Lately it seems
you're always
in my dreams
and that makes me
never want to sleep
because
I don'want to see you.
I don't want to see you,
even if it's only in my
dreams.
But is it really a
dream or rather
a nightmare?

I **** up
anything important
to me.
Is it
because
I'm scared?
I don't
want to
lose you.
I'm sorry
for not
being what
you needed.

Time to
move on
its been
too long.
Four years
is enough.
My heart
can't take
the pain
anymore.
It's over.

I'm extremely
happy to have
learned how to
keep my head
high and keep
looking forward
rather than
looking behind
me and seeing
your face
which is
far gone in
the past.

At one point
in my life
you were
the only
one I truly
trusted but,
now you are
the last one
I would ever
trust or even
utter a single
word to.

I want to learn
script, so maybe
I can feel as pretty
as my handwriting.

I call girls
daises
because
I find them
more beautiful
than roses.

She was his flower
So gentle and pure
But only for an hour,
For he could not
Hold her too long.

You were actually
         the first one
     to completely ignore
how I felt and I
         guess that's why
     it hurts so much.

You were the only one I wanted to call
The only one I wanted to talk to
But I couldn't.
I had to distance myself from you.
I can't always go to you.
I have to let you go,
So you can be happy.

We're just two broken hearted people trying to make it through our messes together.

Hi, I love you.
leave me alone.
                               I love you.
                              go away.
                                                    You are loved.
                                                   Bye.
                                                                              Love you always.
                                                                             Stop.
                                                                
                                                                                            I'm never going to stop loving you.
                                                                                            Please do.
                                                  
                                                                             I' will love you forever.
                                                                            Thank you.
                                                
                                                 I love you to the moon and back.
                                                Same for you.
                          
                               I love you more than anything.
                              The feeling is mutual.

I love you.
*I love you too, I always did.

hand holding
is such a
beautiful thing,
two different
hands intertwined
to make one.

The new trend
Seems to be
Falling in love
With your best friend.

I hope you find who you are
                            what you are looking for
                            your happiness
                    and true love.

I was once a fully bloomed daisy.
But then every time you hurt me
You ripped out a petal
Till I was left with with none
And you were finally done with me.

And there I was..
Left empty and alone.

Do not go
searching  to find home
in someone else, you
must find it in yourself
first.

It's funny how I promote how it's
not good to be angry, because it really
only affects yourself,
But I do in fact get angry....
Except it's only at myself.

I often catch myself
worrying about me
                  that's how you know
                             I must be
                             ****** up.
It's okay though,
                 i'll be fine..
one day.

It takes 5 seconds to take a leap of faith and be fearless.
And then those 5 seconds change your outlook on life forever.

I know I'm not the prettiest flower in the garden, but you don't have to constantly remind me.

I am becoming confused on what happened between us.
You told me you were leaving and did not want to pursue a relationship, because of it.
I was not ready for a relationship at the time anyway, so maybe it was for the best.
But you're going to be out soon... and now you don't want me,
Because apparently, "I was not about it".....

I'm dipping into my past pain
to distract myself from today's pain.

I do the
things I do
because it's nice
to feel wanted
for once in
my life,
even if it
is just for
a short time.

I don't know...
Is it so bad to
want a friendship
you once had back?
One that you miss so much,
that your heart aches?
One that you miss so much,
you get so anxious and begin to
to cry when you're alone in
your room at night?
One that you miss so much,
that when you see them
you can't breathe and can't help
but shake?
If that's that's the case,
then call me me a
******* criminal.

Looks like that dream I had came true...
I needed you
and you could not be bothered...

Maybe that's what
I should do.
Step back and
let distance take
its toll.

I don't have
time to have
my heart broken
again.

I'm falling in
love with you
and I don't
know how to
stop.

I was no  longer
innocent.
I was no longer
considered a
*****.
You made me
feel like that
was a bad thing.
But being innocent
is one of the best
things you can be.
Don't lose it
because you're
told it's bad, lose
your innocence
when you want
to.
When you're
ready.

Don't *******                                I didn't                           Not wanting
look at                                            realize it                         to let
me.                                                 was you                          you control
                                                        t­ill I                                 my emotions
It's been                                         passed your                   anymore.
five months                                   rolled down
since you've                                  window.                  ­       Only I
broken me                                                               ­               can control
once again.                                    And you                         my emtions
                                                        a­lready knew
Five months                                  it was                               incompetent *******
since I've                                        me                   ­                 like you
seen your                                                             ­                   don't,
lying face.                                     staring me                        not anymore.
                                                       directly in
I thought                                       the face.
it was
going so                                         That's when
well                                                 anxiety  crept
                                                  ­       up on
but you                                           me once
ruined my                                      again
streak
            ­                                              oh but
five months                                     don't forget
down the                                         the anger
drain.                                               and sadness
                                                         that followed.
I saw                                              
you at                                              I wanted
the place                                         to scream,
where i                                            but I
least expected.                               held it
                                                         all back.

Maybe when I'm
Drunk and vulnerable
I'll confess it all.

Like how I love you
And the way you smile
When you tell me about
A good day you've had.

Or how I could never
Tell you I'm in love  
With you sober

Because I know you don't
Feel the same and I
Can't bare to take the pain.

I hate the way
my voice sounds,
because sometimes
it comes off loud and
sometimes I give an attitude
when I honestly do not mean to.

But no one believes me.

I was raised in loudness.
Constant yelling, screaming , shouting , and rudeness.

I am coated with hatred.

Nothing calm, sweet and nice to be found, not even in the corners of my home.

I'm sorry.
I'm truly kind and caring,
only somewhat broken,
I promise.

You're hiding who you are
and I hope you realize
that once you show everyone
the real you, they will love you
even more.

Because the person who I actually
Thought would give me a chance
And show me that I did not have
Bad luck with my heart,
Proved me wrong and hurt me the
Most.
You showed me that I was not even
Worth the risk and proved me right
That I’m just not meant to be in
A romantic relationship with
Another soul.
Just solely physical... since that
Is all I am used to.

To never know how to describe how you feel is so terrifying.

You often cross my mind,
not in a hateful way,
trust me,
but more of...
I'm just really wondering
how you are doing...

Her personality shown through her hair,
                                                                      golden and
                                                                            pure.

My walls are higher than I thought and I
                                    am not so sure
                                           that they will
                                                   actually come
                                                                  down this
                                                                              time.