I envy the light that lays upon your skin
And illuminates the love that you veil deep within.
An intoxicating laugh carried through the breeze
From the liquored lips I so thirst to seize.
Such enchantment brings me to my knees
My heart at your whim, my soul at ease.

A sweet, lingering kiss
Please love, just one more
I can't bear to watch
As you reach for the door

Lay down with me
Please stay, my dear
For I so loathe to wonder
Why you must always disappear

I never understood the combination
Of love and hate
Until I encountered your heart.
I had no reason to believe
That you would never leave
But I imagined forever anyway.
I was always taught
To take good care of my feet
Because they are what keep me standing,
But they never said anything about knees
And mine are filthy.

Drenched in your kiss
Submerged in such bliss
Oh love,
Won’t you rain
Down on me?

The pressure of your lips
The dirt on my tongue..
It all tasted the same.
I never knew what it would be like
To feel hollow
Until my knees crumbled
And the floor became my home.
The wind was never
A good friend of mine;
It only whispered under the sun
But whipped when I was bare.
And I'm starting to wonder
If that foreshadowed
The way our hearts
Are always in the wrong place
At the wrong time.

I am no child of God
Something sinister designed me
With a heart that hurts too deeply
Sword tongue that cuts too sharply
Skin that bruises easy
Eyes that don’t see clearly
Some narcissism, optimism
Pinch of pessimism
For good measure
Pathetic
Brain cell battlefield
Truth fronts on both ends
Devil’s distorted spectrum
I falter in the middle
An impossible distance
Clouded by cognizance
And carelessness
There is only now
And now, I am
Everything and nothing
Unbalanced, unfallen
The void in silence
Sudden vacuum of air
White light in sheer darkness
Vicious cause for despair
Sweet surrender is calling
But I don’t belong there

Oh, sweet serendipity
How you've been so good to me
Afraid of fate, I used to be
Now my arms rest openly

Rose petal lips
A velvety kiss
How sweet it tastes
To be rooted in this
Breathtaking bliss

I miss you deeply
When you're not around
An absent touch
An empty sound
It could just be an hour
It could just be a day
Still, it hurts my heart
To be away

The horn of the midnight train is the only thing loud enough to interrupt my thoughts of you every night..
And the 2am train
And the 3am train
And you're all I think about
And I can't sleep
And I hate you
I wonder how loud the train is
When you're standing right in front of it.

Please Midas,
Take the golden gun
And shove the golden bullet
Right through my golden skin
And tell me a story about
"All that glitters.."

I held tight to peace
In my search of relief
But she still
Spilled discreet
From a hole underneath

I still enjoy how sunlight
Softens the green rim
‘Round my eyes
‘Til they’re honey

But the warmth—
I never feel it fully

Deemed clumsy my entire life
I would have never guessed
That I should stumble upon
Something so worth the fall
That I would eagerly dive
Heart first into the ground
If I was certain that
It would be your arms
Enveloping me into you
Once I came to.

I couldn't be further
From believing in God
But your love has me questioning
Who else could've found
Such a sweet angel
And sent him to me.

Doctors say
Once you reach the age of maturity
You will cease to grow;
But how does that explain
The heights that I reach,
The expansion of my heart,
Or the width of my smile
When I'm wrapped in your arms?
It doesn't.

It must not be healthy
To bear this on my own,
But I would much rather
Just suffer alone.
These knots in my stomach
And these thorns in my throat
Have made this little hell
Feel a lot like home.

A wave of snow surrounds me
With a sea of ice below me
It's no wonder they never found me
Winter winds don't die down slowly

His transient touch
Taught me to love
Elusive hands embraced
Inverted beneath skin's layers,
A plastic pin point impression
That prickly sensation
Lasted for years
Hollowed hands turned every touch
Into white noise
Soft static buzzing eardrums
Burrowed deep beneath
Old memories, sneaking in
Through dopamine
Vibrating neurons numb
Until I can't sleep

If someone asked me to describe

What it was like to hear

My name escape

From the sweet, sweet lips
That I've always dreamt about

I would tell them

That it was as if

You wrapped explosives

Tight around my heart

And with every whispered word

Every delicate touch

Every loving kiss

A very small piece 

Would blissfully burst 

And heat my entire body

Until I was so warm with love

That I truly believed I was melting

They say God is the most important being,
But don't they realize
He's the one
That sends us to Hell?
And don't people understand
That by teaching someone to shoot,
They become vulnerable?
Dramatic irony.
Maybe we should be
More versed in Shakespeare
Than in the Bible.
Maybe then
I wouldn't have so many bullet holes
In my back.

A rose
Is a rose
Is a rose
Unless it looks like love,
Then it’s love

From your lips
Drips a melody,
Every word you speak
Sings to me,
Your voice rings
In its flawless key,
Our tongues entwine
In harmony.