There's this nagging feeling
Deep in my bones
Keep checking my phone
Hoping you'd reply

Do you love me
Or do you love him
Well at this point
my chances are looking slim

Can you stop leading me on
Don't do this to my heart
Just one word and I'm gone
So give me an answer, yes or no
I just want to know

i don't like you
and you don't like me
it's never eye to eye
what you and i see
i can't talk nice
i never think twice
go on and on
bout how i'm wrong
if that's how you feel like
i think i did all i could
but it's clear you never would
admit that you hate it
why do you tolerate it
just don't act so cold
both you and i know
that it's inevitable
and downright impossible

you can't please everyone
maybe you don't need anyone
when you can't tell who to trust
if it'll all end up a bust
there's a limit to everything
right now i can't feel a thing
i can't tell you how to live
so i won't mind if you leave

i don't need you
and you don't need me
we can go our own ways
but you would never say
that to my face
i wonder what it would take
to give myself a break
can't tell if i'm satisfied
when i'm looking through someone's eyes
overthinking every decision
always believing i'm the reason
everything goes wrong
i should just move on
i should try to focus
on what's really important
if i can get pass the worst bit
i'll feel like i'm worth it

you can't please everyone
but even if it's only one
then maybe that's enough
i don't need too much
always needed one thing
something to believe in
now it's easier to breathe
i'm just gone like the leaves

i'm not gonna lie
used to think i'd die
always knew how it'd end
pushed away every friend
now i'm making ones that count
ones i wouldn't live without
made it with their help
and one of them's myself

you can't please everyone
but even if it's only one
then maybe that's enough
i don't need too much
always needed one thing
something to believe in
now it's easier to breathe
i'm just gone like the leaves

Is that what you think
Is that how you feel?
I can't believe what I'm hearing
Is this even real?

So we don't talk anymore
what was all of it for
We don't love anymore
You kicked me out the door
There's nothing left
Not even a soft and gentle look
I'm gone from your life
That was all it took

Is he better than me
Does his kiss feel sweeter than mine
Do the memories of his face
keep you up at night
Guess that's how you feel
I just hope you'll be alright

so one last toast to the good times
the last time we can unwind
i sometimes wish i can rewind
back to those days
back when we used to run away
you used to hid in this bale of hay
and we would wonder where'd you go
that was so long ago

and now you're all grown up
with all those responsibilites
livin it up
in that big ol' city
do you still remember all the good times
all the fun we had with the boys
remembering those still brings me joy

guess it's too late to be regretful
guess it's too late to say i love you
and now that you're gone
and as i write this song
i hope you're happy
i really do
i hope you're happy
happier than we ever were

Ain't no feeling like the holidays
A perfect winter getaway
When you don't wanna leave
and just wanna stay
And a cup of hot cocoa
And the heat of the stove
Ain't that feeling grand

On this cold winter hue
I'll write a cold winter blues
Something for me and you
Come let us heat up the room
Just you and me
Just you and me
Right by the Christmas tree

is this what they call fate
and can it ever change
is that what they all say
the opinions stay the same
that bar just keeps on raising
and i'm shriveling up like raisins
been like that since the beginning
but by the end i hope i'm grinning
cause birds gotta leave their nests right
so i'm gonna live my best life
or drop like a deer in headlights
paralyzed in my dreams and nightlights

Can you hear me from the other side
I'm knocking on the wall for you
Waiting on you to decide
If you will ever let me through

Why'd you think that you can't share
Why'd you think that I won't care
Your heart looks sad all painted blue
How can I get through to you

Will you please unblock me
I know it's unlikely
And I have no keys to unlock
So I'll keep on knocking
Until you unblock me

The way you're hurting hurts me too
But I will bear it just for you
You always seem to be offline
I must've checked a hundred times

If you have some words to say
I'm just one call away
And maybe you won't see this
But still, unblock me

Something got in my throat
Got something to say but can't
Don't tell me
I'm falling for you again

You got me bad, girl
You really got me bad
I wanna get you back
Gonna get you back

There's something about your eyes
That got me in a daze
It's like I'm in a haze
When we are face to face

Don't you know
There's no limit to where I can go

You got me bad, girl
You really got me bad
I wanna get you back
Gonna get you back

Sometimes my hands are shaking
Feels like my heart is breaking
Waiting for your call
What else can I do
When all I want is you

You got me bad, girl
You really got me bad
I wanna get you back
Gonna get you back

Gonna get you back, yeah
Gonna get you back
Honey, I'll be back
Don't worry I'll be back

i need to find some strength
to get through today
cause the more that i wait
i might make a mistake

cause everything happens for a reason
and flowers never bloom out of season
it never goes according to plan
with my feet still stuck in the sand

it's all just target practice
i miss and miss till i got it
i never really aimed correctly
but once in awhile i get lucky

most of the time i'm tired
of all these shots i've fired
and i don't have what's required
and the date has now expired

another night of overthinking
looking too deep for some meaning

i count the years that passed
and the years yet to come
mapping out the path
to the person i'll become

the life that i want
i can't hope to realize
running on 0s and 1s
and there's no compromise

all this pretense
just means to an end
one day i'll crack
and i can't go back

who is it you think you see?
is that the person i should be?
perfect lies to make a perfect life

This idea of a home doesn't match what I know
It's clear in my soul that I need to go
Changing is hard but the pain's the same
I won't get far looking for something to blame
The world don't know, the world won't show
Where is my home? Where is my home?

What if I stay for a couple more days
What would you say 'fore I go away
What would you do? What would you lose?
I don't know you, I don't know me
I just can't seem to find my peace
If I go back, back to my past
Can I make it another lap?
Just let me know, please let me know
What is a home? Where is my home?

ain't no apologies can ever make this right
i know a part of me is costing my sleep at night
but when i hide my face they never see me frown
and if i look away they'll never bring me down

not looking forward to it
but it's some progress i guess
not that i'm bored of this yet
but i wish that i could forget

so am i the villain in your fairy tale
not even close to winning when our mates are stale
and if i break that mask will i see through you
and if your friends were asked would they say it's true too

i'm writing this down so i won't forget
so that this hobby won't be a cause of regret
what am i doing this for? what's the bottom line?
is it to settle a score or just to waste time
am i writing for myself or somebody else
not really, i'm just writing to write
my mind feels better when there's a bit of light
and i really just want to create
at least then i won't procrastinate
that's not a promise i can keep
but this is one seed i'll be sure to reap
and if i am known for this that's a bonus
we're all trying to curb our loneliness
so i guess that's where my goal is
trying to stop myself from being complacent
in the end, that's my mission statement

call me when you get this
you don't wanna miss it
you don't wanna wait too long
they're playing your favorite song
can you wake up when you hear my call
i'll be waiting until next fall

Three's a crowd but this is way too much
It's too loud, inside voice is enough
The drinks stopped working
The chitchat got annoying
Now I'm trying to leave
It's getting hard to breathe
Not enough walls in this house
Not enough cheese for this mouse
All these noises I can't block out
Right now I wish I was knocked out

I forgot what I came for
Am I still on the same floor?
Tried to take it slow
Now I just wanna go
But it's still too soon
Room full of unpopped balloons

it's just another raincheck
just another delay
waiting for sunny days
it's just another raincheck
till the clouds go away
but they always seem to stay

how much longer can i wait
how much longer can you stay
another day is just another way
to say i'm not here today
missing out on what matters
just in case a storm gathers

i can't get out of here
until the weather's clear
an endless loop of waiting
being cooped up, delaying
nothing's ever changing
and it's still raining

i can't run if i don't have the energy
it's no fun if you straight up just answer me
i'd thank you but i know that you won't notice me
so thank god for me, thank god for me
i can't lie if i don't know what's my truth
i can't try if i don't have something to prove
i'll win but i know i still have something to lose
so thank god for me, thank god for me

it was the last days of high
we were busy saying good bye
all the laughs and tears
looking back on our 3 years

time felt so slow then
but it's so fast now
if i did it again
i would still not know how

how do i step up
the shivers just creep up
never was good at confessions
never was the one to show affection

i never really learned
it's still a slow burn
another love song for another day
i put it on loop, i'll just let it play

Sleep my dear
Cause the demons are near
No they can't touch you
But they'll hurt you just the same
No you're not to blame
You're just caught up in this wicked game
Like all of us
Oh, like all of us

But be strong, love
Just give your all
That's enough
Stay alive
and that's enough
You got your role I got mine
And I've got to stay tough
For the both of us
For the both of us
I hope that'll be enough

Is there something I could've done
Is there anyway I could've won
To change the results
Was it ever my fault
So close yet so far
So close to unlocking the door
To that place we'd always dreamed of
To that place we call could have

But now I fall apart
Shards of glass inside my heart
Deep in my core
Oh, I'd never felt this before
Deep in my core
So once again, I fall apart

Did you think this was a game
You fooled me twice and I took all the shame
You never said hello, only goodbye
And left me wondering why
Wished I could go on
But really I just wanna be gone
From you and from this place
And that's just great
You be you, I'll be me
At least now I'm free

Waking up another day
Waiting for this month's pay
Hoping one day that I can say
All of this was worth the wait
Maybe then I'll be OK

This 9-5 is frying my mind
These Friday nights are my only lifeline
And down the pipeline are my pipe dreams
Back when life seemed just like a rainbow
Now the rain pours, where the pain goes
Now I just stay low, wait it all out
Wait out this drought, till I can shout

Money doesn't come for free
But **** I wish it came from trees
This ladder that I have to climb
It's all just a matter of time
Wondering when I'll finally strike gold
That'll be when I finally let go

ever wonder why it rains when you cry
ever wonder why it shines when you smile
i guess this world changes for you
i should know cause i do too

I was young, I was weak
And my future once looked bleak
I had no direction, no motive
Broken but no one noticed
But that changed with a look
When you glanced above from your book
I was hooked

Who could've known, even now when I've grown
That it would've been meant to be
Even the blind could've seen
What we had was real
And so I waited awhile, and you looked at me still
And so I waited no more, walked there and opened my mouth
I felt like I wanted to shout
From the top of my lungs, how's it going
My legs moved without knowing
My lips moved on their own

So we talked and we talked
Then we took a walk
It felt like a spark
Then we met again and again
Wasn't a matter of if but when
Then I showed you that ring
My heart could almost sing
And you said yes, as if I couldn't be more blessed
In the end, we tied the knot

At least that's how it would've been
You never looked at me
I never walked to you
There was nothing I could do
And at night I still dream
About what could've been

did you check the time?
it must have slipped your mind
you went home so late
look at these cold plates
bet you think i wouldn't notice
bet you think you could control this
i don't like it when you lie to me
when you said that you would die for me

the sandcastles we built
i imagine it still
on the beach, out of reach
are the things we never had
the present became the past
questions never asked
nothing left but the waves
why can't i look away

i'm just the same as all of you
yet i can't see from your point of view
been awhile since i felt the ground
been awhile since i heard a sound
a grumbling, a noise, somebody's voice
something to pull me out of the void
awake and asleep, awake and asleep
sometimes it's shallow, sometimes it's deep
waking up's the worst part
the same as a restart
heaven or hell, heaven or hell
just ask my brain cells
need another hit, i'm addicted
i need to feel lifted
to really feel like i'm living
like a human being

or at least halfway there
it's the truth laid bare
whatever, i don't care
i was always taught to share
but some things i should keep to myself
wrote this out to read to myself
love letters to myself cause i got nobody else
there's no one left, no more steps
guess no one's right, you're all out of your depth
i can't get you so why would you try
it's only right i'm hung out to dry
i'm just venting, i'm just lamenting
so my thoughts might be offending
but let it be known these words i'm sending
can always be worse, you heard it from me first
maybe this will help me find some purpose
stop feeling useless and be a little selfish
hopefully i can stop acting so helpless

the forecast says that it will rain
but right now the sky looks the same
we might not even see grey clouds
but let's not worry about that now

cause the rain will come one day
but that day is not today
and i'm not trying to delay
don't you get me wrong

i know i can't pretend
i know that it all ends
when it slips away from my hands
i hope i'll be gone

keeping safe in the meantime
that's a tape you can't rewind
don't know what tomorrow brings
can't let go of anything

i'm reading from scattered notes
cause they're the closest thing i have to hope
i wanna be strong enough
cause i know this road'll be tough
i want to hold on and not let go
but if i do my roots won't grow
i wanna leave and be set free
but i don't know what will happen to me
staying the same feels safe
but i haven't really got out of my cave
if i take a shot in the dark
maybe i can reach for the stars
and then i'll be out of here
if only i can lose my fears

what is it that you see in me?
what's the secret that make your eyes gleam?
what's the tempo of my heartbeat
that makes you stomp your feet
makes you nod your head to the music
or did i confuse it with something else
it has nothing to do with me, just you and yourself
why can't i see what you see?
am i blind to the so called best part of me?
you say i'm talented, i got what it takes
but self doubt makes me feel like a fake
i paint the walls with my mistakes
yet you only see the wallpaper i replaced
apparently i gotta be transparent
my hesitance is inherent
so i put my defenses up
in front of crowds i tense up
now i gotta fess up
sometimes i'm fed up
i had enough of it
of people saying i'm good
when i feel the opposite
i promised to myself that i'll be confident
but i got a history of breaking promises
wrote my life-story but i can't seem to finish it
might die heroic or live villainous

something's not right
what happened last night
i can't recall your name
something's not fine
i don't know why
but i won't play your game

why are you so cryptic
don't you know i'll miss it
why you leaving hints babe
did you mean it this way

puzzle pieces everywhere
scattered pieces here and there
leaving all these breadcrumbs
all over this bedroom
no space in my headroom
assuming you exist still
assuming that it's all real
it's something i can go with
but now i can't control it
now it's out hand
i don't understand it
help me to expand it

we haven't been the same
it's been years since you called my name
at least not in the way you used to
is it bad if i'm still thinking 'bout you

you're my ghost
you've been haunting my home
when i'm all alone
i still feel your cold

i've been drinking too much
i've been getting ****** up
been thinking way too much lately
been so long since i had a good night's sleep

lost in the memories of us two
dreaming 'bout the things we used to do
i'm in a slump without my muse
but trying to get out is just no use

you're my ghost
you've been haunting my home
when i'm all alone
i still feel your cold

cold inside this heart of mine
brain's on fire but not alive
just one night would be alright
why haven't i killed the lights

i can understand
if you're not making plans
cause it's only autumn
it's the time for boredom

sun is coming down
i can't feel the ground
raindrops on my head
even on my bed

nothing i can't solve
it will soon dissolve
find a new solution
start a new discussion

turn off the alarm
stay here in my arms
if you need just call
walk you through it all

everybody wants to feel good
everybody says that they would
but sometimes life just doesn't play nice
and all they do is complain they don't get treated right
what happens when you run out of people to blame
what happens when you run out of hearts in this game
hate to be caught in a hall of mirrors
hate to be caught where your exterior is inferior
when you know your interior is superior
or to be more exact, you think that you're better than this
you think that you're worth it, you think you deserve it
but do you really if you don't work for it
not everyone understands what it is to feel like you can't
to feel like everything in the world is out of your hands
feeling like whatever you do won't amount to anything
when all you have to lose is everything
what's the goal? a wedding ring or a home?
or a six figure job? would that make you feel whole?
guess you'll never know. you'll never realize until you grow old.

i kept dreaming about that day
when i could finally stand up and say
hey world i made it to the top
then at that moment i dropped
and woke up to the cold hard reality
that it was all just a fantasy
everything was still up in the clouds
and i'm still here living in the now
never mind what i have in mind
i'm just wondering if i'll make it in time
how late is too late? how soon is too soon?
won't be long 'till my life reaches its afternoon
i got no other options than to live 'till i die
i need to give it my best shot and try
nothing to choose from, nothing to lose
i want to be somebody, i just don't know who
life won't give all the clues, it's not so kind
i guess i'll just risk it and go in blind

Sometimes at night I wonder when I'm gone
Will you all remember me or move on
All that matters in the end is my legacy
Let's just hope this story won't end up a tragedy
One word two words
Couple more then it turns into a chapter
Turn the next page comes another
The story of my life is simple
Just like any other

But is that all that is though
Can I accept it as it is though
If I write these words down will anyone know
Who will I be remembered as
A great man, a father, or just some *******
Will I be able to live up to my dreams
Or will it be lost to the past

Past, present, future
It is this thought that we nurture
That's just our nature
Against all the naysayers
Telling us to grow up
We hope that one day we'd blow up
And touch the sky
Hoping life would give us wings to fly
But I still don't know why

I once thought all it took was happy thoughts
But no matter how hard I fought
I couldn't make these voices stop
Sowing doubts in my head
Saying my life will be a flop

Don't know who to trust
Don't know what to do
Don't know how to get through this
I'm screaming at the top of my lungs
Throwing up my fists in the air
As if to fight an enemy that's not there
But I know exactly where he is
The enemy's inside
And that's the best place to hide

Wait wait and waiting
All hope seems like they're fading
It's just me and the night
And this thought wondering why
All through the night
All through the night

I'm not asleep but not entirely awake
But what difference does it make
Whether you're drunk or you're sober
Doesn't change the fact it's over
I turned to my right hoping to see you under the covers
But you weren't there
Right, you were never there
Not anymore
I guess it's fair, but I just can't bear
Losing you so suddenly
I can't sleep
And I need you here with me
Be there for me
Even if I was never there for you

I guess that's true
And I'm sorry for that
You never realized what you had
Until it's gone just like that

And now you're gone gone gone away
Even before I got to say
That I love you, baby
And it's driving me crazy
All these regrets
Why can't I forget
It's messing with my head
Why is life always so cruel
Especially to angels like you
But there's nothing I can do

what am i trying to say
what am i trying to do
why am i here today
pouring myself out to you

i guess i don't need a reason
needed someone to listen
even if it's out of season
that's not the way i am leaning

i've had enough of my thoughts
wish i could be a robot
something that can shutdown
and will never frown

but that's not very healthy
in any case it's not stealthy
i tried to sneak around the issue
leave it in my rear view

but the reflection's still there
and sometimes i'm still scared
afraid of something real here
never given a real cheer

another beer, drown the fears
liquid courage with no tears
ain't no purpose here
i know that is clear

whatever needs done
i hope i figure it out
i'm the only one
who can hear my shout

if i need to take walks
or someone to talk
it's a part of a plan
for now, just what i can

this isn't a letter
it's a manifesto
to someday feel better
without too much hassle

this is not a revolution
just my resolutions
things i need to sort out
now that i've got my words down

little by little
i think everything changes
little by little
i won't be the same

Or maybe it was nothing
To me it could've everything
At night I wonder
What would it be like
To be six feet under
Are there anything that lies yonder
I ponder

So many things I just can explain it
All this pain I can't contain it
As long as I can say I made it
Then that's enough for me
I don't need to know what's in store for me
You see
It's better being oblivious
Then knowing something this tedious

let's just take a minute
and try to slow it down
before i let you finish
i wanna take a bow
let's just have a toast
we made it this far
i'm not one to boast
but i think we're on mars
imagine if i quit back then
repeating the past again
imagine if i didn't try
i wouldn't be able to fly
got a lot to thank for
i'll be here for the encore
we endured, now let's enjoy
**** it, make some noise

can you stop me from leaving
can you stop me from breaking
if you can that's good
cause i don't think i could
stop myself

i always flipped a coin to decide
it's like i don't even own my life
it's getting harder to decode my own mind
it'll take too long going by my own time

the risks or play it safe
the glue or let it break
can you help me out
it's so roundabout

should i have listened to my inner voice
the one that keeps yelling bad choice
and maybe i should have sacrificed
the things i could've done without in this life
but in this life, there's no easy goodbyes

can i stop being foolish
and try to be little bit selfish
when it's you i can't help it
but deep inside i'm glad
that i can't stop myself

start the day with a reminder
not to waste the remainder
opportunities come and go
some of them won't even show
how do you know which road to take
just try to make it for heaven's sake
workers on the grind
nothing but our lifelines
just trying to get by
that's just the life
no way up all the way down
feet planted deep in the ground
close your ears and say la la la
i don't need that brand new car
i just wanna pay my student loans
and hopefully not die alone

The sun shines a flickering light
Will I still be standing when the wind comes blowing
Will I be gone with the flowers of yesterday
Darkness lies towards me
A pixelated future, nothing I can see
Trying to hold on to my dreams
But it flows away like water
Stood in front of the sky, a spirit opens a path
Though cold, empty, it's better than the aftermath

The night welcomes me with its soft embrace
The morning shines on my eyes
With its blazing gleam
Is this real, is this a dream?
I rub my face, hoping to wake up
Time's dripping ever so slowly
Dancing around me
Like some ****** up ballet

In front of me is the final pain
One more step then into the grave
Barren, yet so bright
Casting aside all my frights
Guiding me towards solace
Leading me away from the surface
I lay my head down, under the covers
I won't be awake for another

once upon a time i had a dream
of going places i've never been
somehow it all went with the wind
not now not then, i'll never win
i'm still chasing this runaway train
hoping one day it'll erase the pain
the pain of failure, of knowing i've lost
but i'm not really sure if i know the cost
i forgot how it feels to be on cloud 9
i forgot how it feels to just free my mind
just give it time, that's what they all say
this is a game, that's what they all play
and all day all night we pray to God
and fight to keep all that we got
why is it so hard to get what we want
why do we fight to be number one

but we do it anyway, yeah we do it everyday
and we'll trade what we can trade, everything for better days
it's insane to run away, it's insane to hide my face
yeah we're all used to it, yeah we're not new to it
it's a struggle but it's life and it won't always be nice
but all we got are dreams and dream is what we'll do
it's ups and downs, it's wins and losses
and by the end, we'll be our own bosses

i was sitting in the dark
just waiting for a spark
scrolling through my phone
asking if there's someone home
it's real empty up there
it's all air down here
they don't care about fears
they just stay and chill
they just want a thrill

i've been losing my mind
i've been wasting my time
i've been lying for awhile
i've been faking several smiles
i've been worked up over nothing
i've been craving for some loving
but i know i'll never get it
i know i won't forget it
while i'm alive
while i survive

i was looking through my scrapbook
never really liked how my cap looked
the faces they have faded through the years
yet i can still hear my peers sneer
a disappointment and i know it
afraid of choices and i show it
i don't know how to be okay
what do you all want me to say
i know you're watching, watching
my ship's sinking and i'm the ******* captain
so hold on fellas and don't let go
it's about to be one hell of a show

i've been losing my mind
i've been wasting my time
i've been lying for awhile
i've been faking several smiles
i've been worked up over nothing
i've been craving for some loving
but i know i'll never get it
i know i won't forget it
while i'm alive
while i survive

i think it's fine
i just need 8 hours or 9
some shut-eye will do me good
but right now i don't think i would
got too much on my mind
but i'm fine

i've been losing my mind
i've been wasting my time
i've been lying for awhile
i've been faking several smiles
i've been worked up over nothing
i've been craving for some loving
but i know i'll never get it
i know i won't forget it
that's if i stay alive
that's if it's not a lie

i just keep running away
i don't know when to stay
no this is not my stop
no i will not get off

lonely is the wanderer
roaming this wonderful
wonderful world
to forget someone's girl

whatever i'm looking for
i won't get it here
maybe less is really more
is it as simple as it appears

I think I missed my train
I must've overslept
Just waiting in the rain
Zero promises kept

From station to station
They all looked the same
From faces to faces
I lost track of names

I can't tell the time
What's wrong with my mind
Am I left behind
I thought I was fine

If nothing changes
Then is it me or you
To get to places
What will I have to do

I don't like what I see when I wake up
Connecting my thoughts but they just break up
Every step's a compromise, telling perfect lies
But you know that I can't pull a wool over your eyes

GPS is gone, I gotta find my way
Can't get lost in what the voices say
Afraid of tomorrow and missing yesterday
Drowning in sorrow, I already hate today

I can't do it anymore, I can't open the door
Losing my center, lost sight of my core
Wasting my time looking back on days of yore
Looking for something that's still in store
Walking these aisles felt like a mile
Hanging on like a WinRAR trial
Why can't I let it go? Why can't I take it slow
Down a slippery ***** and it's getting cold
Watching people take my place, and thinking that's okay
I guess I'm just complacent, with nothing else to say

Watch your mouth, don't let it come out
Don't let them know what you're all about
Next thing you know they're gonna drown your shout
This is one hurdle you can't walk around
How are you gonna find your way out now

GPS is gone, I gotta find my way
Can't get lost in what the voices say
Afraid of tomorrow and missing yesterday
Drowning in sorrow, I already hate today

There's no shortcut in this game
I want to make a move, but every time I do
You come out of the blue, always so brand new
I guess I'm trying to keep it tame
I don't need to guess the weather
Cause the less I know the better

Second guessing all my doubts
How many strikes until I'm out
Am I the only one this patient
Are you sick of all this waiting

I love and hate your poker face
I won't say it right away
I wish I could read your mind
But I hope you can't read mine

I'll try and try again
But every now and then
I find it hard to tame myself
I can only blame myself

i won't be coming back
so please just make this one last
sometimes i can't stop my thoughts
sometimes i forget what i brought

stormy skies won't bring me pain
cause i'm too **** used to the rain
missed my train then missed my bus
twelve alarms just weren't enough
the world goes around while i go down
i'll hit the ground any time now

and when the clock stops ticking
and my eyes stop blinking
will the world be stopping too
and when the people stop moving
and their heads stop turning
will i be something too

will i be someone to somebody out there
to somebody who cares, to somebody somewhere
i wanna be remembered but i don't wanna stand out
always had a goal but it's never planned out
just running around for a little while
just running around, headless chicken style
what is life all about
what am i all about

i miss you
and for now that's all
i can do
hate to spend another fall
feeling blue

running around, at the speed of sound
hoping to find what hasn't been found
knocking on your door, but no one's home
nothing but the floor, where's the garden gnome
since you've been gone, i've been filling holes
but they keep being dug and i end up alone
if i see you again, what would i say
if i go back, can i prevent that day
is there even another way, another route
maybe i should stop trying to find a way out