seriously ? i did not see that coming .
i haven ' t prepare a wonderful smile
so i stared at you
and ( un ) luckily
my heart didn ' t go with horses
yet it stopped
my whole world stopped
i couldn ' t scream
i couldn ' t do anything
- s t o p p e d -
don ' t be so silly to say things like that
i ' m always caught off - guard
For I didn’t understand what was wrong
I wept again,
For not understanding my own self.
I was numb,
And it didn’t matter if I was wrong anymore.
My thoughts for it was not worth it to ponder.
I got up,
With courage I did not realise that I even had.
I walked out,
Of the cage that i built in my mind.
Sat drinking A coffee just passing the time of day
with memories of a life time
passing through my
memories of my sweetheart who has passed on and now a
lifetime away two hearts that once
beat as one, now tbey beat In separate worlds one of this world the other In the next two hearts still
beat but both now beat In separate worlds but hearts that will never stop beating
not this world or the
So much together our hearts beat as one, sad now she's gone our two still beat as on but In two separate worlds, me In this world and my wife In the after life
I thought of you
I just never
How do you find yourself when you've been lost for so long
You stopped trying to get back to the path you were on?
Is the person I was before gone?
I didn't know
I've been doing this for so long
I met you online
We had only one chat
About an hour
But you changed my life
In a bad way
In a way I can't describe
At that exact moment
The lies started
And have never stopped since
You said you wanted
My heart to love you again
But it never stopped
How can I love you AGAIN if I never stopped loving you the first time?
Getting soaked to the bone
Until some kind people stopped
And offered me an umbrella
A hot shower
A warm meal
A cozy fire
And a new home
Don't come knocking on my door
When you've seen I've found better
Because the rain has stopped
And all I have left to give
Is a scorching heat to burn you with
For this Thanksgiving I wanted a poem that was happy but I decided to post this one instead and i chose it because maybe it by itself isn't happy but the stuff behind it is. Dedicated to my friends who've helped me, and honestly are just there in my day to day life, you guys feel like my family and I love you all.