My emotions run wild,
But the words confine.
Even if I murmur a word,
My wetty eyes will cry.

Back then,
The world was so big,
And I so small.
The whole empty me,
has no scent of her own.

But You made me begin.
So we Begin for us.
And now has come so far
And still many miles to go.

But now,
Amid all the Chaos,
Amid all the love,
Amid all the hope,
Amid all the seeking,
Amid all the Euphoria,
Amid all the grief,
Amid all the bewilderment,
You are leaving.
Leaving me,
To carry on all own my own.

When I see around,
I see people
dancing to the beats of
Negativity and sorrow.
So I close my eyes
And create my own
Symphonies,
Which stirr my soul,
Warm my heart.
I dance at my own melody...
And finally open my eyes.
Look up at the blue sky,
At the creator of all kind,
Give him a smile,
And let my heart fly.

Love
What's unsaid about it?
Still it's different
and unique for everyone.

Sometimes,for me its like
songs of cuckoo bird.
Sun that rose again in my life,
a green oasis in a desert,
The best part of my youth.

and sometimes,
i am a lone warrior in the battlefield,
searching for the enemy soul,
dont know where to find
and how to defeat!..

I am not afraid of break-ups or
passionate love.
since who knows,
what love has at store!
the equal amount of love back?
Happiness?
Atrocities?
or may be a surprise?

my name means UNIQUE
I wonder if so am I.

M owing it ,
before the beginning of my beginning.
I wonder How and Why,
Was it destined?
what if i had different name?
How would it had felt?

Each time we drift apart,
we will keep sailing
until we lead to each other.

we wont fear to loose it all,
unless we both loosing it together
but not each other.

we will keep surviving,
until we earn each other
live,love and laugh together....

I closed my eyes
from the light
and when opened them
it was already night.

With my unfamiliar heartbeat
and a voice of faith.
I looked into mirror
and saw her there,
staring at me,
with fear striking glare
and telling me untold tales.

Tales of,
the dreams that died,
the emotions left unfelt,
the words left unsaid
and the path not taken.

I saw her
carving for love,
when loving someone else.

I guess its part of life
and now my choices ,
are what i am.
Let i forgive me
and build a path of self belief
out of this maze
because when winter passes,
spring comes again.

So i will fall again,
fly again,
run and crawl,
will hit by countless stars
But will never stop again!..

My breath,
the path i walked.
The me from yesterday,
the me from today,
the me from tomorrow
its all the answers for me.

M still finding myself,
is on the path to love myself.
Its the beginning of start,
and the end of end.
Now even my scars,
seems my very own constellations.

I took a deep breath &
Listen to the old brag of my heart.

I am, I am ,I am.

Choose gratitude over regret,
Before the time ticks away.

So throw off the bow lines,
Sail away from safe harbor.
Catch trade winds in your sails.
EXPLORE, DREAM, DISCOVER..!!

As the sand slipped through the
Hourglass,
Her memory faded a little more.

A choice to be Happy is,
the last thing she could remember.

I have earned a lot,
& Still in pursuit of more.
Wearing crown of smile
& Armor of faith.
Sometimes enjoying the sunshine,
& Sometimes battling the storms.
I am rowing ahead.
So, let these waves,
This time take me to a new place.

Connection maintains balance,
Balance is life.
Go back to shore,
Before waves turn back high.

Pain to loose,
Strength to gain.
Who knows who will leave me,
So I pushed them all away.

Sometimes I need love,
I need faith.
But on some days
Just a smiling Hello makes my day!!..

U r long gone,
& I still have feelings for u.

I too want to move on,
So, I tried some new places.
But wherever I go,
It's same old me with old feelings
& Thoughts.

Why I am in dark,
When it's so bright outside.
So, i choose to let you go,
I choose to free me.
Hence decide to face u up.

I gift you back your lies,
Our memories and my feelings,
Words and emotions left unsaid last time.
I vent out each bit of u from me.

& In a moment I felt so relieved.

I am learning to speak
Although I can speak.

I am learning to see,
Although I can see.

So why I don't like what
I see or speak.!

Hence I must learn
To speak and see.

I build walls around,
To keep the frenemies out.
Oh! My angels too lose
their way!!...

Once again a diversion
Or loose of tracks.
Is it an opportunity
Or way to hell.
Just a step,
And a choice,
Will drown me down
Or fly me high.

An evil is playing in my head,
Cursing my peace,
Poisoning my thoughts.
So, good side sets on war,
But evil still wins.
Destroying everything in its path.
Its bad and fearful,but still a company.
Be my friend ,evil.
I could serve u with love and wisdom.
M still alive,
And till last breath ,I will be hoping for good days.

Its always hard to say "let's end it"
While still loving u.
When it comes to separation,
We are not good at it.
A little spark is enough,
to make us run to each other.
These hands should not touch yours,
And eyes should not meet either.
Vows will be broken,
We were never good at
love and separation.

Feeling is easy,
Thinking is tough.
Still mind always sets victory onto heart.

I was busy burning some bridges,
Closing some doors.
Until I realized ,
I also got wings.
To fly over it all.

You loved and lost.
I search for you,
In the light of love and hope.
Tracing u everywhere,
Exhausting my mind and soul.
Heart failed me first,
Mind later.

Her world is so big and blessed,
Cheery and sweet.
What this curse m dealing with,
M So lone and unhappy.

You regret and apologize
& Again I set to dream a dream.
You and I till infinity.
But who knows u was again lying to me.
Soon your regret wash off like watercolors.
Again I was drowning deep in me.

What is this m feared of,
Which can't be seen and touch.
Sometimes I feel it in my thoughts,
Dressed in daydreams ,dark and deep.
Drowning me in
& Stealing my moments and breath away.

I left at his door,
Some flowers and some innocene.
All feelings and all promises.
Dressed in memories ,
with a crown of smile.
İ Set in search of my missing piece
Of broken heart.

My past was not yours,
Neither the future will.
I won't come back,
As m no more the older me.

Those hands were supposed
To love me.
& That voice was supposed to
Heal me.
But every night when I sleep
I hope not to wake up ever.
So he has something to regret.

M sick of this blame game
Which will make me loose
Even if I wins.
It don't matter anymore
U right and me wrong.
M leaving it all behind,
That love and arguments
Jealousy and care.
M setting u free.
Don't worry for me, time will heal me.

Spend childhood
Crying for toys and candies.
Now searching for
Something these eyes can't see
Hands can't touch
My soul craves for love
I was complete as a child.

Spent childhood ,
dreaming of a prince and castle.
Grown up and learned
All beauties Don't need beasts.

I know me and what I want,
Prays for faith larger then fears
& Dreams bigger then self doubt.
Not scared to like alone walks.
Tied to goals not people or things.
Aware of heartbreaks and love don't blind me.
M idealistic and prepared to be misunderstood.
Stay real, stay loyal
Or stay away from me.
M too deep to be true & too romantic to be real.
I enjoys the moment and plans for future.

You could be someone's other
But you were mine's only.
You know one day we will end,
But it is more scary
for me to realize "it's ended".

So now it's time to start
Something new
& Trust the magic of new beginnings.
This time I won't wait
for Storm to pass,
As m learning ,
To dance in rain
& Smiling when it hurts most.

Past is still in me
& future is blurred.
Sometimes I cried for both.
But moving on is all I could do,
For
The road ahead is longer ,
than the one I left behind.

Today m in gratitude,
Thanking for the times I survived.
When
solution seem to be problems,
& Problems were constant.
When I was afraid of mornings,
& filled with dark inside.
When I was 1 part love,
& 3 part fear.
Oh ! My poor vision.

But today my past is beyond me
& I am new me.
Today I sees deep skies with hopeful eyes.

You are my only option,
I will choose you,
Even if I loose me.
This love is blind with depth of seas.
So m down on my knees,
Bribing heaven and fasting for your love.

Nothing is more beautiful then a real smile
That has struggled through tears.
it is an ideal reward for Victory
And classic way of hiding scars.
May be that's why they believe I have always braved a war.

I am lying to me
and it's easy to believe on.
Help me
From my self doubts.

Not everyone I loved , stayed.
Not everyone I trust,was loyal.
Not every heart, I win.
Just like beauty got the beast.
But I didn't regret falling for love Again and again.
I suffered, I learned, I change.