Haven't set up an alter In I dont' how many moons The few times I tried I truly knew the futility of it And understood That security, for me, is fleeting
Just another thing That seems so easy for the others Oh no dont applaud My baby brain for its Whining,ll just make it worse So the other day after I snatched the sage you left For me outside your window sill (Thank you btw)
I instinctively started Making YET ANOTHER ALTER Then broke down for the 5th time that day "How could someone like you ever deserve a home" Then I had remembered That Im not allowed to Have a safe space
I'm a drifter Pushing the limits My health is at risk Every minute No one to care Whether I die or live
Sitting on my hands In a thicket Praying wishing waiting thanking God that I woke still broken Throwing up stuff Everytime I tried to move
Hunger Hurt Thirst Hate Anger Thankful Stay low on your toes Heatstroke Dryheave Please No Please make it stop Oh god here it comes again My Sweat drips endlessly Chiggers bit my skin So it wont quit itchin'
Bites that bother until next week Typical.... All I want is a place to hang my hat Or hopefully lay my head without trip wires surrounding Me All I want is to oggle my alter and call on my angels and my God Without being on constant alert Watching my own six
Bc your own brother will turn on you Don't get comfortable Dont relax Dont unpack Dont believe A ******* thing they tell you Prove me wrong then
Haven't had a mfr not turn Haven't seen anyone actually keep their word
And why cant i set up an alter without it being destroyed?
My week has been hectic sporadic challenging. This poem was written in bits throughout the course of this week i realize im all over the place and my head space is caving in
i want to pretend i dont care, that watching you be happy with someone else doesnt makes my heart shatter. Call me selfish but i wish you were not because maybe in that way you would come back to me, to us. But then reality hits me and its that you are there with her and im here trying to find you in another person.
Overcoming the pain your absence left has been a challenge but eventually i started doing it. My days have become bright, i can see far away a tiny light at the end of my tunnel. Its gonna take me time to get there but at least now the impossible seems more possible.
Every day we face challenges or triumphs. Like a game, we move on to the next level. Retry the same level until we finally pass.
Living Day to Day or Day by Day, we each overcome obstacles in our own way and experience life in a different way.
Every decision I make, every decision you make, every decision we make will take us down different roads. We are human beings, we will never come to the same crossroad. We each have an equal right to make mistakes.
"I just graduated from high school, what should I do now?" There are some things to consider first. 1. Muhammad, pbuh, said that no one can take away the knowledge you're destined to have. 2. Self-directed learning is the highest form of knowledge, and in India the highest recognized scholars are self-taught. 3. There are free courses, videos, and lessons online in every field often done by some of the brightest minds, and textbooks for sale online. 4. Study one course or book at a time. Separate books that require study from books just for fun. 5. If you decide to go down this path, know that it is governed by motivation and this can change direction, often in conflict with true will, so be patient. Sometimes it can take years to finish a book. 6. I knew none of this when I was your age.
Being strong has nothing to do with strength. It's about your ability to adapt to And overcome obstacles. If you look at it like that, Anyone can be strong. And with all the challenges We face this year, you'll have plenty of practice.
Nobody has the chance of escaping their questions. And challenges. We've got to learn to learn ahead of trials, in order to make hay at sunrise. Remember, according as mine word. "Failure comes by unleashing time, while Humongous success is timing." Cherish time If you really wanted to succeed.