You will learn how to sleep alone
how to avoid the cold corner but still fill a bed
always be friends with the broken people
they will teach you how to survive
you can love someone and hate them
all at once
you can
i have
you can miss them so much you ache
but still
ignore your phone when they hall
ignore them in the hall
You are good at something
whether it's making someone laugh or saying hello
don't ever let anyone tell you that you don't matter
you will always be hungry for love
always
even when someone is sleep next to you
you will envy the pillow touching their check
you will yearn for a love much bigger than you or i or him or her
you want a love of a higher power and a long life
you want serenity
and you want heaven
you want love
and life
and light

What shall I liken your power to Lord?, the strength of an ox?
NO! God thy power is like thy love.

Thy wisdom Father shall I compare it to the knowledge of man?
NO! Father thy wisdom is like thy love.

Thy glory Father shall I compare it to the light of the sun?
NO! Lord thy glory is like thy love.

And why Father do I compare theses things to thy love. . .
thy love . . . is infinite.

She’s different,
She’s great,
She’s nothing like
The other 5,000
I’ve ever met,

I say.

Im just a boy
They like to call gay
Ive heard all the words
They say it everyday

I can't go anywhere
Without getting some stares
They whisper in ears
The pain I can't bare

Why can't I be normal
Be like all the rest
Why can't I be straight
I pray and protest

But the prayers do not work
For theres no one around
I wait for the day
To live in the ground

I try so hard to change
I don't like myself
This isn't fair
I search for help

I find a light
That guides my path
I start to wake up
I breathe and I laugh

I know who I am
I let it be known
The darkness has left
And my spirit has grown

I hold my head high
And my feet float off the floor
Push away the sadness
I once felt before

Ive found my true love
He's just like me
Perfect in all ways
We both share are glee

I accept who I am
Im never a fake
This is who I am
So give me a break

If gay is so wrong
Let these words be sung
Your important and loved

Gifted.
Admired.
Young.

You wake up from a deep sleep
The only break you'll ever get
From the pain that never goes away
And the world that tries to bet

You see flowers blooming in the garden
Spring has arrived and winter has past
But the coldness that lives inside you
Will continue to last

Stop following me
I've had enough of this
I told you a million times I'm done
But the invisible shadow holds on tight
There's no place you can run

The school bell rings it's awful ring
Your late again it's no surprise
You wish the people surrounding you
Could see the pain that fills your eyes

One hour feels like a day
And a minute like a few
Staring at the clock
Is now the only thing you do

I don't know why it must be me
To have to deal with this
Or anyone for that matter
It only makes you ******

I just want to feel normal
And be who I want to be
Be like the ones who walk around with no fears
No amount of words can express
How much I want that to be me

I've tried so many things
I mixed so many potions and creams
I'm still waiting for the day
Where I can finally live out my dreams

To show everyone who I am
And how much I can do
To prove to all the heartless
How much I have improved

But still the shadow follows me
It wraps around my heart
It waits for me to give up
It waits deep within the dark

It feels like the end
I can never get a grip
Get away I always yell
But I fall and I trip

Down I fall over and over
The light becomes distant and grey
My curtains close and lock
The dark is where I lay

For my life is like an ocean
That is trapped inside a sphere
A ruthless demon shakes and stirs it
A silent scream is all I hear

I've tried the pills
And I've count to ten
But I'm still trapped inside this darkness
An ink cartridge in a pen

I try to unlock the doors
To shove the darkness out
But darkness always wins
I'm stuck within this drought

I'm struggling to breathe
And I shake with every move
I'm still searching for that holy grail
That will **** the pain and soothe

It might be days
It might be years
I may never find a cure
But I know that I am stronger than most
Because of all I have endured

So as I turn off the lights to go to sleep
I know it's not the end
But I know I'm one step closer
To say goodbye to my best friend