Could it be
I've never seen
Beauty in me
Took time to reflect
On all that I am
I haven't shared everything I can
On this soul-searching road
The winds and turns
Each corner holds secrets
Each road taken holds challenges untold
Which road you choose is how life unfolds
Some are rougher, Sometimes it's smooth sailing
All the time I've invested in this world
I've come to realise
Each moment is just a piece strung together
In this story called life
I have no wisdom in my words
All I know is I've survived
Yeah, still alive.

Some would say I feel too much
Some would say, I'm too ******* myself
Mistakes I owned them
Haters I outgrow them
There's a whole lot in me
Only a few people see
A light that shines slightly through the cracks
I'm not all bad
And all this strength gathered
Has taken me to heights
Others couldn't imagine
Like a lighter, a little spark
Can ignite a torch
Revealing truths in dark corners
It's all these things
That makes me a lyrical philosopher
Through these lines I conquer

A man made up of scars
Each marks a tale
Each a reminder of lessons learned
I've been through the ringer
Still standing, And I'll still fight
Until my last breath drains all my might
No matter what the world throws my way
I'll always say...          
"Challenge accepted."
Never gave up
I still dream
I still fight my way
Through each day
No matter the odds stacked against me
I'm a raise my head accept the challenges met

Some would say I feel too much
Some would say, I'm too ******* myself
Mistakes I owned them
Haters I outgrow them
There's a whole lot in me
Only a few people see
A light that shines slightly through the cracks
I'm not all bad
And all this strength gathered
Has taken me to heights
Others couldn't imagine
Like a lighter, a little spark
Can ignite a torch
Revealing truths in dark corners
It's all these things
That makes me a lyrical philosopher
Through these lines I conquer

Nothing is going to hold me down
I'm going to dance like a warrior
All these bad habits couldn't be sorrier
All these battles I've won
Some left me scarred
But through this my skin became hard
Got a thick skin, Never cut through it
Got a good heart, shines through in my art
Belief only takes you so far
Have faith, it'll take you beyond the stars
They say wisdom can't be found in bars
In unlikely places, you can find yourself
And accept it is all you are
All that you've become
Water washes over me
Setting me free
All this dirt cleansed from me
You haven't even seen the best from me

Some would say I feel too much
Some would say, I'm too ******* myself
Mistakes I owned them
Haters I outgrow them
There's a whole lot in me
Only a few people see
A light that shines slightly through the cracks
I'm not all bad
And all this strength gathered
Has taken me to heights
Others couldn't imagine
Like a lighter, a little spark
Can ignite a torch
Revealing truths in dark corners
It's all these things
That makes me a lyrical philosopher
Through these lines I conquer.

Don't make me a role model
That I can never fulfil
All I wanna be is an Inspiration
Show people if they stick to it
They can make it
They won't fail if they fight tooth and nail
Revealing truths through poetic paragraphs
Silver linings rising, capture lightning in a bottle
Hard to contain, just striking in ways they don't expect
In life, you'll realise your blessed
If you take a deep look around
And all that surrounds us
Just shows that you can achieve
Be anything you want to be
And all I choose is to just be me
Open up your heart to see.

Some would say I feel too much
Some would say, I'm too ******* myself
Mistakes I owned them
Haters I outgrow them
There's a whole lot in me
Only a few people see
A light that shines slightly through the cracks
I'm not all bad
And all this strength gathered
Has taken me to heights
Others couldn't imagine
Like a lighter, a little spark
Can ignite a torch
Revealing truths in dark corners
It's all these things
That makes me a lyrical philosopher
Through these lines I conquer

©2018 Written By Benji James

Had to get back
To the pen and the pad
All this is driving me mad
Never sunk this low
Never felt this bad
I've tried washing away all these sins
I've tried burying all of these things
Feels like this room is closing in
All the memories are coming back (back)
I feel cold, alone and trapped (trapped)

Cleanse my soul oh, oh
Cleanse my soul oh, oh
Cleanse me, clean me out
Oh Lord, cleanse my soul
Cleanse me, cleanse me (oh yeah)

Clean me up, clear my head
Bring me to my feet again
I can't seem to walk
With all this weight
Hanging over my shoulders
Take me back
to those Glenmore Park days
Back to where and when I felt safe
There was more than enough love
And protection in the sky above

All these terrible feelings
Are like a collapsing ceiling
Wearing me down, crushing me under
If this keeps up, I'll be six feet under
Trying to dig my way out
Now I realise I need help
Now I see that I can't fight this alone
Now I need a little room to breathe
And let all of the fresh air
Clear all the black smoke in me

Cleanse my soul oh, oh
Cleanse my soul oh, oh
Cleanse me, clean me out
Oh Lord, cleanse my soul
Cleanse me, cleanse me (oh yeah)

Clean me up, clear my head
Bring me to my feet again
I can't seem to walk
With all this weight
Hanging over my shoulders
Take me back
to those Glenmore Park days
Back to where and when I felt safe
There was more than enough love
And protection in the sky above

They say so do you believe in angels?
Maybe there are some watching over you
Maybe there are some watching over me
But only if you have a little faith and just believe
But some people don't believe what they just can't see
I used to be a little sceptical myself
But I'm finding a little belief in spiritual help
That's why I'm asking them to

Cleanse my soul oh, oh
Cleanse my soul oh, oh
Cleanse me, clean me out
Oh Lord, cleanse my soul
Cleanse me, cleanse me (oh yeah)

Clean me up, clear my head
Bring me to my feet again
I can't seem to walk
With all this weight
Hanging over my shoulders
Take me back
to those Glenmore Park days
Back to where and when I felt safe
There was more than enough love
And protection in the sky above

©2017 Written By Benji James

I've been waging a war against hate
How was I to know this would be my fate
Open the doors to heaven’s gate
But more like I’ll be drenched in acid rain
And who the **** am I to complain?
It gives me the drive to make a name
I keep on swinging back
when I hit, I hit like a train
don’t need drugs to stimulate my brain
I've been walking around dragging a ball and chain
And I’d never been the guy that could just shoot to fame
I’m too caught up in my own ways
Arguing with myself for days upon days
I’m just nothing like those Jay’s and Kanye’s

This is my function
Can’t stop this blood rush and
I’ll always come up with something
To knock these trolls back down
Stepping up to the platform now
10 Feet above the ground
I rock these coliseums
I’ll break them down
I’m unstoppable
When my heads up in the clouds

A lot of people thought I lost my confidence
But isn't it a coincidence
that they believe in every word that I say
I know I wouldn't trust me.
if I was someone else.
Just don’t let that secret out
To the people who want to bring me down
And that’s nearly everybody in the crowd
They're trying to drown me out
No, I won’t stand for this
I’m cranking up the volume
Screaming through this microphone
You’ll never take me out
So shut your mouth

This is my function
Can’t stop this blood rush and
I’ll always come up with something
To knock these trolls back down
Stepping up to the platform now
10 Feet above the ground
I rock these coliseums
I’ll break them down
I’m unstoppable
When my heads up in the clouds

©2017 Written By Benji James

I can see heaven in your eyes
I want to feel the fire burn inside
I like it when our two worlds collide
The sensations of butterflies are on the rise
I'm ready for the ride
Open up to love be my guide
The passion stirs inside my mind
Follow your heart and you will glide
Watch this love tide rise
After you've been burned you're more wise
But trusting in this still applies
There's no comfort in goodbyes
I find comfort in your skies
Don’t let the sun set, stay on my side
I can see heaven in your eyes
I want to feel the fire burn inside
I like it when our two worlds collide.

©2018 Written By Benji James

2017 was a ***** of a year
Let go of everyone that I held dear
Wasn’t about to play second best
Did the right thing, oh yes
Had no time for the ones
That had no time for me
And I detect a hint of resentment
Yeah I wasn’t about to pretend
Of the ignorance that seemed
To be thrown my way

It’s alright
Better off without them
No need for regrets
What I did was for the best
Confident in those decisions
I must confess
No negativity in my life now I guess
But now I feel alone
That’s okay, I guess that is how it goes
This is just the life I’ve come to know

So much hurting, now a distant memory
Now I look around and all I feel is empty
Nobody left in sight
Removed everybody from my life
Was it all out of jealousy
Cuz they never seemed to have time for me
All I have left are shadows on my wall
Reflections in the mirror
Looking back at me
Is this how it feels to truely be lonely
It’s alright, I made that choice
Chose to listen to that inner voice
Whether it was right or wrong
I made my decisions
Now everyone I knew, they’re gone

It’s alright
Better off without them
No need for regrets
What I did was for the best
Confident in those decisions
I must confess
No negativity in my life now I guess
But now I feel alone
That’s okay, I guess that is how it goes
This is just the life I’ve come to know

Had a lot of time to reflect
Had a lot of time to listen
To all these inner thoughts
And I’ve got a brand new year
To turn all this around
Gotta get back out
I’m amongst the crowd
Find somebody new
Who makes the efforts
That I make for them
I know there out there
I’ll find them, I know I can

It’s alright
Better off without them
No need for regrets
What I did was for the best
Confident in those decisions
I must confess
No negativity in my life now I guess
But now I feel alone
That’s okay, I guess that is how it goes
This is just the life I’ve come to know

©2018 Written By Benji James

You've crossed that line
for the final time
try to keep my head held high
but you're dragging me down
I know it's apart of life
But it doesn't mean
I don't stand up for my rights
Everyones singing about there haters
But I'm not sure anybody reads
What I write onto this paper

I don't think anyone can even
stand my voice
but what I put into my songs
is one hundred percent emotion
it's not easy telling stories about me
people think you're a poet
But I can guarantee
Just about everything I say
it's the truth
Don't need to live a double life
to make this reach you

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

Cruising through the streets
in my Hyundai
Trying to figure out the next line
I want to make this the best rhyme
As you hang on these words
When I sing to you
You're still standing there
Trying to discover the truth
What is he saying
What does he mean
Is this really the way his feeling

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

See so much confusion
when I look at the crowd
But when I sing the melody
They scream my name out loud
Still can't figure out
where to go from here
everything drowns out
trying to be sincere
Can't stop pretending
that I don't care
Can't stop procrastinating
This time will be the last time
I share my air
When my lungs
are struggling to keep on running

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

When everything felt
like it was starting to go right
The world backed out
and left me in the sand to die
Hey, I said I'm going to okay
Don't go looking at me that way
I don't give a ****,
You don't need to say
It's going to be alright
There are plenty of fish in the sea
I can't let this emotion go to waste
I can't let her go
I can't watch her walk away
Yeah you can look me in the eyeball
tell me everything will be alright
Well I've got news for you
I was already dead
Never really knew the cost
Oh no there goes my soul
Lost the last part of dignity
Got nothing left to show

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

Guess this is all an illusion
Time to stop me from choosing
the path I'm going to be walking
Death or life, Better think twice
It's a big decision
I must have kept on forgetting
the drive that kept me going
for all of this time
I wonder if she ever looked back on her life
And felt something was missing
Did you realise that I'm not there
keeping you comfortable?
Yeah it's alright
There is no need to keep on fighting
Temptation get on the plane
Do another show, pretend I'm not alone
This is life, Don't want to grow old on my own
Should embrace it
Not sure if I'll even make it past thirty
It'll be a miracle if it wasn't real
but from I can see its crystal clear
I wasn't supposed to make it here

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

©2018 Written By Benji James

I'm a write this one in blood
Straight from the arteries
Of my heart, I'm stuck
In situation overload
Currents on overflow
And I can't fight this feeling
Killing me slowly
(On the inside)
There's something deep in my soul
I'm losing, being taken over
I've lost all function in my body
Guess I'll just lay here on the floor
Can't find the will
To keep on walking anymore
Maybe I should just crawl
Nah leave me here
In this dark room
With just these memories of you

Crown me the King of failure
I failed myself
For believing your lies
I failed myself for thinking
There could have ever been a us
Crown me the King of failure
For failing myself
For not listening to what was being, said in my head

I'm crushed
Crashing my dreams
Wanted so bad to believe
You were the one
I got crushed
Betrayed by emotions
All over again
I've been, crushed.
Yeah crushed
Crushed, by love

Oh, girl, I'm not even
The slightest bit mad
I'm just really sad
That you would lie like this to me
You said that you trusted me
You said there was no boundary between us
Remember when you said that
How could you let those words come out?
When none of this was true
I won't suffer in your silence
I won't let that hurt form into violence
And in your ignorance
Maybe I hurt
Maybe I fall
But I won't let this destroy my soul

Crown me the King of failure
I failed myself
For believing your lies
I failed myself for thinking
There could have ever been a us
Crown me the King of failure
For failing myself
For not listening to what was being, said in my head

I'm crushed
Crashing my dreams
Wanted so bad to believe
You were the one
I got crushed
Betrayed by emotions
All over again
I've been, crushed
Yeah crushed
Crushed, by love.

Oh gotta stay strong
Keep holding on
Find a way to move on
Yeah gotta keep moving forward
Keep looking straight
And don't lose focus
Come on I know you know this
Never wanted to give up
Never wanted to give in
Thought we could have worked out everything
But your choice has been made
You never wanted me to stay
Why could you never just say that to me
Why couldn't you just be completely honest with me

Crown me the King of failure
I failed myself
For believing your lies
I failed myself for thinking
There could have ever been a us
Crown me the King of failure
For failing myself
For not listening to what was being, said in my head

I'm crushed
Crashing my dreams
Wanted so bad to believe
You were the one
I got crushed
Betrayed by emotions
All over again
I've been, crushed
Yeah crushed
Crushed, by love.

It's time to let go
Shut the door
You left me all alone
To work this out on my own
Typing lines on my phone
At least you were kind enough
To leave me new material
Got so much I could write an album
You'll never see me drowning
These emotions that you left,
were only a challenge.
Just a test
You didn't want me at my worst
You'll never get me at my best
All right, oh yes
I'm getting over it
Yeah I'm moving past this

Crown me the King of failure
I failed myself
For believing your lies
I failed myself for thinking
There could have ever been a us
Crown me the King of failure
For failing myself
For not listening to what was being, said in my head

I'm crushed
Crashing my dreams
Wanted so bad to believe
You were the one
I got crushed
Betrayed by emotions
All over again
I've been, crushed
Yeah crushed
Crushed, by love.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Once in a lifetime
You'll meet that one in a million
And you can't help but drown
In such divine beauty and grace
Lost for words
with every move that she makes
Feels like I was falling deeper
This girl she was a keeper
Never thought I'd ever mistreat her

Oh honey can't stop
Crying over you
Straight from my heart
I'm breaking in two
Still, can't bear that I lost you
And memories of you
Are playing on repeat
All these thoughts
I can hardly sleep
Oh honey
Still crying over you

Everything fell,
went stone cold sour
Go through this situation
In my head for hours upon hours
How did we grow so close
Just to be torn apart
Words I should have left unspoken
We're put out in the open
And that's when we slid
into a constant fight
I'll never forget that night
Because I was so wrong,
And you were so right.

Oh honey can't stop
Crying over you
Straight from my heart
I'm breaking in two
Still, can't bear that I lost you
And memories of you
Are playing on repeat
All these thoughts
I can hardly sleep
Oh honey
Still crying over you

And it's here and now
I realise just how
much I messed up
If I could do it all again
You know I would
Let my insecurities
Get the better of me
Resulting in the hurtful words
I put you through
And I'll never forgive myself
for the hurt
I've caused inside of you
So much heartache
In watching your heartbreak

Oh honey can't stop
Crying over you
Straight from my heart
I'm breaking in two
Still, can't bear that I lost you
And memories of you
Are playing on repeat
All these thoughts
I can hardly sleep
Oh honey
Still crying over you

©2017 Written By Benji James

Memories bombard my eyes
All the wrongs caused in past times
Failures on parade
Wrong choices made
Too late
(Can't change them)
Why do I stop and reminisce
When all these things
Leave me feeling like this?

What has this life become?
When you're all alone
Crying in a parking lot...

Shots left me with a wounded heart
Just like a broken vase
Put together again
It's not the same
Thoughts of death plague my mind
Runs through my head too much of the time
Try to fix it with a rhyme, a line
Tried praying for a sign
All I see is empty skies
And this is why
I'd like to know

What has this life become?
When you're all alone
Crying in a parking lot...

Silhouettes dancing through these streets
Dark shadow stalking me
The man in the mirror
That I see
Is not the best version of me
I know it
Not trying to hide it
I'm an open book
Read each line
And you'll get a small glimpse
into my life
Through silver screens
You'll see all these feelings eating at me
Tell me

What has this life become?
When you're all alone
Crying in a parking lot...

©2018 Written By Benji James

Hey, I’m back
From floating in the depths
Of my imagination
Still walking through this life

To that final destination
Still picking up my shattered pride
Still learning to change elements 

To make myself feel better

I fight my insecurities, daily.
Depression comes creeping in, Daily
I fight through these mixed emotions, Daily
I crack a smile and jokes just to cope, daily

If this is our reality
Need to celebrate individuality
And all that we hide inside

Let it out,
Picture it in a frame, to display

This is just a story
Of struggles that we face every day
And that’s okay
Sometimes moments don’t go our way
But all these little things
Are the way we are made
It’s our personalities we convey
This is what makes us who we are.

People I don’t even know judge me, daily
Rumours fluctuate about me, daily
I fight my constant fears of failing, daily
I’ve been pushing myself to places
I thought I would never go, daily
I reminisce and simmer in memories of better days, daily
I dream I could be doing better things in life, daily
I’m stuck in all my typical ways of thinking, daily

If this is our reality
Need to celebrate individuality
And all that we hide inside

Let it out,
Picture it in a frame, to display

This is just a story
Of struggles that we face every day
And that’s okay
Sometimes moments don’t go our way
But all these little things
Are the way we are made
It’s our personalities we convey
This is what makes us who we are.

I still get jealous, daily
Can’t help thinking
how I could have been a better man
then who you’re with now...daily
Still, flow through ideas,
of all the things we could have been, daily
Still crosses my mind
All the ways that I’ve let people down, daily
Still shake, still tremble, still scared
I’ll never be good enough, daily
Still fear rejection, daily
Still waking up, daily

If this is our reality
Need to celebrate individuality
And all that we hide inside

Let it out,
Picture it in a frame, to display

This is just a story
Of struggles that we face every day
And that’s okay
Sometimes moments don’t go our way
But all these little things
Are the way we are made
It’s our personalities we convey
This is what makes us who we are.

I can be the one who tells you,
You’re looking beautiful, daily.
I can be the one who opens you up
To feel real love, daily.
I’ll be the one who’ll make you smile daily.
I still find good moments in bad days, daily.
We can fight our fears bravely, daily
I can give you hope, daily
I can shine a little light I hold inside, daily
I still write lines, daily
I promise I’ll strive to be,
The best me I can be, daily.

If this is our reality
Need to celebrate individuality
And all that we hide inside

Let it out,
Picture it in a frame, to display

This is just a story
Of struggles that we face every day
And that’s okay
Sometimes moments don’t go our way
But all these little things
Are the way we are made
It’s our personalities we convey
This is what makes us who we are.

©2018 Written By Benji James

Hey, I’m back
From floating in the depths
Of my imagination
Still walking through this life
To that final destination
Still picking up my shattered pride
Still learning to change elements
To make myself feel better
I fight my insecurities, daily.
Depression comes creeping in, Daily
I fight through these mixed emotions, Daily
I crack a smile and jokes just to cope, daily

If this is our reality
Need to celebrate individuality
And all that we hide inside
Let it out,
Picture it in a frame, to display
This is just a story
Of struggles that we face every day
And that’s okay
Sometimes moments don’t go our way
But all these little things
Are the way we are made
It’s our personalities we convey
This is what makes us who we are.

People I don’t even know judge me, daily
Rumours fluctuate about me, daily
I fight my constant fears of failing, daily
I’ve been pushing myself to places
I thought I would never go, daily
I reminisce and simmer in memories of better days, daily
I dream I could be doing better things in life, daily
I’m stuck in all my typical ways of thinking, daily

If this is our reality
Need to celebrate individuality
And all that we hide inside
Let it out,
Picture it in a frame, to display
This is just a story
Of struggles that we face every day
And that’s okay
Sometimes moments don’t go our way
But all these little things
Are the way we are made
It’s our personalities we convey
This is what makes us who we are.

I still get jealous, daily
Can’t help thinking
how I could have been a better man
then who you’re with now...daily
Still, flow through ideas,
of all the things we could have been, daily
Still crosses my mind
All the ways that I’ve let people down, daily
Still shake, still tremble, still scared, daily
I’ll never be good enough, daily
Still fear rejection, daily
Still waking up, daily

If this is our reality
Need to celebrate individuality
And all that we hide inside
Let it out,
Picture it in a frame, to display
This is just a story
Of struggles that we face every day
And that’s okay
Sometimes moments don’t go our way
But all these little things
Are the way we are made
It’s our personalities we convey
This is what makes us who we are.

I can be the one who tells you,
You’re looking beautiful, daily.
I can be the one who opens you up
To feel real love, daily.
I’ll be the one who’ll make you smile daily.
I still find good moments in bad days, daily.
We can fight our fears bravely, daily
I can give you hope, daily
I can shine a little light I hold inside, daily
I still write lines, daily
I promise I’ll strive to be,
The best me I can be, daily.

If this is our reality
Need to celebrate individuality
And all that we hide inside
Let it out,
Picture it in a frame, to display
This is just a story
Of struggles that we face every day
And that’s okay
Sometimes moments don’t go our way
But all these little things
Are the way we are made
It’s our personalities we convey
This is what makes us who we are.

©2018 Written By Benji James

Since when did life become this hard?
When did this battle start?
It felt like I had come so far,
When did this hurt become a scar?

Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then I think.
Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then just a bit.
So damaged, (damaged, damaged)

I can hear echoes in my head,
Screams from the darkness underneath my bed.
I'm trapped in chains, caged in my brain.
A fire of rage, a storm of rain.
A soul to claim, can't escape.

Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then I think.
Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then just a bit.
So damaged, (damaged, damaged)

This river of blood,
is like a raging flood,
tearing apart the arteries,
In my heart.
All this pain, is like a train,
crashing through my veins.

Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then I think.
Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then just a bit.
So damaged, (damaged, damaged)

The suffering, is suffocating my soul
I'm shaking, breaking
Think this is the breakdown,
They were talking about.
And now I can't get out,
Of this room full of doubt.

Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then I think.
Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then just a bit.
So damaged, (damaged, damaged)

©2017 Written By Benji James

Look who's back 
with a lyrical attack
One to divide all nations 
But I'm trapped in a game
Where I can't even make a name
Isn't it a shame 
Still looking for someone to blame
What's the reason 
that keeps me from making music
Guess it's time I came to claim 
What is rightfully mine 
I've been down a hard road
A bandit in time
And holding me back 
That's is a crime
By the grace of God
I've got to give all I've got
And maybe that isn't a lot
But you think that will stop me
I think not
I had to come back
With brand new tactics
Cuz lets face it 
I've let this go on for far too long
And to not do anything 
would just be wrong 
It's time to build an army 
Come back strong 
Cuz I've been waiting 
For a moment for far too long 
Yep guess I got it going on now
Anticipation is starting to build 
And I may not have much *** appeal
But that doesn't mean 
I can't make you squeal 
Say my name, 
ain't no more chains
Holding me down
Got my gun reloaded
Back for another round
And maybe you scratched 
my name In the side
Of a piece of shrapnel 
Try break my pride
Think I give a **** what you think 
**** life's not bliss
Living on the edge of a knife like this
come along for a ride 
Inside of my mind 
Come through the darkness, blind
That's not enough to keep me 
Off of my grind
The stars realigned 
For a person with passion 
I'm back on the rise 
No natural disaster can stop me
No bullet can **** me 
No razor blade cuts will scar me 
Sometimes things cut deep
But I'm impenetrable 
After everything I've been through 
Won't burn through the pages
Don't lie, you know I'm dangerous 
Not afraid to dance on the tables
Cuz I've been through it all
Ain't nothing gonna phase me no more

©2017 Written By Benji James

Winds whisper through shaking leaves
As dandelions dance around you and me
In the autumn breeze
My hearts an open ocean
Yeah, you’ll see,
like waves caress the sand
We’re connected hand in hand
With you, that is where I stand
I’m proud to be called your man
Sunset skies reflected in your eyes
I’ve been falling for you
Baby, I’ve fallen for you
Her soul is beaming through
I feel the chemistry build up inside

Sensations tingle from deep within
Just like air need to breathe you in
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Fill me with hope, fill me with strength
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Just like air need to breathe you in
Fill me with passion, fill me with love
I’ve got you girl, and that is enough
Fill me with light, fill me with joy
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Just like air need to breathe you in

Gotta song coming on,
Music in my bones
hearts synchronised
to a beat all their own
Just like stars, the nights are ours
Just like rain, you give life to me
You help me grow
You’re the knowledge
I need to know
The power you’re sending
From your magnetic connection
Electrified, re-energised,
vital signs come alive

Sensations tingle from deep within
Just like air need to breathe you in
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Fill me with hope, fill me with strength
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Just like air need to breathe you in
Fill me with passion, fill me with love
I’ve got you girl, and that is enough
Fill me with light, fill me with joy
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Just like air need to breathe you in

Beauty is found
Wherever you’re around
With style through grace
Your sweet cherry lips taste
The more I get of you
The more I get of us
Gets me hooked like a drug
You’re the bandage on my scars
I admire all that you are
Need you at my side
For the rest of time
I see us forever intertwined
Forever I want you to be mine
I see it in you, I feel it in me
I tell you all the things you need
Together we’re better
This is my never-ending love letter
For you

Sensations tingle from deep within
Just like air need to breathe you in
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Fill me with hope, fill me with strength
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Just like air need to breathe you in
Fill me with passion, fill me with love
I’ve got you girl, and that is enough
Fill me with light, fill me with joy
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Just like air need to breathe you in

©2018 Written By Benji James

Winds whisper through shaking leaves
As dandelions dance around you and me
In the autumn breeze
My hearts an open ocean
Yeah, you’ll see,
like waves caress the sand
We’re connected hand in hand
With you, that is where I stand
I’m proud to be called your man
Sunset skies reflected in your eyes
I’ve been falling for you
Baby, I’ve fallen for you
Her soul is beaming through
I feel the chemistry build up inside

Sensations tingle from deep within
Just like air need to breathe you in
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Fill me with hope, fill me with strength
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Just like air need to breathe you in
Fill me with passion, fill me with love
I’ve got you girl, and that is enough
Fill me with light, fill me with joy
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Just like air need to breathe you in

Gotta song coming on,
Music in my bones
hearts synchronised
to a beat all their own
Just like stars, the nights are ours
Just like rain, you give life to me
You help me grow
You’re the knowledge
I need to know
The power you’re sending
From your magnetic connection
Electrified, re-energised,
vital signs come alive

Sensations tingle from deep within
Just like air need to breathe you in
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Fill me with hope, fill me with strength
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Just like air need to breathe you in
Fill me with passion, fill me with love
I’ve got you girl, and that is enough
Fill me with light, fill me with joy
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Just like air need to breathe you in

Beauty is found
Wherever you’re around
With style through grace
Your sweet cherry lips taste
The more I get of you
The more I get of us
Gets me hooked like a drug
You’re the bandage on my scars
I admire all that you are
Need you at my side
For the rest of time
I see us forever intertwined
Forever I want you to be mine
I see it in you, I feel it in me
I tell you all the things you need
Together we’re better
This is my never-ending love letter
For you

Sensations tingle from deep within
Just like air need to breathe you in
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Fill me with hope, fill me with strength
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Just like air need to breathe you in
Fill me with passion, fill me with love
I’ve got you girl, and that is enough
Fill me with light, fill me with joy
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Just like air need to breathe you in

©2018 Written By Benji James

All dressed up
With nowhere to go
A phone full of numbers
With no one to call
Guess I should have replied
To all the messages I got sent
Instead, I shut everyone out
That when you pay the price
In behind these lonely eyes
Lies dormant emotions inside
Ready to awaken from this slumber
Oh how I wish I could rewind
Make better decision in my life

Sympathy ain't found here
You made your own decisions
It should be crystal clear
Why you're all alone
Staring at your shadow
Upon the wall
Hoping, waiting for somebody to call

That is when you hear
Just deal with it
No, I won't give in
Just deal with it
Can't shake this
Sinking feeling
I won't just deal with it
I won't give in
I'll keep fighting
till my last breath
I won't just deal with it
Deal with it

Late night drives
Just don't work like they used to
I need someone till fills this void
There's a hole in my soul
Looking for a spark
Looking for a jumpstart
To reenergize my heart
There's something in my mind
Trying to stay optimistic
That it'll all be okay
But there's still no sign
Of an end to all this rain
There still no cure
To this pain.

Sympathy ain't found here
You made your own decisions
It should be crystal clear
Why you're all alone
Staring at your shadow
Upon the wall
Hoping, waiting for somebody to call

That is when you hear
Just deal with it
No, I won't give in
Just deal with it
Can't shake this
Sinking feeling
I won't just deal with it
I won't give in
I'll keep fighting
till my last breath
I won't just deal with it
Deal with it

They say home is where the heart is
Never has a line ever been so true
That why I'm out in the darkness
Searching for you
Looking for a little light
To brighten my sky
Somehow I hold onto hope
Everything's gonna work out right
Somehow I figure
I'm gonna find you
At just the right time

Sympathy ain't found here
You made your own decisions
It should be crystal clear
Why you're all alone
Staring at your shadow
Upon the wall
Hoping, waiting for somebody to call

That is when you hear
Just deal with it
No, I won't give in
Just deal with it
Can't shake this
Sinking feeling
I won't just deal with it
I won't give in
I'll keep fighting
till my last breath
I won't just deal with it
Deal with it

©2017 Written By Benji James

Ever prayed for a sign
For God to prove his alive
I have, that's when someone
Unexpected came back into my life
Wouldn't that make you think
Wouldn't that make you wonder
And now I've got a lot
I need to say to you
Gonna keep it simple
Gonna keep it short
Hope you don't mind
here are my thoughts

Dear God
We need to talk
You keep taking
The best of us
And tearing us down
Dear God
We need to talk
You keep knocking
The best of us
Straight to the floor
Why do you keep doing this
Don't want to see any more

Oh my lord
Are you listening now
Do you really have a plan
Or are you just watching
The world like a play
Or is this life
just some kind of game
Because I'm looking for answers
Need to change the world
If you're all powerful
I've got something to say

Dear God
We need to talk
You keep taking
The best of us
And tearing us down
Dear God
We need to talk
You keep knocking
The best of us
Straight to the floor
Why do you keep doing this
Don't want to see any more

I've got a vision in mind
Oh Lord tell me
Have you seen a future
I want to see through my eyes
Come on, you sent me a sign
Now just give me
A little more of your time
I'm looking for answers
To all of these questions
Oh Lord, can you hear me?
Tell me why I need to know
Where am I meant to go

Dear God
We need to talk
You keep taking
The best of us
And tearing us down
Dear God
We need to talk
You keep knocking
The best of us
Straight to the floor
Why do you keep doing this
Don't want to see any more

©2017 Written By Benji James

Lost my way, Lost my life
Lost the girl
I think about at night
There's nothing for me to say
Baby, I should have never
let you walk away
I'm hurting like never before
There are no words to describe
what I feel anymore

I'm struggling
to keep my heart running
I'm struggling
To give everything
Because either way, I'll never win

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

Poured my hear, my soul
into everything I did for you
Shattered every piece of love
I had for you
I remember back to when
you screamed my name
and when I heard you say it passionately
yeah those memories are still killing me

my broken heart lies beating
on the floor
Not sure I can keep ripping pictures
off the wall
And I'm all out of options
Can't talk at all
Can't see anything in you
no more
Oh babe is the love you had for me
all gone

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

I'm still in love with you
I think about you every day
it hurts so bad every time
you look my way
I will never forget the past memories
I will never forget the words you said to me
the sweetness of your voice
the heart that left me with no choice
but to let you into my life
baby, I'm hooked on you
There's nothing that can pull me away from you
I will still give you my heart
until death do us part

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

Oh my heart
still skips a beat for you
oh my love
still burns for you
so caught up in what we had
feeling there's nothing left
just makes me sad
can't stand to think
we've lost everything we had
Baby, I'm afraid
I can never let you go
You're my angel, you're my life
the light that still burns bright
and I can't stand to see you go
so ill do what it takes to fight for you

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

The sweetness of your voice
The heart that left me with no choice
but to let you in my life
Baby, I'm hooked on you
There's nothing that can
pull me away from you
I will still give you my heart
until death do us part

©2018 Written By Benji James

I won't be satisfied
Till something takes my life
Too many pills I've been prescribed
To many times I take more than I should
Something's gonna get me before my time
But that's not enough to fulfil my desire
I'm standing on a ledge on the side of a bridge may be
This might be the thing to quench this thirst
The adrenaline's pumping through my veins
My mind has been declared insane
But I won't be satisfied
Till I find a way off this ride
Cuz I've lost all desire to keep on fighting
I've just run out of thunder and lightning
Something's gonna get me before my time
Maybe super high speeds through deserted streets
Just hope I don't end up
Running into a tree
I'm still lost within my conscience
I've seen too many people come and go
Maybe I'm next to end up the mess
Maybe I'm next to be blessed
But something's gonna get me in the end
I don't need to pretend
I don't need another reality check
Cuz I know I'm getting reckless
And I know people couldn't care less
I don't feel the need to impress
I don't feel the same as I did
Something's gonna get me
I can feel it in my bones
This downward spirals coming to a close
Something inside me knows
There's not long left to go
Before everything in me explodes
Before everything shuts down from all the blows
Something in me knows
There's not much time left to go

©2017 Written By Benji James

When you left me
You cut me deep
Shredded my heart
Into pieces
Really hit me hard
In my feelings
With that I wasn’t
So good at dealing
I was left in a mess
Found I had issues
I need to address
So that I can
Be a better man

Still think of you
Every night and every day
You gave me a wake up call
Had to lose it all, had to fall
It’s not so easy without you
I hope that you know
I still deeply love you

Even after the fights
And all the hurtful words
I still find myself
Missing you,
holding you deep inside my mind
Took you walking away
To realise i didn’t commit
In the ways that i should have

Still think of you
Every night and every day
You gave me a wake up call
Had to lose it all, had to fall
It’s not so easy without you
I hope that you know
I still deeply love you

Thoughts of you
Keep plaguing my head
And all the things
That could have been
All those place we wanted to see
All those things that can never be
All I can do is reminisce
And think about what might have been
If we had worked it out
We’re nothing more
than strangers now

Still think of you
Every night and every day
You gave me a wake up call
Had to lose it all, had to fall
It’s not so easy without you
I hope that you know
I still deeply love you

©2024 Written By Benji James

I saw a tear rolling down her face
I asked if you were alright
She said that she was fine
Somehow she always finds
The inner strength to carry on
She knows she's always
got a shoulder she can lean on
But somehow she composes herself to stay strong
Every time I see her she's smiling
Why's it feel like on the inside she's dying
Why does she hold back the secrets she's hiding

She's got demons
Yeah she's got scars
She's carried herself this far
She won't let another
Carry her problems
She's got a mindset to solve them
The demons she wants to control them

She knows she could tell
her friend's anything
But she chooses to hold it inside
Deal with it in the dead of night
She holds her pillow tight as she cries
She has bad decisions and regrets
She doesn't wanna share
She turns music on
To try help her sleep
But she lays wide awake
Thoughts won't let her sleep
She knows she's in deep

She's got demons
Yeah she's got scars
She's carried herself this far
She won't let another
Carry her problems
She's got a mindset to solve them
The demons she wants to control them

She's, spent the night
looking at stars
Making wishes
Skimming pebbles across the lake
She's afraid of what people say
Somehow she still puts on a brave face
She's looking for the sun
To brighten up her day
Then again she likes the smell of rain
Let these emotions just wash away

She's got demons
Yeah she's got scars
She's carried herself this far
She won't let another
Carry her problems
She's got a mindset to solve them
The demons she wants to control them

©2017 Written By Benji James

Sitting in the seat
Tapping my feet
Cuz I got the beat
To take to the street
I'm Hungary as can be
Think I need something to eat
All this waiting
Has made me so starving
The other patients
can hear my stomach grumbling

Oh waiting in the Doctor surgery
Air filled with sickness germs
Just gotta hope you don't
get what they got
Cuz it's not much fun
Lying in bed
With a sore head

His gonna dissect my toe
But it won't stop my flow
I can see that they know
I've got so much to show
But waiting really blows
Wish this nail wasn't ingrown
It ***** so much
I cause such a fuss
Ew is that ****
Nah I kid it is blood Ah

Oh waiting in the Doctor surgery
Air filled with sickness germs
Just gotta hope you don't
get what they got
Cuz it's not much fun
Lying in bed
With a sore head

I'm gonna scream like a *****
When he cuts into my skin
Cuz I don't like sharp things
They hurt oh ****
I'm going to die
Don't stick that in my eye
The lights to bright
Here my heart goes bump bump
To the sound of a drum
Wait where did that come from
Ahh stick out my tongue
Does my breath smell fresh?

Oh waiting in the Doctor surgery
Air filled with sickness germs
Just gotta hope you don't
get what they got
Cuz it's not much fun
Lying in bed
With a sore head

©2017 Written By Benji James

In the dead of night
These lines come to life
This is the legacy
That I leave behind
Am I awake or blind
I can't seem to find
The light on the other side
Am I, am I alright
Still holding on tight
Know a little, still, don't know a lot
Is this the way, I keep going off
Think I'm lost
I keep going off
I think I'm lost
I think I'm lost

Lost in the deep end
I think I might be drowning
Too much, too late
I've gone a little overboard
Trying to float
Keep my head above the water
Seas are getting rough
Do I say too much, too soon
Suffocating,
air leaving me like an open balloon
I've had enough of the strangers
Messing in my brain
Ever live in life
Wishing you were dead
Late nights in bed
I'm out of my head
It's not right,
give a little, lose a lot
That's how it goes

In the dead of night
These lines come to life
This is the legacy
That I leave behind
Am I awake or blind
I can't seem to find
The light on the other side
Am I, am I alright
Still holding on tight
Know a little, still, don't know a lot
Is this the way, I keep going off
Think I'm lost
I keep going off
I think I'm lost
I think I'm lost

Spill a little blood,
give into the screams
Frightened by these horrific scenes
Behind the silver TV screen
Looking for a script
I could apply to life
Hate not knowing where I'm going in this life
Have you got a plan
That maybe I could apply to mine
Always need a way out
Another formulated escape
I think I need to get out of here
Before I lose myself
Turn into something else

In the dead of night
These lines come to life
This is the legacy
That I leave behind
Am I awake or blind
I can't seem to find
The light on the other side
Am I, am I alright
Still holding on tight
Know a little, still, don't know a lot
Is this the way, I keep going off
Think I'm lost
I keep going off
I think I'm lost
I think I'm lost

There are gremlins in the closet
Monsters underneath my bed
Something invading my skies
Can't see what it is
Don't know what it is
Voices keep whispering in my ear
Not sure I want to do
What it is I hear
Something just sunk inside
Think my heart could stop at anytime
Pains in my chest
Vital signs, I'm still alive
Somethings out there
Coming for me
Reapers here R.I.P

In the dead of night
These lines come to life
This is the legacy
That I leave behind
Am I awake or blind
I can't seem to find
The light on the other side
Am I, am I alright
Still holding on tight
Know a little, still, don't know a lot
Is this the way, I keep going off
Think I'm lost
I keep going off
I think I'm lost
I think I'm lost

©2017 Written By Benji James

Just another night
You on my mind
I can hardly sleep
Keep running through
these thoughts
How did we end up here
And I took all the blame
But life without you
It isn't the same
Keep hoping I'll see your name
Light up my screen again

Don't give up
Hold on for love
Got to stay strong
Don't give up
This time she's the one
Can't give in
Nobody else gives you this feeling
Can't give up on us
Can't give up on our love

You said we were fate
I want to believe it
You said we had no boundaries
Think maybe I might have found it
Possibly crossed that line
Looks like we aren't gonna make it
through this situation this time
Looks like I've messed up
And now we are beyond repair
Seems you've  been moving on
Leaving me shattered all alone

Don't give up
Hold on for love
Got to stay strong
Don't give up
This time she's the one
Can't give in
Nobody else gives you this feeling
Can't give up on us
Can't give up on our love

I'm hurting baby
Miserable without you
Can't seem to think
Except for how I lost you
You were all I had
And then I went
and ****** up real bad
I'm looking for a sign
Making wishes that everything
will turn out right
I'm hoping and praying
you'll walk back into my life

Don't give up
Hold on for love
Got to stay strong
Don't give up
This time she's the one
Can't give in
Nobody else gives you this feeling
Can't give up on us
Can't give up on our love

©2017 Written By Benji James

Hey, what are you waiting for?
Me to walk around with an 'S'
On my chest
Told you this boy will never fly again
You tore all the pieces of dignity
Out of me
You've changed all the colour
Into black and white
Tell me do you feel proud?
Knowing how you've trampled
Somebody into the ground
Tell me do you feel proud?
And no this isn't about the girls
It's about all the people who tear
So hard into me and my art
This is about killing off the rumours
You've gone and started on me
And don't you see?
How they have been killing me softly
Ruining my reputation
In amongst all the adulation
Of all the allegations.

Are you just gonna stand there?
Are you just gonna watch me fall?
Can't believe they just stood by
You didn't even reach out your hands
But every time I see you
I still lose it again and again and again
How could I forgive them so easily?
Why did they just stand there?
Tell me why
Oh tell me why
They just watched me fall.

Don't you hate it!
when everything seems to disappear
Don't you hate it!
That when what you hear is not what you said
Don't you hate it!
When everybody is speculating about something
They know nothing about
Oh god, I hate it!
When your betrayed by the one you trust
Oh god, I hate it!
When I see they've been spilling lies
Oh god, I hate it!
That it kills me on the inside
Oh don't you hate it
Oh don't you hate it

Right now you can feel all the trouble
Stirring inside of my mind
Right now you can see all the memories
Burning on the outside
Right now you can smell
All the fear in the air
Right now you can hear
My heart beating faster and faster
Oh what this is just a disaster
And it's escalating
This needs investigation
Oh these people just keep on interacting
I'm supposed to be the inspiration
And the downfall is just another speculation
Of human interference inside of my life
And I'm supposed to be so dedicated
To changing all the sceptics
Who believe all the lies
I am getting entrapped by my own creation
Somehow I went and lost the motivation
To keep fighting all the critics
All the ones who thought they knew the truth

Are you just gonna stand there?
Are you just gonna watch me fall?
Can't believe they just stood by
You didn't even reach out your hands
But every time I see you
I still lose it again and again and again
How could I forgive them so easily?
Why did they just stand there?
Tell me why
Oh tell me why
They just watched me fall.

Don't you hate it!
when everything seems to disappear
Don't you hate it!
That when what you hear is not what you said
Don't you hate it!
When everybody is speculating about something
They know nothing about
Oh god, I hate it!
When your betrayed by the one you trust
Oh god, I hate it!
When I see they've been spilling lies
Oh god, I hate it!
That it kills me on the inside
Oh don't you hate it
Oh don't you hate it

Oh note to self you've gotta keep standing up
You've got to push back the ones that start
To point the fingers at you
Say your the blame for all of this
Say your the one who lied and cheated
And you cry and feel so defeated
Especially when what's going around
Just ain't true.
All the rumours that have spread
Have started from nothing
It starts to show that it's taking its toll
Your trying to protect yourself
While trying to shield everybody else
Tell me how targeting people
Over the simple things
Like all the gossip
You hear through your job.
And it's just not what should go on
Oh feel the shame
Because soon your gonna feel the effects
Of what comes from the end of this.

Are you just gonna stand there?
Are you just gonna watch me fall?
Can't believe they just stood by
You didn't even reach out your hands
But every time I see you
I still lose it again and again and again
How could I forgive them so easily?
Why did they just stand there?
Tell me why
Oh tell me why
They just watched me fall.

Don't you hate it!
when everything seems to disappear
Don't you hate it!
That when what you hear is not what you said
Don't you hate it!
When everybody is speculating about something
They know nothing about
Oh god, I hate it!
When your betrayed by the one you trust
Oh god, I hate it!
When I see they've been spilling lies
Oh god, I hate it!
That it kills me on the inside
Oh don't you hate it
Oh don't you hate it

I've heard all the words they've said
They can't separate the facts from the lies
And that's why they've just crossed the line
Starting something they know nothing about
Just declared war, Those people know who they are
And there the ones who'll be taken down first
Because what goes around comes around
Karma's gonna strike you first
And there's is no need to pray and wish
Because everybody,
Oh, everybody, all ready knows this
Just hope the curse doesn't get worse
You should have just shut your mouth
Now we'll just have to wait and see
What things happen from here
Oh prepare for the fall
Because I can already here the karma call

Are you just gonna stand there?
Are you just gonna watch me fall?
Can't believe they just stood by
You didn't even reach out your hands
But every time I see you
I still lose it again and again and again
How could I forgive them so easily?
Why did they just stand there?
Tell me why
Oh tell me why
They just watched me fall.

Don't you hate it!
when everything seems to disappear
Don't you hate it!
That when what you hear is not what you said
Don't you hate it!
When everybody is speculating about something
They know nothing about
Oh god, I hate it!
When your betrayed by the one you trust
Oh god, I hate it!
When I see they've been spilling lies
Oh god, I hate it!
That it kills me on the inside
Oh don't you hate it
Oh don't you hate it

©2017 Written By Benji James

My eyes are running black
The sky is starting to crack
My back is starting to ache
As my hands start to shake
My vocals are starting to strain
I'll keep pushing through the pain
I'll keep making my way
Writing my own fate
All these tears won't wash the memories away
I'll keep holding on, Stand strong
Proving I can handle anything that goes wrong

No, I won't fight back the tears
No, I won't hold back what I think
I've held it in for far too long
I'm letting it all loose
No more weight on my shoulders
Need to be a little bit braver
A little bit bolder
After all the mistakes I made
I feel a little bit wiser

Don't give in (To all your pain)
Don't throw (Everyone you love away)
I'm starting to see
You don't need to do everything
On your own
You don't have to always feel alone
I'm not just another shadow
on the floor
I'm starting to see the ones
Who've earned my love
And I'm starting to see
I get it back in return

You've been here all along
To help carry the load I bear
You've always been there
To guide me with your hand
And all the love we have, We share
You plus me have been through every tragedy
It's taken all this time to learn
You can help me breathe
Tell me everything you see in me
I'll let down the walls
Take a look at all the flaws
And all the hurt that was all my fault
But you see where perfection lies
and sincerity that is trying to hide
the broken piece to my heart you'll find
Because I want you to be classed as mine

No, I won't fight back the tears
No, I won't hold back what I think
I've held it in for far too long
I'm letting it all loose
No more weight on my shoulders
Need to be a little bit braver
A little bit bolder
After all the mistakes I made
I feel a little bit wiser

Don't give in (To all your pain)
Don't throw (Everyone you love away)
I'm starting to see
You don't need to do everything
On your own
You don't have to always feel alone
I'm not just another shadow
on the floor
I'm starting to see the ones
Who've earned my love
And I'm starting to see
I get it back in return

You're here in every waking moment
Struggle with me through every problem
You know every scar that is marked on my heart
You've wiped every tear that I cry
You said I was your soldier who makes you smile
And all the battles that we have faced
Have carried us to a higher and safer place
In your arms I know I'm safe
And no matter what darkness lies inside
I know you'll protect me with your life
As will I
Because baby you're my kryptonite
You could try counting all the stars
But you can't count all the ways
In which I love you
I'll never put another above you
Because everything I am
Is everything you gave me
And I won't throw that away for anybody
Cuz you are my everybody
Your the one and only
With you, I could never feel lonely
There was only room for two
Honey that was me plus you.

No, I won't fight back the tears
No, I won't hold back what I think
I've held it in for far too long
I'm letting it all loose
No more weight on my shoulders
Need to be a little bit braver
A little bit bolder
After all the mistakes I made
I feel a little bit wiser

Don't give in (To all your pain)
Don't throw (Everyone you love away)
I'm starting to see
You don't need to do everything
On your own
You don't have to always feel alone
I'm not just another shadow
on the floor
I'm starting to see the ones
Who've earned my love
And I'm starting to see
I get it back in return

©2017 Written By Benji James

Picking myself back up
from the floor
Back on my feet
One foot in front
Of the other
I'm learning to walk again
Step by step
I'm learning that I can dance
I promise
I won't mark my arms
Never let another girl
Break my heart
Never let another
Stray me from my path

I won't stop
Until I reach an encore
I want more
Never gonna stop
Until I reach an encore
I want it all
Give me more, give me more
Top of the charts
Yeah I want it all
Not gonna stop until I reach my encore

All I need is to find redemption
For all these failed mistakes
I've found a way to clean the slate
I know now I can refill my plate
Destined to be great
I still haven't figured out my fate
But I'm learning a little every day
And I'm now figuring out
I'm heading the right way
Sorry for all of my complaints
I know not being perfect is okay
Thanks to all of those
who just accept my flaws and faults
This is who I am
I really hope you understand

I won't stop
Until I reach an encore
I want more
Never gonna stop
Until I reach an encore
I want it all
Give me more, give me more
Top of the charts
Yeah I want it all
Not gonna stop until I reach my encore

I promise
I won't create any more scars
I'm learning to trust in love
And I don't mean the relationship thing
I mean love,
straight from the heart
The one that accepts you
for who you are
And I've been laying all alone
In the dark trying to hold on
And now a light is burning bright
And I'm starting to read
in between the lines
It says everything's
going to be alright
Yeah everything's
going to be just fine

I won't stop
Until I reach an encore
I want more
Never gonna stop
Until I reach an encore
I want it all
Give me more, give me more
Top of the charts
Yeah I want it all
Not gonna stop until I reach my encore

©2017 Written By Benji James

Look who is going around
Trying to capture my attention now
Mean to tell me you still ain't figured this out?
better tell you my side of the story now
Just so everyone can see how
You went and lost me the way you did
The reason I've been ignoring all this ****
Oh, you remember what you said?
Can you feel it's presence in your head?
You said you'd moved on (So long, So long)
And you blamed me for all the things that went wrong,
In your last relationship, Yeah you did
I was part of the reason you broke up with him,
That is what you said, So I did the logical thing
I went my separate way
And now your acting like the victim, ouch.
Seems this situation is spiralling out of my control
but there is more left to be told

Does it hurt?
Does it hurt?
That I don't need you now
Does it hurt?
Does it hurt?
That I don't need you now

Yeah maybe it's a little tragic
But even best friends say goodbye
You went and betrayed my trust
I was left to pick up the dust
And maybe it's a little tragic
But even best friends say goodbye

Yeah you showed your brand new friend
Every **** message I ever sent
Why not just stab me in the back
Best friends don't act like that
I took the blame
And I took the fall
I stuck up for you on the freaking phone
I told your ex and that *****,
to leave you the **** alone,
I stood up for you
And when you couldn't see us getting together,
You moved on, Yes you left
So I went my own road
Paved my way
to a new life and place I made
with my new friend's I have made
I feel completely safe

Does it hurt?
Does it hurt?
That I don't need you now
Does it hurt?
Does it hurt?
That I don't need you now

Yeah maybe it's a little tragic
But even best friends say goodbye
You went and betrayed my trust
I was left to pick up the dust
And maybe it's a little tragic
But even best friends say goodbye

You went and found somebody else
It's time to let go of the past
We both walked separate paths
He needs your all, And I don't
I've got everybody that I need
I didn't like you like that, I never did
I knew we weren't meant to be
It's time to get this out in the open
Yeah clear the air
Breathe in deep
It's time to move on (Really move on)
You said you moved on
So just move on (So long, So long)

Yeah maybe this is tragic
But even best friends say goodbye
You went and betrayed my trust
But I'll cherish the memories in my heart
I was left to pick up the dust
So I did, you left me standing here
So I walked the other way
Yeah this sounds tragic
Sometimes even best friends say goodbye
Even best friends have to say goodbye
It's time to say goodbye
(Goodbye, goodbye)

©2017 Written By Benji James

Met her up in the club
Drinking her pineapple schnapps
I took a chance,
asked her for a dance, she said yes
So I said take my hand
from the moment we met
I just knew we would connect
Felt the sparks fly 
between you and I
She gives me that electrical feel
Shocked to the heart 
The blood rush starts 
One taste of her strawberry kiss
From her red cherry coloured lips
To the sweet caress from her fingertips 
It had me feeling like this,

I love every little thing about you
I love every little thing that you do
(You know it)
I want your loving
Yeah baby it's true (You know it)
I can't get you off of my mind girl
(You know it, you know it)

Come and get on it
I want it (You know that I do)
Your bubble gum tongue
Your passion, your love
The connection we feel (So surreal)
Come on get on
We want it, I see that you do
(I know your feeling it to) Girl

It's the way that we sweat
In the passion, in ***
Out of breath
By the end
Fall asleep in your bed
Her head on my chest
You know that feeling
It's the best,

I love every little thing about you
I love every little thing that you do
(You know it)
I want your loving
Yeah baby it's true (You know it)
I can't get you off of my mind girl
(You know it, you know it)

Come and get on it
I want it (You know that I do)
Your bubble gum tongue
Your passion, your love
The connection we feel (So surreal)
Come on get on it
We want it, I see that you do
(I know your feeling it to) Girl

She likes it when,
I run my fingers through her hair
I see your feeling the attraction we share
Yeah we both feel it there
I can feel your body heat on mine
Yeah you know that's something I like
You know you got the look girl
You know you got me hooked girl
You know we got it good girl
Couldn't have made it any better
If I threw a wishing stone
Into a wishing well
She knows we got it good and,

I love every little thing about you
I love every little thing that you do
(You know it)
I want your loving
Yeah baby it's true (You know it)
I can't get you off of my mind girl
(You know it, you know it)

Come and get on it
I want it (You know that I do)
Your bubble gum tongue
Your passion, your love
The connection we feel (So surreal)
Come on get on it
We want it, I see that you do
(I know your feeling it to) Girl

©2019 Written By Benji James

I ain't picking up my heart
off the floor this time
you want to say something
then get in line

so sick of people
with there expectations
I don't want to be
the next sensation
you got your opinions
don't bring them around here
I couldn't care less
What you think my dear

Don't go dragging me down
Just cuz you've got no one
to push around
I ain't your little puppet
I ain't your man
You shouldn't go
******* with someone
You can't handle

I ain't picking up my heart
off the floor this time
you want to say something
then get in line

so sick of people
with there expectations
I don't want to be
the next sensation
you got your opinions
don't bring them around here
I couldn't care less
What you think my dear

Just stop, reminisce
I don't need you all up
in my face like this
excuse me miss
could you stop telling me
How I should live
Cuz I don't give a ****
you can **** on this...

I ain't picking up my heart
off the floor this time
you want to say something
then get in line

so sick of people
with there expectations
I don't want to be
the next sensation
you got your opinions
don't bring them around here
I couldn't care less
What you think my dear

Don't really care
About all these people
Heading my way
They may go acting
like there **** don't stink
But their nose is in their ***
Don't you think
What are yall saying
You don't know me
Wait...Have I told you my story?

I ain't picking up my heart
off the floor this time
you want to say something
then get in line

so sick of people
with there expectations
I don't want to be
the next sensation
you got your opinions
don't bring them around here
I couldn't care less
What you think my dear

©2018 Written By Benji James

2004 I discovered
I could write
All the emotions I felt inside
That's when the lyrics
Just started to flow
But it started out slow
2011 I was on top of my game
2014 I took a break
2015 I lost pretty much everything
Guess that means
2016 I have to start over again

I used to **** this lyrical ****
Now I can't be bothered
with any of it
In fact, I don't even care about life
I'm sick of all these fake smiles
I'm tired of feeling alone
I'm sick of trying to move on

I'm done with this
Feeling like ****
Trying to get better
That's not working
Trying to find reasons to live
I'm done looking for it
You can't give me a reason to stay
Pass me the blade
It's time to fade away

Stop pretending you care
When I know you don't
I see through your lies
Nobody here can
Make me change my mind
I've seen a dark world
Through these eyes
Thought I could ignite the world with love
Should have given up from the start

I used to **** this lyrical ****
Now I can't be bothered
with any of it
In fact, I don't even care about life
I'm sick of all these fake smiles
I'm tired of feeling alone
I'm sick of trying to move on

I'm done with this
Feeling like ****
Trying to get better
That's not working
Trying to find reasons to live
I'm done looking for it
You can't give me a reason to stay
Pass me the blade
It's time to fade away

I've tried coming to grips
With the things that I think
I can't let this brain keep running
It drives me deeper into the ground
I'm better off when I'm not around
Eternal sleep that's for me
I said it before and I'll say it again
I've taken my vows
It's time to let these lights go out

I used to **** this lyrical ****
Now I can't be bothered
with any of it
In fact, I don't even care about life
I'm sick of all these fake smiles
I'm tired of feeling alone
I'm sick of trying to move on

I'm done with this
Feeling like ****
Trying to get better
That's not working
Trying to find reasons to live
I'm done looking for it
You can't give me a reason to stay
Pass me the blade
It's time to fade away

©2017 Written By Benji James

They say bring him back
Where's he gone?
Where's he been?
She said.
"Whats this,
what's this, State you're in,
Can you, Can you answer this?"

They say he's gone crazy, baby,
from all the heart ache.
Blurry, Blustery, Bright eyes open wide,
this darkness that grows inside,
is closing in for the ****.
Fallen angels won't fly tonight,
Broken, Beaten and Bruised.
Fallen angels won't fly tonight
My souls tearing up on the inside.

Finally learning how to stand
on my own two feet.
No ones perfect,
there is a life to live,
take chances, love, hope, give,
You want me?
Come find me.
You need me?
Don't keep on crying, I'm not hiding
Faced my fears,
Though the road is rough and hard.
I still keep on fighting, keep on fighting

Keep On Fighting,  
until the end,
live life with no regret.
Keep On Fighting,
until The end,
Though the road is rough, and hard.
Just keep on fighting.

This angel has fallen from the sky,
Innocence was lost, never found.
Down, Down, Down, He fell,
crashing into the ground.
He used to stand tall and proud,
But his wings were taken,
Its blasphemy, to envy thee,
But I fear my wings won't return to me.

Could he fly, Could he fly again?
Pretend you could go back to then,
Change, Rearrange everything that's happened.
Would you go back,
Would you change your life?
Keep on fighting, instead of fearing,
what you have done, take the pain,
face the consequence,
or live with regret in your banishment.

Am I, Am I to blame?
That this fallen angels,
Never gunna fly again.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Don't say your a lover
Not a fighter
We fight for love every day
Work hard for our next pay
So we can pave our way

So we can provide a better place

For the ones we love

We fight the ones

Who try to tear us apart

All that jealousy can get ******

Your not afraid to let them see you cry

There the medication that helps you to survive

The arguments are what makes us stronger

In fact, I wouldn't have it any other way

You can throw verbal abuse at me

In fact, swing a fist out in public display

Because I'd still love you

We always work it out

There's nobody else like you

Nobody makes me feel the way you do

So give me the pleasure and the pain

You know how to stimulate my brain

Come put your body on me

Steal my breath away

Nobody will ever take your place

I'd go to war, I'd fight, I'd die

Just to know that you are mine

All the other people can hate 

They can't break the love we make

They can't take our hearts away

With you, I'll always remain

With you, I'd always stay.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Once upon a time
Way up high in the sky
There sat a fluffy cloud
Looking down at the world
He liked to see
All the boys and girls
With smiles on their face
He liked the way music would play
Expressing emotions through melodic symphonies
He was as happy as any fluffy cloud could be

There's a feeling building
Up in the soul
Something doesn't feel right
All these joyous feelings
Are transforming into something else
Something doesn't feel right
There's something hidden
Deep down
the smile turns to a frown
Something doesn't feel right
No something doesn't feel right

One day the fluffy cloud
Looked down upon the world
He saw things
He wish he didn't see
The suffering and heartache
Made the fluffy clouds heartbreak
He felt heavier and as he changed
from the purest white
The more his emotions swelled inside
The darker he got

There's a feeling building
Up in the soul
Something doesn't feel right
All these joyous feelings
Are transforming into something else
Something doesn't feel right
There's something hidden
Deep down
the smile turns to a frown
Something doesn't feel right
No something doesn't feel right

The anger was building inside
As the thunder rolled out
That was the anger he was shouting out
Rain falls like tears upon the cheek
He let his emotions out with a big growl
The light show was something amazing to see
From the earth below
People stood in awe
Of what they saw

There's a feeling building
Up in the soul
Something doesn't feel right
All these joyous feelings
Are transforming into something else
Something doesn't feel right
There's something hidden
Deep down
the smile turns to a frown
Something doesn't feel right
No something doesn't feel right

The storm passed
and out of the darkness a rainbow of light
There's always something good on the other side
The sky went calm.
The fluffy cloud smiled down upon the world
he heard the music kick back in
All the boys and girls started to laugh and play
And that's when the cloud began to grin
And knew everything was gonna be alright
He found happiness on the other side

There's a feeling building
Up in the soul
Something feels right
All these depressing feelings
Are transforming into something else
Something just feels right
There's nothing hidden
deep down
the smiles back from a frown
Something just feels right
Yeah everything's alright

©2017 Written By Benji James

I wanna drink myself to sleep
Prescribe me the pills to help me, please
It makes me sick to even think
You could even be like this
Leave me hanging on something
That'll never ever be
How could you ******* leave me lonely
You knew I still thought of you
You knew there was nobody else but you
And you might have thought
I had worked this out
But I'm so totally over it
I just keep on losing it every time
You talk about him
I don't wanna hear that ****
I'd much rather listen to ******* people preach
I couldn't care less what you think of me
Give me the pills to release my mind
Give me drink until I drown myself in it
Baby give me the nightlife
One night stand to take you out of my head
Get so drunk that I can't get back up again
Stomach pumped just to bring me back
Reenergize, try to make me smile
But I just go back and do it all again
I ****** you and I ****** your friend
Oh dear lord his lost it
Oh dear lord what's next
I think I just had like three girls in my bed
Prescribe me something to stop
The madness that runs through my head
Before I go **** my life up again.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Sometimes I just wanna give up
Sometimes I wish I wouldn't write another word
And to some, this scene has never needed somebody like me
Some call me over emotional
Others see it as sincerely devotional
And nothing makes sense to me
I should just walk and leave this be
How do I keep conjuring these verses
When I ain't ever going nowhere.
How can I keep releasing this material
When nobody can even see this as visual
Or me as a complete individual
It's so hard to please
But last time I checked I wrote for me

©2017 Written By Benji James

Hey, hey, been racking my brain
Thinking of something to say
about my confusing sexuality
Sorry for leaving you guessing
because not figuring it out
gets kind of depressing
Am I right, or am I right
Not sure I can't decide
Don't think I'm Bi
All of this thinking
Is hurting my head
So let me put it this way instead...

Doesn't matter if I'm straight or gay
Don't get laid anyway
Every time I try, get the evil eye
Looks like another night
For Me, myself and I
It's alright girl, always get the same reply
Thanks for giving me a little of your time
To ask the question, if you're interested in some sexin'
Thanks for a little of your attention
Thanks for your rejection
It's just another night
For me, myself and I

And my Pornhub search is very extensive
Lucky I'm not a subscriber,
that would probably be expensive
Premium's what you need, Nah not me
I like it like I like my women, free.
And this attitudes why you aren't getting any
Sorry just a guy with a little decency
Can you hear me on my ***** frequency
And imagery plays in sequence
And ****** thoughts become more frequent
I'm a bad, bad, bad boy
And lately, all these ****** references are flying out my mouth
Better get the soap and wash it out

Doesn't matter if I'm straight or gay
Don't get laid anyway
Every time I try, get the evil eye
Looks like another night
For Me, myself and I
It's alright girl, always get the same reply
Thanks for giving me a little of your time
To ask the question, if you're interested in some sexin'
Thanks for a little of your attention
Thanks for your rejection
It's just another night
For me, myself and I

All these ****** jokes
Got my colleagues rolling there eyes
Just kidding, they're laughing on the floor
With this little creeper
It's all right girl, I won't hassle ya
So you can hustle my heart
break it, so I can turn it into art
Think I just set a new bar
A new record has been set
Not sure, I'll ever top it
Just like I can't get on top of anyone
That's why I'm left singing
Not pretty enough
And if you got that reference
I salute you
Don't laugh, because it's true

Doesn't matter if I'm straight or gay
Don't get laid anyway
Every time I try, get the evil eye
Looks like another night
For Me, myself and I
It's alright girl, always get the same reply
Thanks for giving me a little of your time
To ask the question, if you're interested in some sexin'
Thanks for a little of your attention
Thanks for your rejection
It's just another night
For me, myself and I

I’ve given this girl too much power
When thinking of you, minutes turn into hours
And it isn't fair cuz,
I can't date anybody else

I would just never be able to forgive myself

And I don't care if people couldn't care less

I care cuz I know how much I'm in love 

And every day I struggle for us

And I strive so hard

Here's my heart in a jar

I just want you there's nobody else

Because baby you're the only one I feel for

And baby you're the one I wanna call

Only for you, I will fall.

©2017 Written By Benji James

I'm sorry that I was born ugly
I'm sorry I was even born at all
Just to grow up and be an idiot
I'm sorry that I fake my feelings
I know everyone thought I was doing fine
Truth is in my head I'm lying dead on the pavement
And in my heart, there is nothing there at all
All my ambitions went flooding out the door
Now it's just me and these four walls

©2018 Written By Benji James

I tried to tell you
how I feel
you said,
"That can't be real,
You're my friend
That's the way it is
Besides I really love him."
He played you
and you broke down
Girl, I told you
he would ******* around.
You don't believe a word I say
but it ***** how he left you this way.

You got in deep
You got hurt
You keep going back
girl, you don't learn
I told you "I love you."
But it doesn't work.

Just another day, another boy
He played you, like a toy.
Broke your heart, then ran away
look how you are the very next day
played you like a fool
Girl, I bet you feel used
I come around to cheer you up
You thank me with a hug.

You got in deep
You got hurt
You keep going back
girl, you don't learn
I told you "I love you."
But it doesn't work.

Another boy again?
I've tried to be there
Yeah be your friend
You're on your own
My heart was out on the line
this whole time
Can't chase you around
Don't need to see you
keep getting hurt
You told me, "you think he is the one."
He gave you some great times
Now you've been left on your own again.

You got in deep
You got hurt
You keep going back
girl, you don't learn
I told you "I love you."
But it doesn't work.

You came to me the very next day
You asked
"Why does everyone keep leaving me?"
I looked deep into your eyes
looked at the ground and just sighed
I had no answers, cuz you're on my mind
I think to myself, how can they do things like this
to a girl like you.
It's so hard to push you away
because you come back with that beautiful face
And I can't help but capture a glimpse of your grace
You know when you're with me I'll keep you safe.

You got in deep
You got hurt
You keep going back
girl, you don't learn
I told you "I love you."
But it doesn't work.

You found another boy
You think his the one
I'm on my own again
But I know the truth
you'll come running back one day
But the thing that hurts the most
I miss you every day that you're gone
There is nothing I can say
To stop you getting hurt
But I'll be their girl when you call.
I won't let you go alone through the fall
When you need a friend
I'll pick you up again
I just hope you know
You've got a real friend
that is never letting you go...oh

You got in deep
You got hurt
You keep going back
girl, you don't learn
I told you "I love you."
But it doesn't work.

I am your best friend
Best friends stay until the end
I'll dry your eyes when you cry
Kiss, caress and hold you tight
Maybe we can be together someday
But for now your best friend I shall remain.

©2018 Written By Benji James

Mmmm
That dress brings out your eyes
Mmmm
You're the one who lights up my life
I wanna take a drive
With you at my side
Let's take a drive
Just you and I
Take control of my stereo
Let's go somewhere beautiful
Because girl you know
That you're beautiful to me

Who would have thought
you'd be the girl
To fill the front seat
Let's take a ride
Out to the meadow
Down to the beach
Doesn't matter where we go
So long as it's you
Next to me
Riding front seat

Girl put your hand in mine
When I look over at you
Can't help but smile
It's cute how you sing along
to every song that comes on
Pretty sure that you
could do no wrong
And I want this moment to last forever
This is where I'm happiest
This is where I feel I should be
What does it matter
All that matters is that you're with me

Who would have thought
you'd be the girl
To fill the front seat
Let's take a ride
Out to the meadow
Down to the beach
Doesn't matter where we go
So long as it's you
Next to me
Riding front seat

And I'd drive 1000 miles
Just to see you smile
Yeah I'd drive a thousand more
Just to prove
that you're the girl that I adore
Windows down, hair flowing in the breeze
Look any more beautiful
and I'll hardly be able to breathe
You're everything to me
And it completely seems
You've unchained my heart
Oh free to fall in love

Who would have thought
you'd be the girl
To fill the front seat
Let's take a ride
Out to the meadow
Down to the beach
Doesn't matter where we go
So long as it's you
Next to me
Riding front seat

You're the release that is need
You helped me to see
Those good things will come,
To those who wait
Thought my fate
Was to grow old alone
But now I know
Life was just waiting for the right time
To bring you into my life
And I've opened up my heart
To let your light shine in
To let you show me how to love again

Who would have thought
you'd be the girl
To fill the front seat
Let's take a ride
Out to the meadow
Down to the beach
Doesn't matter where we go
So long as it's you
Next to me
Riding front seat

Every moment is perfectly worth it
You're showing me, it's okay
To trust, it's okay to open up
And as we sing along to the radio
I feel that you know
My heart only beats for you
Your lips are all I want to kiss
It's all these thoughts
That make moments like this
Absolute bliss
And I never thought
I'd deserve something like this
Yeah, girl, you're perfectly worth it

Who would have thought
you'd be the girl
To fill the front seat
Let's take a ride
Out to the meadow
Down to the beach
Doesn't matter where we go
So long as it's you
Next to me
Riding front seat

©2017 Written By Benji James

Met her up in the club
Drinking her pineapple schnapps
I took a chance,
asked her for a dance, she said yes
So I said take my hand

from the moment we met

I just knew we would connect

Felt the sparks fly

between you and I

She gives me that electrical feel

Shocked to the heart 

The blood rush starts

One taste of her strawberry kiss

From her red cherry coloured lips

To the sweet caress from her fingertips 

It had me feeling like this.

I love every little thing about you
I love every little thing that you do
(You know it)
I want your loving
Yeah, baby, it's true (You know it)
I can't get you off of my mind girl
(You know it, you know it)

Come and get on it
I want it (You know that I do)
Your bubble gum tongue
Your passion, your love
The connection we feel (So surreal)
Come on get on it.
We want it, I see that you do
(I know you're feeling it too) Girl

It's the way that we sweat
In the passion, in ***
Out of breath
By the end
Fall asleep in your bed
Her head on my chest
You know that feeling
It's the best,

I love every little thing about you
I love every little thing that you do
(You know it)
I want your loving
Yeah, baby, it's true (You know it)
I can't get you off of my mind girl
(You know it, you know it)

Come and get on it
I want it (You know that I do)
Your bubble gum tongue
Your passion, your love
The connection we feel (So surreal)
Come on get on it.
We want it, I see that you do
(I know you're feeling it too) Girl

She likes it when,
I run my fingers through her hair
I see your feeling the attraction we share
Yeah we both feel it there
I can feel your body heat on mine
Yeah you know that's something I like
You know you got the look girl
You know you got me, hooked girl
You know we got it, good girl
Couldn't have made it any better
If I threw a wishing stone
Into a wishing well
She knows we got it good and,

I love every little thing about you
I love every little thing that you do
(You know it)
I want your loving
Yeah, baby, it's true (You know it)
I can't get you off of my mind girl
(You know it, you know it)

Come and get on it
I want it (You know that I do)
Your bubble gum tongue
Your passion, your love
The connection we feel (So surreal)
Come on get on it.
We want it, I see that you do
(I know you're feeling it too) Girl

©2017 Written By Benji James

Have you ever met someone,
that made you reevaluate your life.
It's there spirit,
it breathes in new life.
You're like that breath of fresh air
,
That I really needed
You've got that, love of my life,

Kind of vibe,

and nothing's gonna kick us down.

I'm ready to take that ride,

by your side, love is blind, 

but not in these eyes,

I can see it in your face,

In the way that you speak,

you're that girl for me.

©2017 Written By Benji James

She's staring out of her window
as the cars roll by
Thoughts in her head
thinks she is better off dead
Nothing further from the truth
Girl come on get your chin up
There's more to you than meets the eye
Forget what all the haters say
Forget about impressing that guy
True beauty comes from within
Through your actions
and your heart

Girl you've got a confidence
Girl you just shine
Don't listen to what
those haters say
Get ready to blow some minds
You've got style
With a whole lot of grace
Essence oozing out your soul
You tried laying your heart down girl
You put it all on the line
But now you've got a world to grasp
A mark to make, with every smile you take
To be encrypted into the stars of the night
for the rest of time

Hey girl, don't get broken hearted
Down on your luck
Cuz you ain't out of this race
With a little positivity, you can change
Your whole mindset
Get those negative feeling
out of your head
You've got the mic
You've got the thrown
You've got the spotlight
Girl, don't you know.
Don't carry all this weight on your shoulders
Leave it on the floor
Set yourself free,
Come on girl and just soar

Girl you've got a confidence
Girl you just shine
Don't listen to what
those haters say
Get ready to blow some minds
You've got style
With a whole lot of grace
Essence oozing out your soul
You tried laying your heart down girl
You put it all on the line
But now you've got a world to grasp
A mark to make, with every smile you take
To be encrypted into the stars of the night
for the rest of time

You've been bathing in pools of doubt
Girl, I am here to pull you back out
So if you are feeling down in misery
Don't hold it in and leave it a mystery
Sometimes you've got to just strut
Just don't give a ****
forget about the make up
Natural face, sweatpants
Don't need the leather or lace
You're beautiful, just as you are
Let in a little light
That can carry you far

Girl you've got a confidence
Girl you just shine
Don't listen to what
those haters say
Get ready to blow some minds
You've got style
With a whole lot of grace
Essence oozing out your soul
You tried laying your heart down girl
You put it all on the line
But now you've got a world to grasp
A mark to make, with every smile you take
To be encrypted into the stars of the night
for the rest of time

Boy says you ain't special
Forget em
Boy think his got you
right where he wants you
Gives you all of these lame lines
You've seen this **** like a billion times
Can't help but sit back and roll your eyes
He thinks he can just cut you off
in the middle of a conversation
He thinks your whole world
should revolve around him
But girl, Don't let him
"You wanna know why?
Alright, alright...
I'll tell you why."

Girl you've got a confidence
Girl you just shine
Don't listen to what
those haters say
Get ready to blow some minds
You've got style
With a whole lot of grace
Essence oozing out your soul
You tried laying your heart down girl
You put it all on the line
But now you've got a world to grasp
A mark to make, with every smile you take
To be encrypted into the stars of the night
for the rest of time

©2018 Written By Benji James

You were so full of good intentions
but nothing ever goes your way
love how you lie to me
every time you're staring me in the face
do you think that I'm stupid, girl?
You've never dealt with a man like this

You can pretend nothing ever happened (girl)
I'll never believe another word you say
you know you really went and hurt me
Not don't go say, "But babe"
It's not something I need to hear today
Just walk, walk away
before this anger turns into rage

Plant my fist through the wall
As you walk out that door
Fall to my knees
as the blood from my hand
Drips onto the floor
I close my eyes
Try to forget that you were in my bed
with another man.
The scars are running deeper
with every blow
Light up a smoke
to take a drag
grab a drink from the fridge
Just stop, just stop
I don't want to think

You can pretend nothing ever happened (girl)
I'll never believe another word you say
you know you really went and hurt me
Not don't go say, "But babe"
It's not something I need to hear today
Just walk, walk away
before this anger turns into rage

Razor blade cuts to release the strain
can't bandage a heart that's been broken
you chipped away
all the pieces
that was left in me
I held on hope
you'd never do this to me
What were you thinking?
I treated you beautifully
Every time I looked at my reflection
I saw you standing next to me
I tore up all the pictures
Tried to erase the memories
Unfortunately, You'll always be a part of me.

You can pretend nothing ever happened (girl)
I'll never believe another word you say
you know you really went and hurt me
Not don't go say, "But babe"
It's not something I need to hear today
Just walk, walk away
before this anger turns into rage

You were so full of good intentions
but nothing ever goes your way
love how you lie to me
every time you're staring me in the face
do you think that I'm stupid, girl?
You've never dealt with a man like this

You can pretend nothing ever happened (girl)
I'll never believe another word you say
you know you really went and hurt me
Not don't go say, "But babe"
It's not something I need to hear today
Just walk, walk away
before this anger turns into rage

©2018 Written By Benji James

You should look beyond the surface
Dig a little deeper
You’ll see it's worth it
You shouldn't believe that you’re worthless
The hurt, the hate, the lies, the break
All the scars damaging your heart
The strings, the ties, bound and chained
Nobody should be left to feel this way
I haven't given enough blood
They thought that I was done
They thought this was all too much
Nah I'm coming back with a vengeance
This time I'm even more reckless
No rest for the restless
They’re all going down tonight
Yeah I'm ready for the fight
I'm ready to turn the tide
My war on hate is waged
No time left to play
This time I got game
And I’m not going to fade away.

In the darkness
of an empty room,
I cry in the corner
seeing visions of you.

I want to feel your touch.
Feel your touch, feel your touch.
You held out your hand,
but I couldn't grab on.
These guilty pleasures
are held, in front of me.
These guilty pleasures
are taking a hold on me.
I can't break free,
Can't get back up
There are no pieces
left to pick up.

As I lay in the dark
of a nice warm bath.
Planning how to take my life away,
I breathe in deeply
drift beneath the water
Until I struggle to breathe
That is when visions of you
resurrect me.

I want to feel your touch.
Feel your touch, feel your touch.
You held out your hand,
but I couldn't grab on.
These guilty pleasures
are held, in front of me.
These guilty pleasures
are taking a hold on me.
I can't break free,
Can't get back up
There are no pieces
left to pick up.

Kneeling in the shower
praying to a God
that doesn't exist.
Don't know the difference
between reality and make believe.
As I look towards the shower head
I still can't see.
These scars that cover me
may need rebandaging.
He's a lost cause,
an abomination.
He's a disgrace
to the human race.
We've been here before
I'm all alone, in this empty room,
Crying in the corner
seeing visions of you

I want to feel your touch.
Feel your touch, feel your touch.
You held out your hand,
but I couldn't grab on.
These guilty pleasures
are held, in front of me.
These guilty pleasures
are taking a hold on me.
I can't break free,
Can't get back up
There are no pieces
left to pick up.

Oh, I've lost myself
everything makes no sense.
I think about the time
you said that you'd be there,
I'm not sure you even cared.
But your smile saved my life
a million times before.
I'm in need of you,
but this time you're gone.
Not sure I will survive anymore.
As I kneel in the shower
praying to a God that doesn't exist,
This razor penetrates my skin.
The blood trickles down the drain,
He falls to the floor,
crucified he cried
Crucify me tonight.

I want to feel your touch.
Feel your touch, feel your touch.
You held out your hand,
but I couldn't grab on.
These guilty pleasures
are held, in front of me.
These guilty pleasures
are taking a hold on me.
I can't break free,
Can't get back up
There are no pieces
left to pick up.

Oh! My star has fallen tonight,
If they were there,
he might still be alive
every night,
he died a little more inside,
my star has fallen tonight

As I lay in the darkness
of an empty room
staring at the ceiling
seeing visions of you
I see your smile
it puts my mind at rest
I fall asleep
knowing I truly was blessed.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Did more than just flip the script
Threw it in the fire
Watched it burn
Told you I was down
To sing a brand new song
Hoped yall were willing to come along
All those dark thoughts
Watched them circle the drain
When I washed them away
And every inch of me has been cleaned
Prayers under starlit skies
Now I've pieced together this life
I'm ready to start again
Postive vibes, clearer mind
this life I'm living is finally mine

I'm happier now
dug out all the doubt
Feeling confident
in the decisions, I'm making
stopped all my body parts failing
My heart was shattered
and maybe it'll never truly be the same
But the blood is still pumping
Yeah it is still running
With a little care,
these emotions that were
locked here in my chest
Have been set free
And now that I can just be me
I know I'm right where I need to be
Living this life happily

Deserted wastelands
a mere memory for me
Try not to take too much time
Reminiscing of darker days
I find my self-basking in positive rays
The sunlight shines on my face
Feel the warmth in the form of a wave
The heat that hits my skin
Heats me up within
Where holes in my soul once laid
The stitched up scars now faded
I've been rejuvenated
The torment that taunted me inside
I've erased it
Memories cleared for new images
Now a rebooted system
Refreshed, I'm ready for new heights
I'm ready for new moments
To be captured through these eyes
Thinking all these positive thoughts
Now I can share all that I've been taught
All those battles I'd fought
now on display
In this museum filled with words
These are all the things I've learned
What it took to get here was earned
And well deserved

I'm happier now
dug out all the doubt
Feeling confident
in the decisions, I'm making
stopped all my body parts failing
My heart was shattered
and maybe it'll never truly be the same
But the blood is still pumping
Yeah it is still running
With a little care,
these emotions that were
locked here in my chest
Have been set free
And now that I can just be me
I know I'm right where  I need to be
Living this life happily

Cut everyone off
That was dragging me down
Less negativity in my life now
Sure it was a little lonely
But I found the ones that truly cared
And with a little help
They raised me up
To this place, this feels like home
Comfortable in this skin, I've been gifted
Only reminiscing about the times
That truly made me smile
Childhood friends,
Achievements that made me proud
And I've been writing better than ever
I can't be thrown from my throne
Got my rightful crown on
Armours strong, demons are gone.

I'm happier now
dug out all the doubt
Feeling confident
in the decisions, I'm making
stopped all my body parts failing
My heart was shattered
and maybe it'll never truly be the same
But the blood is still pumping
Yeah it is still running
With a little care,
these emotions that were
locked here in my chest
Have been set free
And now that I can just be me
I know I'm right where I need to be
Living this life happily

©2018 Written By Benji James

Give me the sunrise
Give me a new dawn
Let the sun soak into my skin
I'm so optimistic
A future shining so bright 

Give me the setting 
of the sun
rising over the ocean

Let me feel the heat

In this good feeling of emotion

I'm starting to pave my way

To the place, I've been trying to create

The one that is filled with serenity

The one that gives me the inner peace

That I need 
and wanted so badly

I'm burying my past
Don't you dare allocate your allegations
It's time to move on
Time to look up
I'm tired of drowning in the sorrows
I'm tired of this smile I borrowed
I want to feel the warmth
Of happiness inside
I want that in my life

The sad memories
Are buried six feet under
I don't want to feel another
I held onto so much doubt
The pills wouldn't even drown it out
I had to work so hard
Just to be able to let go of my past
They say that is what makes your future
But I'll be ****** if I'm judged by a jury
I'll be ****** if I let life do that to me
I was hit and kicked while I was down
But I've got skin made of armor now
And I'm happy with where I'm at
That is something no one can take
And now I'm somebody
who doesn't easily break

I'm burying my past
Don't you dare allocate your allegations
It's time to move on
Time to look up
I'm tired of drowning in the sorrows
I'm tired of this smile I borrowed
I want to feel the warmth
Of happiness inside
I want that in my life

I've taken every task
Thrown my way
I've given all the blood
I can give
I've said every word
To band aid that hurt
I've got scars that show
But they're just a reflection
Of who I used to be
I'm starting to look at life
with more positively
I'm starting to feel more secure
with who I am
I'm starting to feel happy within myself
that is something that has been
a long time coming
Now my world isn't crumbling
Before my eyes
Now I've seen hurt heal with time

I'm burying my past
Don't you dare allocate your allegations
It's time to move on
Time to look up
I'm tired of drowning in the sorrows
I'm tired of this smile I borrowed
I want to feel the warmth
Of happiness inside
I want that in my life

©2017 Written By Benji James