I appeared that one random day some years ago when the stars were galloping.
since then each step I take picturesque the clip I've been rolling. I remember that day when mom told me that to live was to encounter a blessing and struggling was the way we inherit a trophy for generations that lived. I was deceived by the unrealistic heroism of many martyrs who died before me. in fact, the spotlights were not meant for me as I expected. fate put me far removed from any truth I’ve worshiped. some days I move in urge and fly very high. I heal my wounds and forgive people who randomly get me to taunt. some days I scream without words and get drowned in my own nightmares. I drop death thinking of any chance to collect my own mythical strikes. after all, I still reopen my eyes to a bizarre sight; I wonder if it is the answer to all the prayers I've murmured in my solemn nights or perhaps it is just the doom I've been daydreaming about all the time. of the truths spoken and the marks of my barefoot steps, I pledge for an eternal gaiety. And a place of my own kind.
No, I lied, My state of mind, Is far from fine.
No words said Yet your eyes yell Pinching aroma embed Oh, well I wanna be more innocent To make your heart discontent
.....lack of words
Who quells a mimsy breed,
Only He, concedes a tree from seed. Google, god of today Only He, Beings bow to, every day. Who hangs stars dressing a night, Only He, tags waters of creatures small & mighty Technology, tyranny of **** Only He, treats his slaves as kings Who knows heaven's ends Only He, who possesing divine hands Ignorance, father of today Only He, leading us in paths astray Who quells a mimsy breed Only He, concedes tree from seed
I believe you were made to taunt me Few see beauty and peace Most see something they can never be Wanting is a burden Having is a crime What do I say to that? Just give me some time Paralyzed I stare Oh mirrored me Talk to me sweetly Tell me "wear and tear is normal just confide in those who cry deeply" I sigh alone fractured by despair I walk outside and I see mirrors everywhere -J.R
I still love it here! Treat yourself like you treat others. Unless you're mean. If so, work on that! :)
Whenever I feel miserable
No matter where or how or why I look for my happy place And wave the world goodbye I plan before I'm losing it To find this place and rest instead It's always there and quite a blessing This happy space is in my head But letting go of suffering Is mostly easier said than done Then thinking about my happy place Seems the hardest thing under the sun Changing my mood from dark to sunny I would learn it perhaps if I could Though I'd prefer not to do the work And stay in my happy place for good
I feel the filth within myself
When I saw her fixing herself From the damage that I've done The emptiness that I gave to her Is the same as the one who left me I become the person I wish to avoid
When I become someone I hate I can feel the filth within myself
You make me want to get high and end something. Your childhood shouldn’t be mine. You apathetic ****. I know you don’t care. That’s why it hurts. You’re father was gone, Maybe that would be better. You’re here, but not for me. You’re just a huge tease. Without words you flay. Furl me in a calm. Just to show what worth you have of me. I’d rather be whipped. At least then you’d use me. Your always at my leash. If I try to pull you to me. You’re never at the end. Endless release of my constant fill. Never seems to bring benevolence. Slamming fists, yelling to a burn, Biting until blood, hurting until bruised. You’re a tick I can’t rip out. Burrowed and *****. I can rip my skin open. Dig in. You’d never be found. I’d amputate your from me. With a saw, knife, or bullet. You **** me dry, and never pass a nod. I can’t scream into another. Or cry with someone. They’re nothing to me. Cause they’re nothing to you. I have no one. Monkey see, monkey do. There’s always something absent. Turgid and deeply rooted. It hollows my chest when I feel it. I’ll never taste it. Or have the chance to waste it. Finding someone to abridge. Is frustratingly crippling. I sting just thinking about it. You knee capped me. I’ll never love. I’ll never be loved. You made me meat. You made everyone meat.