I am Frozen
- Still -
in Space

Trapped between
solid Waters
and biting Winds,

All I ever
wished for
were some Wings.

In the darkest
and saddest
of Times,
It’s the tiniest
Spark of Beauty
that - still - keeps me
Alive.

There’s a heaviness
lingering
upon my shoulders

I sit and try
to regain
my vigor

Just to find
my eyes
are slowly closing

Maybe I can stay
and rest a little
longer?

I am a
Lego Castle -
this Me, standing tall
for Everyone to see -
Is an Us

I’m made of
a million
of different pieces -
tiny colorful ones,
each different and unique

I was born One
and became Many
as years passed by;
Every new little piece
I made contact with,
changed me -

I haven’t lost myself,
I just
Grew;
And every time
I meet a new part,
It makes me a little more

Whole

I'm a Mountain
I'm a Rock -
I am Everything
That I'm Not

Ain't it funny,
this little show
Of Play Pretend
what You are Not?

I am nothing
but
A body;

some Thing that
struggles and strives -
Keeps pushing

Through the darkness
and shadows of
Life.

I am floating
in an ocean of
Silence.

Words -
solitary waves
occasionally passing by

Caressing
my skinny mind
ever so gently,

I almost forget
I still
Exist.

You
make me feel like
Putting
the pain aside;
Breaking
the cage I live inside.

Free -
Like a Song;

Like
a Bird
starting to Fly -

A Bird
returning to Life.

I've got
no Roots -

They've been ripped
Off
of me;

my Being,
a wandering Soul
sailing across
Seas of Desolation.

I feel entrapped
in this shell
wrapping me around

It covers
- envelops -
every part of me;

But, inside
I still
Shiver.

I am lost
in the breeze
of endless evenings -

Your laugh,
the playful gurgle
of singing ponds.

I loved You so much,
You would never imagine
What it felt for my Heart
to give You up - It’s still crashing;

I remember and I drown
in your dark eyes
’cause I found
I Still love You, my Dear -

What remains
can’t disappear.

It is frustrating
- almost infuriating -
to never Be
Listened to.

I'm
falling from the World
like
falling from a tree -

Crashing
on the ground,
But still
on my feet.

I want to cry,
but this wouldn't do -
For I can't spill
any more tears for You.

Such strange creatures
we are -
Flesh and Bones
and Pain - and Ambitions -

From inside Desire
urges Itself forward -
Traps and enslaves
every Will in its chains.

I do like you
a lot,
but there’s something
I forgot:

The Path
to reach Myself.

I can’t seem
to find
this "I" of mine
Anymore;

The footprints I left
are all blurred
and confused now -
The size of my feet
is useless
anyhow.

Snow is starting
to fall down
Again
and won’t stop
till It covers
everything around -

Till It buries
Me.

Will I let
the soft coat
Embrace Me?

Or will I shake it
Off
of Myself
when Spring comes?

This is still to be
seen;

In the meantime,
I’ll let the Leaves
Fall
for Me.

Leaving you
was
heart-breaking,
soul-breaking -
Everything-breaking.

But in the end,
I’m happy
I got to love you;

You got it, too:
to love somebody -
doesn’t fade from view.

You were
my Sin
And my
Redemption -

All
at once.

Was it
a Miracle?

That, I still question.

- unholy pleasure -

Her Arms are the Castle
which keeps me from every hassle;
I'd stay there all day long -
no one to do me wrong.

I guessed
it was harder
to Forget

And easier
to Forgive -

I guess
I’m not good
at guessing.

Sometimes
I feel so much,
that it’s almost
too much;

Enough
to lose control.

And when I do,
I numb it all -
Don’t wanna hear
the shattering
sound of my Soul;

“Dear, don’t give up
Just
give in
to the embracing Waves
that shake you within;

Let ‘em rock you
gently to sleep -
May the Ocean fill
the Void
you carry within”

Such sweet melody
whispers the Sea -

Its wise guidance,
a soothing Lullaby
I now cherish
inside of me.

I loved her
so much,
I forgot
how to love
Myself.

My eyes always
wander
from side to side,

Checking for a sign
that tells ‘em to hide

Under a screen
of pretended Lies -
To protect me from
the cruelty of Life.

But, to Lies I prefer
Poetry instead:
warming my heart
with Love once again.

What am I?
I do not know;
This thing inside
is beating, though.

Oh, She is
so beautiful to me:
Strong and fierce,
no one could compete

And I can't think
about anything but Her,
So I close my eyes
and hide my mind somewhere.

<<Head in the clouds!>>
they say to me;
But tell me, my friend
Where should I be?

In my Heart
I cannot be free
And in my Soul
Pain and Agony

Only She
can liberate Me:
in her warm embrace
I finally am Complete.

His hands around my neck
Me, trying to catch my breath -
I haven't found it, yet.

I once was scared
of feeling Emotions -
Thought they would scar me,
leaving only commotion;

But then Poetry filled me
with Joy running
beneath my skin,

And I realized nothing
could ever truly
break me within.

When Poetry came
and warmed me inside,
I was suddenly glad
I was still Alive.

Through all the creatures
that I have seen,
You are the most
majestic one:

Cheekbones high,
regal nose;
Scarlet lips
that make me cry.

Winter skin
framing dark eyes -
Poisonous daggers
transfixing life;

Yet, on me
that murderous gaze,
was soft and tender -
Vanished the haze

And the devilish grin
of Sin and Fun
turned into a kiss
as warm as sun.

I love You because
you're like
Poetry to me -

filling up my lungs
with fresh, thin breeze;

I love You because
you make my Heart
skip a beat -

for it can't take
this drumming - crazy -
that's growing inside of me.

I don't know why I feel
this pain right here - it's real;
Just tear my heart apart
and put it back at rest.

In her words,
back then,
I saw a glimpse
of what We were -
and fell
for it again.

Time passes, mortals die
But Hope -
It will always
Rise.

And as her dark
and puncturing
Eyes
teased my Will
to stare back
High,
I couldn’t find
the strength to
Lie
to Myself
Anymore.