As I walk around the hospital, I hear chatter and laughter. I am constantly surrounded by friendly faces and warm smiles. I meet their warm smile with a cheerful hello, and I grace them with the twinkle hidden within my eyes.
But deep inside, I feel hollow. I feel empty as if my soul contains nothing. I feel like I am just a shell of a person taking up unwarranted space.
Every day I ask myself Does my life have a purpose? Do I make a difference? Will anyone miss me if I am gone, or will they notice I'm not around?
As I come back from my recent travels, everything seems to be the same. Not an item is out of place besides for me. No one has noticed the empty desk for the last four days. No one has noticed that there is a missing friendly face.
One does not realize how insignificant they are until they come back and realize that no one has noticed their absence. Until one realizes that everyone failed to care. To them, one is just another working body. One is just another body filling another simple empty desk. Disposable, nonetheless
A gush of wind Across the saunders A few leaves fall down They are insignificant Thousands still there To breathe To photo-synthesise And prepare food I am a tree unlike others Once with an umbrella leaf The leaf fell down I am insignificant
All I know about love is the pain All I know about the blue sky is that sometimes clouds gather and it rains I'd hoped that you'd cover me from the rain like an umbrella The grief blows like a strong wind and am just an umbrella In loneliness, I drink much wine and think of how it's made from grapes off the vine Same slow song on repeat, music is beautiful and I think of how it's surely proof of the divine I was only artificial, a porchlight compared to the sun If forgetting is a line , can i go before my turn
When I feel too small and unimportant to be worth other’s consideration, I remind myself it is my responsibility to strive to achieve my joy and happiness and others’ joy and happiness, and by taking on this challenge I make myself significant to my joy and happiness and others’ joy and happiness.