Could you separate life From the living, The scripture From the pope? The teacher From their history Could you find that glimmer Of hope?
Could you forgive Betrayal? If not Do you have a limit? Could you see weakness And still Accept it?
What if it never amends Or if it’s never acknowledged? Could You forgive and forget a broken promise? Could you trust? Could you be trusted? Could you fix what is broken Without the knowledge?
Maybe you could If you had to choose between Losing a part of yourself And losing something dear to you. Or if you had to choose between Being alone And forgiving someone who has wronged you.
And could you Accept an apology Of someone who Has done something They could never take back? Could you accept an apology For a pattern Occurring behind your back?
I will not be walked all over. I will not be taken as a fool. I love you. I love you. I love you. But What you did to me, To us, Was nothing short of cruel. And I don’t know if you mean it When you said you were sorry Or you’re only sorry Now that you can’t hide The consequences, Now that I have to Deal with this For the rest of my life. And I love you, But If forgiveness means To trust you one more time, I wouldn’t be able to lie.
I could have said a million things in a million different ways. All of which would have made you stay a million more days. But when the time came, I thought about the future, and I could never say with confidence that my feelings would stay the same. In the end, I couldn't let my fears break my heart or yours. Not when there's a million other doors to open and explore.
told me you love me then betrayed me with someone else what do you want me to say? coming back saying you're sorry expecting me to forgive you; never felt so hurt Yet idiot me, still here I can't live without you
I have my wounds to show Savoring these as more grow When i asked the rising sun It shredded it's dark light to run Avoiding my soon to come dread But the moons crept saying not fret All of them revealing your brew I have started to forget you As that night memories all of which flew
the only way you can hate, is to love hate is love betrayal is trust we were one
the words, like fire in my mouth left scars to keep you, i had to lose myself
but was i holding onto you like a child that grips their teddy bear to save them from the never ending darkness or were you holding onto me like a child clenching a bag with a fish wondering what will happen if you shake it
and just like that child's foolish hope of the teddy bear protecting them it's all just pretend an illusion that we wrap around our hearts to shield from feeling
your words have become cobwebs of lies stuck to the walls of my mind hands that hold my head below the surface of the lake the lake made by the darkest parts of my mind
the soft and gentle hands that once held mine are now calloused and cold they no longer create instead they destroy
it was never supposed to be like this
i squeeze the teddy bear you shake the bag the lake fills my lungs i'm going to drown my fault your fault
we were both too heartless
my apology that i gift to you is made from the tears i've shed these past few years
well you see now this time i had to leave i had to leave the memories ive made behind as one by one i couldn't trust anybody as everybody turned their back on me, or tugged me down down down into a trap i was trapped now i'm free heartbroken but free.