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I think I've realized the more poems I write about someone the more toxic they are to me

Here's number 25 for you

I suppose that pales in comparison to the thousands I wrote for my first love but I've known you a lot less time

And you've never even been mine

And that's okay

Because at this rate

You never will be.
25
Benji James Feb 24
As I awake from eternal slumber
I rise from the ground covered with ash
Bound in a circle of fire
You can call me Johnny Cash
Hands through the fire
They don't burn, no pain
I am immune to fire it seems
Walk right through
surrounded by lightning skies
Thunder rattles my ears
Though I don't burn
I can feel the heat
A thousand degrees
Memories flash before my eyes
Of a past life
I remember monsters and me
Locked together in purgatory

Resurrection
Need a new direction
A new chance I've been given
May have a chance to mend my ways
First I need to figure where I am
Was I resurrected by a holy man
It seems I'm not in heaven
This doesn't feel like the earth
Nothing around but Ash and Dirt
A wasteland I find myself in
Maybe this is my hell
I must have been ******
Because of the sins branded in me
Nobody around in sight
I'm on my own again this time

I've wandered these deserts for many years
No hope in sight
Not sure if in circles I have been walking
Because all the scenery I've seen
All looks the same to me
Trapped in this box
Just a Jack waiting to be set free
Wind me up so I can breathe
See the light just one more time
My mind has slowly deteriorated, insane
Not sure I'll ever be the same
This is torture, this is the pain
This burns even more than the flame
Trapped in this place
I cannot stay
I need to break free of this cell
Can't stay here trapped in hell

Resurrection
Need a new direction
A new chance I've been given
May have a chance to mend my ways
First I need to figure where I am
Was I resurrected by a holy man
It seems I'm not in heaven
This doesn't feel like the earth
Nothing around but Ash and Dirt
A wasteland I find myself in
Maybe this is my hell
I must have been ******
Because of the sins branded in me
Nobody around in sight
I'm on my own again this time

Fed myself holy water,
It burns me inside
Too late for confessing past sins
Can't be forgiven for this
Keep hearing voices taunting me
Saying I'll never be good enough
Can't save myself from the pain I've been dealt
You have failed yourself and everyone else
Them words on repeat, the laughs and the screams
Making fun of me
I'm nothing more than an empty shell
Of who I once was
Tried to be too strong on my own
Now I see it takes more to fight demons and monster alone
The mistakes that I've made
Are put on parade through my dreams
Bound and chained to never leave me

Resurrection
Need a new direction
A new chance I've been given
May have a chance to mend my ways
First I need to figure where I am
Was I resurrected by a holy man
It seems I'm not in heaven
This doesn't feel like the earth
Nothing around but Ash and Dirt
A wasteland I find myself in
Maybe this is my hell
I must have been ******
Because of the sins branded in me
Nobody around in sight
I'm on my own again this time

My soul was torn to shreds
Now just an empty vessel
Eyes pitch black
Not a light left inside
My heart was ripped from my chest
Follow your heart, Now just a distant memory
Said I wouldn't fade
Soulless and Heartless maybe I am
But I'll fight with everything I have left
Until broken in pieces upon the floor
Until I'm unable to move anymore

Resurrection
Need a new direction
A new chance I've been given
May have a chance to mend my ways
First I need to figure where I am
Was I resurrected by a holy man
It seems I'm not in heaven
This doesn't feel like the earth
Nothing around but Ash and Dirt
A wasteland I find myself in
Maybe this is my hell
I must have been ******
Because of the sins branded in me
Nobody around in sight
I'm on my own again this time

It was just monsters and me in Purgatory
Now I see I'm trapped in myself
Fighting the monsters that I had become
To my own demons, I was forced to succumb
But I won't stand for it no more
I'll do what it takes
To claim my throne
Needed a little help
Needed a little guidance
From my angels of light
Help me to reclaim my life
So I'm here praying
Drenched in tears
I need you to help me beat these fears
I need you to support me out of here
Hear my prayers and all I have to say
I need purification
Plunge me beneath these holy seas
Wash me clean, help me heal
I want the power to feel

Resurrection
Need a new direction
A new chance I've been given
May have a chance to mend my ways
Found out where it is I am
Wasn't resurrected by a holy man
It seems I'm not in heaven
But this feels like home
Nothing around but Ash and Dirt
A wasteland I once found myself in
Maybe this was hell
I may have been ******
But I found beauty in who I am
Because of the sins branded in me
They gave me the strength
to find a new way
Nobody was around in sight
There was one beyond my eyes
He filled me with eternal light
Now I've got to let it shine.

©2018 Written By Benji James
  Apr 2020 Benji James
Aryan Sam
Hi
Years ago
We stayed up till
3 am talking,
And today
I don’t even know
How to say hi,
Benji James Feb 2020
It's been a while since I've felt your taste
I wanna drown in your beauty and grace
Your trust in me is never misplaced
I'm here in the dark of the night
I'm here for all the hardest times
Me and you together it's the perfect crime
Just give me a little bit more of your time

In the hands of Angels
The melody flows
In the hands of Angels
The light grows (It grows)
Your love shows (It shows)
In the hands of angels

Comets fly through the skies
In a passion of fire
It burns a flame of desire
Just like the moon
Your eyes glow brighter
(And brighter)
When I see the sparkle in your eyes
It takes me higher (And higher)

In the hands of Angels
The melody flows
In the hands of Angels
The lights grows (It grows)
Your love shows (It shows)
In the hands of angels

I feel you at the end of my finger tips
I feel the press of your lips
I feel the attraction in your kiss
The flutter in your heart
When it beats
Oh girl you're seducing me
The power you have is enchanting baby
There is magic in the air
There is magnetic connection between us pair
Oh girl I cant help but stop and stare

In the hands of Angels
The melody flows
In the hands of Angels
The lights grows (It grows)
Your love shows (It shows)
In the hands of angels
Benji James Dec 2019
INTRO
She said you could
Write me a love song baby
But that doesn't mean
You're getting anything

From me.

CHORUS
It always seems to be
Complications, Situations
It ain't easy
When you're in love
But when you hit that feeling
It rises you up
You'll be so high
That no one can touch
Or bring you down
You are invincible now

V1
(Hey) I've been there
Don't take ****
But this girl,
She is fine
Just wish I could make her mine
You know what I'm saying
She doesn't come easy
Got a work hard (Yeah)
She expects commitment
Trust and stuff
But I don't care
I'd do it for her
She's the only girl I want
In my arms, Gunna hold her tight
Kiss her and tell her she is my life
(Yeah) Can't seem to get her
out of my head
Got my pen on the paper
The thoughts come out
And I'm writing something
New every single night
It's all about you
I can't stand this girl

CHORUS
It always seems to be
Complications, Situations
It ain't easy
When you're in love
But when you hit that feeling
It rises you up
You'll be so high
That no one can touch
Or bring you down
You are invincible now

V2
I've had a fist full of regrets
Seen a million sunsets
But for some **** reason
I can't seem to forget
Trying to put you
In an outlet
But your still there in my head
(Hey) Do you feel me
Do you understand
What's being said
(Yeah) Got love songs on repeat
No wonder I can never
get to sleep
To busy thinking about you
And all of the things that we could do
Oh baby

CHORUS
It always seems to be
Complications, Situations
It ain't easy
When you're in love
But when you hit that feeling
It rises you up
You'll be so high
That no one can touch
Or bring you down
You are invincible now

V3
(Hey)
Hey, Is there anybody out there
(Hey)
Hey, Do you hear what I'm saying
(Yeah)
Can you understand me
Do you get what I'm feeling
The memories keep flying
Soon I'm gonna be busting
Through the ceiling
Do you know
What you do to me
I just wanna feel you'
And kiss you into the evening
There are four words
I gotta say to you
and that is
(Baby I Love You)

CHORUS
It always seems to be
Complications, Situations
It ain't easy
When you're in love
But when you hit that feeling
It rises you up
You'll be so high
That no one can touch
Or bring you down
You are invincible now
Benji James Dec 2019
If she's my beauty
Then I'm her beast
This time this ones for keeps
While losers weep
She is always on my mind
I hardly sleep

But when I do
She is in my dreams

Uh, where did this girl come from?

I've never been this captivated

This has to be fate 

Cuz she's made me wait
But now that she's seen my patience

She wants to make complete relations

And I'm completely ready for this situation.
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