She was waking off the beach,
Trying to laugh,trying to speak,
But there's something wrong,
She must be holding inside the tears,
Let me take a look ,now let me see,

  She looks into the mirror,she's displeased,
It seems as if she's a disease,
But look at that soul,
I think there's only fear and insecurity,
Can we help her? Can we,please?

She tries to do the best she can,
But she still falls down ,oh Sam!
Staggering through the hallway,
She thinks,"Well, now how bad?"
   I hope there is something special for her, like a man,

She wanted to be alone tonight,
And sat there in the corner of her room, with no light
I think she has taken enough of it,
Somebody has to stop the tears, and I
might,
But hey, will she finally feel alright?

I try my best to be better again,
I take all the happy pills I can,
But they keep pulling me down the ladder,
And it only keeps getting sadder,

New place , new people,new time,
They just keep stealing away my smile,
And I've been hurt once more,
"I won't feel this again." though I had swore,

They have the power, they have the chance,
Why do they always look at me with askance?
What do I have, an emotional heart?
I must have played some unnoticeable part,

I am the one who's hurt, writing a poem,
Where should I go to escape ,to roam?
They must have forgotten the way they make me feel,
Now c'mon ,tell me none of this is real,

I write what's inside,this is not just 'scribble',
When I try my best to keep you out of any trouble,
Why do you leave me alone to hurt ,to rot?
Why do you think I am something I'm not?

Hey ,I am not so strong to take this all,
I try to be there for you but you let me fall,
Can't you see the girl behind the face?
You've wrapped my soul in a filthy black lace,

Here I am doubting myself in my bed room,
I am the flower that can now never bloom,
Tonight even these four walls are so quiet,
Thanks for instilling me with this fear and fright

It's easier to judge
Not easy to understand

Two feet away
And you won't hold my hand

So I made a promise to myself
My body is not your land

I cut my hair short
Sing songs you hated with my little band

I could dance away the nights
If this was God's plan

I could spend days without talking at all
You're just a boy, not my man

I see seasons come and go
But I just sit there
With my heart
So cold

Nothing's changed
But the time of fall
It's a journey
After all ~

Still sensation
But the varying despair
The flower of love will
Finally repair ~

And then it rains
With the blood of pain
For these seasons
Sing your name ~

Red roses
And your broken smile
Don't go
Please stay here for a while

We'll talk
About how the world will end
The dark theories
And the forgotten thread

The broken glass
And the moon lighting our faces
Feel the moment
Feel it before we leave our traces

In a hundred years
And days I can't count
These silk robes will smell like us
But we won't be here -we won't be found

You came,
After all those awful years,
Sat beside my grave -nothing's the same

You never apologised,
Broke my heart,
Didn't even call to rationalise,

Today, I don't have a voice to speak,
I am gone in the dark,
While your affair with her is on fleek,

You're here and I wonder,
How you abandoned my love,
Threw me out and I surrendered,

I don't want to change your mind,
Leave while you can,
It's time to put the past behind,

They say, "You can't bring back the dead."
So forget about me as you shall,
Toss my memory out of your head

just one more night
could you change your mind?
cause i might

we made this garden together
grew thorns everyday
fine as a feather
and now we are bleeding
but we are not giving up
we both know there's no love
its as if we created this fire
to burn what we never had
driving each other mad
they tell me im childish
to feel the way i do
do u think that's true?

we have too much at stake
too close to break
i cannot be saved
so dont ask me
what does it take
cause i dont need your plea
u cant make this fire cease
we grew out into the hate
hiding behind the dead trees
mumbling sterile words
can you hear me

One last time
I had to look back
I had to have
My very last glance

She was my mother
And I loved her
Earnestly
Faithfully

I know
She fed me
I know she cared
I know sometimes
She wished I wasn't even there

We could hold the grudge
For as long as you seek
But Momma,
Aren't you supposed to love me?

I desire your blessings,
I yearn for your fondness,
Momma how can you not see?
Your daughter is not what you believe,

I have become a waste
Somebody's worst day
But you don't even bother
If I leave or if I stay

Still remember the words he wrote,
"I see my life vanishing in cigarette smoke."
Young, old soul
Ranting about the hearts he had broke

Can't help but see him when it rains,
Standing in the corner of the road -a smiling face

Too many years had passed,
Heard he was fighting in a rehab,
Such a dear friend –but time moves fast

We laid him down to rest,
Six feet under, I know he did his best

A friend is a friend,
When hearts break, you ought to mend
But when they leave,
Make sure love's all you send

I did cry
For so many days
So why must I lie?

Felt like an empty house
With squealing doors
Can you be here, once more?

They say I'll find somebody else,
That it'll take time,
But I'll be just fine

A few more years
And I'll forget we ever met,
He'll caress me -take away my fears

My body aches in pain
Only you could take away
But hey, there's nothing left to say

I hope I never see you again
As long as I live
For I have –with me, nothing to give

I see people
Heart broken
Just like I have been

I see them
I watch them cursing love
Trying to move on

You know
Why there is
All this misery?

Love
Is a healer
Only when minor

It cures the broken
Perfects a smile
And keeps you hoping

But love itself
Is not perfect
Just like you, just like me

It may leave you broken
Haunt your smile
Steal your desires

But let's not
Put the blame on love
Lets not bury it

For it deserves a chance
Like you and me
Let's keep its traces

Though
You need not to
Depend on love

For your happiness
Should lie within
You, your God and music

Be the thunder
To the stormy nights
The rainbow after a rainy day

And to me
This and only this is
The truth about love

Here I am, once again
Sitting in the corner, drenched in pain

I see black, a tint of red
You would call it 'blood' instead

Heavy breaths, no one to see
All these broken pieces, I hide underneath

Tis' my world, no Sun to rise
Darkness all around -is not a surprise

People come -only to leave
Like the leaf, falling from a tree

There is hope, yet there is not
"No one cares" is what I was taught

Cunning demon, taking me in
Tells me, "Slitting is not a sin."

So I linger, and here I'ld stay
Why head for the hills anyway?

They say,
"Hold on little child,
Someday you'll finally find,
Your true love,
And you won't have anything to hide."

They say,
"This pain will go away,
You shall have a reason to stay,
In this world,
You'll one day find your place."

They say,
"If you don't look around,
And if you can't hear the sound,
You'ld stumble,
You'll fall right back down."

Oh they're so cold,
And oh they have their show sold,
But hey wait,
Isn't it too late for me to be told?"

All I am is ugly,
All I see is ugly,
All I feel is ugly

As crazy as it sounds
You're the sling to my wounds

I can see it when you look at me
Your eyes are no less than hounds

Breaking into my house of fears
Tell me, what have you found?

Oh how you think I'm only naive
Not knowing how many times I've drowned?

I know
I know it seems childish
But I'm made to run in circles ,round and round

And yet –I can clearly see
You want to be my soil, my ground

I know it's unreal
But so are you
I love some, and you're among the few

I hate the way
You look at me
As if there's nobody else but "we"

But it's only when
I catch you starring
That I feel like finally someone is caring

I wonder what it feels like
To be young
To have someone become your heart and your lungs

How do I tell you?
That you seem like my only home
A flower growing from a seed I hadn't sown

And even if we don't talk
I know you'll be here
I know that I'll have your love in rare