pouring all the water in the glass, till the glass starts spilling out everywhere this happens every time she drinks from it she's fully aware of it, but allows it to keep spilling wetting her shirt, the floor, and the table drops on her skin racing to the floor, trying to beat gravity
meanwhile they were in front, watching all of it wondering why she isn't doing anything to stop it second-hand embarrassment is what they felt for the fact that she can't simply drink a glass of water without spilling it all "what a mess" they thought
nobody wanted to be around that girl "stupid" and "strange" are words that were used to describe her because at such an older age, how can she not drink a glass of water? how can she not control herself? how does she not think about how uncomfortable it is for others to watch?
she knew what was happening, but continued to let it happen she watched as everyone judged her, but still kept on going is it inconsideration or self sabotage? she wanted to see if they would see past that but in the end, she realized that was what she was defined as
extra contents that are spilled out can be used against you, even by those you love the most when you least expect it
Mom, Dad Why can't you see the pain I'm in I know I don't tell you anything Or let you in to see But you should know me
I know you don't believe in psychology But still you should see That my mental health is crumbling You can't deny That you aren't doing anything to save my life
You can't save me from anything Not the undiagnosed ADHD Not the undiagnosed Anorexia Nervosa Not the undiagnosed Anxiety I'm breaking but you aren't trying to save me
Not from the undiagnosed depression Or the undiagnosed body dysmorphia Or the anger issues you gave me Why do you have to run from the truth That psychology is true
You never tried to protect me from the ones who broke my heart The the man who tried to touch me When you where just a floor above me You may believe its just a phase But the broken has set in and its here to stay
If you would just open your eyes To the truth Then maybe Just maybe I'd let my walls down for you
But until you come to your senses I'll wait here in pain For you to come and push it away Hug me till you arms ache And wipe the tears from my face
I know that one day You will open your eyes And I know that I'm a pain But for right now my only complaint Is that you let me go undiagnosed
my trust in you fell faster than leaves off a tree you hypocrite you ******* I cannot believe you you've done it again you've taken my trust and gave it a spin and now its broken because of you telling me this but then doing that when will this cycle end? i just wish I could depend on you the way your child should be able to
in the end people are really disappointing aren't they? it's like they make a few loose statements just to make theirselves comfortable but once we trust they have no intention to follow their promises with action
I had a feeling you would do this but you said I was different I was naive and believed you told myself if I treated you right the way you deserved to be treated than we would work so I did, I treated you great and you, you played me you got what you wanted and than threw it away threw me away I should've listened to everyone I should've listened to myself
Lonely are the men I seek Beneath the seams I make them weak. They hear me sing from far away, but I come close to my dismay. Water rages all round me But on the surface is a beautiful sea. My hair falls upon my naked breast And the wind is blown to the west. I trap them in my gaze, with eyes that send them into a hazy daze. They begin their descent into my void, I will become what they need, an escape from their pathetic realities. Intoxicated from my facade, they lean from the ship, hoping to taste ecstasy. Their eyes meet mine, and I have fully hypnotized. One last breath, And suddenly they see No longer the reflection of who this seductress could be, But the siren that drags them to the bottom of the sea.
Every person I meet I thought was the one, But that soon all changed when they no longer were concerned. So I say this to myself, I am beautiful and strong, I am cared for and loved And before anyone else I will always make myself the one. I deserve what my heart is worth, which is worth a thousand words. I will always love me first until someone shows me I can trust.