This is a love letter.
Please do not get this confused.
You & my serotonin became infused.
I love you,
But I love you not.
It's almost like my old self,
That I forgot.
You take away the pain.
Only some of it,
The rest remains.
But I love you more than you know,
You've helped me in ways that don't show.
You are the drug that I've been chasing
Need some replacin'..
I hate your manipulation,
The way you think I need you,
You starve me.
You beat me.
Make me physically weak..
But instead of leaving you,
I take you everyday,
Because of you,
I've stopped & smelled the roses,
Had my first smile in awhile,
Took some pictures,
Held some poses.
I know this can't go on forever.
I'm not sure when our last kiss will be,
Sometimes I only feel you & me,
Other times I feel the urge to leave
But I'll stay with you for now,
Because I don't know better.
The only reason I'm alive,
Is because you help me survive.