Married with a purpose, always dreamt of a different life all together This is the reason I don’t believe in god And why should I, I don’t know if all this makes sense or not Is this the case with god that whatever you ask from him He ll give you totally opposite of the same I certainly asked for a life happier and more stable than this Days pass by and I don’t find a single reason to be happy Days pass by and I don’t find a moment of stableness Days pass by and all I feel is numbness and pain Days pass by and all I feel is more distant from my soul Why only heart dead brain dead is considered to be dead Isn’t the person who has stopped to feel happiness pain sorry Who has forget how it is to be happy at all How it is to feel normal and yourself How it is to be close to your partner How it is to have fun in life !!
Why soul dead is not considered to be dead!! I am not alive why this is not a death in itself!
Those words spoken long ago I choked them down dry and raw Now I find regurgitation To be the only way In avoiding asphyxiation Belief is one thing Reality another A monster when combined Some call it "Love" Some call it a "Lie" Delusion is jelly-thick You know what tastes nice? Reclusion. I poisoned myself on hope and seclusion Love, may you gag on my rotting flesh My eyes have opened My mouth agape Choked out from love's embrace
My feelings on a long complicated relationship that has left me feeling so many emotions I thought I had pushed far away.
a door i thought would unlock remains unmovable in my grasp. the shock of the fact racing down my spine faster than a dead man falling from the sky. a stone dropping in my stomach, the word "Wait" haunting my every step and consuming every minuscule thought. i believed tales of my grandmother and speeches about the future would be enough. they were not. so now i turn back. looking to find the key buried among the bushes or hanging from a tree branch. and retracing my path to find what stepping stone i missed along the way. the heavy knowledge that this battle isn't over yet bleeds into every step, making it harder than before. and yet... i can hardly stand to speak the words but... in a tiny corner, half obscured by shadow, there lives a young ember named hope and it refuses to burn out. here's to praying it'll start a forest fire.
His heart is a guarded chamber Locked with a diamond mind Whose gears only turn If ever someone wished to find Fulfillness granted through death Which alive can't give or show A promise I can't convince For only God can uphold But on this Earth I can guarantee That I'd go to hell and back I'd live in utter agony To set you free of your own trap
Staring at the sky Pale blue Is there any hope left Wish non of it were true How did I get here? Is there any place left I can call my home The clouds are pouring in Burning me within
Missing in a maze Disarrayed and alone Thought I could see After all I was blind
All that I've cared Is nothing but frail How fragile was I With nothing left to grasp Just turn it into ash
I'm locked in my head With what I've done Maybe there was somebody Who could've rescued me But I didn't let anyone in Now all that's left of me Thoughts consuming me With all that could've been Non-Entity
Please someone grab my hand And run far away Just save me from myself