I knew you'd change our lives
My life
A mother's life
The young handsome man
Taking care of her
Taking care of us
His family loved us
Giving us more family
New babies
Never realizing the impact
Until now
The happiness
The safety
Being loved by a new dad
To replace one I never knew
I knew you'd change our lives
And you did...

Because you left

I soaked my heart
In the colors
Of your love
And everything
Came out clear

This rose has thorns
She let bees in
Needing to live
One sting from this
Protector
Can ****
That who pulls
The petal off a
Newborn rose
Before it blooms
Yes in sacrifice
Yet
Worthwhile
In my garden

There is a chord
In your song
That makes me cry
It touches me
So deep...
I wish
It was
For me

Are the many
Shades of rain
Just
Umbrellas
In a crowd
Or my sadness
When
I have to say goodbye
Walking away
Leaving
Instead I wanted
An embrace
But
There's no room for
Us
So much
Crowding in our world
I wonder if I'll ever
Reach you
In all of these
Shades of rain
Maybe
Our sun will
Shine
For a short while
The shades will go down
And you will
See my happiness
When
You're coming
My way
Holding
Your hand out
To touch mine...
But that's all...
Putting my shade
Back up
For the next
Rain...
I know it's coming

Looked in the fun house mirrors
Then walked away in thought
The distorted view of myself
Really was because of the circus

You made me
Put my heart away
I put it on the shelf
It kept wanting to jump back in
But you told it to stop
Hope and pray
You meant
Wait...
Not yet
But
Soon

I want to get away
Get away to that place
That place with the balcony, the umbrella
And the cold sand

What if  I can’t
What if I can’t escape
Escape to that space
That place in another land

Would you please just
Just give me that touch
The escaping sensation  
Of your healing hands

It dawns...

She ponders...

It wanders...

Goes yonder...

Back it saunters...

Her thought process...

Sometimes is...
Beyond her

If your heart is divided
And both sides break
What is it called?
Quadruple
Heartache?

I will bloom for you
If you wait
And take care of me
It will be worth it
I may only show you
A little at a time
For fear you may hurt
My petals
But wait
And cherish me
I'll full bloom
From the love

The first time
You told me
I love you
I believed it

I put the
I love you
In my
GIANT
Heart
Envelope

And
   Hearing
I love you’s
Everyday since
I still
Believe
It

My
Heart
Envelope
Has
Just enough room
For the next
Days
I love you’s

Because it’s
E-x-p-a-n-d-a-b-l-e
Like
Stretchy
Pants

Vacation wear: for photo shoot

**** sundress
Cute underwear
**** *******
Thong
Moo moo dress
Moo moo dress
Moo moo dress
Moo moo dress
Moo moo dress
Moo moo dress
Polka dot bikini
String bikini
Silky robe
Flowers

Nothing

I dreamt of a man
I did not know
Sitting next to me
In a crowd of people
Tired and needing comfort
He held me like a baby
His arm around my waist
My head on his chest
I felt so safe
Only a little while...
People started criticizing him
For holding me like this
He got up from me
Starting to walk away
As I was
Looking at him
Wondering "where are you going"?
I still did not know this man
All I could do was watch him leave
He didn't even turn around
As people jeered him
He went away...
I do not think
I will ever
Know who this man
Is

My adoring stare
Loves you
Like I'm yours
But I stay behind
With my eyes down
So you may not know
For fear you may erase
Both our smiles
With the doubt
In your mind

•Black and white dotted cotton•
•Soft lines and flowing•
•So stylish I said this polka dot dress•
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•••••••••••
Twirlin­g-will they notice me in it
Will they see how pretty I feel
It’s new to me, I feel so real
•••••••••••
Too young just yet
For attentions like that
Slow down late bloomer, not too fast
•••••••••••
I could still hope for stares
And wish for admirers
Would anyone care for braided hair
•••••••••••
Years later my true love says
I remember seeing you when we were younger
You stood out among the rest
••••••••••••
Really?
You saw me?
You remember that?
What did you see?
Tell me!
••••••••••••
A Long french braid
Hoop earrings and•••
You
had
on
a
polka
dot
dress
•
•
•

Some days
You will feel
Like a fine wine
Dressed up and fantastic
Complemented
By your buffet of friends
Some days
You feel like
Watered down kool aid
Artificial at best
Trying to be
Something you aren't
In a world parched of love
You will find both will do
However you feel
Share what you have
Some of you

There is no why
For now
Only goodbye...
For now

The perpetual state
Of heart break
Never heals
It just learns
To deal

In a world
Of potatos
Be a
Tater tot

Why plant
A fragile heart
In the wrong place
Setting it up
To suffocate
Like a tulip
In a xeriscape

Lend me your eyes
And I will lend you my ears

For you
I can shed your tears

For me
You can whisper away my fears

Your dark oxygen
Penetrates a depth
I do not want to know
Keeping a mystery alive..

But not me

Our scent of
Nostalgia
Would be a
Best seller
Let's
Get a degree
In chemistry
And craft
A masterpiece

I want to walk
With this sky
It talks to me
Enveloping my heart
Giving me hope
By the time I'm free
It will be gone
And altogether
Different
With it's darkness
Not speaking
In the quiet
Stars

Changing
Your font
Makes you
Harder
To
Read

Two winged tiny seed
I wish I could be
To make the aroma
Of summer and spring
Died away broken
Came back strong
Surprise you with
Beauty of paints
Dripped from above
A whole parade for just you
So beautifully hued

I'll never forget
The look you gave
As
I told you something good  
You looked safely lost
With a thought provoking gaze
Deep into my soul
No smile
Just a kind softness 
To a wandering thought
Maybe just absorbing what I said
 Saying nothing
Just looking
Were you day dreaming?
Did you even hear me?
Your beautiful eyes
Shook a nerve
A pleasant one
Having to look down
At what I was reading
I left the mutual gaze prematurely  
Maybe it meant nothing
Maybe it meant everything
This is the conundrum

Those comfort memories
The ones I count on
That
Crawl their way into
My mind and heart
The
Ones I'm most
Fond of
Are those days
The sun was going down
Beaming good night
Crispy apple air
Veil of warmth
And spice
While
Fawning
Over you
Looking out
My car window
Waiting
For something
Different
I know you are
Just  
A daydream
I need to forget

A cheesy 70’s drama soundtrack
And the choppy muttons
An 80’s sitcom opening theme
With the track of fake laughs
A 90’s epic movie ending credits
Award winning sweeping songs

These things are now vintage
And priceless if you actually lived them

How much
Do you need to win
Before you realize
How much you’ve lost

The gamble of fame
Years of building
Bets and wagers
Pay up

Life can sometimes
Be the pits
But it’s the pits
That protect the seeds
That make
Things grow
Into the sweet and tender

It’s quite alright that
The Wookiee has no pants
Neither do most of us
In our video chats

I was conceived
At a drive-in movie

Maybe that’s why
I get motion picture sick

I don't like the middle
It feels like an ocean
Swimming it everyday
I want to be close to the shore
Where you are
Where I can at least see you
Hear you
The middle feels almost like
Drowning
You are too far
To help me get thru
Or throw me a lifeline
Reassure me
So
I can at least float
To your shore

Some days you feel like that best seller
Up front, all glorious on display

Some days you feel like you’re in the the 90% off bin...
(Only needed to prop a door open)

Covering my exposed
When you know it’s cold
Warms my whole body
Because it’s love
That it knows

Is
there
an
award
show
for
the
best
award
show?

Grainy images
From the
Darkroom of
Your psyche
Develop quickly
Fade slowly
Reflecting
Illuminations

Did you forget to kiss me?
Did I forget to kiss you?
No
He forgot to say
“Kiss the bride”

Finally
Sealed by the
The touch with lips
Never a day goes by
With a forgotten kiss