Feelings change


Brittle heart and feet for wheels.
Never had a happy meal.
Living like I am at the end;
Never gonna try again.


Given up on giving up;
Craving more of a lovers touch.
I love the sun that shines on me.
Everywhere I speak I find empathy.


Dead inside, but still alive.
I am a mess that is feeling alright.
Hating every word you say,
So gonna look the other way.


Happy days are back again,
New open eyes see past the pain.
Fond memories of being loved.
I have never felt this good!


Still so sad under the skin.
I have an empty bed in which to sink.
Misery is all I can think;
It’s all I have left to believe in.


Up and down my feelings go.
Like her, I have never felt so alone.
Waiting on a new romance.
It’s time I gave true love a chance.


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A collection of ‘Love is…’ Poetry
Saint


Love is rescue.
Love is grace.
Love is true-blue,
Or love is misplaced.


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Friends


Remember what we were taught in school.
Remember morality, not how to look cool.
Remember the past and bring it back.
I want to remember one good love I ever had.


Love is good; adultery is not love.
Love is real; you know how you feel.
Some claim to love, but have never had it.
Love is not something to own; I am not your habit.


Love makes the air cleaner,
And it cannot be copied.
Love is always near,
If you are lucky enough to see cupid.


Love is not the latest trend.
Love is neither the beginning, nor the end.
Love is love and love is your friend.
Remember to love your lover and like your friends.


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Reality driven.


Hand on heart I love you.
From the start my love has been true.
So beautiful, as soon as we met.
You caught me looking and I was trapped in your net.


Stuck to you through thick and thin.
You are on my mind again, I think,
About you nearly every day.
I still desire you in every way.


I want you bad, to be good to me.
I have always needed you to let me be,
The one you love until the end.
This is no time for me to pretend.


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Forever delayed


I feel like I am a thousand years old.
I am running on empty, overload.
Back aches, legs ache,
Arms ache, head-aches.
My brain is tired,
I am going to get fired,
Or find a way,
For death to be,
Forever delayed.


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A unique kind of love


My love for you is unique to me;
Nobody else could love you the way I do.
I love you more than any other man could,
But your only reply is “Who are you?”


And not in a good way, like “Hello! Who are You!?”
But “Hell no.  Get away.  Who the Hell are you?”


My love is an obsession and needs a woman to fill the void,
Because without love I am nothing but a lost little boy.
My love is all encompassing; it blinds me from life,
Because life is pointless without love so I want to die.


Depression sets in for another long night;
Another night alone, another love is not in sight.
Dreaming of love once more, my heart beats slowly.
It used to beat fast when I would meet a beautiful woman,
But I guess by now, you know the rest of the story…


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The death of a lover


Black out the blue sky and lets the stars disappear;
Blot out the sun and bury me under a shadowy mirror.
Leave me with nothing, no-one and no noise;
Silence the drones of freedom of choice.
Freedom of speech?  Just take it and go.
Leave me to bemoan the death of a lover;
For all that is left of her is skin and bones.


Blow the wind through my home and let it all be gone,
Because nothing really matters; all hope is lost.
Cease to touch anything and stop the clocks;
For the bed no longer rocks, so sleep in socks.


Erase everyone from this planet that we call Earth;
Curse me with bad luck and I shall not curse.
Such words are without passion, when I am without her;
God is nowhere to be seen, in these visions of dirt.


Suffer foolishness because reverence is irrelevant;
Send down the condemned, to suffer your punishment.
Demons hold you by the tongue, as you say no more;
Let everybody fall into darkness and leave them to crawl.


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In my mind a light no longer shines.


Picture no light shining inside your mind;
Maybe then you can see inside of mine.
All I have ever done means nothing now;
It was just a big waste of time.
My sparkles no longer shine for you;
There is no more light to be found in my eyes.


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The book that never was


There is a book inside my head;
It feels as if it is one I have already read.
It’s trying to escape,
But I can’t write all the words that are so difficult to say;
There are not enough hours in the day.


I wish I could release them from my mind,
But they will remain trapped until I do what I must.
I hope one day I will be able to find the time,
But for now, you will just have to read my poetry about love.


I just can’t write it all down and remember what has happened;
I guess I’ll never finish it, because I have become distracted.
It has become the book that never was…
I hope you can do what you want to do;
I do what I can do, but it was fun while it lasted.


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Mood swings.


First thing in the morning,
I want to sing I love you to the world.
By the mid-afternoon, I wish it would rain atom bombs.


By the evening, I follow a horizontal mood path
And pray to fall asleep, before midnight,
When my depression I know will come back.


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For One Night Only


Well here we are again in our local pub;
We see the same old people and we are almost drunk.
We laugh and dance and we clap our hands,
Because some fool has gone and dropped his glass.


Life's forever changing, but everything's the same.
Why can't things be easier?  Why must we play these games?


I'm standing by the exit, because I'm ready to leave;
Just waiting on a friend, he's still got to finish his drink.
Chatting about crap, that we will soon forget;
I just wanna go back home and collapse in my bed.


She's walking through the club, with two drinks in her hands;
She's looking right at me, I just don't understand.
She said her name was Kay and asked if I'd like to dance;
That night she broke my heart and my dreams of romance.
That night we kissed and did other things;
I thought we were making love.
I don't know if it's the effects of the drink,
Or just the effects of the drugs.


Life's forever changing, but everything's the same,
Why can't things be easier?  Why must we play these games?


But what of the morning after?
She kicked me out of her bed
And told me not to call her.
"I'll call you" she said.
A year has passed and still no call;
My finest night, to her meant nothing at all.


Life's forever changing, but everything's the same,
Why can't things be easier?  Why must we play these games?


Walking home one day in the summer heat;
I turn around the corner and who should I meet?
It's Kay, she's here, how do you do?
You know what? I was just thinking of you.
Would you like, to go some place with me?
We could have a drink, or maybe something to eat.
You could tell me why, you didn't want me;
You could tell me why, I'm for one night only.


I'm so sorry, can we just be friends?
I can't go out with you, you've turned me into a lesbian.


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A throwaway poem


This is just a throw away poem;
Take it in or leave it to be.
I know exactly where this poem is going;
Some poems are just thrown away.
Thrown away, to you, from me.


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Born to die


Born to die with no time on our side,
I need to learn everything before I die.
But time is running out, one life at a time;
I don’t want to die before crossing the line.


I need to learn more but my fate hangs over me;
I need to see something so special it sets my mind free.
I need something amazing before I die;
Because I don’t believe I ever had enough time.


We are born to die so live life quickly;
Because it goes in a second and becomes a tragedy.
Twenty something; killed so easily.
Life is short and life is a lie.


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Sleepy


I’m counting sheep because there’s nothing for me to do,
Except watch repeats on TV of nothing new.
It’s the same old ****, but I still watch all of it,
Between the fifteen million adverts I’m forced to see.


Dreams are made of memories,
Premonitions and science fiction,
Fantasies and broken thoughts;
All the things you have been taught.


Arguments and contradictions,
Lies, deceit, truth, corruption.
Crazy thoughts inside my head.
Goodbye now, I’m tired, let me lay down to rest.


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What a way to fly.


Dead on the ground, welcome to your end.
You are stuck in the mud searching for a way to survive,
But there is no hope for you to cling onto; this is your day to die.
Your doom is at your door, he has come calling for you;
It is time to say goodbye.


Your life is nothing more than a memory.
You’d be grateful to be dead.
Now your fortune has gone
And you’re just trying to stay alive, still taking those last breaths.


You can be scared to death of facing death,
But if you hide away and do not live,
Then your existence becomes worthless
And you end up with nothing left.


Forget me not's and coffin plots,
We wish our lives away preparing for the day.
I am the dead cowboy, no longer riding,
I have disappeared into the distance,
Heading for the horizon…
What a way to fly.


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Sunbeam


As the lightning strikes, I close my eyes again;
I wish for the clouds to part so I can feel the sun shine.
When the darkness fades, I let my sad mood drift away;
As I raise my head to look up, there is no more rain
And everything is alright.


No more cold winds blowing through my bones;
No more dark nights, no more frightening times, no more endless miles.
A change of heart has appeared
And I have received a blessing of the soul;
I can walk amongst the strangers once more and embrace their smiles.


Out into the yonder, in search of a different future to my fate;
This life is no longer on rails and it has only just begun.
Where once I was a passenger, who was afraid of change,
I am becoming a better person and embracing all that is to come.


Breaking from the chains of my own history, fighting for this chance;
I burst from my shell and dive into a book.
Knowledge is power and if this is my last hope and all I have,
Then I will grab the stars from the sky
And turn them into diamonds, to give to you, to replace what they took.


What matters is not always what we want;
Sometimes we are not happy to settle for what we have.
But desire is the ignition to a big bang called love;
If confession is good for the soul, then speak aloud
And never let that, just be that.


Let the hurricane come and blow its wind of change;
No tsunami can change my mind in these times of hope.
If the ground cracks beneath my feet, I will grow wings and fly away;
Because there is no disaster that could stop me telling you all I know.


The world can stop spinning and the moon can fall from the sky,
But I have a sun beam for a soul now, so I can illuminate the night.


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Sadness


There are times when you don’t know why you can’t stop crying.
The sadness comes like a cloud of despair.
What the Hell is up with my emotions?
I feel so down, when I should be way up there.


He is walking on fire today;
It seems like he has been walking on fire for days.
He is me and all I can say is “It feels like it has always rained.”


I’m covered in mental scars and I am so cold;
I cannot embrace the hatred anymore.
I need to find something that causes no pain;
I need to live in the world, instead of crying on the floor.


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Encore


Come hold me tight, never let me go;
It’s not my time to end the show.
Surely one encore, do I have left?
Surely one dream do I have, with you to share?
Surely there’s time, for me and you,
To conquer the world and fly to the moon.


Let’s wish away, our last hopes and dreams,
To help us erase our bad memories.
To start a new life, with joy and pain,
To feel the sunshine, once again.
To once more splash, in puddles of acid rain;
To find a new faith and our memories of love regain.


Do not give up; your heart is still beating.
The time has not yet come, for you to be leaving.
You are still alive, you can keep on dreaming;
You can find the power, to breathe again.


So pick yourself up, it’s only a flesh wound.
Fight for your life, before you become consumed;
By guilt and fear and a lack of hope.
I wish for another wish, to still be here tomorrow.


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Clumsy.


Opening boxes without any labels,
Never knowing what I will find.
Will it be a gold or a bronze fable?
Hoping for insight, but my eyes are blind,
To all the worlds secrets.
Nature is a beast, you cannot tame it,
Or keep it, so set it free,
From you and me,
For we only ever break branches and walk on the leaves.


Dead trees do not talk;
Mankind has a wooden heart.
Fix it with metal nails or snap a twig in half.
Mind your step as you stomp;
You are waking all the bones.
Here is another species; please leave it alone.


Use a camera, not your hands.
Let it go on with its days plans.
It is an ant; you are a man.
It does not want to shake your hand.
It is made of glass, you are a wrecking ball.
Take a careful step backwards; you do not need another wall.


If you pull at the food chain once too often without need,
Then who will be left to carry the seeds?
And find a place to bury it?
Who will plant the wildlife we see?
We all need the bees to live,
So leave nature alone…please.


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Loves martyr


I am loves martyr.
Never managed to become a father.
Even when I am trying harder,
I fall to my knees.
I am sins plaything;
Always dreaming.
Never acting on my needs;
Cruising along on instinct.
Look where that has got me;
Right where it hurts.
Waited a lifetime and I am still waiting for her;
But she does not exist, so neither do I.
I never did raise a child.
Just endless advice.
I never talk, enough has been said.
I could not be like them, for they are so nice,
And they have family and they have friends,
Whilst I am destined to die alone.
This is why I do not get out of bed.


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Strength.


Lasting memories are formed alongside each teardrop;
Although the tear hits the ground and shatters,
The memory is never really gone.
Cling onto those memories, like they are all that you have got;
Because the next time you are grieving,
They will help you to once more become strong.


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I have nothing


I have nothing left to say.
I have nothing left to write.
I have nothing without her love.
I have nothing.


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Look away


Transmission overload;
Can’t seem to figure out my mind.
I’m feeling home alone in time,
Too late to find a bride.


I have slept a thousand years;
No princesses kiss to change my heart and wake me up.
I have shed a thousand tears;
I filled the room with my philosophical water-ducts.


I swam like a duck into the sky,
Living for all that is ahead.
Communication; translate lies to truth,
Misinterpret every word I have said.
Here, take my dictionary.
It’s all made up with empathy.
I wrote love on every page,
To say the word I never get to say.


I took another look at all the mistakes I have made,
But they are carved in stone. No memory I can erase.
Pick up another love, I’ll never write your name into my book.
You will be a forgotten one; or you will be the only one…trust.


Open heart did for me;
I let me feelings float away.
I write it down for you to see
And then I make sure you always look away.


You want an honest man;
The truth would tear your hope apart.
Inside my life,
There is only space for one heart.
Fill our heart with endless wonder.


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Different strokes.


You live in a world full of beautiful people,
While I walk alone in search of my true love.
I am a person you have to put up with.
The poor, the feeble; but inside I am good.


You cannot see the heart I hide;
It is truly pure and I guess it will remain only mine.
I am an angel from above with a non-existent outer beauty,
So all you get to see is a part of me.
I wear my beauty on the inside;
You shine so bright that I have to lie
And say I could never love someone as beautiful as you.
But the truth is I could;
The truth could become, I do.


You are surely already taken
And I am surely completely mistaken;
But if you are single and I am what you want,
Then I will give you all of my love.
It is all I have; this is my lot.


I am stunned by an exquisite babe;
I would be yours always, if you wish, just say
And as I see you silently walking away,
I have my answer;
But still it was a pleasure to see your face.
I hope you continue to be a happy dancer.


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Still lost


I am still lost in the ghost of you;
Waiting on a sun to shine again.
I see you, creeping into my mind’s view;
I cannot keep pushing you away.


All mentions of the long forgotten dreams,
Instantly rearrange whenever your picture is seen.
You always seemed to be so serene,
But clearly that was not the truth.
Inside you held a tormented being
And your demons only ever sang the blues.


You could have written poetry, but your heart was never listening.
You could have stayed and lived in harmony,
But now nobody will ever hear you sing.


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Clean up your act.


Do good things, life is short.
Listen to what you are being taught.
Only fight for the right cause.
Live life well and choose your course,
To sail through the waves that rise
And knock you back each and every time you try.


Do not lie to those who matter.
Life is short, so live it better.
Do not become a has-been,
Wiped out by all those nasty germs.
Remain clean.
Wash away the dirt.
You only have a limited time on Earth.


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Amuse


Life isn’t all bunny’s and sunbeams.
Sometimes at night ice cream.
Life isn’t what you thought it would be.
Connect the dots to see what you have lost.


Put two and two together to make five.
Nobody can rule your mind.
Electronic super massive black hole,
Has a hold of my soul.


I need a muse, just like you,
Who is nothing like you; I want to be with you.
In the dead of night, fireflies take flight,
To wrap their arms around my being.
I am so used to being soulless,
So less than I ever could be at my best.


Regret nothing,
But every regret.
Take it deep inside, lest you forget, to catch your breath.
Slowly speak in tongues, come undone, detonate the sun.
For eternal darkness, let Heaven rain down on me.
We all need to be blessed.


Smoke machines are blowing bubbles,
Midichlorians,
Splash in puddles.
Rip the ghost from inside of me.


**** is rude, how about you?
Do you think in rhymes to pass the time?
Do you riddle a line, or tell only lies?
Or do you lie “I tell the truth.”


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You never mind


Sign your name in blood, or just give up.
What it is you think you need, will never be enough.
Think for yourself or get some help;
Throw away all of your wealth.


Iron all your clothes; ***** it up.
Fashion is not enough to be just.
Say that you care; brush your hair.
Give no help when they need you to be there.


Stay locked inside; go out and hide,
From all the love you never mind.
If it’s enough, then give it up;
Love is just a ball of miss-trust.


Kick it out; hold it close.
Never believe, it’s time to go.
Hold it in; let it out.
Thoughts are never completely in the here and now.


Act on instinct; become extinct.
Pick yourself up or let go and sink.
Open door’s to other worlds.
Close your eyes to all before.


Never say what you mean;
Never say what is not clean.
Life is a dream; reality is only ever fantasy.
Pick a lock to their heart; open up and leave yourself starved.
Carve your names into a tree…
Are you exactly what you wanted to be?


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Lost in holes.


Shattered memories; cast my life aside.
Living inside a hopeless hole I begin to die.
Lost in a moment of bliss inside a song;
What went wrong? What is going on?
What is the meaning of a life without meaning?
Nobody ever cared about me, before we did it.


In sin we discover our lover wrapped up tight;
In love we are never truly happy in this life.
In pain we protest and banish your kind words;
What kind of world would let me fall in love with her?


Tear me apart with every tear that drops;
Cut me off from any chance of reaching the top.
I drop.
Now here I kneel praying for more pity;
Discover me, empty.


Through slits in the atmosphere I find a new way to escape.
A place to hide; a place I can play.
Because of holes in my soul, I can no longer pray;
In places people live, I hide away.


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A matter of life and death


Life; the infinite circle of dreams written in the stars.
Death; is on the back of a turtle waiting for the far.
The time stretching sand, dripping destiny into jars.
Life is a destination; what will be your car?
Choose your vehicle; which will carry you on?
Death is unspoken; a funeral of songs.
If all you wished for was all suddenly gone,
What would you desire first in front of the new sun?


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The Meaning of Life


All I was and all I could have been,
Has been washed away by salty tears.
Memories I could not forget,
Are all I have left inside my head.


Thoughts are no longer processed here,
My brain has gone on strike.
All we want is to find a cure for this hurt,
But there is no salvation in this life.
Or the next, so what shall we do?
Give up trying just like you?


Maybe the light will shine for us one day,
Maybe the light will show us the way.
For you and I to be saved
And for this hurt to be erased.


There is the light I told you about,
The one to take away all your doubts
And answer those questions you asked.
How did I know this day would come to pass?
History told me this day was come,
My destiny was written in a former life,
Inside a gun, on the day I was born.


The meaning of life is to fulfil our destiny,
I now know the answer to what our destiny is.
Simply put; it’s not too good,
For our destiny can only be fulfilled with the aid of a bullet.
The meaning of life, the other big question,
Is birth, life, death and Heaven.


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I hate my voice


Chaos lives inside my head; shattered love has never been more broken.
If I could change this life, then I would simply forget,
Everything that made me what I am
And my words would remain unspoken.


But for now I will talk of the man inside.
The hollow heart; the empty eyes.  So loveless, so lifeless…so feeble.
I am the burden I carry; self-sacrifice.
Lies tell the truth; we wish to hide all feelings from all people.


I am no light and I am without help.
Me, me, me; self-obsessed, so I write.
Only I can save myself, from myself,
But apathy is killing me and I am feeling nothing on the outside.


Music is my only friend who never lies to me;
Poetry is my only chance at finding the soul I desperately need.
I am a pathetic piece of me and the ashes of the man I used to be.
So I remain the same, I remain the same; I remain inside my grief.


Pictures mean nothing to me, but words show a true image.
Art is yours to take or leave and I am without a voice.
All I do is see the truth, as I ignore the finish;
Books have become interesting…poetry is my only choice.


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He-art


Iron heart; cage no free thinker.
Iron maiden has never gone away.
Question everything; search forever deeper.
In the end we are all looking to find away.


Plastic heart; turn the vinyl record on.
Croaking voices, broken strings; leave us…
Stone heart; there will never be a final setting sun.
Today is forever, so continue to speak of love.


Glass heart; shatter my tears against your kiss.
I am see through when it comes to loving you.
Scratch your nails down my back; give all you have to give.
I want to slide into your mind; clearly this is my truth.
Fire heart; all I can give you is my undying passion.
This love is too hot to lack compassion.


Wooden heart; I want to be a real boy.
Walk with sandals (full of holes); the last straw on a camel’s back.
I am pining for the fjords, before I am destroyed,
By the inferno of lies they tell; forever to remain…forever sad.


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Until the end


I’ll be with you until the end;
I’ll be here with you, my friend.
Until the end,
The very end;
I’ll be with you until the end.


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Winter’s call


I see you there looking right through me.
I, your ghostly apparition; I who chases who I should be.
I am the creator of destinies; you hear my call in your hour of need.
Repent! Repent! Lay down your greed.
You took my life, you stole from me.
The end is nigh from upon high;
The time has come, none shall survive.
You have seen the pictures and heard the words,
Yet still you failed to believe, so you deserve,
The end of all that has come before.
You stand alone as all men who fall.
Welcome to your winters call.


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Tomorrow


I’m not broken, I’m just feeling shattered.
All of my thoughts bring me back to you.
Words left unspoken,
Could never keep you enamored.
When we should feel like we are winning,
We only ever seem to lose.


Looking into pictures, searching for memories;
Needing to find a reason to explain the end.
We ask ourselves questions; what could we have done differently?
We go and seek guidance from family and friends.


But there are no answers; these things just happen.
Life is a journey and we do not have a map.
We must move forward and take our chances.
Accept the sad times with the happy;
They come as a package and there is no turning back.


Beyond the horizon, the rain is still falling.
But we know that tomorrow…
The sun will rise again.


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Through the bitter end.


In the rain, here I stand;
We are the same, I am just a man.
You are you and I am me;
We are free to be whatever we want to be.


In your eyes I see black clouds;
I have no doubt that I can’t let you out.
Stay with me for eternity;
Be with me so we can be.
Live for love, take the drugs;
Do enough to give up.


Purple rain falls down on us;
Kiss my lips, this is it.
I want love to be real;
But I don’t know if that kind of love exists.


Take my hand and give a ****;
I will stay by your side through the bitter end.
Let it be, you and me;
We are one, you are me.
Let us be more than just good friends.


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