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195 · Feb 2020
In pieces
Aa Harvey Feb 2020
In pieces


The debris of my shattered soul,
Is all that remains of the old me I used to know.
I, the ghost, who haunts my life of cold,
Just sits here shivering…lost without a hope.


Broken by love a thousand times.
Crippled permanently by all the lies.
I live this life inside a lie.
I say I am happy, so they don’t have to cry.


If I tell the truth to anyone who cares,
I fear that it would leave them to be scared.
So I will just tell ‘you’ what goes on inside my head.
Today I thought ‘I want to be dead.’


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195 · Apr 2018
A scarlet beast
Aa Harvey Apr 2018
A scarlet beast.


A scarlet beast is hunting me, as I run through the shadows.
It will not cease its pursuit of me;
I wish for peace in dandelion meadows,
But night has fallen, the beast is unleashed!
The panic awoken; the light I seek.


In rain-dropped puddles, I plant my feet;
In rain-dropped puddles, I hear the beast.
Still I run and still the beast runs;
I only see darkness, when I am crying out for a sun!


Like the barrel of a gun, I am trapped in this tunnel;
At the end is my death, the bullet brings my funeral.
Above and beyond!  I am shot through the clouds;
I fall and I land safe in angel arms, peace has taken over me now.


Safe in this haven, secure this place is the cure;
For my fear evaporates into a memory.
I was ripped apart and torn from the world;
My body may be in ruins, but my soul is concrete.


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195 · Oct 2020
It's nothing personal
Aa Harvey Oct 2020
It’s nothing personal


It’s nothing personal; I hate the entire human race.
It’s the way they talk, the way they act,
I hate the look upon their face.
In fact I hate everything about you all.
Like I said before, it’s nothing personal.


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195 · Apr 2018
Push on through
Aa Harvey Apr 2018
Push on through


The world is a scary place and there is nowhere left to hide;
The nightmares are hunting us down and they are crawling inside.
Run from your life, they are coming to get you;
Keep on going, push on through.


Do not allow yourself to become boxed in;
Caged inside a nightmare of a life, with no sight of a key.
Set yourself free from their bonds of security,
That keeps you trapped in debt without any hope of release.


Push on through to the other side of the night
And in dawns breaking light, you will save a life.
Save yourself from your home made evil;
Fight away the beast and search for all the beautiful people.


Go forth and multiply; this is the spell we are under.
Instincts so old, they are humanities goal
And they drive us into the arms of our lover.
Without a love to hold, this world would only **** those who do;
But with love we can make a change and push on through.


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195 · Apr 2018
I will wait
Aa Harvey Apr 2018
I will wait.


If love is searching for me, then I will not move.
I will wait here, doing nothing, until she comes into view.
I will wait here a million years if she is worth the wait.
I will patiently remain, even if she is a thousand years too late;
Because I hope she is running to be with me.
I desire her love, so patiently,
I wait to embrace,
To see her face,
So I can know the day I found her.


I will wait until she arrives
And if it takes until the end of time
And I only get a second to look into her eyes,
Then I will wait…
Because she will have tried to reach me;
So it must be,
Possible for her to truly love me.


If love is searching,
I will not be deserting.
I will wait patiently, even when I am truly hurting.
I will wait…

…For you.


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195 · May 2018
Fingertips hold memories
Aa Harvey May 2018
Finger tips hold memories


Kiss my lips and feel sheer bliss my lover, my last fling;
I love you so much it is becoming embarrassing.
Hold my soul close to your chest,
Then our love can blossom and we can stay undressed.


Show me the real you because that is what I desire,
I want to remember your love for the rest of my life.
Your love allows me to become a high flier;
In search of God I fly over the world and disappear into the sky.


Light and dark and everything inside,
Love has never felt so hard to hide.
Questioned by an angel about my love;
She can see in my heart that our love is good.


The amalgamation of two souls,
Bound by love forever more.
Our love will last forever!
You are mine and I am yours.


A year later the room is empty…
She took it all when she walked out on me.
I am beginning to heal but love is a distant memory;
Finger tips cling onto memories.


I was cast aside to a distant place,
To suffer pain and never again show my face.
All I did was never enough;
Never enough to call your bluff.


Now I never hear her sing,
Now I never see her smile.
Now I never get to be happy,
Because now I know she is no longer mine.


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Aa Harvey Aug 2018
I need love to live and breathe.


Love is missing you every day,
In every way, I hope and pray,
That I could tell you, in an easy way,
The words that are so hard to say.


You think I love you, but you’re not sure,
If this is real, if my love is pure;
If my words are true or how I really feel,
Or even if I am worthy of you my dear.


But listen to your heart and not your head;
Have faith in your feelings, be confident.
My love is real, it’s just hard to show;
Please don’t let this love become a ghost.


If our love dies, then angels cry
And Heaven disappears.
How can I have a divine afterlife?
When I can’t hold you near.


If I could have a neon light, that said I truly love you;
I’d wear it proudly on my heart, simply to prove,
That I love you, as man loves air; you give me life again.
You breathe your love into my soul, each time you say I love you.

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195 · May 2018
Your endless love
Aa Harvey May 2018
Your endless love


You could bring me sunshine, or you could be my rain;
Either way I look forward to seeing you again.
You could be love, or you could be lost;
You could be good, but I want you bad.
I will willingly pay any cost,
To feel your love; to make you laugh.


If pain is what I must endure,
To be allowed to knock on your door,
The knock me to the floor with a thousand rejections,
Because you are my cure and I will always rise once more.


If I must lose all that which I have,
To hold onto your love, then take it all back.
I will give you all that which I have,
Because, I want you bad.


You give me hope when there is none.
You give me shelter from the pain.
You give me your tears of happiness,
When I am dying of thirst beneath the sun;
You give me anesthetic with your kiss when I am in need of being saved.


I can only give you my unending devotion.
You are already my endless passion in motion.
I can be the arms around you when you are in need of a hug;
I can only be what you are to me…
Will I remain your endless love?


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195 · Jun 2018
Love does not know my name
Aa Harvey Jun 2018
Love does not know my name


No memories.
I have forgotten all those things that we said.
No time machine,
To bring back those times;
Those good times we shared inside my head.


I never did grow up or find a love worth all the trying.
I never did get better with time; I hate always crying.
I never did change;
I’m still the same.
I’m still the same as I ever was
And I have no face.
I’m just another unknown;
I am unknown to love.
Love does not know my name,
But my need to find love has never gone away.


Please give me a name;
Let me become a somebody to someone.
Please give me a change.
A chance to show that I could be something somebody really wants.


If I am without a name,
Then what will become of all the poetry that I wrote?
If I live in vain;
Why is there no way to overload?
This love burden I have,
It weighs me down…
And I am just a man.


Fix me with her.
Fix me up or knock me to my knees.
Give me a shot;
Just one more chance to find a way to breathe.


If I have no name,
Then how will I ever find my way back home?
If I have no name,
Then tell me what do you think they will write upon my resting stone?


No time machine…
Time never heals an empty head.
No memories…
Only love can ever help me to find myself again.


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194 · Feb 2020
Razorblade
Aa Harvey Feb 2020
Razorblade


Shot a rebel through the heart.
Cancer kills but life is art.
You tried to put a stop to all that we are,
But we are too hot to handle; you can’t grab hold of a star.


Fire your guns; I’m invincible.
Speak your words; I’ve heard them all before.
Condemn a man for condemning your war.
You will never stop what we are.


Your system of control and degrade is beginning to fade.
Push my buttons, I’m a microwave,
Blowing through your wall like a hand grenade.
A tongue so sharp, I’m a razorblade;
Cutting your lies apart…your truth cannot be saved.


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Aa Harvey Apr 2018
Your guess is as good as mine


When people ask the impossible question,
What do they expect?
“If aliens are real, then what do they look like?”

Something you have never seen.
Something you could not imagine.
Something you would never forget.


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194 · Apr 2018
Helpless
Aa Harvey Apr 2018
Helpless


All I see is pointless sadness;
I want to be selfless, but all I can be is helpless.
Hold my hand and let’s pretend,
This is not the end


I pray to survive; I hide in the shadows.
Under this comfort blanket I feel at home.
All I want to do with my life is remember why I had to try;
But all the good memories are now unfortunately gone and I am alone.


I've been thinking about leaving this place,
But I cannot leave here because you are my friend.
Inside I am hopeless with no saving grace;
So it is here in this hole that I must stay, until the end.


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194 · Apr 2018
Love is my reason
Aa Harvey Apr 2018
Love is my reason


Love defines a person.
Love finds you when you need it to.
Love is my reason.
I hope you find your reason too.


What is your reason?
What makes you truly feel alive?
Love is in season.
Let the sun shine.


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193 · Jun 2018
All I ask
Aa Harvey Jun 2018
All I ask


I saw you flinch, when I said her name;
Is this normal behaviour, from someone who is just a friend?
I hope not for I want us to be much more than just good friends.
I want you and I to be good until the end.


I honestly stand here offering you love for life.
All I ask is you stay faithful and tell me no lies.
Then you shall see, I mean what I say.
I’m older now and people change.


So let’s rearrange the past and the present
And make the future ours.
Let’s love each other for a lifetime
And maybe eternal happiness could be ours.


All I ask for is your endless love and
Complete devotion to only me and
Do not cheat…

That is all I ask.


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193 · Apr 2018
I drown in you
Aa Harvey Apr 2018
I drown in you.


Opposites attract.  I like that.
I wouldn’t want you to be just like me,
With my insecurities, my doubt, my thoughts,
My clouded apathy.


My heart is on fire and you the water soul,
Are consistently changing from young to old,
To fearlessly fearful, to wise beyond your years,
To insecure about who you are and who you could be,
From laughter, to tears.
I see it all in you and you don’t need to speak a word.
You soul speaks volumes; your eyes have been heard.


If I were to speak my mind, there would be no turning back,
But your secret smile gives me hope, there are words beneath.
I only want one of the single ladies, can I not have that?
Love, you are driving me crazy!  Let love kiss me, with teeth.
Do I want her?  Yes!  Does she want me?  I don’t know!
Do I love her?  I haven’t got a clue!  In a moment you will go,
But we do have this moment and I am at peace in your Zen garden.
Promise me your love, so I can try to be your Prince Charming,
And our fairytale story can begin,
Where all the other mysteries have reached their end.


She could say no and I would be devastated;
Or even worse she could say yes and I would be elated!
And then the fall would break every nerve in my body.
I want to be someone, to somebody.
I have so much work yet to do to clean up this mess.
The thousands of thoughts,
That run constantly through my labyrinth head.
Love is a bubble; love-life so much trouble.
Oh strife!  What will become of fair Juliet?
Will it be that I can only fondly look back through tears of regret,
When I am laying on my deathbed?
Or could it be, that she could be, the one I need to set me free?


It’s just three little words, how hard can it be?
“I like you.”  I wonder if she likes me.
You have no idea what I am putting myself through,
Jumping hoop after hoop, my one direction is you.
You are yet to break my heart,
And yet to laugh in my face,
So I will continue to dream,
Even though my head and heart are all over the place.


My words?
Well my words are just my Gods honest truth.
I will swear on a bible if you ask me to.
It will not burn; I am not yet your sin.
Allow me to become your angel,
And we can find our kink.


You are the warm ice I need to cool myself down.
A cold shower does not work, because at some point I have to get out.
She is the rain that falls down upon me from every silver-lined cloud.
She is the night that covers my eyes,
And engulfed in her ways…I drown.


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192 · Jun 2018
Just holding on
Aa Harvey Jun 2018
Just holding on


I’ve been spinning around;
I’m so lost in this town.
Still trying to find perfection;
Looking for direction.
I need a guiding hand to push me like you mean it!
I want you to help me, to tell me exactly what I need to be!


Still searching, still searching; why can I not have love?
I am forever failing in my endless searching,
For that thing that everybody else does.
Fading in and out of life as today’s people just pass me by on their way,
Without a ‘Howdy do’; I never hear a word that they say.


Words of wisdom mean nothing to an amoeba who cannot hear.
All your helpful secrets you keep inside, while pushing me so far away.
When all I need is for you to pull me near,
I see you successfully running your life into the ground
And leaving me to my own pain.


I cannot speak about thoughts that I can never let myself speak out.
I keep my ******* lock-box when all I want to do is shout!
All of this it eats away at all of my love, but never my pain.
I feel the same old sting of insecurity every single day.
So scared of falling to pieces; no faith left in my brain.


All I keep inside just leaves me to cry.
The agony of being me!
This loser, freak, shall forever be nobody.
Holding on by only fingertips;
Just holding on to shattered reality pieces.
Holding on by fingertips…
One day soon I will surely slip.


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192 · Jun 2018
Something nice
Aa Harvey Jun 2018
Something Nice


People don’t think; they stink.
Why are things so great?
Honestly, just sit around and wait.
Look it’s a summer’s day
And everything is ok.


Feeling woozy on Tuesday;
It’s just another day.
Another way to be happy;
They say.


Trying to write ‘Something Nice’;
Struggling really, I guess that’s life!
I can’t be happy, with my life today;
I need to do something I don’t hate.


Goodbye Tuesday, hello Gorgeous!
I think we may see something before us,
We can’t resist; my divine inspiration.
Thank you for everything;
You’re a beautiful creation.


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192 · Apr 2018
Flying on forever
Aa Harvey Apr 2018
Flying on forever


I’m flying on the edge forever,
Searching for a brighter future.
I can see the picture of an angel inside my mind
And now I have to find a way to meet her.


Burning out, fading away; love must come to save the day.
Shooting stars only crash into their own grave.
I will build her a house we can live in and age;
If only I could take her to it, then maybe things would change.


Some of us lie, some of us fly;
Some of us are living on borrowed time.
The future is not certain to be there when we arrive,
But the past is firmly in the past where it belongs,
So please just let me get on with my life.


We are in search of a forever love, forever more!
Fallen love angels who scorn are left behind;
Forever alone in fields of thorns, left alone to mourn.


There is a dust storm up ahead, so I must look my best,
Because when I do finally meet her, my love I will confess.
Eventually she will see me appearing through the mist;
I cannot allow this chance of true happiness to be missed.


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192 · Jul 2018
My words
Aa Harvey Jul 2018
My words


Look at my words and see what you see;
I see me, just trying to speak.
Hear my words and speak my verse;
Find what you seek to find within my words.


I have no doubt that the truth will out
And you will see that you are not free.
The truth is out there but it is as yet unwritten,
So take the future in your own hands and write your own opinions.


Send your words out into the atmosphere;
I need my words out there for people to hear.
I live in a world of obscurity,
So my words are all I have to give
And the only piece of me I need you to see.


I’m waiting for an answer from God,
To a question no-one has ever asked.
Here are my words; it’s up to you what they do for you.
Here are my words; I wrote them in a flash.
Thoughts without thinking; rhyme without reason…
This is all I can do.


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191 · Apr 2018
For-Life-Wife
Aa Harvey Apr 2018
For-Life-Wife


My new life has begun…
My history is manuscript pages thrown away never to return.
A romance has begun…
I am once more in love with love;
Watch my heart glow as it once more gets burnt.
This fire inside, will not go out once lit;
There is no off switch.
There will be times when I hold my doubt,
Like it is a tattoo that I cannot itch.


Upon my soul it has been written,
True love or nothing else.
Until the day I release a dove,
I will be eternally in-waiting and forever, so in love,
With a wife I haven’t met yet;
Who I know, loves me as-well.
It is already written; so it will be said.


We have not yet had the pleasure,
So I will just slow my pace for now;
I will be crawling, begging, searching for a love of my own!
But this journey has only just begun
And one day she will find me,
I have no doubt.


The ruins of a love story or two have crumbled into dust,
But I have only just begun to love.
The love I love is just love.
If I am righteous and trust my heart,
All my feelings will not fade away one day.
I will be with my Queen.  I will find my bride.
The two of us shall find a way,
To find each other under the stars,
As asteroid’s collide.
A thousand sparks will be my guide
And she will be my life-wife.


All other thoughts will testify,
That all I want is a single wife.
A wife that I can call my own;
Neither borrowed, stolen, nor temporarily on loan.
I want a permanent smile emblazoned on my heart,
A heart upon my sleeve, a name across my chest,
A bold statement of my intent to act upon my commitment,
To never need another lover.


I want ‘somebody’ to love me;
Surely there must be somebody.
If your love for me is true, then find my heart beacon;
I hold it high for all to see.
I cannot reason a future without a reason;
I believe in our destiny.


If we are bound to be together, then there can be no falsehood.
If you are planning a motherhood with me,
Then you have to remain good
And kind and heartfelt and faithful always…
If you cannot, then please allow me to leave,
To go in search of love.
If you cannot be happy with me during the night
And throughout the day,
Then you should leave, so I can too;
I will find my better half and she will be sent from the Heaven’s above.


I have no car, so watch the stars and if they twinkle just for you,
Then I am waiting, searching, thinking about a love that is true.
It is so sad, to be without your soulmate;
In the sky you will see ‘I love you’,
Written by sky-soaring planes.


I am not your Superman,
My pants are on the inside,
But if you hold onto me really tightly,
If you truly, truly love me…

We could fly together forever;
We could be a light in the sky.


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191 · Jun 2018
Under a dying sun
Aa Harvey Jun 2018
Under a dying sun.


We are a dying people, on a dying world;
We are constantly dying and all we have left is hope.
Under a dying sun, the clouds of doubt are formed
And we head into an unknown future, afraid and alone.


Without doubt we need faith, to journey on for,
Behind us is a memory of all that which came before.
We are a God fearing people; some say it is a Godless world.
With God at our side, anything is possible.


The stars have always been with us
And they will be there long after we have gone.
When you are lost in the darkness, you will find what you need.

When the world has been emptied and all nature is lost;
We will realise this land we call our home is only borrowed,
So let us be free of apathy.


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191 · Apr 2018
Connected
Aa Harvey Apr 2018
Connected.


I need to empty the clutter from inside my mind;
So time after time, I write these lines.
I empty my brain so I can go to sleep,
But when I look at the clock it is half past three.


Beam me up Scotty, to a cloud in the sky,
So I can kiss this night goodbye.
I’m still counting sheep,
To pass the time.


I need to upload all the thoughts inside my mind;
Because this way of clearing my head,
Takes up way too much time.
Just let me be a plug-in baby;
Connect me directly into the internet
And set my thoughts free from inside me.


Electronically discharge me from this chore of a life,
Because inside me I find something else I need to write.
Disconnect me from my mind so I can get some sleep;
A day dream never screams, but this night time is purgatory.
Thoughts are shouting at me, so I must write to find quietude.
The wires inside my head were split,
But thankfully now I have improved.


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191 · May 2018
The Duality of WoMan
Aa Harvey May 2018
The Duality of WoMan


I’ve been trying to decide if I am good or bad,
But the truth is I am each in equal yet separate states of mind.


I have been trying to do good and do nothing bad,
But the fact is I am each;
Neither perfect, nor totally flawed and yet I stand here alive.


I hope to do good even if it may seem the wrong choice.
I try to do no wrong, but still I speak, for this is my voice.


I want to be totally healthy and that is ok;
But I also like and need things…
I will find my own way.


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191 · May 2018
Enough already
Aa Harvey May 2018
Enough already


I’ve taken enough of your patience in me,
To build a hospital bed and oh how I nearly lost my mind;
But concentration lingers beside me in time and nudges me in the side.
So once more I must get my act together,
So I can try to stand up tall, with pride.
Easy *******’s, losing everything,
Silent thoughts are all you leave me with;
Disappear and leave me with my grief.
Who are you to think you know just what I need?
Pity me for claiming to be free.
In my head you don't belong,
Let me be and move yourself along.
Without you I can become someone,
But with you on my mind I will forever remain lost.
Get to being gone, we are done.


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191 · Apr 2018
The Builder
Aa Harvey Apr 2018
The Builder


If it does not bite you at the end of each breath,
Then I will start again and again
And I will rewrite it, all over again.


Do it all again; pretend we are friends.
I never claimed to believe in anything ‘real’.
These lips are sealed to forever lovers.
I wish I had never gone undercover.


In my happy disguise, I find truth within eyes.
I fixate on the page, the place, the way
And someday I will find a place where I can truly say,
‘I love you’, and mean it;
But this is neither the time, nor the day.
I have dagger eyes upon me.
Always waiting for a new surprise.
They are hoping for a slip of the tongue;
Waiting for me to mention drugs,
Waiting with the desert dogs,
But I have nothing more to say,
About what I have, or have not done.


You pick your truth as I live in peace,
With decisions I have made.
I made no choice, for I have no choice.
Some might say I lead the way;
Some might say,
All things are already set in stone.
Rock steady is the path I walk along.


Destiny is self-assured,
For I have never found a cure,
To all the hurt in my own world,
So I will never reach a day,
Where I no longer need to build.


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191 · Jun 2018
My destiny
Aa Harvey Jun 2018
My destiny.


Never known someone like you,
Never really knew I wanted to,
Until I saw you there.


Never been one to try,
Try and try as I might;
I found it hard to care.


But you came into my life
And changed everything for me.
Now it’s so easy for me to see,
You are the only one that I need.


You are everything to me.
You are my destiny.


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191 · Jun 2018
We are the nothing
Aa Harvey Jun 2018
We are the nothing


We are the others, the never wills;
The nothingness of death.
We are nothing, you are less;
Spineless, useless, worthless, blessed!
Burn love to the ground and ground it down;
I love falling apart in your arms.


Everyone is going around, falling in love;
Fall from the sky, down into the ground.
We feel like the world is coming to an end.
Burn love down; burn love down.


Everyone is an Angel and everyone is a Devil;
All we become is ashes and dust.
Bite the hand that feeds,
Down on your ***** knees;
Who are you that we should trust?


There is a great big hole in the sky!
I think it’s time to die.
There’s nothing left to do,
But suffer fools like you.


Something inside me burns with hate!
It is you I have to leave behind or save.
Clinical and cynical;
We are nothing to the grave.


We are the nothing inside of you;
We are the nothing that you breed.
We are nothing,
You are nothing;
You are nothing like me.


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190 · Jun 2018
Bleed it all away
Aa Harvey Jun 2018
Bleed it all away.


Bleed away the pain;
Don’t let it eat away at you, let it go.
Bleed away the pain;
Set it free, from deep within your soul.


Write it down or keep it bottled up inside;
Whatever seems to work for you and your life.
Love a lot, it is all that you have got,
But don’t lose the plot when it is gone.


Never felt like I hated the idea of love before;
But then you walked through that door and love was no more.
I never hated you as much as I loved you my love;
But I have never been one to simply move on.


I need to let go of you, because no-one compares to you.
No-one has ever, or will ever, affect me like you still do.
Heaven is falling from the sky, I want to die;
I cry ****** tears; in the silence I sigh.


She is gone and I am here alone,
I want to bleed away her love and bleed away my hope.
I want to let it all go to become a nightmare for someone else,
But this is my pain to bear; my own personal Hell.


You said it was you and me until the end;
You lied again, my so-called girlfriend.
You are no friend of mine, just a curse I had to suffer,
So goodbye forever my bleeding heart, my lover.


Running into the heart of darkness;
Now my love has gone I welcome sadness.
It lets me be the man I know I am;
The condemned sufferer in silence…I am the ******.


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189 · Apr 2018
I had a life
Aa Harvey Apr 2018
I had a life.


I used to walk down there, in the days of old;
From way up here, I still hear their words.
I lived that life, in a world I no longer share;
Now I’m lucky enough to be flying up here, higher than the birds.


I have walked on the land where Mahatma Gandhi had walked;
I have talked with the people, with whom Nelson Mandela had talked.
I went to war, to secure peace, in the name of love;
I lost it all to the writers, the fighters and the children of God.
I spent my free time living with the men,
Women and children of our lives.
Now I spend my time up here with those same people;
I am dancing with the angels, way above the sky.


Humans touched my soul; I am, was and could still be loved.
I was kneeling at Jesus’ feet when they hung him on a cross.
I have seen the worst of humanity
And I have sat and broken bread with the best of the good.
I have forever been at peace with the hippies
And I have spoken with philosophers,
The stranger, the dead and the lost.


I evolved with the Neanderthals and ran free with the Gazelle’s.
I lived, I loved, I died; I saw Heaven and I feared Hell.
I became immortal and became consecrate in God’s eyes…
I was there;
I was human;
I had a life.


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189 · Jun 2018
Death bed memories
Aa Harvey Jun 2018
Death bed memories


This is a story told by a narrator,
Who cannot see the bigger picture.
Angel of stone weeps for the dead;
Lift me up and lay me to rest.


A nightmare of a former life attacks me from inside.
Death has always haunted me;
This isn’t a good day for her to die.


She is breathing her last, as she nearly did in the past
And she knows this won’t last;
But still she needs just one more gasp.
The dream is over and now we are back to reality.
Surely it cannot end like this?  This is a tragedy.


She loves me, she doesn’t love me;
Sometimes she did, sometimes she didn’t.
Love has died in my arms and now it is gone.
Did I really have it?
All the King’s horses and all the King’s men,
Couldn’t put our love back together again.


Sink like a stone in a room with no windows;
Begging for an answer and doubting there is a God.
I have lost love; it was taken, for what reason I don’t know,
But I still have the memory of her love, even though she is now gone.


I did have true love, I tell them as I lay here dying.
She was everything to me and I knew she was amazing.
We loved for so long, I never imagined our love ending,
But I did have love, I have been loved…
I think it’s time I was going.


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189 · May 2018
Slipping
Aa Harvey May 2018
Slipping


Broken TV, phone line cut off;
Electric meter empty, friends have been lost.
Bottles all drunken, food beginning to rot;
Clothes torn and fading, all hope is gone.


Money all spent to pay the rent and the debts;
Eye sight fading, nothing left.
Body decaying, love life non-existent;
Pity and mercy are not forthcoming,
Everything is lost in an instant.


Dirt on the skirting boards and on the walls,
Ambition without power.
Green water in the vase underneath the dead flowers;
One minute past happy hour, the milk tastes sour.


Laughter not possible, arms too weak;
Broken are the sandals that slip beneath my feet.


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189 · Jun 2018
Walk the line
Aa Harvey Jun 2018
Walk the line


Life is loud, so close your ears if you are not prepared.
All we sing rocks all the time, so why have so much fear?
Scream with us when the sun goes down
And play a guitar made from air.
Born to do it, my soul craves it, so I must let myself hear.


On a one way trip to make it to the other side of Hell;
Come creep with me through the nightmares inside my mind.
I need to see what lies at the end of eternity for myself.
I cannot believe their truth, their fear, for I am a seeker in the night.


I breathe my words into your conscience;
I never claimed that I could be the one to make a change.
All I am here to do is show you there could be another way;
Welcome to the dark side, the right side…going down in flames.


This light burns brighter than a thousand sons;
My guide through all the bad times will show us the way.
You and I hand in hand, until the bitter end of us;
Concentrate, so we don’t break.  Shall we go for it or will you stay?


Never mind the consequences;
Take the leap of faith with me before we lose it.
Let us fly into an unknown future with our eyes tightly closed.
I want to live an extraordinary life and it all begins with just a kiss.
We have been blinded to the possibilities, so let them be exposed.


They do not care if we choose their way of life,
They only care that we do not find our own way.
They expect us to own a house, keep a job and find a wife;
But we know of their expectations and still we say…


This life is not yours to control,
You have had your own life and your own time.
This last chance is mine
And this is my soul!
I will do whatever I choose to do,
So I cannot just fall in line.


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188 · Apr 2018
A poet's tree
Aa Harvey Apr 2018
A poet’s tree.


The tree at the end of the garden, stands tall and proud.
It will forever rise up towards the sunlight, but it will never look down.
It has been here many years now
And it has seen many things come and go;
But its roots are buried deep, down in the Earth below.


It was there when I first arrived here
And it will be here long after I am not.
The tree in the garden lives long in the memory
And it has claimed its plot.


All the plants in the garden are kept cool beneath its shade
And when they need to feel the sunshine,
Time makes the shadows move away.
All other things are dwarfed beneath its branches;
They are covered in thousands of leaves.
It stands alone, it has no equal;
It has no envy for any other tree.


It is the finest tree of them all;
The tree at the end of the garden stands proudly
And it will forever stand tall.


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188 · Apr 2018
I have fallen
Aa Harvey Apr 2018
I have fallen


I have fallen; this death I despise.
When I have fallen; will I rise?
Will I float up, above the skies?
I have fallen…will I rise?


Arise titan!  You are strong of heart!
Arise puritan!  You are pure of thought!
Arise Illumini!  You are the light in the dark!
Arise I tell you!  This is the end of your war!


As I get to my feet, I am lost in a thought;
Am I strong enough?  To rise once more?
Once more the time has come, to draw my sword.
Once more I manage to make a stand;
Never again shall I fall.


As angels lead me throughout Heaven;
I am surrounded by light, in search of family and friends.
As I am lead into the afterlife,
I am told my new life has just begun…
And there will be no end.


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188 · Jun 2018
It doesn't matter
Aa Harvey Jun 2018
It doesn’t matter.


Falling from the sky like a meteorite.
I’m losing sight of what might have been,
Because it has never been seen.
I have never had focus, because I never had to look,
For my inspiration, it rains down upon me;
So quick to admit defeat, so I throw away my books.
When I should be more promising,
No promise is kept,
Just swept aside and forgotten;
Until eventually I will have nothing left.


On a course towards love, it is my destined reality,
So I am waiting for a change of fortune;
I’m still waiting on reality.
No pop up picture book ideals, to be seen within my dreams;
Just reality biting me, it sinks its teeth in deep.
So no hope can I search for,
Because I know there is no cure,
For the lack of wishes I am granted;
Feet firmly planted, outside opportunities door.


No advance, no way;
Never been paid to read a page.
Never told there is a way, I just leapt into the future,
With a blindfold over my eyes;
I let the spirits take me over to the other side.


Somebody stole my bicycle,
So I could do with a lift to the next town over;
No time to look over my shoulder.
Eyes firmly fixed on what is to come;
I have already experienced a lifelong slump.
Now the curve is getting steeper and as I climb I do rise;
One hand upon the mountain top,
One more step to take into the light.


Find a word that rhymes,
Forever search for insight.
Stay locked inside my own slide show.
A film study, a flick book;
Life is just passing on by…


Without hope there is only loss;
I lost my hope a long time ago,
But the call of love is eternal,
So I will continue to scribble inside my journal.
One day somebody will find it in the rubble
And hopefully they will say,
He never stood still.


He kept on trying,
He kept on writing;
If only they knew how much more I need to find…
Pour all of your thoughts into my head;
There is plenty of empty space that needs to be filled.
I could never give you a reason,
So please stop asking;
I wish I could, I hope you will,
Pick up a pencil, pick up a pen;
Use a keyboard or a quill.
Speak a thought just once and they may like what you write,
Or they may think,
Well that was just a complete waste of my time.


An eclipse of the mind, wrestling with a need for a tongue twister line.
I need advice every time I make a decision;
Did I say that right?
Can you see where I am going or am I just losing you with my ways?
Shall I continue to say or just fade away?
Some people use a password as the password;
If you see this as just a blur,
Then you will never see the words that I am trying to say…
Would that it were.


Smash the glass, we are in need of an alarm,
Because as I lay here dying in your loving arms,
I’m spinning riddles around my ball of yarn
And nothing makes sense to the follower of patterns;
They could never understand that is does not matter,
If any of this even matters!


All that matters is the matter at hand we sit upon,
In the evening air, under this sunset sun.
This is not a perfect picture painted purposely peculiar,
It’s just a work of art or an apprentice piece.
A doodle or a riddle, a non-logical use of the vernacular;
It is only my dreams of an exploding star,
Scattered throughout the universe…

And that is all it will ever be.


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Aa Harvey Apr 2018
The square root of all people.


There is a cool breeze blowing over me.
Windows open, music playing, I am sitting with pretty.
Summer is the fading sun, so soon to disappear.
Winter calls as rain drops fall on those who are far and near.


We nearly made it back in time,
Before the dams all broke.
The ashes of a life in ruins were washed away, so clean, bespoke.


The cement is still yet to dry,
Hand prints will never fade.
Scribble your John Hancock so you remain,
A piece of along the way.


Some people want to go down in history,
As a person who never did a thing;
But nobody is free of sin and needful things.
So drop the stone, you are not alone
And I will build a dam, to protect our home.


The river will wash over us and then we will rebuild.
Run deep and stand still.
Find the peace sign you left behind;
Photographic memory.
I can picture next year’s dance,
All of this will be a party.
The dog days are over,
Look over my shoulder,
See through me to see my history.


I stand here in front of you a forgotten soul,
But I have seen my plans.
Three steps forward, then three more.
Knock on Heaven’s doors until they hear;
View paintings on every wall.
On past forefathers, past the rulers,
Past the history.
I live in a birthday present,
Give my future to me.


I am perpetual energy.
A little light lives inside of me and I’m gonna let it shine.
It may be dim; I may be dim,
But I’m with stupid <
And he is me
And together we make a pretty average team.


No expense spent on golden rings;
No bracelets, necklace or bling to wear.
We do not have to cut our hair.
We do not have to smile politely.
We have to inhale oxygen.
We have to eat.
We have to sleep on a nightly,
Basis; faces change with age,
But what remains is still the same.


The boy I was is this same man.
I just grew up, I am not Peter Pan
And who would ever want to be anyway?
I live in the real world come what may.
Earth day.


Show me how to make you happy.
You do things in your own way.
I have too many problems of my own,
To care about how much you spent on your phone.


Life is a domino effect,
A box of chocolates,
A list of regrets;
So send me back to Earth on March 21st 1970.
Peace, love and empathy,
You are too kind.
So know, I mean, I have to go, goodbye…

Here is all the love in the world…
Divide this 3.14159 pie.


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188 · May 2018
Invisible
Aa Harvey May 2018
Invisible


I am a lost soul in need of a way to go,
Because I cannot see my way out, from inside this black hole.
It has a hold of my soul
And it keeps dragging me down,
To a place I no longer want to be trapped inside;
But still here I exist, without a way out.


I don’t know how to escape because I have lived here too long.
This place of fear; this place that I live does not feel like home.
I am driving a car, but I cannot steer, just wail;
I am a passenger in the driver’s seat and I am stuck on rails.


Many lost souls to meet and we are all in need,
But no remedy is forthcoming, so we continue to be,
The wanderers, forever moving forward,
Into an unknown future.
What does fate have in store for us?


Are we to speak words or are we to remain silent?
How are we to wed when we have never been in love?
All I can catch with my love net is my own wasted breath
And as I confess all my dreams to you and yours;
I crash to the floor spent.


No spirit energy left;
No strength left to stand proud,
So towards you I crawl and drag myself towards your feet.
When I arrive before you, all I am able to ask,
Is…

Can you see me?


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Aa Harvey Apr 2018
A collection of ‘Love is…’ Poetry
Lightning


The search for love is ongoing.
Love is ongoing.
Love is finding a way of showing,
My love for you is forever growing.


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187 · May 2018
Sin
Aa Harvey May 2018
Sin
Sin


Release your thoughts, await the applause;
Of course I release you from all your chores.
What’s mine is yours and what’s yours is yours;
I need nothing from you, but I shall take all that which is yours.


Place your bookmark at the end of the chapter;
We both know what comes after,
You turn out the light.
But we shall hold our tongue,
Because of all those things that you have done.


We shall forgive you your sins,
If you sing this hymn
And beg for forgiveness,
From the one they call Him.


Don’t play dice with the Devil,
It’s snake eyes every time.
Don’t ever owe him,
After he takes your nickel and dime.
Old Nick will not miss a trick if you relax around him,
So jinx him and leave him to wallow in his beloved sin.


I banish you curse to an ungodly land,
Where man walks alone, because he is accused and condemned.


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187 · Mar 2019
The Big Day
Aa Harvey Mar 2019
The Big Day


Something, somewhere, must be alright,
So why is all I see and hear today so wrong?
I was drinking so heavy and hard last night
And I finished the night with a hit from the ****.


What day is it?  Oh yeah, that's right,
It's the most important day of my life.
For today I get married, for the first and last time,
To my beautiful fiancé who has always been at my side.


Who I can show off with pride,
As my beautiful bride,
For the very first time tonight
And for the rest of my life.


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187 · Jun 2018
Still trying
Aa Harvey Jun 2018
Still trying


Waking up alone again, but the sun is shining;
Life is tough, but it is good enough to make me smile.
If I said I was doing ok, I would probably be lying,
But I can rise out of bed and face the world and maybe in a while,
Things will get better; I could find a rainbow in my tears.
I could find the love I have been searching for, for all these years.


The songs raise my soul to another level;
I become more than I have ever been able to be.
The clouds outside drift apart and with them go my troubles;
A new lyric can make such a difference to me.


Radio Gaga has become a lady in my mind;
If I could just impress, then I could have all I wish for
And maybe I could do what I can do on stage.
If things do work out for me, I will work hard and try,
Because I love what I do, I love speaking to you;
You give me the strength to smash out of my cage.


Breaking out through the fire exit;
Running into another day ready to face it.
The adrenaline flows as I produce all I can;
The pen and pad is my paintbrush and I am what I am.


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187 · May 2019
Banshee
Aa Harvey May 2019
Banshee


The sky is empty, apart from a crescent moon, all is black.
Another night, a single star was my only light to show me the way.
No why, just do; a chance we must never take back,
Or we will break apart all that which we want, while we wait.


For we are singular in our shared goals.
One soul, then two souls, then one soul once more.
In a mind so empty of love, I hide inside a hole,
Not knowing that the last has come; the time of the fall.


In heart shaped tears we disappear
And all that remains is the corpse that I am.
Without the fear of loss, we would have nothing left to fear
And without those feelings, I would never give a ****.


Heartless or blessed with a need to find love?
A curse or a blessing?
A cure or a drug?


Time is definitive, decisions are not.
One path leads us forward,
The other path is a dead end where we must stop.
No shelter from the future of what could become us.
Destiny or fate?  I have suffered too much.


Life is no box of chocolates,
It is alcohol.
We take life by the hand so happily,
While time only ever ends for us…so what do we know?


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187 · Jun 2018
Love shall reign eternal
Aa Harvey Jun 2018
Love shall reign eternal.


You are a ten, because beneath the skin you are beautiful.
You will always be a ten on the inside and the outside too.
Since back when hearts were so wide open and free,
And love was thought to be so truthful; love reigned down from you.


We laughed so much, it seemed like we would never again cry;
I have dreamed of loving someone like her.
She has a lust for life and I have a lust for her love;
We still dream we will love each other always.
Love will allow you to become who you should be;
So never become blasé.


Love shall reign eternal and extinguish all your pain.
If you give love all of your heart and soul, then love shall forever reign.


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187 · Apr 2018
Memories
Aa Harvey Apr 2018
Memories.


There is an old grey man sitting on the floor,
Looking at his reflection in the mirror.
He thinks to himself: What could have been?
What could I have changed?
To change the past and the things that I've seen?


No man deserves to see, the things we saw.
A collective unit, marching to war.
Thankfully now, I don't recall it all,
Just the men that I had killed.
I saw them all, with that look on their face,
That look that just makes me, feel so ashamed.


They were just kids, the same as us,
All just playing, at being soldiers,
All knowing the seriousness, of it all
And still all of us, were willing to ****,
Or be killed, by another kid with a rifle,
Just like the first one, that I killed.


But here's my best friend, to make me feel better,
Hello, Jack Daniels, I'll just get you a glass.
Ah that's better, I can't think anymore,
I think I'll just change the video and watch something else.


Oh what's this in here, Saving Private Ryan?
Oh, I haven't seen this in a while.
I'll just put it on and pour another whisky
And after this, I'll go to sleep.


Hmm, that's better, time for a drink I think,
Ah good Ol' Jack, always a good drink.
Oh it's six in the morning; I'd better get up,
Think I'll have a drink and then go for a walk.


But first I'll have a drink and see what's on the Telly,
Where's the ice, **** this weather.
Ah good Ol' Jack, let's see what's in the video shall we?
Oh it's that film I put on last night, when I fell asleep.


Saving Private Ryan?  Oh I haven't seen this in a while.
But remembering the lads, always makes me smile.
I'll just put it on and pour another whisky,
Then maybe I'll have a little snooze,
Before I get something to eat.


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187 · Jun 2018
You are the best
Aa Harvey Jun 2018
You are the best


Please give me all your knowledge, I have too much I need to learn.
Teach me about words; become my way of life college.
There are only so many ways that I can talk about her.

Inspire me to become better, I am chasing those stars.
I am still a poetry novice
And I don’t have the time to take your journey to get to where you are.


Patience is something I have never had,
Because I need this so badly!  I want to be write.
I want to right and imagine a good time, not this bad
And I am without the road map to be able to share your spot light.


In magazines I see your faces and inside my mind I cherish your words.
I need your advice to help me to find my own way,
To cure this heart that still hurts.
It longs to be loved for doing the thing that I love
And I am so desperate to leave this home life behind me;
I have had enough.
But I have no idea as to how do I become good?


No, good is insufficient to explain the passion in my soul.
I need to be spectacular, unbelievable, great, amazing and wow!
I want to be one of the best, so I need to find my way to go.
What do I need to change, or do?  Tell me so that I can know.


I do all I can at the moment to write all the poetry that I can,
But it will never be enough until people need what I say.
I cannot sing, but I want a rock and roll life of a band
And if I have a book published,
It would show me the way, to find my way.


Am I taking the right route?  Do I push on through?
What will it take to get my message through to you?
If all it can be is a hobby, without success,
Then at least I can say when I write my poetry,
That I have always been true to myself
And I have been able to show you what goes on inside my head.


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187 · May 2018
Forget-me-not
Aa Harvey May 2018
Forget-me-not


I could not write your wrongs.
I cannot list your faults.
I only know that you are gone.
You never saw the future I pictured, I built.


Inside my mind a house exists,
A garden of roses, climbing ivy,
Hopeful sunflowers catch the sun.
There are dreams you can try to resist,
But in the end the only story that interests me is a true romance.
A true love story.  A story about love.


You will never know of my heart
And the crater you left as you crashed through my soul.
I could never truly say what I think you are,
Because words could not exist to help you love me.
I have no way to try; so I must let you go.


Your love is his and memories are all the reminders I have of you now.
Fantasies that could never be;
My fictional bliss.
My never was.
My never will be.


My promise to forget is written down.
It will stand there until the end of time.
Written in ink, if I ever think,
Just one line…

I loved you,
Is all that it said.
Pictures in paintings, no longer remaining,
I am removing this vision from my head…


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187 · May 2018
Loveless
Aa Harvey May 2018
Loveless


What can I say when sorry just doesn't cut it anymore?
What can I say to win back your love?
What do you do if you love too much?
What do you do, if you are not loved enough?


What is life without love?
Why carry on when you’ve had enough?
Why bother to write poems that just aren’t good?
Why bother to live, when I can’t have love?


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Aa Harvey Apr 2018
The internet is of no use to people.


Onewordart.


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187 · Apr 2018
Bitter pill
Aa Harvey Apr 2018
Bitter Pill


You are a bitter pill to swallow,
When I think about tomorrow,
Because today was just the same,
As all the other days.


You took my pride and told your lies
And said goodbye…
To all the love that is inside my heart.


While you are with me,
You are wondering what to look for in your next boyfriend
And not appreciating what you have with me, so this is our end.


So much for the memories.


Something strange and something real.
I guess I have no *** appeal.


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187 · Apr 2018
The days of our lives
Aa Harvey Apr 2018
The days of our lives.


In life we are at home, in death we are gone.
In sorrow we mourn the death of a loved one.
Without consequence we would not know what is wrong.
Forever we are searching for a place to belong.


As we grow our wings, we venture off into the distance.
A life of memories behind us; a gift from the gifted.


In light we find ourselves surrounded by mystery;
What next on this journey?  What next in this story?
What next to see and who is looking inside?
The tale of our experiences…the days of our lives.


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