Fire or sky


It’s all a state of mind.
Day by day people change.
Films get better or worse with age;
These times of changing truth or lie.
Fact or fiction, it’s all in your mind.
The thoughts we think expand or rewind,
Back to childhood when things were just fine.
Only you can find the truth that lies beneath the rubble.
Shattered heads think less and see double.
Open eyes, need open minds, to translate fire from sky.


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Two truths.


A perfect person cannot picture a perfect truth.
Perfect people want other perfect people,
To be a perfect picture of porcelain too.


I see a painting by many a Mane’s.
A copy of a copy of a copy of a man.
Upon this crystal-stair-lead-palace,
There lies a liar in his lies;
Living his ultra-ordinary life.
We all live under a glorious crown…sometimes.


If a fugitive of love is on the run
And scared of their web of lies ever coming undone,
Then what are you to ever become,
If you have never been thunder-struck?


A piece of ash slid across the glass;
No DNA left to draw a map.
A shadow of the former man that I was;
Upon this cross, I live through loss.
The end of all that which came before.
I only know what love is for.


I crawl into this world of make believe;
Believe this life I lead is moving me into the gulf of a frozen desert.
God bless kindness.
Thank you?…never said it.
Ignored for not being more; please be blessed.
Remember all I have taught you before I forget.
Have a nice day; No way?  Ok.
In the end we are all the same.
I am not your mess!


Just give up this ghost, my horse ain’t for beating;
My demons keep screaming at me from deep in the shadows.
Let it go!
Let go.
I need to go…
Back down deep into the shallow.


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There I am.


I walk on a razor’s edge with added violence.
One foot in the past, one foot in the wrong
And all is gone.


You want my soul to sell, but I regret these words are mine.
I give away the thought of it all.
If only you had to see your world through my eyes.
I have no strength left to fight, or climb the walls.


I cannot reap an empty field,
Where my tears of fire have salted the earth.
If I allow you into my heart, I will only decay;
For what it’s worth.


Inside a nightmare is where I have to live;
Visions all shrouded in mystery.
The hysterical cannot think of peace.
The path forwards is always through,
So come with me.


Seize destiny, if you care.
In the pit of despair, I gasp for air.
You are never truly there with me, so you cannot understand.
You only care, because I seem not to.
One of us is better at this;
You are all a better man.
I am nobody’s truth.


Rise above it; accept you cannot truly see,
The whisper’s that swim around inside of me,
From the pit of my burning stomach,
To the very edges of my finger-tips.


They gather in waiting, until one day they come bursting through.
They destroy all ideals, as I speak about me, not you.
I cannot live with such apathy.  I will never feel the same.
I love you now, but on a shattered bad day,
I will never to be seen again.


The person I was became invisible, never to be seen on your wave.
I become another person, with each and every face.
Life cells grow back to replace the old.
The only continue is my soul.  It’s all I own and all that I know;
But what do I know?
I am lost without your hope.


Lust is a word, like love;
These feelings come and then they go…
I stare into a hall of mirrors,
Wondering which one is the real me.  I don’t know,
Or care which one is true-self.
I guess I will never know.

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New beginning


Lights in the dead of the night sky;
The music plays waking the neighbourhood.
Electronic radio-waves leave no place to hide;
Wipe away the sleep from your eyes for good.


The noise is inside you now and forever;
Words of poetry dig deep into your soul.
You take apart their voice in any weather
And you are found wherever you may go.


The hands that feeds reaches into your head,
Leaving you without will; enslaved by a song.
You have become the beautiful word, never will you forget,
Or forgive them for not arriving sooner.  It has been too long.


Until now the sound had always been missing,
You were longing to hear the heart beat inside your chest.
Reawakened by love like you had never been listening;
They spoke to you like no other has ever said.


All the ends are now attached;
All the pieces fit at last.
All the words have been connected together;
Lyricists open up your head, releasing you forever.


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Home is where the start is.


I am planting seeds for us to grow our tree house.
I am retiring from The Rolling Stones to protect our castle keep.
I am trying to become a lion instead of a mouse.
All these things I do because I want my wife to find me at my best…
Wherever she (may be).


The two of us have not yet met,
But she is on my mind;
So I am laying foundations for a future life.
Brick by brick, with every footstep,
I am creating a home;
So when I do eventually meet her,
I can say…this is what we own.


A place to live, which has a fridge, to hang the pictures on.
A bed to sleep in and imagine the two of us with band’s on.
Inscribed on mine will be your name
And if you wish, my name will be yours.
You are already on my mind.
Am I the same?
Am I your love?
If this is true then we should become.
One and one make one.


I have waited for a century to see the perfect sun.
You will shine on my darkness and brighten up my face.
When I am done,
I hope I will be at your side when you are older
And I am even more grey.


I have tried my whole life through,
To find somebody as good as you;
Someone who really does love me.
Still I try…I am yet to see.
Other people will want different things,
But all I want is to exchange rings.


I am only interested in my true love.
What kind of feeling does our love evoke?
If I am yours as you are mine,
Then we should put the love letters with the wine
And later we will see what we wrote…


Wedding bells will ring aloud, so everybody can see,
That I am in love with you;
Together forever, I hope we will be.


Women may try to change my mind,
But they are wasting all our time.
Only one woman can have my love,
So if another wants to be with me, I will reply:
I am in love with her and I’m sorry,
You are beautiful, but you ain’t that fine,
When compared to her true beauty.


If you are my one love, then pop the cork on the champagne!
If you want to marry me, then I will celebrate the best day
And if we can extend our time by leaving a lasting legacy,
I will make our love last for a life time;
I promise you Babe, you bring out the best in me.
With you I will have found my way home at last.
This is my pledge to you; I swear there is no turning back.
From now into eternity, I want you, to be with me.
You could see me happy (Extraordinary!)


Home is where the heart is,
I need your style to decorate.
Home is where the kiss is,
I need your touch to improve this place.
Home is where you say I love you.
I need your words to unlock the door.
Home is where I hope you agree to I do;
I need your hand in my hand forever more.


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Be yourself


She paints a picture of the real me.
I know in my heart that she truly believes.
She tells me stories that I always forget,
But neither of us mind that fact,
Because it means she gets to tell them all over again, I guess.


She tells my story to those who care.
She sings my praises, even when I am not there.
I would tell her story, but it is not mine to speak, or write.
She has always been there for me, so I will respect her copyright.


She is not a writer, nor does she have a poet mind.
She works to pay the bills and she leads a completely different life.
She held my hand and I felt safe,
As we walked on stepping stones over the stream;
She still watches over me, always, as I dash her hopeful dreams.
They all went up in smoke;
But I’m no gambler or criminal.
I’m just a humane being and my glass is never half full,
So I can only ever let you down;
I try to be a star, but I am still underground.


I have lived my story; it is mine to tell,
But I have no need to explain why I never seem to help myself;
Because she truly knows me and still she keeps the faith.
I hope and believe that she knows one day,
I’m going to change my ways.


This is my story; this is the tale I tell.
I have no diary musings, except the poetry; oh well.
With understanding, you will see my soul
And when I leave you all behind without me,
I hope that you know that I could only ever ‘Be yourself.’


If I write things that make you think,
I hope you know your love has only ever helped me to be.
She is at the window, the kitchen sink.
She can see me walking towards her house
And she can’t help but be welcoming.


That’s what I love about her;
For all she does,
Because without her I could never believe one day I will find true love.
She said be faithful and love will come.
I’m getting older now and I am still here unloved,
But I will promise, to maybe, one day,
Show her the love which I have found;
The love that takes my pain away.


Your understanding; it is your own,
But this is my story and its meaning has no need to be told.
I hope you forgive me, but this is mine.
I would give it all away,
But then how would I justify?


You see this is worthless, but priceless to me,
Because when I find myself in love one day,
I will, at last, find…my…peace…


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Barefoot.


All my poems are written to express myself;
Talking in riddles is bad for your wealth.
I think I need to find new oxygen;
This land has no clean air and I am no help.


I live for laughter; I laugh at myself.
Beaten and broken, I have become someone else.
Is this a new age?  Or is it just the same face,
In search of a shave and a better day?


I live for now, I fade away.
When all is lost, who am I to say?
I need for nothing, but crave it all.
I can’t be brave in this brave new world.


She walks on egg shells, scared of a fall.
Pretty to picture; love is a calling.
My need is her, but she is a wall;
Stopped in my tracks, I keep on falling.


I walk alone through pitch black streets,
In search of light; I find my feet.
This is the place where I belong.
The darkness surrounds me as I wander on.


Day light arrives and brings hunger with it.
Who am I to ask you to give me anything?
But please, a gift, then I will be gone,
To vanish from your life…
Your charity work done.


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The Phantom of the Opera.


It may sound strange, but the books don’t work
And I am all out of luck.
I would start again if I could meet another Her,
But that time has all been loved.


A second chance at a once true love.
I am not just another fish in the sea.
I would give love back, if I only could
And then, maybe, you could love me.


Never to be attained,
Only seen through sunglasses and reflections of yourself.
If we are both the same, then you too cannot be saved,
From this self-inflicted, back-firing love spell.


I am cursed, to speak in verse,
Like a haunting message from beyond the grave.
Without love I would never have tried to be heard
And you would never have known my name.


Some people say love lets us know,
But I think it blinds my eyes.
When I am old and grey, the me you think you owe,
Will be a long time gone, up into the sky.


I desire no thanks, because I took a chance,
That the words would fall into place.
I am a selfish humane man, who never learned how to dance,
Because of my Phantom of the Opera face.


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Vow


I love you…


With every drop of every tear,
That I will ever spill from my eyes.
With every bead of sweat,
That will ever fall from my brow.


You are my reason for joy;
You are my reason for pride.
Until the end of all that which could ever be;
Until even after I have died…
You are my reason;
Our new life starts now.


For now we begin as one;
We are no longer two.


From now I will always stand proudly at your side.
From now until the end,
Through thick and through thin…
You will be my truth.


I will love you, like I always have, until the end of time.
I will love you, even after I have long since died.
I will love you after there are no longer disco stars in the sky!
I will love you forever and even after we have each risen up on high.


Because you love me,
I already have,
All I will ever need,
To make me happy.


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A collection of ‘Love is…’ Poetry
Breeze


Love is trust.
Love is true.
Love is enough,
Or love is through.


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Essential


Do you remember when we used to meet at our own special place?
I would wait there impatiently, just wanting to see your face.
All day I would think about you, the only face in the crowd
And then you would appear through the unknown faces,
Like a gift from the clouds.


Down you would float and I would kneel and offer you my love,
Because I could not stand to see you with another.
There are times when we would be alone together sharing a hug
And I could picture the two of us growing older together.


And when I am old, to me you would still be as beautiful,
Because I would still see you as the woman I met so long ago.
I imagined telling you that at last I can be hopeful,
Because you gave me hope that day, for always,
Because you are my hope.


I waited for you like the summer in winter;
I longed for you like a man dying of thirst in a desert.
You are the nectar to the bee and the wedding ring for the finger.
You are all I could aspire to attain, my poetic verse.


You inspire me to love like Casanova on his wedding day;
I need to change my very essence to bend to your will.
Let all who hear of me know of your name,
Because you are the only cure I have when our love life becomes ill.


No argument must end all the love we share with each other.
No man can come between what the two of us have.
No woman can lure me away from you, my perfect lover,
Because your love makes me happy and I wish to never again be sad.


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My friend


In a land without beginning, I cannot think about the end.
In a world where I should have been winning, I could only pretend.
I cannot deceive you now and tell you that I have no gift;
I cannot lie to you now and say I have nothing to give.
I have to give you my words, so you can see the real me.
I am love, I am yours; I am more than just a poetic piece.


If Heaven came calling and I was never seen again,
Would I have left a good impression upon this world?
I hope you have been affected by the words that I say,
Because if I am taken or even if I am forsaken,
Then all that would be left to do was leave your mind behind to twirl.


We are all here for a reason and my reason is this;
Born to write, half the time, the rest I spend being in love.
If we cast aside our desires, then would we even have lived?
Love is my passion, it drives me forward and it stops me giving up.


I have said I am nothing, but something I am.
I could claim to tell the truth
And you could claim I am an impostor,
Or I could simply share my thoughts with you.
I could have kept silent, but I chose to stand;
Nothing is given, you must earn it and so that is what I will do.


No dramatics or lies, just blood, sweat and tears.
My books are growing, my words multiplying and I am but a pen.
As each night falls and each sun rises, I am slipping through the years.
But on the last day, on my grave it will say…
He was a poet, a lover and my friend.


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My Love


Did I ever show you my favourite place?
And did you ever notice the smile on my face,
When you came back to me, after you’d been away?
It was complete relief that you’d come back again.


If I ever hurt you deep inside
And you hid the tears I made you cry,
Then my lady I apologise;
But I hope you’ll know that I never lied.


And you’ll never know what you mean to me
And you’ll never know why I let you go
And you’ll never know why you must be set free;
From me, my love and all my sorrow.


True to you, even when feeling blue;
My silence only ever hid the truth.
Those things I couldn’t say to you;
For I feared you’d leave me, then what would I do?


When you held my hand I felt warm inside.
I’m complete when I have you at my side.
You’re the only one in whom I can confide,
But without you girl, my heart would surely die.


And you’ll never know what you mean to me
And you’ll never know why I let you go
And you’ll never know why you must be set free;
From me, my love and all my sorrow.


But now you’ve gone away, I’m a hollow boy;
My comfort blanket has been destroyed.
They’ve taken away my favourite toy.
Now the tears continue to fall like rain;
I can no longer feel any joy.


So I sit here staring at the wall,
With a lack of empathy for this world;
For my love is gone.  I can’t go on anymore.
So I’ll say goodbye to my one and only love.
We could have been so much more…


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Raindrop


From the sky I fall forever;
Warp speed, light years, I can fly!
Further down I plummet towards you,
Through the wings of a butterfly.
Forever falling, sweat is pouring;
Silence is golden to the eagle at my side.


Faster, faster I travel along;
The new born sun shows rainbow blood.
It’s cold up here; I am going for a free falling song!
But the words do not mention what I have become
And what I will become.


Inside a sunbeam I disappeared.  
They dropped me off a cloud
And now my destiny is beckoning me to come down here.
And then with a crash, I splish! I splash!
I change into a vast ocean mass.


Now I am surrounded by H2O;
I have a place I can feel at home.
Through endless currents, I float along.


I cannot swim, but I can adapt.
I am a raindrop no more; I have become an ocean.
I told you I would be back.


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He said “There is no love.”


I only get to see beautiful women as they walk on by.
I do not get to fall in love;
Nobody will ever be on my side.
Mine to adore, to love and much more,
My girlfriend, my lover, my never a chore;
My only ever, pleasure forever after.
I wait for a sign or reason to carry on,
But there is no hope…no love…no one.


My heart is empty of someone to love,
So I will give it up, it takes too much.
My heart and soul I would give to be loved,
But I cannot even see a way that is up.
That is what’s up.  Forever down, by my own depression,
I never learn any lessons.
I just fail, leave them guessing,
Never actually show a piece of me; there is nothing to see.


The music video ‘Just’ is in my head today,
Because if they all had my empathy, they would all stop
And lay down next to me.
I am unmoving, going nowhere fast; no sympathy, please.
No kiss or hug is heading my way,
Because I am an island covered in rain.
Who would want to go on a holiday there?
(Even temporarily)

…I do not care…


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A collection of ‘Love is…’ Poetry
Drive


Love is pure light.
Love is without darkness.
Love is in love,
So I am left with only loneliness.


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Life goes on.


When I found you sat crying, on that park bench,
With the soggy tissue pressed against your nose.
I simply said excuse me and you told me to leave you alone;
But I’m sorry I cannot, simply walk away.
You see this is such a beautiful day!


No it’s not; it’s horrible.  I’ve just lost the man that I love.
He left me for some woman he met down the pub.
Was he there a lot without you?  
Yes, I had to take care of the kids
And clean the house after work
And do a million other things.


So what did he do?  
He worked in an office.
So why could he not help you to look after the kids?
Or help with the housework?  
Or just do something?
Well he had to go to the pub, to take care of business.


Oh really?  What was her name?  
What!?  Are you trying to be funny!?
No; I was simply trying to say, look Honey,
It’s clear to see you’re better off without him;
He obviously didn’t care enough to not go out drinking.


But what will I do now?  
I can’t afford to pay a babysitter, to look after the kids,
While I go out to work;
They’ll never see me.
I only work part time so I can spend time with them.
How old are they now?  
Timmy’s 6 and Tommy is 7.


Timmy and Tommy?  That must get confusing?
Only occasionally, when they make me scream.
Oh what could they do that could make you scream?
You know what boys are like;
Causing havoc and breaking things.


Maybe that’s because they had no Father figure,
To discipline them?
Oh he did keep them in line; well, when he was around.
And what of when he wasn’t?  Did you discipline them?
I couldn’t make them cry; they’re only six and seven.


So they saw you were a push over?  Just like your Husband did?
Who the Hell are you to call me a push over!?  
You don’t even know me!
You’re quite right, I don’t know you;
But I’ve seen your type before in many a picture
And the only advice I can give to you, is to change in the future.


Look you’re better off without your Husband,
He’s a spineless ****.
It seems to me you were the only one willing to work,
To make the marriage last,
Even though he cared more about his pint glass.
So come on with me now
And let me show you another garden path.


What do you mean?  Things can be different to this?
Of course they can my Dear; you too can live in bliss.
All you have to do is change a few things.
Then this time next year, when I see you here,
You will no longer be crying.


You’ll be watching your kids play
And you’ll have a new man at side.
You don’t know that, you’re not God;
You can’t predict the future of my life.
You see that’s where you’re wrong Dear;
I am the man you call God.
I’ve just come along to see you
And to offer you a helping hand with your lot.


Oh yeah, of course you are and I’m the ****** Mary!
Well then Mary, shall we begin your new journey?
The first destination is the school to fetch the kids;
Then I intend to change your life
And give you the strength to live,
A happy life full of joy.  
My dear take my hand and we shall go fetch the boys.


A year later, I returned to that park
And guess what;
I was right…
Mary had healed her broken heart.


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