voices tell you
Nobody cares, so what’s the big deal if you’re gone?
How many times will you have to repeat those meaningless words?
I’m not going to give up
I’m not going to die from my own mind
Well, setting aside the fact that you don’t care about how I feel, I’d rather change
I’d rather defy you
These Voices don’t want you to
Okay, what about it? Strength? what a farce it is!
What about giving in to these Voices already?
Hungry, hungry, Voices that feed off of you, a P A T H E T I C being
I’ll feed them with Love, not hate and I’ll make their anger Quell, not escalate
so pathetic, you ****** creature.
I let SHAME kick me to death, but I take off its shoe to lessen the pain
Oh, so you’re giving in to the Voices, yes?
no. never will. how? why?
If I could live in a
have no imperfections,
not get hurt from anyone,
live in my deceitful imagination (for it can’t
attack me with the brutal reality that I’m not strong),
I would jump off a cliff of my miserable state and fall into a perfect world that breaks my fall from this brutal reality that I’m in
Why should I give in to these Voices, huh?
Past hurts and visits me to ruin the civilization of Strength that I’ve built, far below this Cliff of misery
Yet, I still stand on this cliff that hurts when I could escape to live a more happier life
working on loving myself
more, relentless self-hate, never fails to hold me captive, but, however, I jumped
into a new reality, a new version of myself
One where I realized
that I’m more Stronger than I think I am.
If you’ll never believe in me, then I will for myself
y ou ca n ‘t e sc a p e m e . . .
Yes, I will.
We all have our own insecurities. We all have our own flaws. It's quite easy to get lost into the darkest ravines of your mind. These inner demons are like two-faced partners in relationships. I sure know that it hurts feeling hurt, but you got to fight these inner demons no matter what.