Forgive me if I ever refer to you as the sea. It does not concern your size. It regards the moments in which whenever I believe that you have calmed and I decided to be walking ever so gracefully among the sand, you bring a sudden approach that leaves me stunned. And I am not happy, when I should be.
You're like waves Strong and unpredictable But I dont' want to swim
I can't stop shaking and I don't think it's the cold I feel you resting on my skin and it's the same skin you used to trace and I keep burning my body in the shower thinking it will rid the residue of you we said all of the right words at the wrong time and I'll walk through a crowded room with a glass in my hand and I'll try not to notice your voice in the noise of everyone else but I swear it's still the only sound I hear I'll convince myself I used you the same way you used me and I'll swallow it down with a sip of ***** then swear this is the last night I'm drinking to forget you I'm training my tongue to stop telling stories of us everytime someone says your name and when 3 a.m. comes around and I'm tempted to text you my epiphanies on why we went wrong hoping one might resonate with you and we can try again I'll remember all the time I spent rearranging the pieces of me that got tangled with yours and hope I never have to love that much again
I wanted to live for you. I wanted to sacrifice myself for you. It's always you that I love. I gave you more than just enough. As I kept doing it, The squall inside me became uncontrolled. It caused me a lot of pain. I only realize now, I'm the one I should love in this world. This precious soul of mine. Not so perfect but so beautiful.
Epiphany means a sudden realization. I got inspired by Epiphany of Bts Jin. You guys should listen to it. It is a beautiful song.
Cast about on a stormy sea, The deck was barren, Our mood deceased. Many a day, high tides wisped by- Arresting my feeble mind from time. Until one day, an epiphany. "Blue dream," I called out, "Take me away to that special place Where up is down And I float into space; Drown my sorrows in a haste."
She manifested in my quarters Later that night, And with a soft whimper Summoned my delight. "Here you are, forsaken one," She hauntedly sung to me, "My love will give you power, The smoke will set you free."
Many a moment has passed Since my encounter with blue dream, But still my dreams call out Hoping it's her I shall see When I cross the threshold Of those pearly gates.