I don’t make arguments
Out of nothing
I make nothing
Out of what should have been an argument

She learned not to be hurt
That he only reached out
When he needed her

Instead she chose to see herself
As a light he reaches out to
When darkness consumed him

In trying not to lose you
I lost myself
I had to let you go
To find who I am again

The street hums with lights and sound
A symphony of chaos all around
People rushing, horns blare
In the midst of it all, I find something rare

A flicker of hope, a glimpse of peace
A moment where all of the noises cease
A smile from the lips of a stranger
Suddenly the chaos feels fainter

The world is cold and full of strife
But in these little moments I find life
A sliver of light in the dark
A feeling of inspiration sparks

I don’t want to want you
But I need you

I don’t want to stay
But I don’t want to leave you

I can’t live with you
But I don’t want to live without you

I dance until I’m numb.
I sing until I’m free.
Music is my escape;
My way to be me.

Your “good intentions” cause more pain
Than your bad intentions ever could

What do I do?
For years I’ve been collecting
All these parts of you

Do you feel whole
with missing fragments
of your mind, body, and soul?

What did you do
with all the pieces of me
when I decided to flee?

Do you carry bits
in the back of your mind?
Trapped yet able to constantly remind?

Did you place your memories
in a box on a shelf?
Gathering dust all by itself?

I hope you feel me
the way I feel you...
A presence in everything I do.

A pretty face will fade with age
A perfect figure will change over time
But a beautiful soul will remain the same-
A beautiful soul

I’m scared you’re going to be
The one who finally breaks me
My trust you betrayed
Cut my heart with your blade

I cannot take much more hurt
My brain is on high alert
I have to protect the pieces of my fragile heart
I’ve told you this from the start

I don’t understand why you hurt me still
You knew I’d do anything at your will
I never expected you to play games
I believed every one of your claims

I want to trust you
To know everything as true
I’ve never felt so afraid
These feelings I’m trying to evade

I love you more than I should
It’s bad for my livelihood
I am trying to forgive
But I’m running out of trust to give

Before I met you

There were spaces in my head
Even my demons were scared to touch

There were parts of me so cold
Even the sun couldn’t warm

There was a side so dark
Even the stars couldn’t illuminate

You were never scared to crawl in my head, warm my heart, and light up my darkness.

How do I break the cycle
I cannot control my thoughts
I replay scenarios
like an unchained melody on loop
Future fears
Past mistakes
Haunt me like an empty house

I am not enough
(You are enough)

A power struggle
Between my inner demons
Right and wrong
Pain and happiness
A record skips
Replaying the same line
Over and over
My anxious mind is a prison
To which I’ve been given a life sentence

I’m afraid my heart has forgotten
How bad it hurts to be broken

I had accepted my fate
Content with drowning
You woke me up
Made me crave life again
And just like that
You saved me
When I wasn’t looking for a savior

When trying to mend our hearts,
We often search for “the one” who can fix it.
Ultimately finding “the one”
That leaves us more broken than before.